Chapter 4
Rilie was going out with Jake the next night and Harry for some reason withdrew from her company. He went back into the backyard and found that slab of earth again. He did exactly as he had the previous time and went down in the room. Sirius must have stayed here sometimes because there were signs off civilization within the room. He walked around and then lay down on the bed. For the first time in awhile he felt grief creep back over him. He wanted Sirius back and especially now.
His feelings for Rilie had grown so strong and yet he could do nothing about them. He had to ignore them, put them in the back of his mind or he would never be able to talk to her. He knew she was going out with Jake and yet he knew somehow that something bad was going to happen. He didn't know how he knew it nor did he know what would happen but he knew that something would.
As he lay there thinking about this he fell into sleep. He dreamt about Sirius. Sirius was there with him and he was trying to show him something. In the dream Sirius beckoned him to a spot in a corner of the room that was completely blank and showed him how to access a safe in the wall the safe opened and harry saw that it contained a pensive. Sirius's pensive. He woke suddenly and sat there wondering if what he saw was true. He got up and and crossed to the corner he had gone to in his dream.
He touched the spot and did exactly what he had done in the dream. The wall sunk in revealing a safe. He didn't know how but he knew the combination. The safe opened to him revealing a pensive inside just like in his dream. He wanted to look into the pensive but at the same time he didn't want to see Sirius' memories. At the moment he wasn't strong enough and didn't want to try to hold strong if he couldn't.
He looked at his watch and saw that it was extremely late. He decided to go inside but as he turned he noticed an open cabinet. He went over to see what this cabinet contained. He opened it and saw that it was full of journals. He wanted to take them to read through later but somehow it felt wrong. "Take them" He heard it in his head but no one was in the room. The same voice told him to take the bag in the corner and take all of the journals with him and so he did.
Meanwhile at the club Rilie had stepped off of the dance floor to get a drink. She and Jake had been dancing for almost an hour straight and she was tired. She sat at the bar sipping her water and not looking out at the dance floor. While she was at the bar Jake found Cho. He didn't have any thoughts of dancing with her but she was a great kisser. When he approached her they kissed and this kiss was not one shared between friends and both knew it but neither of them cared much. Jake backed Cho into the wall and pressed his body against hers. This was how Rilie found them a few minutes later." I can't believe you," she said. Jake released Cho and turned around. "Rilie I promise you this is not what it looks like," Jake said unconvincingly. Rilie took a few steps forward and slapped him across the face with all of the strength she could muster. Cho screamed and Jake let out a muffled yell and clutched his face "What the hell is your problem, Rilie," Cho yelled at her.
"What's my problem. No, what's yours. You are supposed to be my best friend and yet you're over here making out with my boyfriend. I am not the one with the problem you are. As for you Jake we are through," Rilie shouted and stormed out. As soon as she was gone Cho and Jake went back to their kiss.
He took all of the journals in the bag and went back into the house. He went upstairs and into his room. He had something that would tell him what his godfather's life had been like and what he had to go through. Harry sat on his bed happy to know that he would now have something more to remember his godfather by. As he sat there he heard the front door creek open and then close again. He figured it was Rilie so he went out to see her. He exited his room just as she got to the top of the stairs. He saw that she had tear trails running down her face and yet more tears slowly coursed down her face. She did not smile or say anything she just walked over and fell into his arms. He put his arms around her and held her close. Finally she spoke to him after a few minutes of silence." Harry do you remember when you said that you would be there for me when I needed you. Well I really need you." "Come on let's go into your room it's farther from your dad's room," Harry said. "What does it matter that it's farther from my dad's room?" Rilie asked him. "It matters because you are clearly upset and if you start to cry again I don't want your dad to hear because well then he'd get involved and it would make things worse for you," Harry explained as he walked with her into her room." What happened?" "Jake and I we- we - we broke up," Rilie said as more tears streamed from her eyes. She leaned against Harry for comfort and as she did he sat down on her bed. He laid back and she rested her head against his chest, her head rising and falling as he drew breath. "Why did you break up?" Harry asked her.
"He was c-c-c-heating on-n m-me,"Rilie said through her sobs. "What? With who?" Harry asked. "W-w-w-ith C-c-cho-o," Rilie said and she cried harder. Harry asked no more questions. He knew it must be tough right now so he just held her close and ran his hands through her hair. He didn't remember falling asleep in Rilie's room but that's where he woke up. He slipped out of the room hoping that he did not wake her and that Remus wasn't awake. He got lucky and was able to slip into his room before Remus woke up and he would have tried to sleep if not for the fact that he was wondering if Rilie was going to be all right.
A few seconds after this thought entered his head there was a knock at his door. It was Rilie she came in and sat on his bed." I wanted to thank you for last night. You didn't have to stay but you did and that means a lot to me," She said," Do you want to go out back for a while?" "Yeah sounds good to me," Harry replied. They walked outside together and then over to the bench where Harry had sat on his first morning here. It was a cool, silent morning and both Harry and Rilie had cloaks on. There was dew on the grass and on the leaves of the trees. This moment was great and nothing could change that. He felt good about himself and yet at the same time sympathy towards Rilie. He looked over at her. Even in the morning as she had just woke up she was so beautiful. Her smile was radiant and her cheeks rosy. There was a trail of mascara running down her face and yet even with that her beauty was unblemished in his eyes.
"Ugh, Harry. You know it really hurt..." Rilie began. "Rilie you don't have to talk about this if you don't want to," Harry said. "Harry I do need to talk about this and you need to hear it," Rilie said. As she spoke she looked into his eyes her gaze unwavering." As I was saying you know that it hurt me really bad to find out that Jake was cheating on me but at the same time it felt good to know that I was free to date someone else." A tear slid down her cheek and Harry opened his mouth as if to say something but Rilie wiped away the tear and silenced him." Harry if I don't get this out I never will. I realized that I was having feelings for someone else that when I was dating Jake was out of my reach. But now he needs to know how I feel. Harry I- I wow this is really hard. Harry I have never felt this way about anyone and when you hugged me in the kitchen and told me that you would be there for me I knew that you would be someone important in my life. I can't stop thinking about you. I know you are a loyal and faithful person and that's the kind of person that I want, No that I need to be with. I-I'm falling in love with you." "What?" Harry asked," You hardly know me."
"I know but I feel like I've known you forever. I know what I feel. Harry I'm falling in love with you." "Rilie I need to tell you something," Harry said. Rilie bowed her head expecting the worst." Rilie you don't know how much you mean to me. You helped me to get over my grief of Sirius' death and to just live again. And I started to have feelings for you but I never said anything because I didn't want to hurt your relationship with Jake and last night I kept thinking about how stupid Jake would have to be to cheat on you because Rilie you're amazing and I want to be with you."
Rilie shivered slightly and then stood up Harry followed suit. He wrapped his arms her and she leaned into him. He could feel the heat coming off her body and held her closer. Rilie put her head against his shoulder and smiled. They stood like that for a while longer and then went inside. They stayed on the couch and Rilie pulled away from Harry and sat on the other side of the couch. She quickly turned on the TV and pretended to be extremely interested in the show. Harry was utterly confused and didn't know what to think."What's going on Rilie," Harry asked her.
"It's my dad. He's coming." Rilie replied and as soon she had said these words Reamus entered. "Hey, you guys are up early, again," Lupin called cheerfully. "Morning," Rilie and Harry replied not looking at each other or at Remus but at the ground.
Harry left suddenly, "This is to weird. I can't keep something like this from Lupin he knows me to well and I don't want him to be mad." Harry thought as he leaned against the wall. Rilie still sat on the couch talking to her father. He suddenly felt very sick he slid down the wall his head collapsing into his chest. His face paled but he could do nothing to help himself. "That was weird," Lupin commented," So Rilie how was your night with Jake last night?" "Fine," Rilie said simply.
"Right. Umm, Rilie I've got to go to France on some business for the Order. I'll be gone for a week. You can't come with me and I'm telling you this to make sure that you don't mind staying for a week at Grimauld Place. I mean Harry will be going there to but there won't always be someone there," Lupin said nervously explaining to Rilie.
"Dad I'm sixteen. I'm more than capable of taking care of myself and Harry and I are good friends. Don't worry about it we'll be fine," Rilie said.
Remus opened his mouth to speak again but Rilie cut him off, "Something's not right." "Rilie what are you talking about," Lupin asked. "I don't know but something doesn't feel right," Rilie told him and rushed out of the door.
Rilie was going out with Jake the next night and Harry for some reason withdrew from her company. He went back into the backyard and found that slab of earth again. He did exactly as he had the previous time and went down in the room. Sirius must have stayed here sometimes because there were signs off civilization within the room. He walked around and then lay down on the bed. For the first time in awhile he felt grief creep back over him. He wanted Sirius back and especially now.
His feelings for Rilie had grown so strong and yet he could do nothing about them. He had to ignore them, put them in the back of his mind or he would never be able to talk to her. He knew she was going out with Jake and yet he knew somehow that something bad was going to happen. He didn't know how he knew it nor did he know what would happen but he knew that something would.
As he lay there thinking about this he fell into sleep. He dreamt about Sirius. Sirius was there with him and he was trying to show him something. In the dream Sirius beckoned him to a spot in a corner of the room that was completely blank and showed him how to access a safe in the wall the safe opened and harry saw that it contained a pensive. Sirius's pensive. He woke suddenly and sat there wondering if what he saw was true. He got up and and crossed to the corner he had gone to in his dream.
He touched the spot and did exactly what he had done in the dream. The wall sunk in revealing a safe. He didn't know how but he knew the combination. The safe opened to him revealing a pensive inside just like in his dream. He wanted to look into the pensive but at the same time he didn't want to see Sirius' memories. At the moment he wasn't strong enough and didn't want to try to hold strong if he couldn't.
He looked at his watch and saw that it was extremely late. He decided to go inside but as he turned he noticed an open cabinet. He went over to see what this cabinet contained. He opened it and saw that it was full of journals. He wanted to take them to read through later but somehow it felt wrong. "Take them" He heard it in his head but no one was in the room. The same voice told him to take the bag in the corner and take all of the journals with him and so he did.
Meanwhile at the club Rilie had stepped off of the dance floor to get a drink. She and Jake had been dancing for almost an hour straight and she was tired. She sat at the bar sipping her water and not looking out at the dance floor. While she was at the bar Jake found Cho. He didn't have any thoughts of dancing with her but she was a great kisser. When he approached her they kissed and this kiss was not one shared between friends and both knew it but neither of them cared much. Jake backed Cho into the wall and pressed his body against hers. This was how Rilie found them a few minutes later." I can't believe you," she said. Jake released Cho and turned around. "Rilie I promise you this is not what it looks like," Jake said unconvincingly. Rilie took a few steps forward and slapped him across the face with all of the strength she could muster. Cho screamed and Jake let out a muffled yell and clutched his face "What the hell is your problem, Rilie," Cho yelled at her.
"What's my problem. No, what's yours. You are supposed to be my best friend and yet you're over here making out with my boyfriend. I am not the one with the problem you are. As for you Jake we are through," Rilie shouted and stormed out. As soon as she was gone Cho and Jake went back to their kiss.
He took all of the journals in the bag and went back into the house. He went upstairs and into his room. He had something that would tell him what his godfather's life had been like and what he had to go through. Harry sat on his bed happy to know that he would now have something more to remember his godfather by. As he sat there he heard the front door creek open and then close again. He figured it was Rilie so he went out to see her. He exited his room just as she got to the top of the stairs. He saw that she had tear trails running down her face and yet more tears slowly coursed down her face. She did not smile or say anything she just walked over and fell into his arms. He put his arms around her and held her close. Finally she spoke to him after a few minutes of silence." Harry do you remember when you said that you would be there for me when I needed you. Well I really need you." "Come on let's go into your room it's farther from your dad's room," Harry said. "What does it matter that it's farther from my dad's room?" Rilie asked him. "It matters because you are clearly upset and if you start to cry again I don't want your dad to hear because well then he'd get involved and it would make things worse for you," Harry explained as he walked with her into her room." What happened?" "Jake and I we- we - we broke up," Rilie said as more tears streamed from her eyes. She leaned against Harry for comfort and as she did he sat down on her bed. He laid back and she rested her head against his chest, her head rising and falling as he drew breath. "Why did you break up?" Harry asked her.
"He was c-c-c-heating on-n m-me,"Rilie said through her sobs. "What? With who?" Harry asked. "W-w-w-ith C-c-cho-o," Rilie said and she cried harder. Harry asked no more questions. He knew it must be tough right now so he just held her close and ran his hands through her hair. He didn't remember falling asleep in Rilie's room but that's where he woke up. He slipped out of the room hoping that he did not wake her and that Remus wasn't awake. He got lucky and was able to slip into his room before Remus woke up and he would have tried to sleep if not for the fact that he was wondering if Rilie was going to be all right.
A few seconds after this thought entered his head there was a knock at his door. It was Rilie she came in and sat on his bed." I wanted to thank you for last night. You didn't have to stay but you did and that means a lot to me," She said," Do you want to go out back for a while?" "Yeah sounds good to me," Harry replied. They walked outside together and then over to the bench where Harry had sat on his first morning here. It was a cool, silent morning and both Harry and Rilie had cloaks on. There was dew on the grass and on the leaves of the trees. This moment was great and nothing could change that. He felt good about himself and yet at the same time sympathy towards Rilie. He looked over at her. Even in the morning as she had just woke up she was so beautiful. Her smile was radiant and her cheeks rosy. There was a trail of mascara running down her face and yet even with that her beauty was unblemished in his eyes.
"Ugh, Harry. You know it really hurt..." Rilie began. "Rilie you don't have to talk about this if you don't want to," Harry said. "Harry I do need to talk about this and you need to hear it," Rilie said. As she spoke she looked into his eyes her gaze unwavering." As I was saying you know that it hurt me really bad to find out that Jake was cheating on me but at the same time it felt good to know that I was free to date someone else." A tear slid down her cheek and Harry opened his mouth as if to say something but Rilie wiped away the tear and silenced him." Harry if I don't get this out I never will. I realized that I was having feelings for someone else that when I was dating Jake was out of my reach. But now he needs to know how I feel. Harry I- I wow this is really hard. Harry I have never felt this way about anyone and when you hugged me in the kitchen and told me that you would be there for me I knew that you would be someone important in my life. I can't stop thinking about you. I know you are a loyal and faithful person and that's the kind of person that I want, No that I need to be with. I-I'm falling in love with you." "What?" Harry asked," You hardly know me."
"I know but I feel like I've known you forever. I know what I feel. Harry I'm falling in love with you." "Rilie I need to tell you something," Harry said. Rilie bowed her head expecting the worst." Rilie you don't know how much you mean to me. You helped me to get over my grief of Sirius' death and to just live again. And I started to have feelings for you but I never said anything because I didn't want to hurt your relationship with Jake and last night I kept thinking about how stupid Jake would have to be to cheat on you because Rilie you're amazing and I want to be with you."
Rilie shivered slightly and then stood up Harry followed suit. He wrapped his arms her and she leaned into him. He could feel the heat coming off her body and held her closer. Rilie put her head against his shoulder and smiled. They stood like that for a while longer and then went inside. They stayed on the couch and Rilie pulled away from Harry and sat on the other side of the couch. She quickly turned on the TV and pretended to be extremely interested in the show. Harry was utterly confused and didn't know what to think."What's going on Rilie," Harry asked her.
"It's my dad. He's coming." Rilie replied and as soon she had said these words Reamus entered. "Hey, you guys are up early, again," Lupin called cheerfully. "Morning," Rilie and Harry replied not looking at each other or at Remus but at the ground.
Harry left suddenly, "This is to weird. I can't keep something like this from Lupin he knows me to well and I don't want him to be mad." Harry thought as he leaned against the wall. Rilie still sat on the couch talking to her father. He suddenly felt very sick he slid down the wall his head collapsing into his chest. His face paled but he could do nothing to help himself. "That was weird," Lupin commented," So Rilie how was your night with Jake last night?" "Fine," Rilie said simply.
"Right. Umm, Rilie I've got to go to France on some business for the Order. I'll be gone for a week. You can't come with me and I'm telling you this to make sure that you don't mind staying for a week at Grimauld Place. I mean Harry will be going there to but there won't always be someone there," Lupin said nervously explaining to Rilie.
"Dad I'm sixteen. I'm more than capable of taking care of myself and Harry and I are good friends. Don't worry about it we'll be fine," Rilie said.
Remus opened his mouth to speak again but Rilie cut him off, "Something's not right." "Rilie what are you talking about," Lupin asked. "I don't know but something doesn't feel right," Rilie told him and rushed out of the door.