Apart of me~ a inu-fic by Kiyoushi
Chapter 2 *I didn't know how much I loved you until I lost you.*
A/N: OMG! I didn't know so many of you would like this one! I think I'll update maybe once every few days, homework's a bitch. Well, thanks for reading and review at the end of this because if I have 5 reviews still when I plan to update, you get no update! Life can be cruel huh? Screw homework! Screw Kikyou (because I hate her) and screw all you people who read this and didn't review! MWAHAHA! He he, excuse my ranting, I had a bad day at school, too much homework, and 2 stories to update ^^ but don't get down! I'll update no matter what!!!!!
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Chapter 2 - I didn't know how mush I loved you until I lost you.
InuYasha stepped forward and took Kagome's body out of Kikyou's arms, then started to run. It started to rain, like the sora was crying for Kagome, for him. He didn't understand this, not at all, but he needed to be away from everyone to at least try.
"Why, Kagome, why?" he asked the limp corpse in his arms as he came to a stop and hopped into a tree. He shook her as if she was asleep, his tears mingling with the raindrops on his face, that dampened his hair, that soaked his clothes, the body's clothes, yet he didn't care. He just wanted her back.
"I should be happy, I have Kikyou back, and alive," he told himself, but deep inside he knew that if he had to choose between Kagome staying alive and Kikyou gaining life again, he would pick the former. He didn't have the right to make such decisions. But then again, she had done this on her own.
He took a long look at his life. He was born of a ningen kaasan and a taiyoukai tou-san. He was an inu-hanyou with a hateful ane who didn't give a damn about if he lived of died. He had wanted the Shikon no tama to become youkai. He had pillaged Kikyou's village and almost stolen the Shikon no tama, but she had stolen his heart instead.
Kikyou was a sweet, gentle woman, with long raven locks of hair and look beautiful in her miko attire. Oddly enough, she had commented one day, that he actually wore the festive clothing of a houshi himself, like he'd ever be one (a/n: this is true, I was reading the art of InuYasha at borders yesterday and InuYasha's attire is actually a rare one of a houshi -priest- yet more festive. Even though the pyro color of his dress is unusual). She had the duty to rid her village of youkai and to protect the Shikon no tama. She had expressed that one day she would like to settle down and have a family of her own, a little musume or musuko or maybe a few, if she'd be blessed with such. She had expressed the need of getting rid of the Shikon no tama and asked him to compromise, for him to become ningen and not youkai as he had formally planned.
He had intended to keep his promise to her and use the Shikon no tama to become ningen, but then Naraku interfered and disguised himself as him and tricked Kikyou into pinning him to the Goshinboku, the God tree. There he remained for fifty years.
So then, this girl came along, namely Kagome, and freed him. Then she had broken the Shikon no tama and they were on a journey to find the kakera (shards) and it had come to the time that he realized he had feelings for her. He felt himself laugh, when did that happen? Ah, he sighed, it was when Sesshomaru almost killed her with that poison back inside his tou- san's grave that was when he started feeling for her what had grown so deep now that he couldn't deny it was there. His heart wouldn't allow him to.
But back to the course of events. Eventually Kikyou was revived, even if it was partially, and he had fallen for her the moment she got back, at that was the first time he saw the hurt in Kagome's eyes, that look of betrayal every time he ran off to be with the once soul-less miko. Even if he owed her his life, even if she had died for him, he had a responsibility to Kagome and to the Shikon no kakera. He had to finish the quest before following his love to hell.
The funny thing was every time Kouga came around for Kagome, he'd go ballistic! It was like 'I don't want you but no one else can have you' relationship when he already knew it was more like 'I don't want you with him because I know you want me...and I want you, too.'
But even now was when he realized it, that he didn't want to go to hell with Kikyou, he wanted to stay behind here and be with...Kagome. The young school girl whose heart he had broken so many times and didn't want to admit he had, she had loved him and he had learned to trust and eventually fall in love with her. The course of events from then on wasn't smooth; her scent enticed him to no end, yet made him strong in battle to know she was there, for him. The thought of her dating someone, whether it be Houjo or Kouga, would drive him up a wall. He wanted her to stay by his side forever.
Funny how you don't realize how good you've got things until it's gone.
He hugged the body close to him, yearning for a touch of her familiar warmth, and when he needed it the most, she was cold. His face grew wetter still but by this time the rain had stopped.
And that was just what had happened, he had lost Kagome, because he had loved him so much, because it seemed that all he cared about was Kikyou, that if she gave her soul to Kikyou and let Kikyou be alive again, that he would be happy. Though normally he would be happy. He should. He could have been jumping for joy right now, hugging and kissing...Kikyou, the person who he'd rather not be kissing or hugging right now. The one he wanted was...
Kagome.
Funny how you don't realize how much you love someone until they're dead.
That was what had happened, Kagome was dead, and Kikyou was alive, what was he to do? He wanted Kagome back. Why?
"Because I love Kagome." He said aloud.
"And Kagome loved you," responded that sweet voice that was like Kagome's yet he knew it wasn't. He looked down into Kikyou's face and stared into Kagome's eyes. He listened to Kikyou's heart beat and Kagome's breathe. He scanned Kikyou's form and only found himself to be attaching himself father to the life-less one in his arms.
"It is time, InuYasha, to let that old body go and come down here to be with me, Kikyou," her melodious voice sang. It was Kagome's voice. She was still there within Kikyou, maybe even separate from Kikyou, and maybe he had a chance to set Kagome free. To have his love back.
Because he would be damned if he had o spend the rest of his life with that malevolent bitch Kikyou.
With a new resolve and a set heart, his tears drying on his cheeks, he jumped down in front of Kikyou.
"This isn't over. She will be mine and I will get her back."
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Personal responses:
Anime Ambreen and Poke' Manic: I'm glad you like it! Hey, this is ANGST! It's supposed to be sad. But don't worry, it'll turn out inu/kag happy in the end, I wouldn't have it any other way.
JA-MO: Well, here you are, I've written more! I will keep writing more, if you people review!
Aka Hime Meian: Glad you like! Yes, it is sad. I've NEVER heard of Kagome (or anyone else for that matter) going this far for love, that's why I wrote it! ^_^
Neo-Crystal: I am so glad you like it and I'll try to update regularly, if you review regularly!
Inuyashagirl1990: Glad you like it! ^_^ He's your chapter!
That's all for now folks! But if you want more, review, and I might even post some early!
Chapter 2 *I didn't know how much I loved you until I lost you.*
A/N: OMG! I didn't know so many of you would like this one! I think I'll update maybe once every few days, homework's a bitch. Well, thanks for reading and review at the end of this because if I have 5 reviews still when I plan to update, you get no update! Life can be cruel huh? Screw homework! Screw Kikyou (because I hate her) and screw all you people who read this and didn't review! MWAHAHA! He he, excuse my ranting, I had a bad day at school, too much homework, and 2 stories to update ^^ but don't get down! I'll update no matter what!!!!!
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Chapter 2 - I didn't know how mush I loved you until I lost you.
InuYasha stepped forward and took Kagome's body out of Kikyou's arms, then started to run. It started to rain, like the sora was crying for Kagome, for him. He didn't understand this, not at all, but he needed to be away from everyone to at least try.
"Why, Kagome, why?" he asked the limp corpse in his arms as he came to a stop and hopped into a tree. He shook her as if she was asleep, his tears mingling with the raindrops on his face, that dampened his hair, that soaked his clothes, the body's clothes, yet he didn't care. He just wanted her back.
"I should be happy, I have Kikyou back, and alive," he told himself, but deep inside he knew that if he had to choose between Kagome staying alive and Kikyou gaining life again, he would pick the former. He didn't have the right to make such decisions. But then again, she had done this on her own.
He took a long look at his life. He was born of a ningen kaasan and a taiyoukai tou-san. He was an inu-hanyou with a hateful ane who didn't give a damn about if he lived of died. He had wanted the Shikon no tama to become youkai. He had pillaged Kikyou's village and almost stolen the Shikon no tama, but she had stolen his heart instead.
Kikyou was a sweet, gentle woman, with long raven locks of hair and look beautiful in her miko attire. Oddly enough, she had commented one day, that he actually wore the festive clothing of a houshi himself, like he'd ever be one (a/n: this is true, I was reading the art of InuYasha at borders yesterday and InuYasha's attire is actually a rare one of a houshi -priest- yet more festive. Even though the pyro color of his dress is unusual). She had the duty to rid her village of youkai and to protect the Shikon no tama. She had expressed that one day she would like to settle down and have a family of her own, a little musume or musuko or maybe a few, if she'd be blessed with such. She had expressed the need of getting rid of the Shikon no tama and asked him to compromise, for him to become ningen and not youkai as he had formally planned.
He had intended to keep his promise to her and use the Shikon no tama to become ningen, but then Naraku interfered and disguised himself as him and tricked Kikyou into pinning him to the Goshinboku, the God tree. There he remained for fifty years.
So then, this girl came along, namely Kagome, and freed him. Then she had broken the Shikon no tama and they were on a journey to find the kakera (shards) and it had come to the time that he realized he had feelings for her. He felt himself laugh, when did that happen? Ah, he sighed, it was when Sesshomaru almost killed her with that poison back inside his tou- san's grave that was when he started feeling for her what had grown so deep now that he couldn't deny it was there. His heart wouldn't allow him to.
But back to the course of events. Eventually Kikyou was revived, even if it was partially, and he had fallen for her the moment she got back, at that was the first time he saw the hurt in Kagome's eyes, that look of betrayal every time he ran off to be with the once soul-less miko. Even if he owed her his life, even if she had died for him, he had a responsibility to Kagome and to the Shikon no kakera. He had to finish the quest before following his love to hell.
The funny thing was every time Kouga came around for Kagome, he'd go ballistic! It was like 'I don't want you but no one else can have you' relationship when he already knew it was more like 'I don't want you with him because I know you want me...and I want you, too.'
But even now was when he realized it, that he didn't want to go to hell with Kikyou, he wanted to stay behind here and be with...Kagome. The young school girl whose heart he had broken so many times and didn't want to admit he had, she had loved him and he had learned to trust and eventually fall in love with her. The course of events from then on wasn't smooth; her scent enticed him to no end, yet made him strong in battle to know she was there, for him. The thought of her dating someone, whether it be Houjo or Kouga, would drive him up a wall. He wanted her to stay by his side forever.
Funny how you don't realize how good you've got things until it's gone.
He hugged the body close to him, yearning for a touch of her familiar warmth, and when he needed it the most, she was cold. His face grew wetter still but by this time the rain had stopped.
And that was just what had happened, he had lost Kagome, because he had loved him so much, because it seemed that all he cared about was Kikyou, that if she gave her soul to Kikyou and let Kikyou be alive again, that he would be happy. Though normally he would be happy. He should. He could have been jumping for joy right now, hugging and kissing...Kikyou, the person who he'd rather not be kissing or hugging right now. The one he wanted was...
Kagome.
Funny how you don't realize how much you love someone until they're dead.
That was what had happened, Kagome was dead, and Kikyou was alive, what was he to do? He wanted Kagome back. Why?
"Because I love Kagome." He said aloud.
"And Kagome loved you," responded that sweet voice that was like Kagome's yet he knew it wasn't. He looked down into Kikyou's face and stared into Kagome's eyes. He listened to Kikyou's heart beat and Kagome's breathe. He scanned Kikyou's form and only found himself to be attaching himself father to the life-less one in his arms.
"It is time, InuYasha, to let that old body go and come down here to be with me, Kikyou," her melodious voice sang. It was Kagome's voice. She was still there within Kikyou, maybe even separate from Kikyou, and maybe he had a chance to set Kagome free. To have his love back.
Because he would be damned if he had o spend the rest of his life with that malevolent bitch Kikyou.
With a new resolve and a set heart, his tears drying on his cheeks, he jumped down in front of Kikyou.
"This isn't over. She will be mine and I will get her back."
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Personal responses:
Anime Ambreen and Poke' Manic: I'm glad you like it! Hey, this is ANGST! It's supposed to be sad. But don't worry, it'll turn out inu/kag happy in the end, I wouldn't have it any other way.
JA-MO: Well, here you are, I've written more! I will keep writing more, if you people review!
Aka Hime Meian: Glad you like! Yes, it is sad. I've NEVER heard of Kagome (or anyone else for that matter) going this far for love, that's why I wrote it! ^_^
Neo-Crystal: I am so glad you like it and I'll try to update regularly, if you review regularly!
Inuyashagirl1990: Glad you like it! ^_^ He's your chapter!
That's all for now folks! But if you want more, review, and I might even post some early!