Title: Le Miserable
Fee Fi Fo Fum, I smell the blood of a disclaimer. Isn't mine :) The song is Safe Place by Staind
warnings: male x male
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And then I find you here
Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home
Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.
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"In case you have forgotten, nephew-" the tall, brunette woman spat the name contempously, "You are seen as an unfit parent and I am that brat's closest of kin so I have part-custody of her." Bellatrix leered at Draco who was internally trembling with rage but keeping his external appearance of indifference erected around his emotions. Her azure gaze landed on Severus, seeing him for the first time since her entrance into the Headmaster's domain. "Severus, how wonderful to see you looking so well."
Severus had never cared for Bella, she was as sly and manipulative as the late Lucius Malfoy but Lucius had only changed into the bastard he had loathed after siding with Voldemort. He wasn't surprised that there was the flame of lust dancing in the lapis depths. Bella had desired him during their school days; for his power and intelligence. He scorned her leaving Lestrange to deal with Bella. Apparently the fervent want hadn't disappeared. Bella was a beautiful woman, Severus had to give her credit there but he only felt hate towards her. Especially now with the way she was regarding Draco and Aglaia. "And you," he kept the thick loathing in his words.
Bella grinned, not letting it get to her. "Aglaia, it is time for you to come home. Your cousins are anxious to see you." She held her hand out for the small girl to take. Aglaia glanced back at her father questioningly and only at his curt nod and calming smile did she take Bella's hand.
"I want her back tomorrow," Draco gritted through clenched teeth, so desperately wanting to grab his wand and hex the pretentious bitch to oblivion. His entire life was commited to keeping his daughter happy and honoring the memory of her father.
"You'll have her back by the weekend as our agreement says. Severus, I do hope to see you again." Bella cast him seductive look and left the room with a slam of the door. Severus was tempted. He hadn't had any sexual encounters for several years and he was lonely. Severus cringed. Pleasure wasn't enough to make him go near Bellatrix.
He turned towards Draco. "What did she mean that you're seen as an unfit parent?"
"Severus, you know as well as I do that homosexuality isn't accepted as it used to be since Voldemort's defeat and the muggle world started integrating itself in our society." Draco sighed, sinking onto one of the chaise lounges. "The alliance between the Ministry and the governments of the muggle world are starting to twine together. Our people are living among muggles and they bring back the muggle's bigoted views of life back here. It was two years after Voldemort's demise that Bella came with four wizards from the newly sanctioned Department of Muggle-Wizard Relations. They felt that Aglaia was being raised in a home that wasn't fitting and that she needed the guidance of a woman. Bella's the closet relative alive and so, Bella keeps her when she wants."
"That's a load of shite." Severus snorted. "Muggles and their narrow minded views."
Draco wrapped the quilted afghan around his narrow shoulders, voice soft, "They think that they're the ones in the right. Wizards have lived the same way as our ancestors for thousands of years and yet we're still prejudiced against by those intolerant. They can't use magic so they fear us. They hate what they can't understand and they don't understand us so they persecute us. Just because we're beginning to make allies with some muggles, it's going to take years for them to fully accept us. What then? The way that muggles are treating the land, the animals, their own people, the world itself...they'll have destroyed Earth in a matter of centuries. If not from depleting the environment from it's natural resources, destroying the ozone layer, or developing weapons of mass destruction that any insane psychopath can get their hands on.... There isn't going to be a world left. All the magic in the world can't reverse the damage that has been done."
Severus's lips parted in surprise at Draco's words. He fully appreciated that Draco was Lucius's son because this talk was the same passionate speech that Lucius had used on him decades before when they were still innocent children playing the game of life. "Then what you mean is that Voldemort was in the right for what he was questing to do? That it would be better if he had killed every muggle?"
"They breed hate and fear just like Voldemort and eventually, the muggles and Voldemort would have had to duel and I'm not sure who exactly the victor would have been." Draco looked up at Severus leaning against a table. "Are we any different then the muggles? If our views can so quickly be changed because we want acceptance from those who don't deserve it, aren't we just as hypocritical and bigoted as them?"
"You know my feelings on what you're asking." Severus disliked muggles and would rather burn at the stake then peacefully get along with the self- righteous idiots. "This discussion is over. I have some errands to run but we will talk later."
"Yes Severus." Draco smiled, curling up to a more comfortable position as his lids shuddered close and he began to surrender himself to Morpheus. Severus waved his wand, diminishing the light so Draco would get some well- needed sleep. It was high time he ventured into the forest and collected the Valerian he would need for Lethargus Reseco. He hoped that he might see Harry...
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Harry sat in a meditative position underneath Kogane's limbs as the needles brushed against him appreciatively and the breeze from Kogane's actions soothed him. A question came to him as the noon light tried to make its way through the canopy of Kogane's branches. "Kogane, you told me that Severus was not to be feared. Why did you say that?"
Kogane chuckled, something Harry took offensively as he was suddenly enveloped in a rush of needles, twigs, and cones. *Severus used to come here when he was but a wee lad. This was his sanctuary as a child and then as he became older and dealt with the pressing situations of society, it was his only escape.* Harry rested his head against the thick trunk, folding his hands in his lap and humming contently as one of the limbs brushed against his cheek. *Much as you are now, little one.*
"I dont have a choice Kogane. They all hate me."
*I do not believe that, little one. I felt Severus's emotions that night and he most definitely does not hate you. Ah, here he comes now.* Harry lept to his feet, shaking himself much like a canine to rid himself of the debris. He helplessly glanced around. There wasn't a place to hid and he knew for a fact that Kogane wouldn't aid him. *Calm yourself. He does not want to hurt you.*
"How very reassuring," Harry responded dryly, rolling his eyes. He crossed his arms in front of his chest and waited for the man that had consumed the last six years. He went to pull the cowl over his head to hide his face and the scars but one of Kogane's limbs innocently got tangled in his cloak and ripped it from his body. He growled at Kogane. "I know some very good fire spells." Harry huffed, attempting to disentagle his cloak from the branch when suddenly Kogane lifted the branch from Harry's reach. By then, it was too late.
"Harry," the euphonious tones had Harry's entrails knotting and his body quivering with arousal. Those dark eyes on him were unsettling. Severus couldn't move. He was rooted to that spot. His heart skipped several beats, he didn't blink and his breathing became shallow. This wasn't right. Severus was shocked at how infinitely beautiful Harry was. The dark hair was touseled and seemed to reflect jade when the sun crowned his head. The emerald eyes were devoid of emotion but...there was a tiny sparkle that hadn't been there the night of their run-in. The full lips were moist from Harry's tongue dewing them every few seconds and Severus couldn't stop the perverted images that came to mind. His eyes dwelled on the scar on his cheek.
"Disgusting, isn't it?" Harry asked, reflexively bringing his hand up to touch the scar.
"No...it's sad." Harry raised a brow at Severus. This was the first time someone had said it was sad. Severus stepped forward, getting closer to Harry. "It's sad because for six years you've let those scars rule your life instead of ignorning them and moving on."
"How dare you!" Harry hissed, arousal completely forgotten as he became angry. "It's not my fault! You all hate me. You all blame me for everything that has happened! You all blame me for Voldemort." The rage deserted him. "I used to believe it but now, I just dont give a damn. You're wasting my time Severus, if you're only here to badger me into some sort of argument." He didn't want to see Severus leave but he wasn't going to let Severus make him hate himself more then he already did.
"I apologize. No one hates you, Harry. Not the people that matter."
"Oh really?" Harry laughed hollowly. "And Ron has been avoiding me and telling Hermione that she shouldn't go near me for some other reason? You dont know what it's like Severus. I've had to watch my friends grow up without being near them, to see their children laughing and playing but not being able to join them."
That confirmed all of Severus's inquiries regarding a love life. Harry hadn't been with anyone since his exilement. "Do you know what I heard today? That you ran away from Hog's Head and wouldn't even talk to Justin, Dean or Seamus. They said that they wanted to help you. They haven't forgotten you."
"What? I don't believe you."
"Then don't but I'm not lieing. They miss you Harry." Severus didn't add, 'I miss you.' He sighed. "Just come back to Hogwart's."
"No. I dont belong there. Too many memories. How can I return when the people I love are no longer there? Sirius, Remus, Albus, Minerva, Hermione, Ron... I can't deal with it. I dont have the strength any more to face the crowds of accusing faces and the whispers...."
"Is there no convincing you?"
"I'm sorry but my life is only for myself now. I'm not going to hurt anyone else." Harry gasped when Severus's hand descended upon his shoulder. Oh Merlin, it felt so good to be touched. He had to get away or Severus would see the proof of his longing.
"Stop hurting yourself." Severus's other hand caressed the criss-crossed scar. "It has been six years, Harry. Six long years. It's time that you lived among your peers again." Harry found himself closing his eyes and leaning into the hand that so gently touched him. "Will you come with me?"
"No." Harry withdrew from the touch. "I...I should go. It was nice seeing you. Goodbye," Just as he started to take off towards the Shrieking Shack, Severus desperately grabbed him and pressed him against his chest. "Severus?"
"Please come with me Harry." Severus's hands, on their own accord and with direction from the brain that ruled most men's thinking process, cupped Harry's firm buttocks. He suppressed the groan that threatened to escape at the contact of their bodies and how much he wanted to be inside of Harry. "What can I do to make you come with me?"
"Just keep holding me like this," Harry whispered, not caring if the entire world heard him say that. All he could feel was the warmth coming from Severus's body. "Severus, why are you here? Why are you trying so hard to get me to come back with you?"
"Because," Severus placed a soft kiss to Harry's temple, "I've been just as lonely as you. Because you deserve to be happy."
Harry smiled sadly, pulling away from Severus. "Not everyone can be happy. Severus...you've changed. You're actually touching me without yelling at me first and telling me that I have to do my best if I'm ever going to defeat Voldemort." He wouldn't cry. Not in front of Severus. "Why the change of heart?"
"Does that matter?"
"I guess not." Harry sighed. "Is this an elaborate scheme to get me to return? This......this what you're doing."
"You always so mistrusting?"
"I haven't had much of a choice." Harry glanced at the position of the sun, deciding what time it was. "Don't you have classes this afternoon?"
"I doubt they will say anything if I'm late."
Harry nodded. "You should go. I will be here tonight if you want to...to pursue whatever this is that we're doing."
"I'll be here. Goodbye, Harry." Severus leant his head towards Harry's, pressing his lips to Harry's in a chaste kiss that had them both wanting more but neither wanted to hasten the beautiful beginnings of what could become a relationship. Severus knew it would take more then word and kisses to convince Harry that he wasn't alone and that he truly cared for Harry.
Harry watched at Severus disappeared from sight. Kogane dropped the cloak on Harry's head. *Did I not tell you?*
"So you did," Harry grinned, "So you did."
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Fast? Yes, most definitely but...it'll take a while for Harry to actually return to Hogwart's.
Thanks for reviewing. :) Review again.
THanks to: pixyfairy120, corgi1 (....I went too fast. lol) selua, A typical Snarry fan (the title of chapter three means: time flies and we fly with it) Immortal Memories, slytherinsela, Cardinal, Xenocide
Fee Fi Fo Fum, I smell the blood of a disclaimer. Isn't mine :) The song is Safe Place by Staind
warnings: male x male
~ ~ ~
And then I find you here
Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home
Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.
~ ~ ~
"In case you have forgotten, nephew-" the tall, brunette woman spat the name contempously, "You are seen as an unfit parent and I am that brat's closest of kin so I have part-custody of her." Bellatrix leered at Draco who was internally trembling with rage but keeping his external appearance of indifference erected around his emotions. Her azure gaze landed on Severus, seeing him for the first time since her entrance into the Headmaster's domain. "Severus, how wonderful to see you looking so well."
Severus had never cared for Bella, she was as sly and manipulative as the late Lucius Malfoy but Lucius had only changed into the bastard he had loathed after siding with Voldemort. He wasn't surprised that there was the flame of lust dancing in the lapis depths. Bella had desired him during their school days; for his power and intelligence. He scorned her leaving Lestrange to deal with Bella. Apparently the fervent want hadn't disappeared. Bella was a beautiful woman, Severus had to give her credit there but he only felt hate towards her. Especially now with the way she was regarding Draco and Aglaia. "And you," he kept the thick loathing in his words.
Bella grinned, not letting it get to her. "Aglaia, it is time for you to come home. Your cousins are anxious to see you." She held her hand out for the small girl to take. Aglaia glanced back at her father questioningly and only at his curt nod and calming smile did she take Bella's hand.
"I want her back tomorrow," Draco gritted through clenched teeth, so desperately wanting to grab his wand and hex the pretentious bitch to oblivion. His entire life was commited to keeping his daughter happy and honoring the memory of her father.
"You'll have her back by the weekend as our agreement says. Severus, I do hope to see you again." Bella cast him seductive look and left the room with a slam of the door. Severus was tempted. He hadn't had any sexual encounters for several years and he was lonely. Severus cringed. Pleasure wasn't enough to make him go near Bellatrix.
He turned towards Draco. "What did she mean that you're seen as an unfit parent?"
"Severus, you know as well as I do that homosexuality isn't accepted as it used to be since Voldemort's defeat and the muggle world started integrating itself in our society." Draco sighed, sinking onto one of the chaise lounges. "The alliance between the Ministry and the governments of the muggle world are starting to twine together. Our people are living among muggles and they bring back the muggle's bigoted views of life back here. It was two years after Voldemort's demise that Bella came with four wizards from the newly sanctioned Department of Muggle-Wizard Relations. They felt that Aglaia was being raised in a home that wasn't fitting and that she needed the guidance of a woman. Bella's the closet relative alive and so, Bella keeps her when she wants."
"That's a load of shite." Severus snorted. "Muggles and their narrow minded views."
Draco wrapped the quilted afghan around his narrow shoulders, voice soft, "They think that they're the ones in the right. Wizards have lived the same way as our ancestors for thousands of years and yet we're still prejudiced against by those intolerant. They can't use magic so they fear us. They hate what they can't understand and they don't understand us so they persecute us. Just because we're beginning to make allies with some muggles, it's going to take years for them to fully accept us. What then? The way that muggles are treating the land, the animals, their own people, the world itself...they'll have destroyed Earth in a matter of centuries. If not from depleting the environment from it's natural resources, destroying the ozone layer, or developing weapons of mass destruction that any insane psychopath can get their hands on.... There isn't going to be a world left. All the magic in the world can't reverse the damage that has been done."
Severus's lips parted in surprise at Draco's words. He fully appreciated that Draco was Lucius's son because this talk was the same passionate speech that Lucius had used on him decades before when they were still innocent children playing the game of life. "Then what you mean is that Voldemort was in the right for what he was questing to do? That it would be better if he had killed every muggle?"
"They breed hate and fear just like Voldemort and eventually, the muggles and Voldemort would have had to duel and I'm not sure who exactly the victor would have been." Draco looked up at Severus leaning against a table. "Are we any different then the muggles? If our views can so quickly be changed because we want acceptance from those who don't deserve it, aren't we just as hypocritical and bigoted as them?"
"You know my feelings on what you're asking." Severus disliked muggles and would rather burn at the stake then peacefully get along with the self- righteous idiots. "This discussion is over. I have some errands to run but we will talk later."
"Yes Severus." Draco smiled, curling up to a more comfortable position as his lids shuddered close and he began to surrender himself to Morpheus. Severus waved his wand, diminishing the light so Draco would get some well- needed sleep. It was high time he ventured into the forest and collected the Valerian he would need for Lethargus Reseco. He hoped that he might see Harry...
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Harry sat in a meditative position underneath Kogane's limbs as the needles brushed against him appreciatively and the breeze from Kogane's actions soothed him. A question came to him as the noon light tried to make its way through the canopy of Kogane's branches. "Kogane, you told me that Severus was not to be feared. Why did you say that?"
Kogane chuckled, something Harry took offensively as he was suddenly enveloped in a rush of needles, twigs, and cones. *Severus used to come here when he was but a wee lad. This was his sanctuary as a child and then as he became older and dealt with the pressing situations of society, it was his only escape.* Harry rested his head against the thick trunk, folding his hands in his lap and humming contently as one of the limbs brushed against his cheek. *Much as you are now, little one.*
"I dont have a choice Kogane. They all hate me."
*I do not believe that, little one. I felt Severus's emotions that night and he most definitely does not hate you. Ah, here he comes now.* Harry lept to his feet, shaking himself much like a canine to rid himself of the debris. He helplessly glanced around. There wasn't a place to hid and he knew for a fact that Kogane wouldn't aid him. *Calm yourself. He does not want to hurt you.*
"How very reassuring," Harry responded dryly, rolling his eyes. He crossed his arms in front of his chest and waited for the man that had consumed the last six years. He went to pull the cowl over his head to hide his face and the scars but one of Kogane's limbs innocently got tangled in his cloak and ripped it from his body. He growled at Kogane. "I know some very good fire spells." Harry huffed, attempting to disentagle his cloak from the branch when suddenly Kogane lifted the branch from Harry's reach. By then, it was too late.
"Harry," the euphonious tones had Harry's entrails knotting and his body quivering with arousal. Those dark eyes on him were unsettling. Severus couldn't move. He was rooted to that spot. His heart skipped several beats, he didn't blink and his breathing became shallow. This wasn't right. Severus was shocked at how infinitely beautiful Harry was. The dark hair was touseled and seemed to reflect jade when the sun crowned his head. The emerald eyes were devoid of emotion but...there was a tiny sparkle that hadn't been there the night of their run-in. The full lips were moist from Harry's tongue dewing them every few seconds and Severus couldn't stop the perverted images that came to mind. His eyes dwelled on the scar on his cheek.
"Disgusting, isn't it?" Harry asked, reflexively bringing his hand up to touch the scar.
"No...it's sad." Harry raised a brow at Severus. This was the first time someone had said it was sad. Severus stepped forward, getting closer to Harry. "It's sad because for six years you've let those scars rule your life instead of ignorning them and moving on."
"How dare you!" Harry hissed, arousal completely forgotten as he became angry. "It's not my fault! You all hate me. You all blame me for everything that has happened! You all blame me for Voldemort." The rage deserted him. "I used to believe it but now, I just dont give a damn. You're wasting my time Severus, if you're only here to badger me into some sort of argument." He didn't want to see Severus leave but he wasn't going to let Severus make him hate himself more then he already did.
"I apologize. No one hates you, Harry. Not the people that matter."
"Oh really?" Harry laughed hollowly. "And Ron has been avoiding me and telling Hermione that she shouldn't go near me for some other reason? You dont know what it's like Severus. I've had to watch my friends grow up without being near them, to see their children laughing and playing but not being able to join them."
That confirmed all of Severus's inquiries regarding a love life. Harry hadn't been with anyone since his exilement. "Do you know what I heard today? That you ran away from Hog's Head and wouldn't even talk to Justin, Dean or Seamus. They said that they wanted to help you. They haven't forgotten you."
"What? I don't believe you."
"Then don't but I'm not lieing. They miss you Harry." Severus didn't add, 'I miss you.' He sighed. "Just come back to Hogwart's."
"No. I dont belong there. Too many memories. How can I return when the people I love are no longer there? Sirius, Remus, Albus, Minerva, Hermione, Ron... I can't deal with it. I dont have the strength any more to face the crowds of accusing faces and the whispers...."
"Is there no convincing you?"
"I'm sorry but my life is only for myself now. I'm not going to hurt anyone else." Harry gasped when Severus's hand descended upon his shoulder. Oh Merlin, it felt so good to be touched. He had to get away or Severus would see the proof of his longing.
"Stop hurting yourself." Severus's other hand caressed the criss-crossed scar. "It has been six years, Harry. Six long years. It's time that you lived among your peers again." Harry found himself closing his eyes and leaning into the hand that so gently touched him. "Will you come with me?"
"No." Harry withdrew from the touch. "I...I should go. It was nice seeing you. Goodbye," Just as he started to take off towards the Shrieking Shack, Severus desperately grabbed him and pressed him against his chest. "Severus?"
"Please come with me Harry." Severus's hands, on their own accord and with direction from the brain that ruled most men's thinking process, cupped Harry's firm buttocks. He suppressed the groan that threatened to escape at the contact of their bodies and how much he wanted to be inside of Harry. "What can I do to make you come with me?"
"Just keep holding me like this," Harry whispered, not caring if the entire world heard him say that. All he could feel was the warmth coming from Severus's body. "Severus, why are you here? Why are you trying so hard to get me to come back with you?"
"Because," Severus placed a soft kiss to Harry's temple, "I've been just as lonely as you. Because you deserve to be happy."
Harry smiled sadly, pulling away from Severus. "Not everyone can be happy. Severus...you've changed. You're actually touching me without yelling at me first and telling me that I have to do my best if I'm ever going to defeat Voldemort." He wouldn't cry. Not in front of Severus. "Why the change of heart?"
"Does that matter?"
"I guess not." Harry sighed. "Is this an elaborate scheme to get me to return? This......this what you're doing."
"You always so mistrusting?"
"I haven't had much of a choice." Harry glanced at the position of the sun, deciding what time it was. "Don't you have classes this afternoon?"
"I doubt they will say anything if I'm late."
Harry nodded. "You should go. I will be here tonight if you want to...to pursue whatever this is that we're doing."
"I'll be here. Goodbye, Harry." Severus leant his head towards Harry's, pressing his lips to Harry's in a chaste kiss that had them both wanting more but neither wanted to hasten the beautiful beginnings of what could become a relationship. Severus knew it would take more then word and kisses to convince Harry that he wasn't alone and that he truly cared for Harry.
Harry watched at Severus disappeared from sight. Kogane dropped the cloak on Harry's head. *Did I not tell you?*
"So you did," Harry grinned, "So you did."
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Fast? Yes, most definitely but...it'll take a while for Harry to actually return to Hogwart's.
Thanks for reviewing. :) Review again.
THanks to: pixyfairy120, corgi1 (....I went too fast. lol) selua, A typical Snarry fan (the title of chapter three means: time flies and we fly with it) Immortal Memories, slytherinsela, Cardinal, Xenocide