Authors Note-This is probably the craziest chapter I've ever written I am just drained for ideas but I wanted to get something out there for you guys to read so this is what you get I hope you like it, despite my lack of writing skill lately!
"I'm so glad Chloe is okay."
"Wh- oh yeah...Me too." I smile. Danny looks at me with a worried expression, I know I have been acting strange ever since I saw John at the hospital yesterday, I just hope Danny doesn't notice. I know he does, maybe he doesn't realize that its John that I'm upset about. "Hey, come here." He says inviting me into bed. I crawl in next to him, nuzzling up against his big warm body. I take in his scent and smile. God I love this man. "What's wrong baby?" He asks bringing me out of my trance.
"Nothing." I lie. He pulls away from me.
"Abby, I don't want to do this!" He states firmly.
"Do what?" I act.
"Lie, you are hiding something from me, and we can't pretend that your not. If you don't come straight with me right now this marriage could go to hell. Do you want that? We have three beautiful kids together, I don't want to hurt them or loose you." I nod and decide it is time to come clean with him. I pull out of his grasp completely, leaning my head against the backboard, preparing to go into a big speech and then an equally big argument. "Uh- It was about a week before I met you. Carter had had a bad day, you know one of those days, he and his girlfriend were at odds and um- I needed help studying so he uh- told me he could help me with that." I pause and take a deep breath. "So he came over and uh we were working hard. We decided we would take a break and so we did, we watched television, but we got a little comfortable and one thing lead to the next and we were in bed." I wipe a stray tear off my cheek. My husband is staring intently at me, he gets it he's angry. Very angry. "She's not mine is she?" He asks flat out.
"Danny- She's not yours biologically but she's your daughter. He's not her father." Danny gets out of bed and leaves the room. I hesitantly follow. "Danny please." I beg following him into the kitchen. "You lied to me for thirteen fucking years Abby." I could feel the tears burning my eyes. "I know, but I love you not him. Your her father, he's nothing just an accident. I love Chloe you love Chloe this should not impact-" He cuts me off.
"This should not have an impact on us? Is that what you were going to say? Abby you lied to me and your children all three of them. That little girl upstairs has lived her WHOLE life thinking one thing and all of the sudden we have to go and tell her another..."
"NO! NO DANNY! We are not telling her!" I shout. I know I have probably woken the kids, but I need to work this out. "We will tell her, and I'm out of here till you do." With that he pushes by me into our bedroom. "Danny- don't do this. What about the kids?"
"I'll pick them up after school today and we can hang out." He huffs.
"Danny- Please..." I can feel the tears falling, well cascading down my face.
"Abby- You owe it to Chloe and that Carter guy- you owe it to them." He chokes out his words, pushing by me and out of the house.
* * *
"So why didn't I go with Grandma and Grandpa? Are you guys getting a divorce? Is something wrong?" Chloe asks scared. "Honey sit down." Danny says patting the middle couch cushion in-between himself and me. "Uh- I have to tell you something that is going to be hard for me to say and equally hard for you to hear." She nods, expecting the worse.
"I- uh, do you remember the man-" I start...
"Abby-" Danny cuts me off signalling for me to get straight to the point.
"Um- Daddy, and I love you very much, a little over thirteen years ago, god maybe even fourteen years ago, before I met your father I um had another boyfriend who I was very serious with, and he and I- well we, and- we had a relationship, he uh- left for a bit and then came back, things happened..." She has rage written all over her face. She jumps up from the couch and looks at her father and me.
" Your not my dad?" She whispers. Danny shakes his head a single tear falling down his cheek. She pushes her hair back. "WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME?" She shrieks at us.
"Chloe your daddy didn't know either." I said.
"So you, my mother my only fucking relative-"
"Chloe don't use that language with your mother." Danny scolded.
"You can't tell me what to do, your not my father anyways." She spits bitterly at him, tears flowing down her now pink cheeks, she wipes her face with the back of her arm.
She storms off to her bedroom, I look at Danny who stares at me then gets up to go see her.
* * *
I walk into the packed hospital looking for one person and one person only. I scan the admit desk he's not there. I decide that I should ask Jerry if he knows where he is. "Jerry is John here?" I say tapping the desk.
"Yeah, he's in Exam three."
"With a patient?"
"Sleeping." He looks back down to his computer. I walk slowly towards the room, a million thoughts racing through my mind. I turn the handle ever so gently, but still he tosses a bit. He looks up squinting at me. "Abby?" He asks in a raspy voice.
"Hey." I take a seat on the corner of the bed. He gets up looking at me, still squinting. "What are you doing here?" He coughs lightly rubbing his hand on his forehead.
"I need to talk to you. I called you at home, Kem said you were working."
"Yeah, um- yeah I am." He says a little upset.
"Is everything okay?" I ask sympathetically.
"Yeah, she's going back to Africa. The kids are staying here with me. She's coming back in a few months, but uh- I think she misses it there, and making her stay here is just going to make her resent me." He explains
"Oh- I'm sorry it did not being everything you expected." He laughs bitterly.
"Yeah, well. I think we were in love at one point but it just got to be too much. We are too different, or maybe too similar I'm not sure either or... It doesn't matter you obviously did not come all the way here to talk to me about Kem and I. So what's up?" He smacks his lips together and a faint smile crosses his lips. "Uh- I have to tell you something that uh- I never want to tell you to be honest with you, but bearing the secret it was becoming too much. I was lying to the people I love the most and I just could not bare to lye anymore." He looks at me puzzled.
"What are you saying Abby?" He smirks as he says this.
"Chloe, my daughter she's yours too." I let the words hang in the air a minute.
"D- daughter?" He stutters.
"That night-"
"I know the night your talking about..." He is mad, I've seen this look before twice actually. "You kept my daughter away from me? Let some other man raise her as his daughter without giving me a say in the matter?" He spits.
"I just wanted her to be my daughter, and Danny's daughter not your daughter."
"Well guess what Abby she is my daughter."
"You don't have to have a say in any of this, I just had to tell you. Danny wanted me too, I am trying to save my marriage and my relationship with my daughter." I start to choke up again. "What about me Abby? What about my family?"
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"I'm so glad Chloe is okay."
"Wh- oh yeah...Me too." I smile. Danny looks at me with a worried expression, I know I have been acting strange ever since I saw John at the hospital yesterday, I just hope Danny doesn't notice. I know he does, maybe he doesn't realize that its John that I'm upset about. "Hey, come here." He says inviting me into bed. I crawl in next to him, nuzzling up against his big warm body. I take in his scent and smile. God I love this man. "What's wrong baby?" He asks bringing me out of my trance.
"Nothing." I lie. He pulls away from me.
"Abby, I don't want to do this!" He states firmly.
"Do what?" I act.
"Lie, you are hiding something from me, and we can't pretend that your not. If you don't come straight with me right now this marriage could go to hell. Do you want that? We have three beautiful kids together, I don't want to hurt them or loose you." I nod and decide it is time to come clean with him. I pull out of his grasp completely, leaning my head against the backboard, preparing to go into a big speech and then an equally big argument. "Uh- It was about a week before I met you. Carter had had a bad day, you know one of those days, he and his girlfriend were at odds and um- I needed help studying so he uh- told me he could help me with that." I pause and take a deep breath. "So he came over and uh we were working hard. We decided we would take a break and so we did, we watched television, but we got a little comfortable and one thing lead to the next and we were in bed." I wipe a stray tear off my cheek. My husband is staring intently at me, he gets it he's angry. Very angry. "She's not mine is she?" He asks flat out.
"Danny- She's not yours biologically but she's your daughter. He's not her father." Danny gets out of bed and leaves the room. I hesitantly follow. "Danny please." I beg following him into the kitchen. "You lied to me for thirteen fucking years Abby." I could feel the tears burning my eyes. "I know, but I love you not him. Your her father, he's nothing just an accident. I love Chloe you love Chloe this should not impact-" He cuts me off.
"This should not have an impact on us? Is that what you were going to say? Abby you lied to me and your children all three of them. That little girl upstairs has lived her WHOLE life thinking one thing and all of the sudden we have to go and tell her another..."
"NO! NO DANNY! We are not telling her!" I shout. I know I have probably woken the kids, but I need to work this out. "We will tell her, and I'm out of here till you do." With that he pushes by me into our bedroom. "Danny- don't do this. What about the kids?"
"I'll pick them up after school today and we can hang out." He huffs.
"Danny- Please..." I can feel the tears falling, well cascading down my face.
"Abby- You owe it to Chloe and that Carter guy- you owe it to them." He chokes out his words, pushing by me and out of the house.
* * *
"So why didn't I go with Grandma and Grandpa? Are you guys getting a divorce? Is something wrong?" Chloe asks scared. "Honey sit down." Danny says patting the middle couch cushion in-between himself and me. "Uh- I have to tell you something that is going to be hard for me to say and equally hard for you to hear." She nods, expecting the worse.
"I- uh, do you remember the man-" I start...
"Abby-" Danny cuts me off signalling for me to get straight to the point.
"Um- Daddy, and I love you very much, a little over thirteen years ago, god maybe even fourteen years ago, before I met your father I um had another boyfriend who I was very serious with, and he and I- well we, and- we had a relationship, he uh- left for a bit and then came back, things happened..." She has rage written all over her face. She jumps up from the couch and looks at her father and me.
" Your not my dad?" She whispers. Danny shakes his head a single tear falling down his cheek. She pushes her hair back. "WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME?" She shrieks at us.
"Chloe your daddy didn't know either." I said.
"So you, my mother my only fucking relative-"
"Chloe don't use that language with your mother." Danny scolded.
"You can't tell me what to do, your not my father anyways." She spits bitterly at him, tears flowing down her now pink cheeks, she wipes her face with the back of her arm.
She storms off to her bedroom, I look at Danny who stares at me then gets up to go see her.
* * *
I walk into the packed hospital looking for one person and one person only. I scan the admit desk he's not there. I decide that I should ask Jerry if he knows where he is. "Jerry is John here?" I say tapping the desk.
"Yeah, he's in Exam three."
"With a patient?"
"Sleeping." He looks back down to his computer. I walk slowly towards the room, a million thoughts racing through my mind. I turn the handle ever so gently, but still he tosses a bit. He looks up squinting at me. "Abby?" He asks in a raspy voice.
"Hey." I take a seat on the corner of the bed. He gets up looking at me, still squinting. "What are you doing here?" He coughs lightly rubbing his hand on his forehead.
"I need to talk to you. I called you at home, Kem said you were working."
"Yeah, um- yeah I am." He says a little upset.
"Is everything okay?" I ask sympathetically.
"Yeah, she's going back to Africa. The kids are staying here with me. She's coming back in a few months, but uh- I think she misses it there, and making her stay here is just going to make her resent me." He explains
"Oh- I'm sorry it did not being everything you expected." He laughs bitterly.
"Yeah, well. I think we were in love at one point but it just got to be too much. We are too different, or maybe too similar I'm not sure either or... It doesn't matter you obviously did not come all the way here to talk to me about Kem and I. So what's up?" He smacks his lips together and a faint smile crosses his lips. "Uh- I have to tell you something that uh- I never want to tell you to be honest with you, but bearing the secret it was becoming too much. I was lying to the people I love the most and I just could not bare to lye anymore." He looks at me puzzled.
"What are you saying Abby?" He smirks as he says this.
"Chloe, my daughter she's yours too." I let the words hang in the air a minute.
"D- daughter?" He stutters.
"That night-"
"I know the night your talking about..." He is mad, I've seen this look before twice actually. "You kept my daughter away from me? Let some other man raise her as his daughter without giving me a say in the matter?" He spits.
"I just wanted her to be my daughter, and Danny's daughter not your daughter."
"Well guess what Abby she is my daughter."
"You don't have to have a say in any of this, I just had to tell you. Danny wanted me too, I am trying to save my marriage and my relationship with my daughter." I start to choke up again. "What about me Abby? What about my family?"
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