Disclaimer~ I don't own Inuyasha or any related characters.
Dialog~ "Meep meep meep."
Thoughts~ 'Meep meep meep.'
Authors note~ I got a good amount of reviews for the fifth chapter and I'm very satisfied with that. I really love the way this story is turning out and I'm happy to see others like it. Hope you enjoy Sango's reaction in this chapter. It'll be interesting to see what results between these two. Any way I wont bother you with my babbling any longer.
Chapter 6
Sango stiffened. Part of her felt giddy knowing he was falling in love with her but part of her also felt hurt when he said he was afraid of falling in love with her. Sango's silence told it all. She was mixed up.
Miroku could feel her frustration and had to elaborate for her. "It's not that I don't want to fall in love. I just don't want you to get involved with my mess of a life. You should forget me and find someone more worthy of you." Miroku loosened his grip around Sango's waist.
Sango shook her head and tightened her grip around Miroku. "Why do you say things like that? What are you hiding?"
Miroku cringed at the word hiding. In the back of his mind he knew what Sango said was true, he was hiding. "Sango please. Lets not do this. I don't want to get you involved. Someone as sweet as you shouldn't concern herself about someone like me."
An extreme amount of pain went through Sango. She was getting close to reaching out to him but he still wouldn't trust her. She wanted him to trust her. She wanted to get to know him, but she was beginning to think her efforts were futile. "Do you push everyone away who wants to help you?"
Miroku was caught off guard by the question and was entirely frustrated with the way the conversation was going. 'Shit! She's got me trapped in a corner. What do I say to her?' Miroku sighed. "It's better that way. Then nobody will get hurt." Miroku let go of Sango and avoided her warm and caring gaze for fear of being pulled back in.
Sango noticed Miroku's eyes averting her and felt a tinge of pain run through her. "I just have one question. I'm still confused. How would you be hurting someone if you let them help you?" Sango repositioned herself so that she was standing right in front of Miroku, their eyes meeting each other.
Miroku again avoided eye contact with Sango. "I hold a lot of painful secrets. The kinds of secrets that can damn near kill someone. I don't want to share my pain with others. I would rather them be happy and not worry about me."
Sango put a hand on Miroku's shoulder pulling him towards her. Sango looked straight into Miroku's eyes as if she was staring deep into his soul. "That's not what you want though. You want to be loved and cared for."
Miroku looked into Sango's eyes and an overwhelming feeling of warmth and happiness filled him. "You're right, I do want to be loved and cared for. But people don't care about me, they pity me, the two aren't the same."
Sango nodded wearily. "You're right Miroku, they aren't the same. However, if you never let anyone get close you'll never know who really does care."
Miroku played with the words carefully in his mind trying to absorb the full meaning of Sango's statement. "Suppose I did let someone get close to me. So close I even loved them, then what? Everyone I've ever cared about has died. I don't want to have to feel that sort of pain again, it hurts too much."
The sudden realization of why Miroku doesn't want anyone to get close to him suddenly dawned on Sango. 'He's afraid of having feelings for someone and then loosing them. So that's why. That's why he pushes everyone away.' "Let me help you get rid of some of this pain. Nobody can go it alone. Even if you're afraid of loosing someone it doesn't always turn out that way."
Miroku breathed deeply and closed his eyes, trying to search for the right decision within himself. Miroku opened his eyes and looked back at Sango. "You're right, things don't always turn out that way but I'm still." Miroku trailed off looking down at his feet.
Sango took another step towards him. The two of them now very near each other. "Still what, Miroku?"
Miroku stiffened. "I'm still afraid. You have to realize, I've never been shown a great amount of affection and then if I suddenly have it I'm just so afraid I'll get too attached to it and if it's ever taken away I'll be devastated." Miroku turned his attention from the floor back up at Sango. "Does that make any sense, or am I making something out of what should be nothing?"
Sango truly felt for Miroku the sadness she felt for him showed deeply. 'What can I say to him? He's lost so much and has been through so much pain. How can I reassure him that having someone care for him wont hurt him? When through his whole life everyone who he's ever cared about dies.'
Sango inched a little closer to Miroku. The two of them were nearly touching one another. An overwhelming feeling to comfort Miroku came over Sango. She wanted to be there for him, she wanted to hold him close to her; she wanted to be with him. She needed to be with him, she was somehow drawn to him, emotionally and physically.
"Miroku, I'll be honest with you. It's not easy for someone to get over things that have happened in the past. I just want you to let me be there for you, for your own sake. You need someone."
Sango's kind words filled Miroku with a great feeling of affection and tenderness. 'This pain it's all too much I have to let go maybe I can. Maybe I can if there is someone there for me, someone who cares about me. I want her to get close to me, I want to feel what others feel when they're loved by someone.'
Miroku smiled at Sango, the kind of smile that isn't forced, it just happens. A whole-hearted smile, a true smile. "If you want to be there for me, then be with me." Miroku wrapped his arms securely around Sango's waist and pulled her in close to him, her head resting on his well-built chest.
A wave of emotion ran through Sango. She would have never guessed Miroku would respond this way. She closed her eyes feeling safe and content in his strong grasp. 'I don't want this moment to ever end. I could stay in his arms forever.'
The feeling of love and affection Miroku had lost came rushing back to him. The wonderful sensation of holding someone close to him tingled throughout his body. He had long forgotten what it felt like to hold someone in such a way. "Sango, I hate to say this but people are beginning to stare. Maybe we should stop hugging each other. It feels awkward doing this in the lunchroom."
Sango turned a deep shade of red, nearly crimson. 'Damnit! The perfect moment ruined!' "I'm sorry Miroku. I just sort of forgot where we were." Sango tried to crack a smile even though she was extremely embarrassed.
Miroku smiled and let go of Sango's waist. "Don't worry, we can go somewhere private later and talk. We'll have other opportunities."
Sango nodded happily. "Right. That's sounds fine." Sango's stomach began to growl. She hadn't eaten a thing all day and was starving.
Miroku heard Sango's stomach growl and laughed. "I forgot we haven't eaten anything yet. Lets grab some lunch and sit down. There's still some time left in the period."
"Good! Cause I'm starving!"
Miroku smiled at the girl's enthusiasm. "Lets go then." The two of them walked off together and got in line for lunch.
Inuyasha just stood there dumbfounded. "Kagome, are my eyes playing tricks on me or was Miroku just hugging Sango?"
Kagome just stood there for a moment shaking her head. "If that's the case then I think we both need to get our eyes checked, Inuyasha."
Inuyasha slightly chuckled. "That's what I thought."
Miroku and Sango breezed through the line considering it was late in the lunch hour and quickly walked back to the table where Inuyasha and Kagome were already eating at. The two of them sat down next to each other and began to scarf down the nearly inedible food.
Kagome watched them wide-eyed and slightly afraid. "I think they're both very hungry or on drugs."
Inuyasha nodded, still watching the two of them shoveling the food down their throats. "They must be on drugs. I've never seen anyone eat a school meal like that. Even if they are starving, damn!"
Kagome nodded in agreement. "I think you maybe right for once, Inuyasha."
"Well, if that's the case I really want whatever they're smoking, really, really bad."
Kagome elbowed Inuyasha in the stomach. "Inuyasha that's a horrible thing to say! But. They are acting pretty strangely."
Inuyasha let out a small groan. "You stupid wench! I just got done eating, what the hell were you thinking!?"
Kagome shot Inuyasha her infamous evil glare. "Inuyasha."
Inuyasha quickly ran away from Kagome and hid behind Miroku. "Damn she's a scary bitch sometimes."
Miroku put done his spoon and sighed. "I can't eat anymore of this shit. Even hunger has its limits." Miroku ogled the strange gooey substance wiggling about his plate. "Is that suppose to be j-e-l-l-o or something?
Inuyasha shook his head. "Nah man, I think it's pudding."
Sango over heard the conversation and grinned. "You know there's only one way to find out Miroku. You could always eat it."
A shiver crawled down Miroku's spine. "Eat it? You have got to be kidding me! The last place I would want to die is here at school due to food poisoning or god knows what else may be in there that could kill me."
Kagome pulled out a fifty-dollar bill from her pocket and flashed it out for Miroku to see. "This fifty is yours if you eat whatever the hell it is."
Miroku gulped. 'The fifty is so tempting. But. But.' Miroku glanced down at the strange thing on his trey. It was friggen smiling at him, smiling. Miroku shook his head and regained focus. "Okay, so if I eat whatever the hell that strange blob thing is that's smiling at me I get fifty bucks?"
"Uh huh. That's the deal Miroku. That is if you live to get the fifty."
Miroku smiled mockingly at Kagome. "Very funny." He lifted up his spoon, it began shaking in his grasp. He scooped up a big glob of the scary pudding j- e-l-l-o mixture and raised the spoon to his mouth. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes tightly. 'God help me.'
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Okay, I know I left it at a crappy place but hey I'm tired and I didn't feel liking writing more. My last 2-3 chapters were very long updates some almost 14 pages long. I would say six-seven pages is quite a bit and the content is fairly good to keep you satisfied till my next update. I have to be honest with you I had this all ready to go on Wednesday but I ended up re-writing it about 3 times. The third time is the charm and I believe it's true for this chapter. Hope you like it, please review. Arigato! ^^
Inu-shounen~ I hope you like the re-write after I had let you read both the other versions of this chapter.
Sweet-Chaos~ Sounds very interesting, I may have to check that out.
Naanaami~ Thanks a lot! I know this took a while to update but they'll come quicker.
Lar Lar~ You flatter me.
Aamalie~ Energetic as ever. Thanks though, I appreciate the compliment. And I just know how you love cliffies.
Hush~ I'm not mad, don't worry about it. Sango-chan~ That really sucks about not being able to review but I'm glad it went through. I was happy to hear from ya.
Rain angst~ Thanks a lot for reviewing again, hope you liked the chapter.
Soli-chan~ Wow! I didn't think people wanted to know that bad. Gomen about the cliffie but it was just so tempting.
Rissi-sama~ Gahd you're a spaz! I luv it! HA HA HA! Thanks! ^_^
AssassinReiX~ Glad you love it, sorry I'll try to update faster in the future if possible.
Sammi~ Well, I too hope this came soon enough for you so that you didn't grow impatient with me.
Small-Buttercup~ YOU REVIWED! *HUGGLES* I'M SO HAPPY!
THANKS TO ALL MY REVIEWERS! YOU ALL KICK ASS! YAY!
Next chapter~ Will Miroku die of food poisoning? Will he chicken out? Does anyone even care!?
Well, that's all for now,
Adios
Zero.
Dialog~ "Meep meep meep."
Thoughts~ 'Meep meep meep.'
Authors note~ I got a good amount of reviews for the fifth chapter and I'm very satisfied with that. I really love the way this story is turning out and I'm happy to see others like it. Hope you enjoy Sango's reaction in this chapter. It'll be interesting to see what results between these two. Any way I wont bother you with my babbling any longer.
Chapter 6
Sango stiffened. Part of her felt giddy knowing he was falling in love with her but part of her also felt hurt when he said he was afraid of falling in love with her. Sango's silence told it all. She was mixed up.
Miroku could feel her frustration and had to elaborate for her. "It's not that I don't want to fall in love. I just don't want you to get involved with my mess of a life. You should forget me and find someone more worthy of you." Miroku loosened his grip around Sango's waist.
Sango shook her head and tightened her grip around Miroku. "Why do you say things like that? What are you hiding?"
Miroku cringed at the word hiding. In the back of his mind he knew what Sango said was true, he was hiding. "Sango please. Lets not do this. I don't want to get you involved. Someone as sweet as you shouldn't concern herself about someone like me."
An extreme amount of pain went through Sango. She was getting close to reaching out to him but he still wouldn't trust her. She wanted him to trust her. She wanted to get to know him, but she was beginning to think her efforts were futile. "Do you push everyone away who wants to help you?"
Miroku was caught off guard by the question and was entirely frustrated with the way the conversation was going. 'Shit! She's got me trapped in a corner. What do I say to her?' Miroku sighed. "It's better that way. Then nobody will get hurt." Miroku let go of Sango and avoided her warm and caring gaze for fear of being pulled back in.
Sango noticed Miroku's eyes averting her and felt a tinge of pain run through her. "I just have one question. I'm still confused. How would you be hurting someone if you let them help you?" Sango repositioned herself so that she was standing right in front of Miroku, their eyes meeting each other.
Miroku again avoided eye contact with Sango. "I hold a lot of painful secrets. The kinds of secrets that can damn near kill someone. I don't want to share my pain with others. I would rather them be happy and not worry about me."
Sango put a hand on Miroku's shoulder pulling him towards her. Sango looked straight into Miroku's eyes as if she was staring deep into his soul. "That's not what you want though. You want to be loved and cared for."
Miroku looked into Sango's eyes and an overwhelming feeling of warmth and happiness filled him. "You're right, I do want to be loved and cared for. But people don't care about me, they pity me, the two aren't the same."
Sango nodded wearily. "You're right Miroku, they aren't the same. However, if you never let anyone get close you'll never know who really does care."
Miroku played with the words carefully in his mind trying to absorb the full meaning of Sango's statement. "Suppose I did let someone get close to me. So close I even loved them, then what? Everyone I've ever cared about has died. I don't want to have to feel that sort of pain again, it hurts too much."
The sudden realization of why Miroku doesn't want anyone to get close to him suddenly dawned on Sango. 'He's afraid of having feelings for someone and then loosing them. So that's why. That's why he pushes everyone away.' "Let me help you get rid of some of this pain. Nobody can go it alone. Even if you're afraid of loosing someone it doesn't always turn out that way."
Miroku breathed deeply and closed his eyes, trying to search for the right decision within himself. Miroku opened his eyes and looked back at Sango. "You're right, things don't always turn out that way but I'm still." Miroku trailed off looking down at his feet.
Sango took another step towards him. The two of them now very near each other. "Still what, Miroku?"
Miroku stiffened. "I'm still afraid. You have to realize, I've never been shown a great amount of affection and then if I suddenly have it I'm just so afraid I'll get too attached to it and if it's ever taken away I'll be devastated." Miroku turned his attention from the floor back up at Sango. "Does that make any sense, or am I making something out of what should be nothing?"
Sango truly felt for Miroku the sadness she felt for him showed deeply. 'What can I say to him? He's lost so much and has been through so much pain. How can I reassure him that having someone care for him wont hurt him? When through his whole life everyone who he's ever cared about dies.'
Sango inched a little closer to Miroku. The two of them were nearly touching one another. An overwhelming feeling to comfort Miroku came over Sango. She wanted to be there for him, she wanted to hold him close to her; she wanted to be with him. She needed to be with him, she was somehow drawn to him, emotionally and physically.
"Miroku, I'll be honest with you. It's not easy for someone to get over things that have happened in the past. I just want you to let me be there for you, for your own sake. You need someone."
Sango's kind words filled Miroku with a great feeling of affection and tenderness. 'This pain it's all too much I have to let go maybe I can. Maybe I can if there is someone there for me, someone who cares about me. I want her to get close to me, I want to feel what others feel when they're loved by someone.'
Miroku smiled at Sango, the kind of smile that isn't forced, it just happens. A whole-hearted smile, a true smile. "If you want to be there for me, then be with me." Miroku wrapped his arms securely around Sango's waist and pulled her in close to him, her head resting on his well-built chest.
A wave of emotion ran through Sango. She would have never guessed Miroku would respond this way. She closed her eyes feeling safe and content in his strong grasp. 'I don't want this moment to ever end. I could stay in his arms forever.'
The feeling of love and affection Miroku had lost came rushing back to him. The wonderful sensation of holding someone close to him tingled throughout his body. He had long forgotten what it felt like to hold someone in such a way. "Sango, I hate to say this but people are beginning to stare. Maybe we should stop hugging each other. It feels awkward doing this in the lunchroom."
Sango turned a deep shade of red, nearly crimson. 'Damnit! The perfect moment ruined!' "I'm sorry Miroku. I just sort of forgot where we were." Sango tried to crack a smile even though she was extremely embarrassed.
Miroku smiled and let go of Sango's waist. "Don't worry, we can go somewhere private later and talk. We'll have other opportunities."
Sango nodded happily. "Right. That's sounds fine." Sango's stomach began to growl. She hadn't eaten a thing all day and was starving.
Miroku heard Sango's stomach growl and laughed. "I forgot we haven't eaten anything yet. Lets grab some lunch and sit down. There's still some time left in the period."
"Good! Cause I'm starving!"
Miroku smiled at the girl's enthusiasm. "Lets go then." The two of them walked off together and got in line for lunch.
Inuyasha just stood there dumbfounded. "Kagome, are my eyes playing tricks on me or was Miroku just hugging Sango?"
Kagome just stood there for a moment shaking her head. "If that's the case then I think we both need to get our eyes checked, Inuyasha."
Inuyasha slightly chuckled. "That's what I thought."
Miroku and Sango breezed through the line considering it was late in the lunch hour and quickly walked back to the table where Inuyasha and Kagome were already eating at. The two of them sat down next to each other and began to scarf down the nearly inedible food.
Kagome watched them wide-eyed and slightly afraid. "I think they're both very hungry or on drugs."
Inuyasha nodded, still watching the two of them shoveling the food down their throats. "They must be on drugs. I've never seen anyone eat a school meal like that. Even if they are starving, damn!"
Kagome nodded in agreement. "I think you maybe right for once, Inuyasha."
"Well, if that's the case I really want whatever they're smoking, really, really bad."
Kagome elbowed Inuyasha in the stomach. "Inuyasha that's a horrible thing to say! But. They are acting pretty strangely."
Inuyasha let out a small groan. "You stupid wench! I just got done eating, what the hell were you thinking!?"
Kagome shot Inuyasha her infamous evil glare. "Inuyasha."
Inuyasha quickly ran away from Kagome and hid behind Miroku. "Damn she's a scary bitch sometimes."
Miroku put done his spoon and sighed. "I can't eat anymore of this shit. Even hunger has its limits." Miroku ogled the strange gooey substance wiggling about his plate. "Is that suppose to be j-e-l-l-o or something?
Inuyasha shook his head. "Nah man, I think it's pudding."
Sango over heard the conversation and grinned. "You know there's only one way to find out Miroku. You could always eat it."
A shiver crawled down Miroku's spine. "Eat it? You have got to be kidding me! The last place I would want to die is here at school due to food poisoning or god knows what else may be in there that could kill me."
Kagome pulled out a fifty-dollar bill from her pocket and flashed it out for Miroku to see. "This fifty is yours if you eat whatever the hell it is."
Miroku gulped. 'The fifty is so tempting. But. But.' Miroku glanced down at the strange thing on his trey. It was friggen smiling at him, smiling. Miroku shook his head and regained focus. "Okay, so if I eat whatever the hell that strange blob thing is that's smiling at me I get fifty bucks?"
"Uh huh. That's the deal Miroku. That is if you live to get the fifty."
Miroku smiled mockingly at Kagome. "Very funny." He lifted up his spoon, it began shaking in his grasp. He scooped up a big glob of the scary pudding j- e-l-l-o mixture and raised the spoon to his mouth. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes tightly. 'God help me.'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~End of chapter~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Okay, I know I left it at a crappy place but hey I'm tired and I didn't feel liking writing more. My last 2-3 chapters were very long updates some almost 14 pages long. I would say six-seven pages is quite a bit and the content is fairly good to keep you satisfied till my next update. I have to be honest with you I had this all ready to go on Wednesday but I ended up re-writing it about 3 times. The third time is the charm and I believe it's true for this chapter. Hope you like it, please review. Arigato! ^^
Inu-shounen~ I hope you like the re-write after I had let you read both the other versions of this chapter.
Sweet-Chaos~ Sounds very interesting, I may have to check that out.
Naanaami~ Thanks a lot! I know this took a while to update but they'll come quicker.
Lar Lar~ You flatter me.
Aamalie~ Energetic as ever. Thanks though, I appreciate the compliment. And I just know how you love cliffies.
Hush~ I'm not mad, don't worry about it. Sango-chan~ That really sucks about not being able to review but I'm glad it went through. I was happy to hear from ya.
Rain angst~ Thanks a lot for reviewing again, hope you liked the chapter.
Soli-chan~ Wow! I didn't think people wanted to know that bad. Gomen about the cliffie but it was just so tempting.
Rissi-sama~ Gahd you're a spaz! I luv it! HA HA HA! Thanks! ^_^
AssassinReiX~ Glad you love it, sorry I'll try to update faster in the future if possible.
Sammi~ Well, I too hope this came soon enough for you so that you didn't grow impatient with me.
Small-Buttercup~ YOU REVIWED! *HUGGLES* I'M SO HAPPY!
THANKS TO ALL MY REVIEWERS! YOU ALL KICK ASS! YAY!
Next chapter~ Will Miroku die of food poisoning? Will he chicken out? Does anyone even care!?
Well, that's all for now,
Adios
Zero.