Chapter twenty-one: Emotions revealed
Disclaimer: I'm sad to say that none of these characters belong to me except the children. If they were I would be a billionaire and probably would not be seen here writing fanfiction for my own series. ;_;
Note: Well here is the second to last chapter! Hope you all enjoy it. ^_^
In advance I apologize for the cursing in this chapter if I decide to put them in! You know who will be saying them so I don't need to announce them ^_^;;
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It has been a month and a couple of days since Pluto had discussed what must happen before Crystal Tokyo can emerge. Haruka hated every thing about what must happen, but the more she observed Makoto, the more she knew she need Heero. Haruka didn't want to believe it, but when Makoto was putting Matsu to sleep one day, she watched the younger woman cry as she held her stomach in want. The emotions that played with her princess were so powerful that it couldn't be ignored.
It was hard for her to watch Makoto taking care of Matsu while being reminded of what she could have had. One day when she was forced to do the laundry by Michiru and Hotaru, she found the note that Heero gave Makoto. She was furious as she read it, but as the days went on she realized just how much they mean to each other and how Heero still obviously still felt for Makoto, but if he loved her that much why would he leave her like that? That's what infuriated Haruka. She was suspicious of him in the beginning but now because of his actions, she didn't like him. He could have stayed and helped Mako with the loss and fight for what was his!
Sighing, Haruka stood up from one of the three couches that helped adorn the room she was in. Opening her mouth she shouted, "Michiru, Hotaru!" Moments past by before Haruka heard movement indicating the two were coming. Makoto had taken the kids to the park so it was perfectly safe to be discussing about the topic in the house.
Instants later both young women walked into the room, both held the expression of confusion as they watched their partner as they sat down.
Haruka observed as they sat down on a couch facing her before she sat back down. Looking at them for a while she spoke, "You both know my feelings towards Heiji." She stated towards the two women in a question form. She watched as they nodded. "What do you guys think about Heiji?" She asked them. Their response would be the reason if she would bring him back or not.
Hotaru looked at Haruka as if she was trying to find the answer to why she would asked such a question, but she answered in anyway. "I believe he is a bastard for leaving Makoto, with or without a reason." She paused before continuing. "But I know it's killing the princess to be away from him, even though she looks to be fine. He proves to be her soul mate and we need him to achieve Crystal Tokyo." She looked at Haruka with complete calm and seriousness. "I don't approve of him because of what he had done but we need him."
Michiru sighed as she listened to Hotaru speak her mind. She agreed with the younger woman when it came to crystal Tokyo, but she believed something else. "They complete each other." She whispered as she glanced at Haruka before looking down at her hands that were folded together resting on her thigh. She knew she had the attention of her lover and Hotaru so she decided to talk. "Haven't you seen them when they are together? I know that there has been a lot of pain but I believe that they belong together." She paused to take a deep breath before she stared straight into her love's blue eyes. "The way Heero carried her that one time when they were attacked said it all, Ruka. Makoto hadn't smiled since he left." In the corner of her eyes, she witnessed a thin frown on Hotaru's face. "I'm worried for her. I'm worried, in this state of mind, she will do something drastic."
Silence reigned as the three sat in their own thoughts. Haruka folded her hands before she rested her chin on top of it. A frown sadly graced her beautiful features. She had decided. Closing her eyes tightly together she let out a heavy sigh before she stood up and left the room, leaving the two women together in a depressed silence.
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Crystal blue eyes opened slowly as the person turned around on her bed, snuggling closer to her male counterpart. Sighing in helplessness, her eyes landed on the crib, where her daughter was sleeping in. Her mind wandering to Makoto's child, her heart throbbing with pain only further encourage the tears to flow freely down her ivory smooth skin. Life wasn't fair to her auburn hair protector and friend. It showed no kindness to her at all, from the time her parents died to her love life. Now a child was taken from her. The thought killed her. She didn't want to think about it. All she wished for was to have everything as happy as it was before.
She didn't even have the chance to congratulate her friend of her pregnancy. Just with a flicker of a wrist, her baby was gone. Her dreams of a family were gone. Dreams of having some one to love and be loved back was gone. A chance of having another child was almost taken away from her because of some idiot.
Usagi realized just how empty Mako's life is. She felt so sorry for her friend and felt useless. She was her princess wasn't she? Why couldn't she help her? Guilt and shame filled her soul as she closed her eyes and tightened her hold on the man next to her. She was afraid to see her. The day after the news, she had returned to the hospital, right when she was to open the door she froze. She didn't want to see her friend in the condition she was in. She knew Makoto was a very sensitive woman and to have something like this happen to her would break her in more ways than one. She didn't want to see that. She was so use to seeing Makoto as the protector, someone who was not afraid to help anyone, someone who had a big smile every time she saw her. A shoulder to cry on, a mother to the group. She knew all that will change and she didn't want to see it happen. She couldn't. Usagi had ran from the hospital crying, turning her back to a friend that has always been there…inadvertently.
The young woman blinked when she heard a grunt under her before a hand ran up and down in a soothing movement. She couldn't help but feel disgusted. She was here laying in bed with her love, her husband, the father of her baby, when Makoto was waking up in a cold bed alone and devastated. Usagi pulled back from the embrace as if she was burnt. Her movement alerted the man next to her. He sat up with a confused and worried look on his face, while he tried to look into the eyes of his wife. She wouldn't look at him. Instead she stood up and walked towards the balcony, which over looked the city of Tokyo, their city.
"Jewel?" Mamoru whispered as his eyes were glued to her back. He pulled the covers away from his body, revealing him in night pants, before pushing himself off the bed. Taking soft and careful steps he stood behind her, wrapping his arms around her. He frowned as he felt her rigid. "What's wrong?"
Usagi closed her eyes while a frown played on her beautiful face. Turning her face away from his, she whispered, "Please don't touch me." Stepping away from him, she clutched the rail of the balcony, and bit her lips.
"Usako." Mamoru uttered hurt and confused.
"I feel so useless." Her voice cracked with an incoming sob stuck in her throat. "I feel so guilty!" She cried as she took her arms away from the rail and wrapped them around herself.
Mamoru stepped closer to her barely touching her skin.
"Don't touch me!" Usagi moved away from him as she screamed. "Don't touch me." She repeated calmer, her eyes glancing at his for the first time that morning. "Why should I have the right to love someone and be loved back when MY senshi, friend can't! It's not fair! Why can't she live in peace and happiness WITH love?" Her eyes radiating hurt and desperation, as she continued to pour out her grief. "Why can't she feel a touch of a man without being hurt? Why can't she have a family of her own? Why does this have to happen to her!? Out of all of us, she is the one set up to fail!" Her screams were mixed with her cries. No longer being able to control her emotions, she fell to her knees and cried uncontrollably.
Mamoru ran to her and encased her in a hug. The moment he touched she struggled to push him away, but the man was determine to comfort his wife and held her closer to him until she stopped struggling. She held him as if he was the only person who could save her from drowning. Usagi closed her eyes shut as she continued to cry. 'It's not fair.'
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Ami opened the door to Minako's room before stepping in. Her eyes rested on the blonde in the corner, her head already buried in her knees while her arms wrapped around them, the Shinto Miko sitting next to her trying to calm the crying girl down. As the senshi of ice walked closer, her eyes locked with the raven haired senshi with questions dancing in her eyes. 'How is she doing?'
With the shake of her head, Ami knew the blonde hadn't gotten better since she had finally opened her door after the shocking event. When the men left the hospital, Mina had ran towards Makoto's room in a hurry to see her best friend, but the look on her face when she came back scared them all. Tears fell hysterically from her azure eyes, from that day; the blonde had remained mute and closed herself off in her room. It had just been recently that she had opened the door to her friends and family.
Clearing her throat and keeping tears at bay, the young woman spoke as she placed a glass of water, she had been holding, in front of the fair-haired female. "Mina-chan, here's the water." She whispered. After moments, Ami knew she wouldn't get an answer from her friend nor will she move from her position. She tried again to reach her friend. "Mi-chan, stop this please." Her eyes looked at the once bubbly young woman with plead. "You're harming yourself and it won't help Mako-chan when she sees you."
"She won't answer you Ami." Rei spoke for the first time, while her hand rubbed Mina's arm soothingly, worry visible in her violet eyes. "I have tried everything believe me. I…I think she's still in shock."
Ami glanced at her hands that were rested on her lap, wondering about the brunette, she voiced her thoughts. "If Mina-chan is like this, I can't help wondering how Mako-chan is holding up…I wonder if she's ok."
Rei looked away as her mind drifted back to her playmate for the thousands time that morning.
"Have you heard from her?" Ami asked, hope evident in her voice. Makoto had closed herself from them for the past four months. She had locked herself in her room in the outers home since she had gotten out of the hospital, from what Haruka had revealed to her. She was scared for her. Scared she would drive herself to death by ignoring everything around her.
Rei swallowed her tears, not able to look into Ami's face. Guilt had plagued her mind since Makoto had been shot. She was there, the day it all happened, she was there, and she couldn't save her friend or the baby. She hated her self for just standing there in shock, watching as Makoto fell to the ground, bleeding on herself. Blood everywhere. She was standing so close to her when she was shot, that she was sprayed with Makoto's blood. She remembered wiping the thick liquid from her face in revulsion as her eyes were cast on Makoto's motionless body. Toru had ran towards her comrade crying before she did anything. Why did she just stood there? Why did she let Makoto suffer before she called the paramedics? If she would have called sooner or did SOMETHING, just maybe she could have saved Makoto from losing her baby.
She would never forget the look in Makoto's eyes as she collapsed to the ground. The look never left her, haunting her in her sleep. She couldn't even count all the sleepless nights, and nights she woke up screaming.
"Rei?" Ami called for her anxiously as she placed her hand on her shoulder. She watched as the fire senshi turned to her with such a desperate and self-loathing look it made her cry. "It's not your fault." She whispered, allowing Rei to fall into her arms crying. "You did nothing wrong Rei-chan. Please don't blame yourself…" The princess of Mars buried her face in Ami's bosom, hiding her tears as well as her shame.
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Pluto looked away was she watched the grief the inners emit from their essences towards her princess. It was truly heart throbbing to watch. Waving her hand over the image of the inners, while looking away, the reflection of the four women changed to the man alone in a room. A man that left her princess swimming in grief. To a man she would take orders and come to love in the future. Her eyes turned to gaze at the lifeless man. She could see no reason to live in his eyes, as well as the angst he felt towards the betrayal he had created towards Makoto. He did it all for the sake of the illusion of safety. Believing she would be better off without him.
Her thoughts her disturbed when she heard movements within her realm. Her eyes narrowed in anger and threat. She was not in the mood to deal with trespassers, who do not know the meaning of respect. She allowed the fog to camouflage her appearance, while she mentally stopped the images playing behind her. Moving skillfully in the fog, she knew her way around. With that knowledge behind her she had the upper hand.
Standing behind the intruder in a ready pose to attack, she swung her staff at the enemy. Surprised, she watched as the intruder turned around and dodge her attack. "Who the hell are you?" Pluto uttered ominously gaining her composure back. "How dare you enter the sacred…"
"Pluto it's me!" The person shouted in frustration.
Immediately Pluto lowered her guard down as she realized who this person was. It looks as if Uranus paid her a visit.
Mentally she cleared the fog around them and their eyes locked with one another. "Uranus." She called before giving a nod in the direction of the blonde.
The equally tall woman glared at the solitude warrior dismissing the greeting. Even though Pluto was her leader she still didn't like how Pluto gave her the decision to make fully knowing she didn't like Heiji. "I'm here to tell you what my verdict is." She announced while watched the warrior of Pluto continuing to stare at her as if she already knew her answer. She hated that. "Just bring the bastard." She sneered before she teleported back home.
Pluto couldn't help the small smile that played on her lips. It looks as if everything is going in plan. Her gaze turned towards the reflection of both Makoto and Heiji, both in different location, yet equally feeling a great loss. "Nothing to worry about your highnesses, your future is locked in stone."
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In the future, Heiji smiles as he holds his wife closer to him. He had received Toru's report moments ago, even though his son was on the verge of crying and desperate, Heiji knew there was nothing to worry about. He glanced down at his angel and kissed the top of her head sincerely. "I love you so much, my Juno." He whispered to the sleeping woman. "Thank you for not giving up on me."
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"Thank you for coming." Pluto spoke as she greeted her guest. She had called for them as soon as Haruka left her realm. "I need your help."
Luna frowned with curiosity, "what is it?"
"You both need to gather the inner senshi and discuss their feelings about what happened to Makoto. You need to have them realize that it wasn't their fault nor the men. It was meant to happen, do you understand?"
As she watched both feline nods in comprehension, she continued. "Minako-chan, Rei-chan and Usagi-hime, they need to be told to let go of the guilt and odium they have concerning what happened to Mako-hime, especially. Ami-chan can control her sorrow, but not the others. Please talk to them."
Artemis took a step forward. "Why do we need to talk to them?"
"All will be revealed in time Artemis. Now go." With a wave of her staff the two future advisers of Neo Queen Serenity disappeared within the fog. Pluto stood up straight. She had one more thing to do before she could sit back and watch the start for Crystal Tokyo. She allowed the mist surround her slender form, disguising it from view.
Toru lay on his bed after Mako tucked him in. Even though she smiled at him and his sister, he knew she was hurting. His mom was suffering because of his father. He knew it more than anything. He couldn't help but admire their relationship more now than ever. He couldn't help but think highly of his mother after this. He was so proud of her.
He had spoken to his father moments ago before Makoto had came in. He told him what was going on and his father told him not to worry about it, that everything would be fine. How can it be fine when everyone is hurting here? But he trusted his dad, even after witnessing the history of his parents. He knew it was killing his father to be away from his mom. He guaranteed it.
He gasped when he felt a shift in the room and stared at the direction of it. Automatically he stood up from his bed and ran to one of his favorite aunt. "Suna-chan!" He spoke highly as he gave her a hug. "What are you doing here?" He asked before he moved away to have a better view of the woman.
Pluto smiled at the young man. "To-chan, I'm here to take you and Ma-chan back. Are you ready?"
He shook his head negatively. "Suna, I can't leave yet. Mom needs me and Matsu here right now."
The guardian of time knelt down to be at his level. "Prince, your mother will be just fine. I'll make sure of it." She whispered to him. "Gather your things. Your mission is finished." She watched as his eyes grew wider in comprehension. Nodding, she spoke. "You have done a fine job my prince. Right now, you need to be home. I know you have a lot of questions to ask your parents. And you have a very special someone waiting for you. Now come on. I will tell Makoto you went home."
Toru nodded. Within minutes the prince of Jupiter was holding his and Matsu's bags. When he turned to face his friend, he watched as she held Matsu in her hands. His sister was sleeping in her arms with the outmost trust. "Ready."
"Let's go."
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In a room that was fit for a small child, a woman walked in with a sad expression on her face. She brushed her long brown hair behind her ear as she stopped in front of a crib. Looking inside the empty cribbed she vision her baby girl sleeping. Sighing she picked up a small stuff bear. She smiled a small sad smile as she gazed at it.
The brunette sat down in a rocking chair in a baby's room. Her eyes were closed as she hummed while her hand was holding Mr. Popo. She spent most of her time in this room after the memories of losing her child came back to haunt her. Out of all the senshi she was the only one to feel the lose of a child. In a way it reminded her that she was never well off since the beginning, starting with the death of her parents and ending with the death of her child. She never even found out if it was a girl or a boy. Maybe some things weren't meant to be known.
Her humming cease as her eyes gazed towards the door dazed as she remembered how she met up with Heiji towards the end. It was the most painful yet wonderful reunion she had ever had. She just hoped that her reunion with her…Her thoughts drifted when she heard the door swing open. It happened within a fraction of a second when she was bombard with two bodies. Her heart soared with shock and contentment as her arms wrapped around her children. They had come back to her. She was overjoyed. Kisses spread through the three of them as they huddled close enjoying the feel of their mother close to them after so long. Toru pulled away from her, enough to look into her eyes. The words that fell from his lips brought tears to her eyes.
"I'm proud of you mom."
Behind the door to Matsu's room the Queen of Mars and King of Jupiter smiled as they watched the heart warm reunion between a mother and her children.
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Author's Note: Hello minna! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. It was quickly written, I hope it doesn't sound too rushed. If it did please let me know so I can fix it. In my view this chapter is not the best I have written but I can't help feel that there is nothing I can do more. Well, please tell my your thoughts about this story so far even if its not too pleasant, but do know that if its not constructive criticism, I will simply ignore it.