Disclaimers – If I did own Teen Titans Season 1 would not be over with and I would not have to wait months for Season 2.

Warnings – It's Pg-13 right now but it might progress to Rated R. If you don't like cursing, flirting or suggestive limes please don't read!

I'm going to admit something now; I'm really bad at updating, so to help me please review. It motivates me and I don't get lazy, ^_^''. What a sly way to say review! I put a saying at the beginning of each chappie and it has to do with what is in the chapter. If you can guess what each saying has to do with each chappie, I'll give you a prize. But to start off I'll tell you what the first proverb meant.

"You can't have everything, where would you put it?" – Unknown. This phrase referred to Robin. He wants Starfire and he wants to stay in the life he lives now, he can't have both. Saa, on with the fic.

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"O my dove, in the retreats of the crag, in the concealed place of the steep way, show me your form, let me hear your voice, for your voice is pleasurable and your form is comely." – Song of Solomon.

"So could you please

Help me understand why,

You've given into all these

Reckless dark desires . . . " A Perfect Circle – The Outsider

Robin twisted around to look at the girl in his bed. She had a shocked expression on her face, and as he moved into the rising dawn's light, he studied her profile more, as she studied his. Her bangs were gone he noticed, she had let them grow to shoulder length, he thought they looked nice. Her outfit was pretty much the same despite the pants, and once again he mentally categorized her figure; 34 C (cup size) -- 22 in (waist size) – 38 (hip size). Not perfect of course because there was no such thing, but it looked absolutely good on her so that was all that mattered. Her hair was a little longer, but it stopped at her waist. Her eyes were still that same emerald, but they looked a little brighter now, and he noticed that they changed shades depending on her mood. Right now they were really bright – she was frightened.

Starfire looked at Robin and tried to comprehend all these changes in him. He was about 5"11 now, he had grown with his age which she had known he would. He was 16 when he had left them last July, so since it was about to be June (his birthday month) in another month he was almost 17. His costume molded to his body, and she observed his arms and legs, which were thick and corded, but somehow despite his obvious strength, his body had a lean look to it. His stomach looked like it had 6 deep cut blocks in it, and then she remembered the proper term for his stomach, washboard.

One day when Starfire had been at the mall she had walked past a bunch of girls crowded around a poster of a boy modeling a pair of jeans called "Pepe" with no shirt on. One of the girls had stated how she wished her boyfriend looked like that, and another said she would pay a lot of money to run her hands over a washboard stomach like that. Starfire had been surprised to hear a term like that used to describe a part of the body that she thought was called "abs". And now Starfire was looking at a living example of a washboard stomach, and she found herself blushing though she didn't fully understand what the statement meant. She had to break this dark mood she felt coming on, she couldn't take these heavy feelings.

"Robin your stomach looks like it has 6 sharp cuts in it, but I know that is not true. You have what is called a washboard stomach and that seems odd to me, why would someone want to wash boards on your stomach?" Starfire asked full of innocence. He laughed, not chuckled. He outright laughed, a booming voice that scared her -- a little – and made her move back on his bed. His laughing stopped abruptly, and he stepped of the balcony and in that instant he was at her side.

"Are you scared of me, Star?" His voice it was so deep, so different from what she remembered, and she admitted to herself that she was. But she would not tell him that, no Robin was her friend and she would not say anything to hurt him.

"No Robin, I am not," she lied. But he knew it was a lie, because her eyes told him everything. She knew he knew, and her embarrassment caused her to look downward and away. She tried to think of something anything, to get rid of this bad feeling in her heart.

"Robin how did you seem to fly over here so quickly from where you were standing before," she asked. Robin's face lost any show of emotion, and when she looked at him for her answer she had to choke a rising scream of fear. He looked emotion less, dead to all feelings; this was something that not even Raven looked like on her worst days.

"Oh yes, I did say I wanted to talk didn't I?" He sounded cold; she was not familiar with this emotion coming from him. At least he had never sounded cold when he was talking to her.

"When I was a Teen Titan," Starfire cringed at the way he said Teen Titan. "I could hold my own in battle just as good as Cyborg or any of you with your powers. When Slade took me in we did some tests. I am human yes, but I have been gifted with certain mutated genes that make me faster, smarter, stronger than any human being. All Slade did was advance these genes, he made them dominant in my blood, and now if I want to go one on one with Cinderblock I could, and in the process I could probably break one of his arms."

Robin sounded smug, as if being taken in by Slade was a good thing. "But Robin why didn't you just come to us to make you "better"? We would have made a machine or whatever type of equipment Slade used to make you different. We would have found a way to help you we are your friends. Why do you hate us now?" That last question had slipped out to fast for Starfire to catch; she had not meant to ask that.

"At first I was with Slade unwillingly, he had blasted the 4 of you with probes that would make you explode inside out. He threatened me with your death if I didn't do what he said. When I started stealing for him, I hated it, but he knew that it excited me. One day about ten months ago, he threatened to kill you all for the fun of it, to see what I would do. He's in a permanent coma now, because of what I did to him," Robin admitted.

"But if the probes are to make us die, why do we fall asleep instead?"

"Because I altered the reaction of the probes one day soon after Slade had been brought down. I didn't want you involved when I was doing something, I didn't want to have to fight you, so instead you fall into a sleep. It's easier for both sides this way," Robin told her as he began to pace around the room.

Starfire watched him, how could she reach him? "How did you change the reaction of the probes inside of us without being near us?"

"I snuck in one night while you slept, and injected your arms with a serum. I also took some of my weapons and things out of my old room." Starfire knew this; she had often visited his room in the past months. Always searching for a way to be near him.

"Why do you talk about the past in such a mean way Robin?" He cringed to hear his name come out of her mouth. She said his name like he was lost from her, like she would never see him again.

"Because the past means nothing, all that matters is the future," he said. He was back at the balcony now, looking out and away from her. Starfire rose from the bed and floated softly over to him.

"So all those good times meant nothing? Everything we shared as a team meant nothing? Everything you and I shared as best friends meant nothing?" she asked him softly, fearful of what his answer would be.

He didn't answer at first, how could he? And then he turned swiftly on her as if she was the enemy, and maybe in a way she was. He grabbed her arms and before she could blink she was up against a wall, being held in an iron grip.

"Don't try to help me, okay? Don't try to make me remember anything about what we did; it doesn't matter now. I didn't bring you here to dredge up the past; I brought you here because I need you in my future. Don't try any of your nice, psychoanalysis bullshit on me, I don't fucking need it," he said this through clenched teeth, trying to force his point on her, and trying to force it on himself as well.

Starfire's eyes were closed; she was thoroughly terrified; how had Robin become this strong? She tried to even her breathing, it would do her no good to succumb to her fears now, which would not help the situation.

He watched her struggle with her fear; he had not truly meant to scare her. He needed her cheerfulness and not her fear to help him live his life.

"If you do not want the past Robin, then why am I here?" She asked, eyes still closed, not wanting to see his reaction. He responded by softly murmuring

"This is why"

- Before he kissed her.

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"We can't find her unless he wants us to," Raven said as she sat floating in the air.

"You want to know what I think?" Beastboy asked putting on a face of true genius. Before Cyborg and Raven could get out no, he spoke. "I think Robins truly a vampire and wants Starfire to be his vampire queen. After all he did kinda have a crush on her when he was here," he mused, with a true look of thinking on his face. His response was two super hard pillows thrown at him.

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She attempted to shove him away, he was stronger than her, but he noticed her movements were not that of encouragement. He lifted his face as she lifted her arm and punched him.

"If you are expecting me to be happy that you have put your lips upon mine in what earth people call kissing you are very mistaken, Robin." Robin's eyes grew, he did now know her voice could sound so deadly and yet innocent at the same time. "Do not act like a romantic person in the novels that earth girls are so crazy about. I am not someone who will fall madly in love with the person who kidnaps her, after putting her through months of emotional pain. I am not that weak and ignorant towards mating customs to know that that is pathetic and an extremely stupid way to go about love," Starfire was burnt out. Her anger was gone as quickly as it had come, at least now she hoped she had gotten her point across.

"Robin," her voice was soft now, tired even. "Do I look like I have on a dress with my boobs spilling out?"

"No," he sounded like himself when he said that word, Starfire almost hugged him at the sound of his voice, but she had something to say first.

"Then do not treat me like that please. You are my friend, and I hope that you still believe I am yours." Robin let her go, and Starfire reached up to rub her arms.

Robin looked at her, what could he say? "I have some business to attend to, I will be back later. If you want to sleep in your underwear like you normally do, wrap a cover around yourself." Starfire blushed deeply, how on earth did he know?

He looked at her blush, why couldn't kiss her? Why wouldn't she let him kiss her? "I know about the underwear because I came at night when I put the serum in your bodies like I said before, I saw everything." And he left then, not giving her a chance to say anything.

Starfire slid down the balcony wall as thousands of thoughts ran through her head. If he kissed her again, she doubted she would be able to turn him away. And this would be bad, because she would betray Raven, Cyborg, and Beastboy if she did, and she could not do this. But she could not refuse Robin too strongly either. How was she to choose between friends?

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"Anything you wish I will give it to you," Robin told her truthfully.

"Then let me go home," Starfire said, emerald eyes pleading with him.

"This is your home now," Robin informed her and left her standing in the room alone.