All We'll Ever Be
A/N: Okie dokie Please Review and all that....
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Chapter 6: Say it isn't so
The next morning Ginny could be found in the common room writing furiously in a little purple book. She couldn't believe what had happened the night before. "FRIENDS???" she kept muttering to herself. Ginny was never one to do things like that, make up with a guy who had just broke her heart for the millionth time. She hadn't let her tears get the best of her this time though, she let her temper shine through. Surely Harry thought she had been joking, that she really wasn't hurt. But she still found it hard to believe she had made up with him just like that, It was never like Ginny to hold a grudge but never like her to just give in and make up. Maybe it was because he told her she was beautiful, what was she kidding herself? That was a pitiful attempt to not get punched in the face. She smiled, it had worked though! Harry had always had that effect on her, made her do things that she didn't normally do. She finished writing and went down to breakfast.
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Harry came down to the common room, he had awoken late because he had been up all night with scar pains. He didn't really feel like having breakfast so he sat down and began to rub his head. He leaned back and there was a sharp pain in his leg. He jumped up from his seat and stared into the chair, there sat a small purple book of some sort, the corner had poked him in the leg when he sat. He picked it up and flipped to the last page, it read:
Dear Harry,
You and I had a huge fight last night, you broke my heart again! Why do you do it to me? I can't understand why you can't just give in to me, I may not be smart, or pretty, or anything you want in a girl, but I have something all those other girls don't! I love you.. is it too much to ask for reciprocated feelings??? I remember that short time yesterday when I thought you loved me, it was wonderful, I felt like I was on top of the world. But then last night gravity pulled me down to my foolishness again, You didn't love me like I thought you had, you had just confused me. You explained why, but did you not think it would hurt me again? You probably think I am crazy, going after you with fists like that. But you don't understand, a broken heart hurts, you will understand one day though when somebody does it to you. I felt like crying but didn't want you to see me cry again, so I lost it. but you acted like it was no big deal and won me over, yet again, with your charm and gorgeous smile. But when I woke up I mentally kicked myself for making up with you, you need to understand how I feel, but you never will. Oh well, breakfast is starting, I will finish this later..
With all my love, Ginny
Harry stared in disbelief at the book which he held, was this a letter she intended to give to him??? He did feel bad now, he was a horrible person to her.. all she wanted was a little attention. She just wanted someone to love her. he glanced at the page again, 'I may not be smart or pretty, or anything you want in a girl'. He looked away, but she was those things. She was very pretty, he hadn't lied last night when he had told her she was pretty. He liked the way her soft brown eyes sparkled with mischief when she was up to something, the way her bright red hair fell gently about her shoulders, the way her freckles lay on her cheeks, the way she smiled.. he really liked her smile. And she was smart too, she could perform charms and transfiguration especially well, sometimes just as well as Hermione. She was what he looked for in a girl, and he questioned himself to why he didn't love her. Harry placed the book in his bag and went down to find Ginny.
When Harry reached the great hall he found Hermione and Ron sitting together eating breakfast, but there was no sign of Ginny. He went through all of his classes and didn't see her in the halls. That night after dinner, he walked through the portrait hole and found her curled up in a chair reading a book. He approached cautiously.
"Um. Hi Ginny" He said sitting down
"Oh, hi Harry" She answered looking at him.
"Gin, I found this, this morning, I haven't seen you anywhere today, or I would have given it to you" he said while pulling the book out of his bag and handing it to her.
"Oh.. My notebook, I've been looking everywhere for it.... you didn't read anything did you?????" she asked with a scared expression on her face.
"Well.." Harry began. " I. I didn't know who's it was, so I read the last page that you wrote, I. I'm sorry."
Ginny just sat there her mouth moving in silence, Harry had read her diary! She couldn't believe it.
"Oh Harry, you mustn't do that, I have personal things in there!!!!" Ginny said, she felt like crying.
"Well, I'm sorry, but all I read is that letter you were going to give me.. nothing else I swear!" Harry promised. "What letter???" Ginny asked.
"This one" Harry said taking the book and opening it to the page he had read.
Ginny looked at it, then looked up blushing, "Oh!!! That's not a. letter!" Ginny said cautiously.
"Well then, what is it?" Harry inquired
"It's... It's . It's. Listen it's to embarrassing for me, I don't want to tell you." She replied shakily.
"Oh come on Gin" Harry began "You know you can tell me, I mean it shouldn't be embarrassing for you, I won't judge or anything. " He reassured her.
"Oh, you promise you won't laugh?" Ginny asked.
"Promise" Harry said.
"Well, you see, after my first year here, I had all these feelings bottled up, you know from.. from the .. the chamber. Anyways I bought a million diary's I wanted to some how ease my pain with them. But Dear Diary, never worked, I just couldn't trust something I couldn't see. So I tried everything, I had to talk to something, someone... nothing worked though. The trust just wasn't there, but then I thought of the one person who went through almost everything I did. it was you, and I found it comforting, I could somehow write to Dear Harry easily. So I've used your name in it ever since and, trust me it has nothing to do with .. well.. with the thought of us." Ginny said very slowly, seemingly finding interest in her feet.
"Gin, that's not embarrassing! I would have done it too! I mean sometimes I just need someone to talk to, but no one understands me, no ones been attacked the way I have. So I pen it up, and .. and ...." Harry sighed " It's hard, I admire you for overcoming that Tom thing." He said staring at her. Ginny looked up and found him staring at her, she turned red and looked back down.
"Thanks, listen .. er . Harry, if you ever need someone to talk to, remember me, I went through some hard stuff too and talking to an actual person would be nice." Ginny said quickly.
" That would be great, finally someone who somewhat understands.!" Harry said. And as he said this he looked at her. There she sat, and with her bright red hair crowning her head, her freckles and glimmering eyes, he noticed she had this radiance, she seemed to be glowing. His mouth dropped, it was like seeing her in a whole new light. She sat there biting her lip and staring at him, and it occurred to him that the girl in front of him was the most beautiful creature he had ever seen. Harry didn't want to stare, but she was so gorgeous. He didn't know what had sparked it, or why he saw her like this, but he was in awe.
"Harry. er. are you okay?" She asked, breaking his trance.
"Er. Yeah, I am sorry, it's just nice to know that I have someone.. " He said dreamily.
"To..er. talk to about this sort of thing" He added very quickly.
"Yeah, well Harry I have a big transfiguration test tomorrow, I best be off to bed." She said rising.
"Yeah, er night Gin!" He called after her as she walked toward the stairs.
" You too." She called over her shoulder and then disappeared up the stairs.
Harry just kept staring at the spot he had last seen her. Thinking to himself. 'What was that?' he thought. Harry was too busy thinking to see Ron and Hermione come through the portrait hole. This was really a shame however because had Harry seen them he would have been in for quite a treat and the spectacle that was ensuing. There stood Ron in a full body bind, Hermione was tapping her foot with her arms crossed and holding her wand in her hand.
" Say you're sorry!!!!" she said
"No, I will not, I didn't even start this whole thing, it was you who started it!!!" He bellowed.
" It most certainly was not!!!!!!!!!! You were the first to bring him up!!!!!" She screamed
"But.. You... You... you tricked me so you are the one at fault now aren't you!!!!" Ron yelled.
" I tricked you???? How may I ask did I trick you Ronald?" She said with a smug look on her face.
" You told me that he was coming here for Christmas!!! and that you told him everything I had said and he was coming to get me!!!! That was tricking me seeing as you haven't even heard from him!!!!" Ron retorted.
"Okay, so maybe I did trick you!!!, just a little bit though!" Hermione said giggling
" But you have to admit, it's funny seeing you squirm every time he's mentioned!!!!" She said, dropping to the floor laughing.
"Me.. Squirm!!!! I do not!!!" Ron said turning red.
" Oh you don't do you!!!!!" Hermione squealed " By the way you act whenever he's mentioned you would think the world was ending, or that you were madly in love with me!!!!!" She laughed
"Well, neither of those are the reasons why, for one we wouldn't be here if the world were ending, and second.. who would want to be madly in love with you!" He growled.
Hermione's laughter ceased at this comment and her expression was replaced with one of hurt.
"You don't think it's possible for someone to love me?" She asked her lip quivering.
" What.. Hermione ... No listen I didn't mean it like that, I was mad, and I always contradict you! You know that. I think it would be completely possible for someone to love you." He said sweetly dropping down on the floor beside her.
They just stared at each other in skeptical silence for a while and then Ron spoke.
"Know would you uncurse me please???" He asked.
" Oh. Yeah... sure" Hermione said dreamily as she un binded his body. She then headed for the stairs and disappeared to her dormitory.
"Wonder what's got into her" Ron muttered while getting up and approaching Harry.
"Hey Harry mate, what are you thinking about..... Hellllllo? HEEEElllLLLLllooooOOOOoo? " Ron asked noticing that he was being completely ignored.
Harry was thinking, thinking about Ginny that is. What was it about her that was doing this to him? His eyes hadn't yet left the spot where she had stood 10 minutes before. And he was having no problem ignoring Ron who was dancing about him trying to get him to talk.
"OY Harry!!!!!" Ron screamed waving his hand in front of Harry's face.
"What?" Harry asked in exasperation with Ron.
"What's got you???? Your eyes are all hazy and you were staring off into space!!!" Ron asked glad to have full attention on him.
"Oh nothing I was just thinking about some things," Harry said
"Oy, not with a look like that your not thinking about things!!!!! Crikey, Harry do you fancy someone in Gryffindor tower? It's not Hermione is it? Who is it? Ron asked
" No, it's not Hermione, you can take her!" Harry said turning to Ron.
" Well then who is it???" Ron asked
"Er...I can't tell you, you wouldn't be very excited about it anyway." Harry said
Ron sat for awhile and thought of who the mystery girl could be.
'someone I wouldn't want him to like?' Ron thought.
"Oh for the love of Merlin Harry!!! Say it isn't so!!!!!!" Ron cried out. Harry grinned, he knew that Ron knew who it was, but he was going to have to get over it. He got up from his seat and disappeared up the stairs.
A/N: Review, the next chapter is the last I've written so I would appreciate some suggestions! Gracias!
A/N: Okie dokie Please Review and all that....
Disclaimer: not mine
Chapter 6: Say it isn't so
The next morning Ginny could be found in the common room writing furiously in a little purple book. She couldn't believe what had happened the night before. "FRIENDS???" she kept muttering to herself. Ginny was never one to do things like that, make up with a guy who had just broke her heart for the millionth time. She hadn't let her tears get the best of her this time though, she let her temper shine through. Surely Harry thought she had been joking, that she really wasn't hurt. But she still found it hard to believe she had made up with him just like that, It was never like Ginny to hold a grudge but never like her to just give in and make up. Maybe it was because he told her she was beautiful, what was she kidding herself? That was a pitiful attempt to not get punched in the face. She smiled, it had worked though! Harry had always had that effect on her, made her do things that she didn't normally do. She finished writing and went down to breakfast.
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Harry came down to the common room, he had awoken late because he had been up all night with scar pains. He didn't really feel like having breakfast so he sat down and began to rub his head. He leaned back and there was a sharp pain in his leg. He jumped up from his seat and stared into the chair, there sat a small purple book of some sort, the corner had poked him in the leg when he sat. He picked it up and flipped to the last page, it read:
Dear Harry,
You and I had a huge fight last night, you broke my heart again! Why do you do it to me? I can't understand why you can't just give in to me, I may not be smart, or pretty, or anything you want in a girl, but I have something all those other girls don't! I love you.. is it too much to ask for reciprocated feelings??? I remember that short time yesterday when I thought you loved me, it was wonderful, I felt like I was on top of the world. But then last night gravity pulled me down to my foolishness again, You didn't love me like I thought you had, you had just confused me. You explained why, but did you not think it would hurt me again? You probably think I am crazy, going after you with fists like that. But you don't understand, a broken heart hurts, you will understand one day though when somebody does it to you. I felt like crying but didn't want you to see me cry again, so I lost it. but you acted like it was no big deal and won me over, yet again, with your charm and gorgeous smile. But when I woke up I mentally kicked myself for making up with you, you need to understand how I feel, but you never will. Oh well, breakfast is starting, I will finish this later..
With all my love, Ginny
Harry stared in disbelief at the book which he held, was this a letter she intended to give to him??? He did feel bad now, he was a horrible person to her.. all she wanted was a little attention. She just wanted someone to love her. he glanced at the page again, 'I may not be smart or pretty, or anything you want in a girl'. He looked away, but she was those things. She was very pretty, he hadn't lied last night when he had told her she was pretty. He liked the way her soft brown eyes sparkled with mischief when she was up to something, the way her bright red hair fell gently about her shoulders, the way her freckles lay on her cheeks, the way she smiled.. he really liked her smile. And she was smart too, she could perform charms and transfiguration especially well, sometimes just as well as Hermione. She was what he looked for in a girl, and he questioned himself to why he didn't love her. Harry placed the book in his bag and went down to find Ginny.
When Harry reached the great hall he found Hermione and Ron sitting together eating breakfast, but there was no sign of Ginny. He went through all of his classes and didn't see her in the halls. That night after dinner, he walked through the portrait hole and found her curled up in a chair reading a book. He approached cautiously.
"Um. Hi Ginny" He said sitting down
"Oh, hi Harry" She answered looking at him.
"Gin, I found this, this morning, I haven't seen you anywhere today, or I would have given it to you" he said while pulling the book out of his bag and handing it to her.
"Oh.. My notebook, I've been looking everywhere for it.... you didn't read anything did you?????" she asked with a scared expression on her face.
"Well.." Harry began. " I. I didn't know who's it was, so I read the last page that you wrote, I. I'm sorry."
Ginny just sat there her mouth moving in silence, Harry had read her diary! She couldn't believe it.
"Oh Harry, you mustn't do that, I have personal things in there!!!!" Ginny said, she felt like crying.
"Well, I'm sorry, but all I read is that letter you were going to give me.. nothing else I swear!" Harry promised. "What letter???" Ginny asked.
"This one" Harry said taking the book and opening it to the page he had read.
Ginny looked at it, then looked up blushing, "Oh!!! That's not a. letter!" Ginny said cautiously.
"Well then, what is it?" Harry inquired
"It's... It's . It's. Listen it's to embarrassing for me, I don't want to tell you." She replied shakily.
"Oh come on Gin" Harry began "You know you can tell me, I mean it shouldn't be embarrassing for you, I won't judge or anything. " He reassured her.
"Oh, you promise you won't laugh?" Ginny asked.
"Promise" Harry said.
"Well, you see, after my first year here, I had all these feelings bottled up, you know from.. from the .. the chamber. Anyways I bought a million diary's I wanted to some how ease my pain with them. But Dear Diary, never worked, I just couldn't trust something I couldn't see. So I tried everything, I had to talk to something, someone... nothing worked though. The trust just wasn't there, but then I thought of the one person who went through almost everything I did. it was you, and I found it comforting, I could somehow write to Dear Harry easily. So I've used your name in it ever since and, trust me it has nothing to do with .. well.. with the thought of us." Ginny said very slowly, seemingly finding interest in her feet.
"Gin, that's not embarrassing! I would have done it too! I mean sometimes I just need someone to talk to, but no one understands me, no ones been attacked the way I have. So I pen it up, and .. and ...." Harry sighed " It's hard, I admire you for overcoming that Tom thing." He said staring at her. Ginny looked up and found him staring at her, she turned red and looked back down.
"Thanks, listen .. er . Harry, if you ever need someone to talk to, remember me, I went through some hard stuff too and talking to an actual person would be nice." Ginny said quickly.
" That would be great, finally someone who somewhat understands.!" Harry said. And as he said this he looked at her. There she sat, and with her bright red hair crowning her head, her freckles and glimmering eyes, he noticed she had this radiance, she seemed to be glowing. His mouth dropped, it was like seeing her in a whole new light. She sat there biting her lip and staring at him, and it occurred to him that the girl in front of him was the most beautiful creature he had ever seen. Harry didn't want to stare, but she was so gorgeous. He didn't know what had sparked it, or why he saw her like this, but he was in awe.
"Harry. er. are you okay?" She asked, breaking his trance.
"Er. Yeah, I am sorry, it's just nice to know that I have someone.. " He said dreamily.
"To..er. talk to about this sort of thing" He added very quickly.
"Yeah, well Harry I have a big transfiguration test tomorrow, I best be off to bed." She said rising.
"Yeah, er night Gin!" He called after her as she walked toward the stairs.
" You too." She called over her shoulder and then disappeared up the stairs.
Harry just kept staring at the spot he had last seen her. Thinking to himself. 'What was that?' he thought. Harry was too busy thinking to see Ron and Hermione come through the portrait hole. This was really a shame however because had Harry seen them he would have been in for quite a treat and the spectacle that was ensuing. There stood Ron in a full body bind, Hermione was tapping her foot with her arms crossed and holding her wand in her hand.
" Say you're sorry!!!!" she said
"No, I will not, I didn't even start this whole thing, it was you who started it!!!" He bellowed.
" It most certainly was not!!!!!!!!!! You were the first to bring him up!!!!!" She screamed
"But.. You... You... you tricked me so you are the one at fault now aren't you!!!!" Ron yelled.
" I tricked you???? How may I ask did I trick you Ronald?" She said with a smug look on her face.
" You told me that he was coming here for Christmas!!! and that you told him everything I had said and he was coming to get me!!!! That was tricking me seeing as you haven't even heard from him!!!!" Ron retorted.
"Okay, so maybe I did trick you!!!, just a little bit though!" Hermione said giggling
" But you have to admit, it's funny seeing you squirm every time he's mentioned!!!!" She said, dropping to the floor laughing.
"Me.. Squirm!!!! I do not!!!" Ron said turning red.
" Oh you don't do you!!!!!" Hermione squealed " By the way you act whenever he's mentioned you would think the world was ending, or that you were madly in love with me!!!!!" She laughed
"Well, neither of those are the reasons why, for one we wouldn't be here if the world were ending, and second.. who would want to be madly in love with you!" He growled.
Hermione's laughter ceased at this comment and her expression was replaced with one of hurt.
"You don't think it's possible for someone to love me?" She asked her lip quivering.
" What.. Hermione ... No listen I didn't mean it like that, I was mad, and I always contradict you! You know that. I think it would be completely possible for someone to love you." He said sweetly dropping down on the floor beside her.
They just stared at each other in skeptical silence for a while and then Ron spoke.
"Know would you uncurse me please???" He asked.
" Oh. Yeah... sure" Hermione said dreamily as she un binded his body. She then headed for the stairs and disappeared to her dormitory.
"Wonder what's got into her" Ron muttered while getting up and approaching Harry.
"Hey Harry mate, what are you thinking about..... Hellllllo? HEEEElllLLLLllooooOOOOoo? " Ron asked noticing that he was being completely ignored.
Harry was thinking, thinking about Ginny that is. What was it about her that was doing this to him? His eyes hadn't yet left the spot where she had stood 10 minutes before. And he was having no problem ignoring Ron who was dancing about him trying to get him to talk.
"OY Harry!!!!!" Ron screamed waving his hand in front of Harry's face.
"What?" Harry asked in exasperation with Ron.
"What's got you???? Your eyes are all hazy and you were staring off into space!!!" Ron asked glad to have full attention on him.
"Oh nothing I was just thinking about some things," Harry said
"Oy, not with a look like that your not thinking about things!!!!! Crikey, Harry do you fancy someone in Gryffindor tower? It's not Hermione is it? Who is it? Ron asked
" No, it's not Hermione, you can take her!" Harry said turning to Ron.
" Well then who is it???" Ron asked
"Er...I can't tell you, you wouldn't be very excited about it anyway." Harry said
Ron sat for awhile and thought of who the mystery girl could be.
'someone I wouldn't want him to like?' Ron thought.
"Oh for the love of Merlin Harry!!! Say it isn't so!!!!!!" Ron cried out. Harry grinned, he knew that Ron knew who it was, but he was going to have to get over it. He got up from his seat and disappeared up the stairs.
A/N: Review, the next chapter is the last I've written so I would appreciate some suggestions! Gracias!