Shout Outs:
Caliente: thankies thankies! and behold I updated hehehe. Hope ya like this chapter.
Ujiji: I'm glad you like my fic and the way I tie in the songs, most of the time they just further to help you the readers understand how the character or characters are feeling during the particular chapters, but sometimes like in the chapter with Bon Jovi's "Bed of Roses" it will actually have a part in the story itself. heh.
The Untouchable Rogue: hehehe you want fluff! Behold some fluff! chapter five has some fluff in it hehehe, but this will be aaaall and only Rogue and Remy teehee! *sneakily slips ya more chocolate* Chocolate good yes yes! hehe I'm a chocoaholic if you haven't guessed. And yes funny convo, gotta have a lil humor. ^_^
Lupine Draconis:Weee!!! Fav Authors' list alright! *does a victory dance* Yes there shall be more Kurt prolly not much in this chappy, buuuut next chappy after this. And hail Romyness heh!
ishandahalf: Thanks, had to do something to break the chain a lil with some action heh. I really suck at writing fights I think, but you upped my confidence so woo! *hugs* And Rogue won't exactly give in just yet, but she's bout to give him a chance so to speak, this baby is FAR from over. *nods nods* And course Remy is gunna keep working hard to woo said chere heh, wouldn't have it any different. *smirks*
sage(): hehehe thanks! Glad you like the twist, hope you like some of the ones in this chapter. I juuuust live to keep my readers on their toes and the edge of their seats heh. Drama. Drama. Drama. *says it all like the dark haired chic from "How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days".*
Legal stoof: No I don't own X-Men Evolution, but I own Gambit now! Er...well so it's a plushie. *coughs* So I don't reeally own him. Damn. *snaps fingers* Anyhow I don't own the song neither, Garbage does.
Author's Note: This chapter might remind you of a certain comic issue that alot of people myself included state that was the beginning of Rogue and Gambit's relationship, be warned it will not be exactly like it just based refferances on it and to it. *nods nods* Oh and juust for Lupine Draconis, Kurt is gonna make an appearance in this chappy. And people say writer's don't do favors for their readers. HA! oh also a little bit of Logan too and Kitty because my friend Ray gets a kick out of her heh.
~telepathy~ Small note the ~ thingies will be used in this chapter for astral plane talking also.
' thoughts'
(lyrics)
--- scene seperator
Let Go.
Chapter 7: Fix Me Now
(Things don't have to be this way Catch me on a better day...)
The sun had begun to set, painting the autumn sky various hues and shades of red, orange, pink, purple, and yellow. The Southern Goth was still on the roof, she had spent all day up there and had no problems with spending all night either. Her mind was swirling and whirling, the voices that still happened to be inside her head that Apoclypse had left behind all telling her to do different things. However at the moment, Logan's voice was the strongest.
~ Stripes?~
Rogue felt her body shudder slightly, a cold feeling passing over her form as her mind slipped into the astral plains of itself ~ Yeah Logan?~ before her stood the psyche imprint of her mentor and father-like figure.
~Sure has gotten cleared out since I was last in here.~
She nodded ~ Thanks ta Apoclypse.~ For a moment her green eyes scanned the dark torrents that made up her fragile and messed up head ~ Sorry tha scenery hasn't changed much.~ With a sigh she sat down indian style much the way she was now poised on the roof.
~No worries kid, so what you going to do about Gumbo? He's pretty taken with ya.~
The River Rat sighed, just what was she going to do about Remy? ~ Ah dunno Logan...~
~ I know and you know and hell even he knows ya like'im so whats the problem Stripes?~
She shrugged ~ Reckon ah'm scared...an' how do ah know he's jus' not playin' games?~
~ Believe me when I say this Rogue but he's not.~ Logan looked around a moment then smiled to her~ Well my time is up, I better go now.~ With that his image faded letting Rogue know that he was awake.
~ Bye Logan, see ya later an'...ah'm sorry.~
END OF FLASH BACK...
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Her green orbs stared out into the jumble of glittering stars that lined the dark velvet covered heavens above her. Her mind was still apt to play the conversation she had had with Logan's psyche over and over again," Whut am ah gunna do..." Drawning her knees up against her form, Rogue rested her chin on the crest of her knees for the time being. Her mind was full, but for once it was not of the thoughts of other, but her own thoughts instead. Slowly a light breeze began to blow, tossling her auburn and white locks this way and that as a few leaves scattered across the roof tiles.
The smell of tabacco slowly became apperant to her nose. Slowly the Goth turned, her gaze falling on--," Remy. " her tone took a cold turn within the raspy decants. Moving her head she now once more stared out into the dark star filled sky.
"Aw, Chere, don' be like dat." Slowly he came up behind her, trench coat billowing in the breeze a gloved hand coming to rest on her shoulder which was bare considering she only was wearing the black tank that resided on her form under either the purple wrap-a-round or the green mesh top.
At the feel of his hand she pulled away sharply," Leave me alone." Folding her arms, she rested them on her knees and then her head nestled with a plop into them.
" Non. Remy can't do dat Rogue, sorry." He knelt down somewhat behind her, tossing away his cig with a pop as it exploded thanks to a small charge of Kinetic energy.
(Bury me above the clouds All the way from here Take away the things I need Take away my fear...)
" Go ta Hell." She would not look at him she would not acknowledge him save for speaking," Ah'm not jus' some girl ya can' romance then toss away once ya git whut ya want ya know." finally she indeed looked at him, her emerald stare shooting daggers," Ah mean how tha hell do ah know that once ya figure out yer neva gunna be able ta touch me or if gawd willin a means comes inta play so ya can that after ya do ya jus' won't drop me like a bad apple an' go ta someone else?" Her gaze did not move from him at all, infact it was her that zeroed in on his demon stare and held it.
He sighed then nodded," Remy--"
" Until ya can treat me like ah'm a human bein' don't bother Swamp Rat." She glared," Ah ain't no damned prize ta be won... despite mah bein a mutant ah want someone ta hold me an' ta tell me-- promise me everythins' gunna be okay. With all tha shit ah've been through it's the least this gal can ask for." With that she turned away and ignored him.
For a moment Gambit simply knelt there, looking at her and suddenly finding her very beautiful, the way her hair was blowing in the breeze, how when she turned to face him it was obvious she had been crying for all the make-up that normally occupied her features was gone, washed away by tears of hurt and sadness. He want to tell her all she longed to hear...to take away her fears and doubt. But like her, he was afraid too, afraid to hurt her, afraid of the fact he was falling and falling hard for the untouchable goth. Giving a silent nod, Remy stood and left Rogue alone ' Don't worry chere Remy be back' He thought to himself, to her.
She felt him leave, it hurt and it hurt bad. Closing her eyes she tried to press away the tears, but still they fell, like sad sad rain drops from the partly closed lids. Forever alone, no matter what she would always be that, alone.
Carefully he had ported behind the chimney across the roof from Gambit and his half-sister, having heard the conversation, Kurt sighed. This had not been a good time for Rogue at all, and inpart Kurt felt as her half-brother he should have been there more for her. Slowly he approached her," Vogue?"
"Ah told--" She whirled around, green orbs full of vengance," Oh...Kurt. Howdy." Slowly her accusing stare grew soft, a little more placid despite her current mood. Kurt did not deserve her wrath, no one really did, not even Remy in all honesty when she stopped and thought about it.
Quickly at the sound of her voice, Kurt back pedaled a few steps," Whoa...did Vemy make you mad again? He seems to be doing that alot lately." The German born mutant settled himself next to his sister, his blue tail with an arrow like end curling around him as he sits," Anything you wanna talk about?"
Licking her lips a moment, Rogue remained silent ' Should ah tell him or?...' She asked herself then decided it was best she had," Not really...more like ah make mahself mad." Indifferently the Goth shrugged," Nuthin' new there ah supose, s'cept this time it's cuz ah think ah'm bein' silly." Her emerald irises darted away from Kurt, surely he knew what she had meant.
It took him a moment, but he got the jist of his sister's meaning and nodded," I see, so you like Vemy the and are to afriad to admit it is that right?" Kurt could not believe this...after all the trouble that Cajun Thief had caused for her, she still liked him!?! Why was deffinitely beyond the blue fuzzy dude.
Solomnly she nodded," Pretty much, ya hit tha nail right on tha head Kurt." She looked away knowing Kurt did not approve of Remy, but at least Logan did, or at least she thinks.
" I see, so whats so special about him?" Kurt droled uninterestedly.
" He...ah dunno...doesn't seem afraid o'me, when everyone else steps back from me, he steps forward." maybe he really did care...now that she put it that way to herself 'Ah hope ah wasn't to hard on Remy...Ah'm jus' angry an' tired of everythin'.'
Kurt nodded," Ya know Vogue, I don't step back from you."
" Oh ya so sure bout that Elf?" Just to prove her point, Rogue lifted one of her gloved hands and slowly moved it towards her brother.
He flinched away from her then sighed," Okay, okay point proven..." Suddenly Kurt felt very bad indeed, standing he looked towards his sister," Night Vogue."
Sadly Rogue nodded, she had hoped Kurt would have proved her wrong, but like the rest of them well besides Logan and Remy, but even Logan had his moments of fear with her Kurt had flinched," Night."
( Hide me in a hollow sound Happy evermore Everything I had to give Gave out long before...)
In a puff of smoke that smelled much like fire and brimstone her half brother was gone and once more Rogue found herself alone once more with her own thoughts. She did not want to be alone with her thoughts at all, but she did not want to be around anyone else either. Chewing on her lower lip, the Mississippi native slowly reconsided to her thoughts and silence.
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Kitty wanted to make sure Rogue was okay, but just to show up on the roof like that without an excuse would probly make Rogue mad. the idea that her room mate and friend had not ate all day came quickly to mind. Scurrying down towards the kitchen, the computer whiz began to make the Southern Goth some food, her favorite; grilled cheese on sourdough, cajun Pringles. and a can of Sprite Remix.
Once everything was settled on a tray, Kitty made her way to the roof, using Storm's skylight and walked up to Rogue on tense footing," Um..Hey Rogue." The younger girl shuffled her feet a moment," Thought that maybe like you were hungry...so um...I like made your favorite." Smiling nerviously, Kathrine Pryde placed the tray down by Rogue and turned to leave her in peace.
Slowly Rogue lifted her head and looked at the tray at her side, then glanced back at Kitty's retreating form, her green stare becoming soft," Kit wait...why don'tcha come an' eat with me, ah can give ya half of tha sandwhich and what not sugah." She flashed her room mate a quick and rather forced smile.
Kitty paused. Had she heard Rogue right? Share...with her...? Instantly the brown haired girl turned," Sure." The smile was returned, tho not forced as she sat cross legged next to Rogue," So...what happened between you and Gambit?" Quickly the teen put her attention onto halfing the sandwhich for herself and Rogue.
" Well..." Rogue took a bite of the grilled cheese," He kissed me." She spoke after swallowing and while openning the can of Sprite Remix.
Kitty gasped," Ooo! Was it like nice?" Then took a bite of sandwhich herself, eyes not leaving the gothic girl at all.
She shrugged indifferently," Yeah...ah mean ah ain't got much ta compare it ta, he was mah first kiss." taking a sip of soda, careful not to backwash she offered it to Kitty.
Her slender manicured hand took the pop can from the gloved one and took a drink before handing it back," Wow." Was all she could think of, this was like the most juicest thing Kitty had heard in quite a while, not sense Jean broke up with Duncan Matthews to date Scott anyways.
Rogue laughed. She couldn't help it really," Wow? Ah...ah dun' git whut all tha fuss is bout, ah mean it was jus' a kiss." She spoke nonchalantly, shrugging it off when infact it had been a very big deal to her as she popped a couple of chips in her mouth. Spicey, she loved them they were her favorite...and suddenly they made her think of him and his cologne, they way he smelled, the way he tasted.
(Fix me now I wish you would (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now) Kiss me blind somebody should (Fix me now) From hollow into light...)
Kitty just stared," Like hello! he was your FIRST kiss girlie!"
She shrugged again," So? An' prolly mah last too." Obviously Kitty was not getting the impression that Rogue did not really give a damn, or maybe she was seeing through the southerner's facade.
The perky teen shook her head," I think you like don't realize it when you got a good thing when you have it Rogue. Seriously Remy is like crushing bad on you and you like act like it's nothing, like it doesn't mean a damn." Kitty was becoming frusterated with her friend," You know it's when you push people away that makes them act like they don't care." tears began to form in her soft brown gaze.
Suddenly Rogue felt like shit to put it bluntly," Ah'm...ah'm sorry Kit it's jus' ah--" She looked down," Ah figure that if ah don't care an' push people away it keeps'em safe, cuz then they don't, can't or won't git close ta me." Silence over took her and she finished up her half of the sandwhich," An' bout Remy...ah dun' have him, ah pushed an' ah dun' think he's comin' back."
Kitty sat there for a moment, just staring at Rogue," Okay so...you got freaky powers and like wear gloomy gothic stuff and all, but why would we not care about you in like the first place? Rogue being an X-Man-- Err, Woman means you're like part of a family. We're not icky Mystique or the dumb Brotherhood, we like really care. You know just like get your act together. It really, really hurts me to think you think I don't or wouldn't care about you." The Halfpint became quickly stubborn and slowly a single tear rolled down her pink cheek.
"Aw...Kit ah'm sorry really ah-ah didn't know..." Suddenly Rogue did something unexpected, she hugged the crying girl.
At first Kitty's reaction would have been to pull away, but she didn't, she wanted to let Rogue know she cared and would always be there for her," Well it's not like I blame you..." sniffle," If I had your powers I'd like be the same way I'm totally sure." Slowly the younger girl's arms came around the Goth careful not to touch her bare skin.
She was the first to pull away, never really having been a physical person anyhow, even as a little girl Irene or Mystique could never get a hug out of the girl. Using her gloved index finger she wiped away the younger girl's tears," Dun't cry gal, an' for all it's worth ah'm sorry ah treat y'all like shit. But ah am glad ya know an' understand why..." Slowly Rogue smiled, and it was real this time.
(Crashing silent broken down Falling into night Who gave up an who gave in I'll go without a fight...)
Sniffling still Kitty ate a few more chips and looked around before glancing at her watch," Like wow, good thing I don't have like school tomorrow or anything, same with you." High above them the moon was now taking hold on the middle of the sky," It's like three am."
Rogue amused, her and Kitty had been talking for at least an hour or so, it was funny how the two of them being total opposites of each other were really in truth such good friends. Infact the River Rat would dare to say they were almost like sisters," It is huh, ya look sleepy Kit why don'cha go git some rest."
The teen looked to her friend a moment and then yawned," Kay, all like take this stuff back with me if you're like done." She smiled, though sleepy," And Rogue um.." She stood holding the tray and looked down at the Goth a moment," Thanks."
Rogue blinked," For?"
" For being like a sister to me, like the sister I'll never have." She smiled giving setting the tray down again and hugged her once more quick like," Also like give Remy chance, I mean he is sooooo cuute and all. He's not a bad guy either and like he really cares about you, or so he told Logan in the med lab."
Again Rogue found herself smiling," Thanks Kit an' bout tha sisters thin' ah've always thought of ya like a lil' sis."
Kitty nodded," Like welcome, totally. " She picked up the tray once again and then looked at Rogue," Aren't you going to like try and get some sleep?"
"Prolly not gal, too much goin' on in mah head." Once again Rogue hugged her knees to her and sighed.
" Is it like the voices again...should I go and like get the Professor?" Kitty expression became worried.
"No. No. Jus' alot on mah mind with mah own thoughts. Nuthin' ta worry bout Kit."
Kitty breathed a deep sigh of relief," Good and like don't forget about what I said about Remy."
" An' jus' what did de Pe'ite say hm?" Remy was back, holding something behind his back and smirking like the cat ate the canary while looking at Kitty, he had heard what she had said, but he wanted her to say it again with him there to gauge Rogue's reaction.
" I said that she," She pointed a manicured nail towards Rogue," should give you a chance." Smirking herself with a giggle, Kitty phased down from the roof and out of sight.
Remy chuckled," Funny fille dat one is." He looked to Rogue and then calmly walked forward.
" Ah thought ah told ya ta go ta hell..." Once more she became defensive and cold towards him, her body turning away, her gaze set on the horizon ahead.
" An' Remy t'ought he tol' you dat he was in 'ell for two years and has no intentions of every goin back." He countered her, tired of being pushed away and this time she could push all she wanted, but he would come back just as strong," I like dat Kitty fille, she got de right idea you ought to give Remy a chance, whut you got to lose hnn?" Before she could answer he dangled a single red rose infront of her face," Un joli s'est levé pour une belle fille."
Her green orbs stared coldly at the flower and ever colder at the person who held it out to her. ' Jus' take it..." She told herself and finally after a few moments of contemplation and arguing with herself she gently took the rose and lifted the bloom to her nose and breathed it in deeply," Merci." Rogue grinned sheepishly at Remy.
" Ah! A grin. Remy do somet'ing right he take it?" Once more he knelt somewhat behind her," Had to go t'rough alot of trouble to get dat flower for mon chere ya know. 'Ro made me promise I'd mow for a week. Merde!" He smirked, shifting somewhat closer to her, to whisper in her ear," But it wort' de price do see you smile Rogue." Slowly he ran a gloved finger through her hair," Anyt'ing is wort' it for you."
(Cut me down or cut me dead Cut me in or out Kiss me blind time after time Take away my doubt...)
She shivered slightly at his vice near her ear," Git away!" Instantly her body turned, her own gloved hand coming into contact with his chest to push him away.
he saw the move coming as she turned and he was ready," Non. You ain't pushin' dis Cajun away no more Rogue." With that he grabbed her hand and held it tight, but not enough to hurt her.
" Damnit! An' damn you! Why won't you jus' give it tha hell up? Why?" Tears boiled hot behind her eyes making them dance slightly as she tried to fight them off only to feel them roll down her cheeks.
"Cuz dispite what goes on inside a dat head o'yours I care Rogue and you can't stop people form carin' no matter how hard you push dem away." Slowly his thumb began to rub her knuckles.
"Yer jus' playin' games..ah know all bout ya! 'Member ya where in mah head til Apoc stole it all from me!" Her free hand began to beat against his chest now and her crying slowly became sobs. She was slowly breaking and he was breaking her, she could feel it peice by peice everything of her hard exterior cracking like the shell of an egg.
Once again he caught the hand that now beat against his chest and pulled her too him," Bullshit Rogue. You jus' scared, scared dat someone actually gives a damn sides Kitty an' Kurt and de Teachers and de Prof."
Her eyes went wide as he pulled her too him," Yea' well cows do to, but they dun' advertise it." She kept her face cold and her eyes cruel despite the fact she was breaking apart.
He laughed," Good one Chere'."
" Stop laughin' yer makin' fun o'me!" She scowled as he laughed even more.
" Ya know you even cuter when you mad at me. Remy feel très spécial." He smirked, moving her hands so she was now trapped with his arms going around her.
" Yer a pain in mah ass!"
"Remercies bébé." Remy smirked, his hands now sliding up and down her back," You tense chere, Remy t'ink he needs to work a lil' massage magic on ya." he wiggled his brows at her.
" Ya dun't listen do ya? There ya go again." She scowled at him then pulled out of his embrace and stood up stalking over to the east side of the roof," Go away Gambit." The raspy accent was crisp and sure on the last word as she glared at him before turning away arms folded watching the sky as it slowly began to get lighter slightly.
(Fix me now I wish you would {Fix me now I wish you would} (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now) Kiss me blind somebody should {Kiss me blind somebody should} (Fix me now) From hollow into light ...)
That was all it took. He snapped again and stalked up behind her taking ahold of her arm and turning her around to face him, his face inches from her's," An' you don' listen either Rogue."With quick and sure movements a hankerchef was produced from his pocket and was then tied so it covered her mouth just so.
" Whut in tarnation do ya thin--"Her muffled voice was quickly cut off as his lips met her's roughly through the cloth. her eyes went wide as she tried to fight him, but he held her tighter the more she fought. Slowly she flet her knees becoming weak, and she wasn't the only one. Quickly Remy supported her lifting her wirey frame just enough so her feet no longer touched the roof anymore.
Finally Remy pulled away briefly, his demon gaze glowing in the semi-darkness of the now early morning, his breathing heavy as he stared into her startled eyes," Ssh.N'ayez pas peur, mais fichu quand vous devenez fâché contre moi il m'excite et alors je ne peux pas m'aider. J'ai besoin de vous Rogue, je t'aime, je vous veux comme je n'ai avant jamais voulu n'importe quelle autre fille dans ma vie et pas simplement en raison de vos puissances ou parce qu'ils vous font un défi; mais parce que du moment je vous ai vu j'étais dans l'amour."His tone husky. Finally he had gotten out the words he had wanted to, sure it had been in french, but something told him from a comment of her's earlier she understood the language enough to understand what he meant.
She just stared at him, her eyes blinking unbelievably. She couldn't speak, she had nothing to say instead she turned away from him slowly and faced the on-coming dawn and removing the hankerchef from her face, gripping it tightly in her gloved hand while her arms folded," Ah'm...ah'm cold." She stuttered out meekly.
Remy grinned inwardly and removed his trench coat slowly slipping it around her shoulders and then his arms around her, holding her against him from behind," Everyt'ings gunna be okay chere."
Leaning her head back against his shoulder she slowly smiled softly, her eyes closing," Promise?"
" Oui. Remy promise Rogue."He nussled into her hair, breathing her in.
" Good."
Beyond them the morning sun had began to rise slowly and lazily into the sky, Remy thought to himself as it was a sign of a beginning he hoped for himself and Rogue, but something told him he still would have to work to win her heart and love, but at least this was a good start and a good sign.
(Things don't have to be this way
Catch me on a better day
Nowhere only down from here
Pick me off the floor
Take away the things I dream
One time one place one more
Fix me now I wish you would {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now)
Kiss me blind somebody should {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now)
From hollow into
Fix me now I wish you would {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now)
Kiss me blind somebody should {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now) From hollow into light
Things don't have to be this way
Catch me on a better day
Things don't have to be this way
Catch me on a better day. )
TBC
Author's Note: I alllllmoooooost ended it there, but thought naw, I'll drag this out a little more mostly cuz of all my devoted readers *showers them with chocolate* And the fact I'm having fun with this hehehe. Read and review! *blows kisses* Love y'all!
TRANSLATIONS:
Un joli s'est levé pour une belle fille- Translation: A pretty rose for a beautiful girl.
très spécial- Translation: Very special
Remercies bébé- Translation: Thanks babe
N'ayez pas peur, mais fichu quand vous devenez fâché contre moi il m'excite et alors je ne peux pas m'aider. J'ai besoin de vous Rogue, je t'aime, je vous veux comme je n'ai avant jamais voulu n'importe quelle autre fille dans ma vie et pas simplement en raison de vos puissances ou parce qu'ils vous font un défi; mais parce que du moment je vous ai vu j'étais dans l'amour. -
Translation: Do not be afraid, but damn when you get angry at me it turns me on and then I cannot help myself. I need you Rogue, I love you, I want you like I've never wanted any other girl before in my life and not just because of your powers or because they make you a challenge; but because from the moment I saw you I was in love.
Caliente: thankies thankies! and behold I updated hehehe. Hope ya like this chapter.
Ujiji: I'm glad you like my fic and the way I tie in the songs, most of the time they just further to help you the readers understand how the character or characters are feeling during the particular chapters, but sometimes like in the chapter with Bon Jovi's "Bed of Roses" it will actually have a part in the story itself. heh.
The Untouchable Rogue: hehehe you want fluff! Behold some fluff! chapter five has some fluff in it hehehe, but this will be aaaall and only Rogue and Remy teehee! *sneakily slips ya more chocolate* Chocolate good yes yes! hehe I'm a chocoaholic if you haven't guessed. And yes funny convo, gotta have a lil humor. ^_^
Lupine Draconis:Weee!!! Fav Authors' list alright! *does a victory dance* Yes there shall be more Kurt prolly not much in this chappy, buuuut next chappy after this. And hail Romyness heh!
ishandahalf: Thanks, had to do something to break the chain a lil with some action heh. I really suck at writing fights I think, but you upped my confidence so woo! *hugs* And Rogue won't exactly give in just yet, but she's bout to give him a chance so to speak, this baby is FAR from over. *nods nods* And course Remy is gunna keep working hard to woo said chere heh, wouldn't have it any different. *smirks*
sage(): hehehe thanks! Glad you like the twist, hope you like some of the ones in this chapter. I juuuust live to keep my readers on their toes and the edge of their seats heh. Drama. Drama. Drama. *says it all like the dark haired chic from "How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days".*
Legal stoof: No I don't own X-Men Evolution, but I own Gambit now! Er...well so it's a plushie. *coughs* So I don't reeally own him. Damn. *snaps fingers* Anyhow I don't own the song neither, Garbage does.
Author's Note: This chapter might remind you of a certain comic issue that alot of people myself included state that was the beginning of Rogue and Gambit's relationship, be warned it will not be exactly like it just based refferances on it and to it. *nods nods* Oh and juust for Lupine Draconis, Kurt is gonna make an appearance in this chappy. And people say writer's don't do favors for their readers. HA! oh also a little bit of Logan too and Kitty because my friend Ray gets a kick out of her heh.
~telepathy~ Small note the ~ thingies will be used in this chapter for astral plane talking also.
' thoughts'
(lyrics)
--- scene seperator
Let Go.
Chapter 7: Fix Me Now
(Things don't have to be this way Catch me on a better day...)
The sun had begun to set, painting the autumn sky various hues and shades of red, orange, pink, purple, and yellow. The Southern Goth was still on the roof, she had spent all day up there and had no problems with spending all night either. Her mind was swirling and whirling, the voices that still happened to be inside her head that Apoclypse had left behind all telling her to do different things. However at the moment, Logan's voice was the strongest.
~ Stripes?~
Rogue felt her body shudder slightly, a cold feeling passing over her form as her mind slipped into the astral plains of itself ~ Yeah Logan?~ before her stood the psyche imprint of her mentor and father-like figure.
~Sure has gotten cleared out since I was last in here.~
She nodded ~ Thanks ta Apoclypse.~ For a moment her green eyes scanned the dark torrents that made up her fragile and messed up head ~ Sorry tha scenery hasn't changed much.~ With a sigh she sat down indian style much the way she was now poised on the roof.
~No worries kid, so what you going to do about Gumbo? He's pretty taken with ya.~
The River Rat sighed, just what was she going to do about Remy? ~ Ah dunno Logan...~
~ I know and you know and hell even he knows ya like'im so whats the problem Stripes?~
She shrugged ~ Reckon ah'm scared...an' how do ah know he's jus' not playin' games?~
~ Believe me when I say this Rogue but he's not.~ Logan looked around a moment then smiled to her~ Well my time is up, I better go now.~ With that his image faded letting Rogue know that he was awake.
~ Bye Logan, see ya later an'...ah'm sorry.~
END OF FLASH BACK...
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Her green orbs stared out into the jumble of glittering stars that lined the dark velvet covered heavens above her. Her mind was still apt to play the conversation she had had with Logan's psyche over and over again," Whut am ah gunna do..." Drawning her knees up against her form, Rogue rested her chin on the crest of her knees for the time being. Her mind was full, but for once it was not of the thoughts of other, but her own thoughts instead. Slowly a light breeze began to blow, tossling her auburn and white locks this way and that as a few leaves scattered across the roof tiles.
The smell of tabacco slowly became apperant to her nose. Slowly the Goth turned, her gaze falling on--," Remy. " her tone took a cold turn within the raspy decants. Moving her head she now once more stared out into the dark star filled sky.
"Aw, Chere, don' be like dat." Slowly he came up behind her, trench coat billowing in the breeze a gloved hand coming to rest on her shoulder which was bare considering she only was wearing the black tank that resided on her form under either the purple wrap-a-round or the green mesh top.
At the feel of his hand she pulled away sharply," Leave me alone." Folding her arms, she rested them on her knees and then her head nestled with a plop into them.
" Non. Remy can't do dat Rogue, sorry." He knelt down somewhat behind her, tossing away his cig with a pop as it exploded thanks to a small charge of Kinetic energy.
(Bury me above the clouds All the way from here Take away the things I need Take away my fear...)
" Go ta Hell." She would not look at him she would not acknowledge him save for speaking," Ah'm not jus' some girl ya can' romance then toss away once ya git whut ya want ya know." finally she indeed looked at him, her emerald stare shooting daggers," Ah mean how tha hell do ah know that once ya figure out yer neva gunna be able ta touch me or if gawd willin a means comes inta play so ya can that after ya do ya jus' won't drop me like a bad apple an' go ta someone else?" Her gaze did not move from him at all, infact it was her that zeroed in on his demon stare and held it.
He sighed then nodded," Remy--"
" Until ya can treat me like ah'm a human bein' don't bother Swamp Rat." She glared," Ah ain't no damned prize ta be won... despite mah bein a mutant ah want someone ta hold me an' ta tell me-- promise me everythins' gunna be okay. With all tha shit ah've been through it's the least this gal can ask for." With that she turned away and ignored him.
For a moment Gambit simply knelt there, looking at her and suddenly finding her very beautiful, the way her hair was blowing in the breeze, how when she turned to face him it was obvious she had been crying for all the make-up that normally occupied her features was gone, washed away by tears of hurt and sadness. He want to tell her all she longed to hear...to take away her fears and doubt. But like her, he was afraid too, afraid to hurt her, afraid of the fact he was falling and falling hard for the untouchable goth. Giving a silent nod, Remy stood and left Rogue alone ' Don't worry chere Remy be back' He thought to himself, to her.
She felt him leave, it hurt and it hurt bad. Closing her eyes she tried to press away the tears, but still they fell, like sad sad rain drops from the partly closed lids. Forever alone, no matter what she would always be that, alone.
Carefully he had ported behind the chimney across the roof from Gambit and his half-sister, having heard the conversation, Kurt sighed. This had not been a good time for Rogue at all, and inpart Kurt felt as her half-brother he should have been there more for her. Slowly he approached her," Vogue?"
"Ah told--" She whirled around, green orbs full of vengance," Oh...Kurt. Howdy." Slowly her accusing stare grew soft, a little more placid despite her current mood. Kurt did not deserve her wrath, no one really did, not even Remy in all honesty when she stopped and thought about it.
Quickly at the sound of her voice, Kurt back pedaled a few steps," Whoa...did Vemy make you mad again? He seems to be doing that alot lately." The German born mutant settled himself next to his sister, his blue tail with an arrow like end curling around him as he sits," Anything you wanna talk about?"
Licking her lips a moment, Rogue remained silent ' Should ah tell him or?...' She asked herself then decided it was best she had," Not really...more like ah make mahself mad." Indifferently the Goth shrugged," Nuthin' new there ah supose, s'cept this time it's cuz ah think ah'm bein' silly." Her emerald irises darted away from Kurt, surely he knew what she had meant.
It took him a moment, but he got the jist of his sister's meaning and nodded," I see, so you like Vemy the and are to afriad to admit it is that right?" Kurt could not believe this...after all the trouble that Cajun Thief had caused for her, she still liked him!?! Why was deffinitely beyond the blue fuzzy dude.
Solomnly she nodded," Pretty much, ya hit tha nail right on tha head Kurt." She looked away knowing Kurt did not approve of Remy, but at least Logan did, or at least she thinks.
" I see, so whats so special about him?" Kurt droled uninterestedly.
" He...ah dunno...doesn't seem afraid o'me, when everyone else steps back from me, he steps forward." maybe he really did care...now that she put it that way to herself 'Ah hope ah wasn't to hard on Remy...Ah'm jus' angry an' tired of everythin'.'
Kurt nodded," Ya know Vogue, I don't step back from you."
" Oh ya so sure bout that Elf?" Just to prove her point, Rogue lifted one of her gloved hands and slowly moved it towards her brother.
He flinched away from her then sighed," Okay, okay point proven..." Suddenly Kurt felt very bad indeed, standing he looked towards his sister," Night Vogue."
Sadly Rogue nodded, she had hoped Kurt would have proved her wrong, but like the rest of them well besides Logan and Remy, but even Logan had his moments of fear with her Kurt had flinched," Night."
( Hide me in a hollow sound Happy evermore Everything I had to give Gave out long before...)
In a puff of smoke that smelled much like fire and brimstone her half brother was gone and once more Rogue found herself alone once more with her own thoughts. She did not want to be alone with her thoughts at all, but she did not want to be around anyone else either. Chewing on her lower lip, the Mississippi native slowly reconsided to her thoughts and silence.
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Kitty wanted to make sure Rogue was okay, but just to show up on the roof like that without an excuse would probly make Rogue mad. the idea that her room mate and friend had not ate all day came quickly to mind. Scurrying down towards the kitchen, the computer whiz began to make the Southern Goth some food, her favorite; grilled cheese on sourdough, cajun Pringles. and a can of Sprite Remix.
Once everything was settled on a tray, Kitty made her way to the roof, using Storm's skylight and walked up to Rogue on tense footing," Um..Hey Rogue." The younger girl shuffled her feet a moment," Thought that maybe like you were hungry...so um...I like made your favorite." Smiling nerviously, Kathrine Pryde placed the tray down by Rogue and turned to leave her in peace.
Slowly Rogue lifted her head and looked at the tray at her side, then glanced back at Kitty's retreating form, her green stare becoming soft," Kit wait...why don'tcha come an' eat with me, ah can give ya half of tha sandwhich and what not sugah." She flashed her room mate a quick and rather forced smile.
Kitty paused. Had she heard Rogue right? Share...with her...? Instantly the brown haired girl turned," Sure." The smile was returned, tho not forced as she sat cross legged next to Rogue," So...what happened between you and Gambit?" Quickly the teen put her attention onto halfing the sandwhich for herself and Rogue.
" Well..." Rogue took a bite of the grilled cheese," He kissed me." She spoke after swallowing and while openning the can of Sprite Remix.
Kitty gasped," Ooo! Was it like nice?" Then took a bite of sandwhich herself, eyes not leaving the gothic girl at all.
She shrugged indifferently," Yeah...ah mean ah ain't got much ta compare it ta, he was mah first kiss." taking a sip of soda, careful not to backwash she offered it to Kitty.
Her slender manicured hand took the pop can from the gloved one and took a drink before handing it back," Wow." Was all she could think of, this was like the most juicest thing Kitty had heard in quite a while, not sense Jean broke up with Duncan Matthews to date Scott anyways.
Rogue laughed. She couldn't help it really," Wow? Ah...ah dun' git whut all tha fuss is bout, ah mean it was jus' a kiss." She spoke nonchalantly, shrugging it off when infact it had been a very big deal to her as she popped a couple of chips in her mouth. Spicey, she loved them they were her favorite...and suddenly they made her think of him and his cologne, they way he smelled, the way he tasted.
(Fix me now I wish you would (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now) Kiss me blind somebody should (Fix me now) From hollow into light...)
Kitty just stared," Like hello! he was your FIRST kiss girlie!"
She shrugged again," So? An' prolly mah last too." Obviously Kitty was not getting the impression that Rogue did not really give a damn, or maybe she was seeing through the southerner's facade.
The perky teen shook her head," I think you like don't realize it when you got a good thing when you have it Rogue. Seriously Remy is like crushing bad on you and you like act like it's nothing, like it doesn't mean a damn." Kitty was becoming frusterated with her friend," You know it's when you push people away that makes them act like they don't care." tears began to form in her soft brown gaze.
Suddenly Rogue felt like shit to put it bluntly," Ah'm...ah'm sorry Kit it's jus' ah--" She looked down," Ah figure that if ah don't care an' push people away it keeps'em safe, cuz then they don't, can't or won't git close ta me." Silence over took her and she finished up her half of the sandwhich," An' bout Remy...ah dun' have him, ah pushed an' ah dun' think he's comin' back."
Kitty sat there for a moment, just staring at Rogue," Okay so...you got freaky powers and like wear gloomy gothic stuff and all, but why would we not care about you in like the first place? Rogue being an X-Man-- Err, Woman means you're like part of a family. We're not icky Mystique or the dumb Brotherhood, we like really care. You know just like get your act together. It really, really hurts me to think you think I don't or wouldn't care about you." The Halfpint became quickly stubborn and slowly a single tear rolled down her pink cheek.
"Aw...Kit ah'm sorry really ah-ah didn't know..." Suddenly Rogue did something unexpected, she hugged the crying girl.
At first Kitty's reaction would have been to pull away, but she didn't, she wanted to let Rogue know she cared and would always be there for her," Well it's not like I blame you..." sniffle," If I had your powers I'd like be the same way I'm totally sure." Slowly the younger girl's arms came around the Goth careful not to touch her bare skin.
She was the first to pull away, never really having been a physical person anyhow, even as a little girl Irene or Mystique could never get a hug out of the girl. Using her gloved index finger she wiped away the younger girl's tears," Dun't cry gal, an' for all it's worth ah'm sorry ah treat y'all like shit. But ah am glad ya know an' understand why..." Slowly Rogue smiled, and it was real this time.
(Crashing silent broken down Falling into night Who gave up an who gave in I'll go without a fight...)
Sniffling still Kitty ate a few more chips and looked around before glancing at her watch," Like wow, good thing I don't have like school tomorrow or anything, same with you." High above them the moon was now taking hold on the middle of the sky," It's like three am."
Rogue amused, her and Kitty had been talking for at least an hour or so, it was funny how the two of them being total opposites of each other were really in truth such good friends. Infact the River Rat would dare to say they were almost like sisters," It is huh, ya look sleepy Kit why don'cha go git some rest."
The teen looked to her friend a moment and then yawned," Kay, all like take this stuff back with me if you're like done." She smiled, though sleepy," And Rogue um.." She stood holding the tray and looked down at the Goth a moment," Thanks."
Rogue blinked," For?"
" For being like a sister to me, like the sister I'll never have." She smiled giving setting the tray down again and hugged her once more quick like," Also like give Remy chance, I mean he is sooooo cuute and all. He's not a bad guy either and like he really cares about you, or so he told Logan in the med lab."
Again Rogue found herself smiling," Thanks Kit an' bout tha sisters thin' ah've always thought of ya like a lil' sis."
Kitty nodded," Like welcome, totally. " She picked up the tray once again and then looked at Rogue," Aren't you going to like try and get some sleep?"
"Prolly not gal, too much goin' on in mah head." Once again Rogue hugged her knees to her and sighed.
" Is it like the voices again...should I go and like get the Professor?" Kitty expression became worried.
"No. No. Jus' alot on mah mind with mah own thoughts. Nuthin' ta worry bout Kit."
Kitty breathed a deep sigh of relief," Good and like don't forget about what I said about Remy."
" An' jus' what did de Pe'ite say hm?" Remy was back, holding something behind his back and smirking like the cat ate the canary while looking at Kitty, he had heard what she had said, but he wanted her to say it again with him there to gauge Rogue's reaction.
" I said that she," She pointed a manicured nail towards Rogue," should give you a chance." Smirking herself with a giggle, Kitty phased down from the roof and out of sight.
Remy chuckled," Funny fille dat one is." He looked to Rogue and then calmly walked forward.
" Ah thought ah told ya ta go ta hell..." Once more she became defensive and cold towards him, her body turning away, her gaze set on the horizon ahead.
" An' Remy t'ought he tol' you dat he was in 'ell for two years and has no intentions of every goin back." He countered her, tired of being pushed away and this time she could push all she wanted, but he would come back just as strong," I like dat Kitty fille, she got de right idea you ought to give Remy a chance, whut you got to lose hnn?" Before she could answer he dangled a single red rose infront of her face," Un joli s'est levé pour une belle fille."
Her green orbs stared coldly at the flower and ever colder at the person who held it out to her. ' Jus' take it..." She told herself and finally after a few moments of contemplation and arguing with herself she gently took the rose and lifted the bloom to her nose and breathed it in deeply," Merci." Rogue grinned sheepishly at Remy.
" Ah! A grin. Remy do somet'ing right he take it?" Once more he knelt somewhat behind her," Had to go t'rough alot of trouble to get dat flower for mon chere ya know. 'Ro made me promise I'd mow for a week. Merde!" He smirked, shifting somewhat closer to her, to whisper in her ear," But it wort' de price do see you smile Rogue." Slowly he ran a gloved finger through her hair," Anyt'ing is wort' it for you."
(Cut me down or cut me dead Cut me in or out Kiss me blind time after time Take away my doubt...)
She shivered slightly at his vice near her ear," Git away!" Instantly her body turned, her own gloved hand coming into contact with his chest to push him away.
he saw the move coming as she turned and he was ready," Non. You ain't pushin' dis Cajun away no more Rogue." With that he grabbed her hand and held it tight, but not enough to hurt her.
" Damnit! An' damn you! Why won't you jus' give it tha hell up? Why?" Tears boiled hot behind her eyes making them dance slightly as she tried to fight them off only to feel them roll down her cheeks.
"Cuz dispite what goes on inside a dat head o'yours I care Rogue and you can't stop people form carin' no matter how hard you push dem away." Slowly his thumb began to rub her knuckles.
"Yer jus' playin' games..ah know all bout ya! 'Member ya where in mah head til Apoc stole it all from me!" Her free hand began to beat against his chest now and her crying slowly became sobs. She was slowly breaking and he was breaking her, she could feel it peice by peice everything of her hard exterior cracking like the shell of an egg.
Once again he caught the hand that now beat against his chest and pulled her too him," Bullshit Rogue. You jus' scared, scared dat someone actually gives a damn sides Kitty an' Kurt and de Teachers and de Prof."
Her eyes went wide as he pulled her too him," Yea' well cows do to, but they dun' advertise it." She kept her face cold and her eyes cruel despite the fact she was breaking apart.
He laughed," Good one Chere'."
" Stop laughin' yer makin' fun o'me!" She scowled as he laughed even more.
" Ya know you even cuter when you mad at me. Remy feel très spécial." He smirked, moving her hands so she was now trapped with his arms going around her.
" Yer a pain in mah ass!"
"Remercies bébé." Remy smirked, his hands now sliding up and down her back," You tense chere, Remy t'ink he needs to work a lil' massage magic on ya." he wiggled his brows at her.
" Ya dun't listen do ya? There ya go again." She scowled at him then pulled out of his embrace and stood up stalking over to the east side of the roof," Go away Gambit." The raspy accent was crisp and sure on the last word as she glared at him before turning away arms folded watching the sky as it slowly began to get lighter slightly.
(Fix me now I wish you would {Fix me now I wish you would} (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now) Kiss me blind somebody should {Kiss me blind somebody should} (Fix me now) From hollow into light ...)
That was all it took. He snapped again and stalked up behind her taking ahold of her arm and turning her around to face him, his face inches from her's," An' you don' listen either Rogue."With quick and sure movements a hankerchef was produced from his pocket and was then tied so it covered her mouth just so.
" Whut in tarnation do ya thin--"Her muffled voice was quickly cut off as his lips met her's roughly through the cloth. her eyes went wide as she tried to fight him, but he held her tighter the more she fought. Slowly she flet her knees becoming weak, and she wasn't the only one. Quickly Remy supported her lifting her wirey frame just enough so her feet no longer touched the roof anymore.
Finally Remy pulled away briefly, his demon gaze glowing in the semi-darkness of the now early morning, his breathing heavy as he stared into her startled eyes," Ssh.N'ayez pas peur, mais fichu quand vous devenez fâché contre moi il m'excite et alors je ne peux pas m'aider. J'ai besoin de vous Rogue, je t'aime, je vous veux comme je n'ai avant jamais voulu n'importe quelle autre fille dans ma vie et pas simplement en raison de vos puissances ou parce qu'ils vous font un défi; mais parce que du moment je vous ai vu j'étais dans l'amour."His tone husky. Finally he had gotten out the words he had wanted to, sure it had been in french, but something told him from a comment of her's earlier she understood the language enough to understand what he meant.
She just stared at him, her eyes blinking unbelievably. She couldn't speak, she had nothing to say instead she turned away from him slowly and faced the on-coming dawn and removing the hankerchef from her face, gripping it tightly in her gloved hand while her arms folded," Ah'm...ah'm cold." She stuttered out meekly.
Remy grinned inwardly and removed his trench coat slowly slipping it around her shoulders and then his arms around her, holding her against him from behind," Everyt'ings gunna be okay chere."
Leaning her head back against his shoulder she slowly smiled softly, her eyes closing," Promise?"
" Oui. Remy promise Rogue."He nussled into her hair, breathing her in.
" Good."
Beyond them the morning sun had began to rise slowly and lazily into the sky, Remy thought to himself as it was a sign of a beginning he hoped for himself and Rogue, but something told him he still would have to work to win her heart and love, but at least this was a good start and a good sign.
(Things don't have to be this way
Catch me on a better day
Nowhere only down from here
Pick me off the floor
Take away the things I dream
One time one place one more
Fix me now I wish you would {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now)
Kiss me blind somebody should {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now)
From hollow into
Fix me now I wish you would {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now) Bring me back to life (Fix me now)
Kiss me blind somebody should {Fix me now somebody should} (Fix me now) From hollow into light
Things don't have to be this way
Catch me on a better day
Things don't have to be this way
Catch me on a better day. )
TBC
Author's Note: I alllllmoooooost ended it there, but thought naw, I'll drag this out a little more mostly cuz of all my devoted readers *showers them with chocolate* And the fact I'm having fun with this hehehe. Read and review! *blows kisses* Love y'all!
TRANSLATIONS:
Un joli s'est levé pour une belle fille- Translation: A pretty rose for a beautiful girl.
très spécial- Translation: Very special
Remercies bébé- Translation: Thanks babe
N'ayez pas peur, mais fichu quand vous devenez fâché contre moi il m'excite et alors je ne peux pas m'aider. J'ai besoin de vous Rogue, je t'aime, je vous veux comme je n'ai avant jamais voulu n'importe quelle autre fille dans ma vie et pas simplement en raison de vos puissances ou parce qu'ils vous font un défi; mais parce que du moment je vous ai vu j'étais dans l'amour. -
Translation: Do not be afraid, but damn when you get angry at me it turns me on and then I cannot help myself. I need you Rogue, I love you, I want you like I've never wanted any other girl before in my life and not just because of your powers or because they make you a challenge; but because from the moment I saw you I was in love.