Title - Always

Author - Ghrdr Ghrdr@Yahoo.com

Series - Digimon Tamers

Pairing - Riku/Renamon

Rating - PG-13

Disclaimer - I do not own Digimon, Digimon Tamers or any of it's

characters

Summary - Renamon's thoughts about her life with Riku

Author's Note - This is an A/U story (mid 1950's)that came to me

when I was 'pinging' on a caffeine high at two in the morning

at work

Archive - Ask me about it

Feedback - 119 Viking Pigs will handle Flamers

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Always

by: Ghrdr

I remember like it was yesterday, the first time that we meet. You

were so young, I guess you were only about one at the time. Your

Grandmother had set me down in your playpen where you was

silently weeping about something. As we laid there side-by-side

Grandmother introduced us to each other saying "Riku, this is Rena,

and she is here to be your friend." The first thing that went through my

mind was that you and your name was both beautiful beyond mere

words with your reddish-brown hair and soft lavender eyes. The

second thing that went through my mind was that you needed a

diaper change, badly.

After a few stops and starts we gradually became the best of

friends. We went everywhere together and most nights found us in

each other's arms drifting into slumber with our thoughts mingled.

I remember the day you took your first steps and I was the only one

to see them as you made your way to me. The night you were finally

able to say my name as we cuddled together made my heart soar as

joy filled it being able to hear and know that your first word was

about me.

Your third birthday Riku is a day I will always treasure in my heart.

On that day I became your lifelong protector and holder of your heart.

We were sitting together in the sandbox at the neighborhood park

discussing the tea party we were having later when it happened. That

annoying boy with the dumb toy lizard interrupted us and demanded

that we leave so he could play in the sandbox. Looking at you and

seeing the tears being held back in your eyes was too much for me

and I took action against him. After bopping him upside the head

twice he got the message that he wasn't wanted around us and he

left crying for his mother.

The first year we started our schooling was a tough one on the both

of us. They made us sit in these uncomfortable chairs and they tried

to teach us the things Grandmother had already taught us. Looking

around us I was surprised how many of the other children didn't even

know their simple colors, numbers and letters. At recess you and me

decided that we would have to do what Grandmother had suggested,

play dumb and just study with her. I think it tickled Grandmother pink

to see that we had managed to have our class picture taken together.

She still has that picture on her nightstand. Us, heads together, with

the "We know we did it but are never going to admit it" smiles on our

faces.

The next year the grown-ups decided for us that we would be

separated for the rest of our schooling. To put it mildly neither one of

us was thrilled about it. But Grandmother said it was for the best for

right now and that we would see each other after school every day.

It helped a bit but those were lonely hours for the both of us. We both

saw no need for other friends as we had each other and the other

children didn't like us anyway. The both of us built a shield around us

to keep others out and each other in.

After school every day we would talk about our days and teach

each other the things we learned. We would gossip about the other

kids and about what others we came into contact with were doing.

Grandmother would join the two of us in the evening as we listened

to the programs coming in over the radio and have dinner with us.

This is the habit we got into and maintained over the years.

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I'm so excited, tomorrow is your twelfth birthday and we're holding

a small party for you. I was watching Grandmother bake a cake for

the party, and hoping to lick the spoon, when I had a feeling that you

was in trouble. I tried to get Grandmother's attention to tell her that

my Ri-chan was hurting but she was in her own little world and didn't

hear me. After thirty minutes had gone by the phone started ringing

and I just knew it was going to be about you.

Grandmother answered the telephone and listened for a minute

before she cried out and sank to the floor crying. She pulled herself

together quickly and gathered her purse, keys and me then rushed us

outside and into the car before she explained what was going on. You,

my beautiful Ri-chan, had been on your way home to us when a

speeding car had turn onto the street you were crossing and hit you

then sped away.

The doctor on the phone had said that Riku had sustained serious

injuries, that the prognosis wasn't good and that she was asking for

us. When we got to the hospital we were shown to a room where

they had tried to make you comfortable and given you something to

take the edge off the pain. While Grandmother rested her palm on

your forehead I slipped into your arms and tried to ignore the

bandages covering you.

I nuzzled your cheek with mine trying to offer you some comfort.

It hurt to think that I wouldn't get to see you grow into the beautiful

heartbreaker you was destined to become. As I felt our duel

heartbeats start to slow more with each passing second I prayed that

in our next life together that I will be able to protect you, my soulmate,

better than I have in this one as a Kitsune dol.....