Yugi lost himself in deep thought as he watched the blood stream down his
arm and drip into the sink, as his tears rolled down his chin and then fell
into the sink. His mind screamed with too many emotions, memories, and
thoughts. It was like standing in a funhouse mirror room and all the
reflections were yelling at you what they feel and think. Complete and
utter chaos ruled in his mind. There were swirling images of his
grandfather, in the back of the ambulance, as they raced to the hospital.
The sound of his wheezing, even muffled by the mask, feeding him oxygen,
over his mouth, still was clear to Yugi's ears. The look on his
grandfather's face as he exhaled his last breath, as his chest lowered but
failed to come back up. A memory burned into his mind.
Seeing Tea on Joey's lap, making out with him, cut into Yugi's mind. There was the sound of her girly giggles of pleasure as she moaned echoed through his skull.
He had gone to Joey to tell him that Grandpa had died, but when he walked into Joey's room and saw that he couldn't stand to stay. Joey and Tea hadn't seen him and still didn't know that he had seen them that day.
Then there was Yami who looked at Yugi with annoyance in his eyes. Yami was 'dating' Bakura, but Yugi figured they were really just fucking, not dating, so Yami was always coming home late from 'the movies' or some other nondescript place. Even Tristan had someone he was dating; he was going out with Ryou. But goodness was Ryou needy; Tristan could barely take a shit without him around. And now Mokuba had finally gotten friends his own age, not as if Yugi could have really been able to tell him about all the things that he felt.
Really the only person left for Yugi to talk to was Seto, but Yugi didn't feel he could talk to Seto about anything much less his personal problems. Yugi felt Seto would probably tell him that he had it easy, that at least he didn't have to run his own company.
Now to add on to the list of woes Yugi already had to deal with, Yugi had developed new feelings for Seto. He tried telling himself it was just stress, or maybe his mind was going, maybe he just needed someone stronger to lean on. Then he thought 'I can't be gay! I love Tea! Shit! Maybe I'm bi?!'
Yugi picked up another piece of the medicine cabinet mirror. He looked at the shard; he had broken the mirror after things fell apart, after he couldn't stand seeing that constantly cheery face. He felt disgusted and annoyed every time he saw his reflection.
'How could I have EVER THOUGHT I had a chance with Tea??! I should have helped Grandpa! I should have seen it coming!! I could've saved him!!! What the Hell made me think that my FRIENDS would be around all the time? That Tristan wouldn't get a guy or a girl? That Mokuba wouldn't develop a life outside the group??!! Maybe Seto will find out how I feel about him, and then he won't want to talk to me! He might not ever want to see me ever again!!! Then I'll be truly alone!
Yugi sliced his arm again and watched the blood well up then trickle down the side of his arms, and drip into the sink to lay with the other hundreds of drops that had come before it.
"But will they ever know how alone I am?" Yugi yelled at his bloody arm. "No. Why? Cause I'm Yugi fucking Mouton!! I'm always fucking happy! That right people this fucking smile IS actually plastered on!! I'll always be fucking be there for every other goddamned person, I'll always be innocent!! God for-fucking-bid I should ever grow up!! And you can do whatever the Hell you feel like doing or saying to me because I'm just too fucking stupid and sweet to fucking let you have it!!!!!" he emphasized his words with slashes in his arms.
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"HI Joey!" Yugi said cheerily, the next day at school, even though he was thinking 'You backstabbing fucker!'
"Hey Yug!" Joey replied, sitting at his desk, smiling.
"Hiya guys!" Tea said brightly as she walked over.
Yugi waved 'hi!' Joey smiled at her and patted his lap while giving Tea a mischievous smile. Yugi thought he was going to puke. Seto was sitting in his usual corner in the back of the room, far away from them, typing rapidly on his laptop. Tristan and Ryou were sitting playing and intense game of tonsil hockey so they didn't notice anything else but the tongue of the other. Yami and Bakura were gone, as usual.
"Um, I'm gonna go to the bathroom." Yugi piped up as Tea sat down on Joey's lap, Yugi swallowed a scream and a grimace.
"Aright we'll watch your stuff." Joey offered.
"Ah, no thanks." Yugi replied. 'If I let you touch my things I'll have to burn them!'
Yugi timed his reentrance to the classroom, he came back a few seconds before the bell that signaled that he was late sounded, this way he'd have to just take any seat that was available and those were usually in the back, far from his group of "friends"
He watched Joey and Tea exchange tender glances and love notes all day, he felt like he was going to be sick. 'Fucking little lovebirds!!'
Seto caught Yugi after school and invited him over for a bit. Yugi was going to say 'no' but then Tea and Joey walked by holding hands.
"Sure." 'It's better than going home and cutting myself till I pass out.'
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The two teens sat in Seta's bedroom, Yugi was sitting at the desk, online, Seto was looking over meeting notes from the last meeting, sitting on his bed, and the TV was on Sci-Fi channel but no one was really paying it any mind. In the middle of Sliders, Seto got off his bed and took an extra chair and sit down next to Yugi.
"Are you ok? Is there something wrong?" he asked Yugi.
Yugi was caught off guard by the question, he did a quick mental check of whether, or not, he looked like he was troubled. He concluded that he didn't. "No, why?"
"It's just that you've been a bit distant lately," Yugi was touched by Seto's concern and the tender look in those usually hard blue eyes. Yugi's eyes wandered down to Seto's soft lips, he hadn't noticed just how soft they looked before, he wanted to touch them, taste them. He wanted to kiss him. "I've been watching you give Joey and Tea dirty looks and I just thought that maybe something had happened between you three." Seto's brow was wrinkled in worry.
"No. I'm alright," Yugi glanced at the clock as if checking the time. "Oh, I gotta go I have to clean the shop. Hey do you think you'll be able to make it?"
Seto smiled, "I'll make time."
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"'I was just wondering if something had happened.' Is he fucking joking?!? Was Kaiba friggin brain dead when Grandpa died?! What the HELL!!" Yugi ranted as he sliced up his left arm, then he unleashed his anger on his right arm. "What the fuck is it about me that makes it seem like I can never be fucking hurt, that I'm always so damn happy!?! GOD!! I just can't take it!!!"
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"Hi you've reached the Mouto residence! We're not home right now but if you leave your name, number and a brief message we'll get back to you as soon as possible! Thank you!" *Beep* Yugi listened to the cheery message on the answering machine, listened to that disgusting cutesy adorable voice that he knew was his own 'Jesus, no wonder people think I'm always so happy!'
"Hey Yug! I know you're there!" Joey's sounded crisply on the other end.
Yugi shuddered. 'Shit! Why him?! Of all the people that could be waking me up, it just HAD to be him!' he rolled over in bed. He looked at the clock that was telling him, with bright red numbers, that it was eight o'clock. He had two hours before he had to open the shop and had had five hours of sleep. He grabbed the cordless from the bedside, fixing his voice so it sounded as if he had been up already and had had a good night's sleep.
"Hi Joey!" 'Morning, fuckhead.'
"Hey, you forgot to tell me when you were opening the shop."
'Actually I was hoping that you'd forget, fuckin twit.' Yugi thought bitterly. "Oops, sorry bout that. It's opening at eleven thirty." He lied, hoping that by the time he and Tea got to the shop he'd be too busy to deal with them.
"Okay Tea and I will be there at eleven thirty sharp! See ya later!"
"Bye!" 'May you get hit by a bus on your way over here.'
Yugi pressed the 'Talk' button, ending the call.
He rolled out of bed to take a shower, taking off his shirt he looked at his ravaged arms. Like a maze of welts, scars, and scabs. His eyes wandered over to the shoe box in the corner of the bathroom, on the floor. He knew that inside were the shards of the mirror which he used in his now nightly ritual of frustration, anger, and self-hatred. He looked away from it as he stripped down, turned on the water, and stepped into the shower.
The water fell on to his face and felt as warm as blood, he closed his eyes and let his mind drift.
Yugi felt someone's lips press against his, a tongue part his lips and begin to explore his mouth, a hand lightly touching his cock. His eyes opened and there in Seto's crystalline blues looking back tenderly and seductively. The water from the shower made Seto's hair lay flat as he shielded Yugi from the spray. He kissed Yugi again then working his way to Yugi's ear he nibbled on the tip. Then moving down and biting Yugi's neck as he gently wrapped his hand around Yugi's cock and started moving up and down its length. Yugi moaned softly. Seto bit down harder onto Yugi's neck and was rewarded with a louder moan of ecstasy. Then he knelt down before Yugi and wrapped his lips around Yugi's manhood and.
.Yugi's eyelids fluttered open, he was alone in the shower, he looked down and saw that he had the biggest hard on.
"SHIT!!"
He got out of the shower a few minutes later, toweled off, got dressed and went to the shop.
"Okay. It's nine-thirty; I swept up, polished and organized the display cases. Um I think that's it." He looked around the shop pleased with himself. 'I kinda don't want to reopen the shop, but I need the bill money. I wonder if the Kaiba brothers will get chance to see the place today?'
Yugi went into the kitchenette, in the house area. "Alright I've got half an hour." He said as he poured himself a bowl of cereal.
He finished his cereal and was fidgeting with anticipation. "You know I could just open early!" he said and turned the "Closed" sign to "Open" and pressed the button that lifted the gate over the storefront.
Seeing Tea on Joey's lap, making out with him, cut into Yugi's mind. There was the sound of her girly giggles of pleasure as she moaned echoed through his skull.
He had gone to Joey to tell him that Grandpa had died, but when he walked into Joey's room and saw that he couldn't stand to stay. Joey and Tea hadn't seen him and still didn't know that he had seen them that day.
Then there was Yami who looked at Yugi with annoyance in his eyes. Yami was 'dating' Bakura, but Yugi figured they were really just fucking, not dating, so Yami was always coming home late from 'the movies' or some other nondescript place. Even Tristan had someone he was dating; he was going out with Ryou. But goodness was Ryou needy; Tristan could barely take a shit without him around. And now Mokuba had finally gotten friends his own age, not as if Yugi could have really been able to tell him about all the things that he felt.
Really the only person left for Yugi to talk to was Seto, but Yugi didn't feel he could talk to Seto about anything much less his personal problems. Yugi felt Seto would probably tell him that he had it easy, that at least he didn't have to run his own company.
Now to add on to the list of woes Yugi already had to deal with, Yugi had developed new feelings for Seto. He tried telling himself it was just stress, or maybe his mind was going, maybe he just needed someone stronger to lean on. Then he thought 'I can't be gay! I love Tea! Shit! Maybe I'm bi?!'
Yugi picked up another piece of the medicine cabinet mirror. He looked at the shard; he had broken the mirror after things fell apart, after he couldn't stand seeing that constantly cheery face. He felt disgusted and annoyed every time he saw his reflection.
'How could I have EVER THOUGHT I had a chance with Tea??! I should have helped Grandpa! I should have seen it coming!! I could've saved him!!! What the Hell made me think that my FRIENDS would be around all the time? That Tristan wouldn't get a guy or a girl? That Mokuba wouldn't develop a life outside the group??!! Maybe Seto will find out how I feel about him, and then he won't want to talk to me! He might not ever want to see me ever again!!! Then I'll be truly alone!
Yugi sliced his arm again and watched the blood well up then trickle down the side of his arms, and drip into the sink to lay with the other hundreds of drops that had come before it.
"But will they ever know how alone I am?" Yugi yelled at his bloody arm. "No. Why? Cause I'm Yugi fucking Mouton!! I'm always fucking happy! That right people this fucking smile IS actually plastered on!! I'll always be fucking be there for every other goddamned person, I'll always be innocent!! God for-fucking-bid I should ever grow up!! And you can do whatever the Hell you feel like doing or saying to me because I'm just too fucking stupid and sweet to fucking let you have it!!!!!" he emphasized his words with slashes in his arms.
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"HI Joey!" Yugi said cheerily, the next day at school, even though he was thinking 'You backstabbing fucker!'
"Hey Yug!" Joey replied, sitting at his desk, smiling.
"Hiya guys!" Tea said brightly as she walked over.
Yugi waved 'hi!' Joey smiled at her and patted his lap while giving Tea a mischievous smile. Yugi thought he was going to puke. Seto was sitting in his usual corner in the back of the room, far away from them, typing rapidly on his laptop. Tristan and Ryou were sitting playing and intense game of tonsil hockey so they didn't notice anything else but the tongue of the other. Yami and Bakura were gone, as usual.
"Um, I'm gonna go to the bathroom." Yugi piped up as Tea sat down on Joey's lap, Yugi swallowed a scream and a grimace.
"Aright we'll watch your stuff." Joey offered.
"Ah, no thanks." Yugi replied. 'If I let you touch my things I'll have to burn them!'
Yugi timed his reentrance to the classroom, he came back a few seconds before the bell that signaled that he was late sounded, this way he'd have to just take any seat that was available and those were usually in the back, far from his group of "friends"
He watched Joey and Tea exchange tender glances and love notes all day, he felt like he was going to be sick. 'Fucking little lovebirds!!'
Seto caught Yugi after school and invited him over for a bit. Yugi was going to say 'no' but then Tea and Joey walked by holding hands.
"Sure." 'It's better than going home and cutting myself till I pass out.'
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The two teens sat in Seta's bedroom, Yugi was sitting at the desk, online, Seto was looking over meeting notes from the last meeting, sitting on his bed, and the TV was on Sci-Fi channel but no one was really paying it any mind. In the middle of Sliders, Seto got off his bed and took an extra chair and sit down next to Yugi.
"Are you ok? Is there something wrong?" he asked Yugi.
Yugi was caught off guard by the question, he did a quick mental check of whether, or not, he looked like he was troubled. He concluded that he didn't. "No, why?"
"It's just that you've been a bit distant lately," Yugi was touched by Seto's concern and the tender look in those usually hard blue eyes. Yugi's eyes wandered down to Seto's soft lips, he hadn't noticed just how soft they looked before, he wanted to touch them, taste them. He wanted to kiss him. "I've been watching you give Joey and Tea dirty looks and I just thought that maybe something had happened between you three." Seto's brow was wrinkled in worry.
"No. I'm alright," Yugi glanced at the clock as if checking the time. "Oh, I gotta go I have to clean the shop. Hey do you think you'll be able to make it?"
Seto smiled, "I'll make time."
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"'I was just wondering if something had happened.' Is he fucking joking?!? Was Kaiba friggin brain dead when Grandpa died?! What the HELL!!" Yugi ranted as he sliced up his left arm, then he unleashed his anger on his right arm. "What the fuck is it about me that makes it seem like I can never be fucking hurt, that I'm always so damn happy!?! GOD!! I just can't take it!!!"
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"Hi you've reached the Mouto residence! We're not home right now but if you leave your name, number and a brief message we'll get back to you as soon as possible! Thank you!" *Beep* Yugi listened to the cheery message on the answering machine, listened to that disgusting cutesy adorable voice that he knew was his own 'Jesus, no wonder people think I'm always so happy!'
"Hey Yug! I know you're there!" Joey's sounded crisply on the other end.
Yugi shuddered. 'Shit! Why him?! Of all the people that could be waking me up, it just HAD to be him!' he rolled over in bed. He looked at the clock that was telling him, with bright red numbers, that it was eight o'clock. He had two hours before he had to open the shop and had had five hours of sleep. He grabbed the cordless from the bedside, fixing his voice so it sounded as if he had been up already and had had a good night's sleep.
"Hi Joey!" 'Morning, fuckhead.'
"Hey, you forgot to tell me when you were opening the shop."
'Actually I was hoping that you'd forget, fuckin twit.' Yugi thought bitterly. "Oops, sorry bout that. It's opening at eleven thirty." He lied, hoping that by the time he and Tea got to the shop he'd be too busy to deal with them.
"Okay Tea and I will be there at eleven thirty sharp! See ya later!"
"Bye!" 'May you get hit by a bus on your way over here.'
Yugi pressed the 'Talk' button, ending the call.
He rolled out of bed to take a shower, taking off his shirt he looked at his ravaged arms. Like a maze of welts, scars, and scabs. His eyes wandered over to the shoe box in the corner of the bathroom, on the floor. He knew that inside were the shards of the mirror which he used in his now nightly ritual of frustration, anger, and self-hatred. He looked away from it as he stripped down, turned on the water, and stepped into the shower.
The water fell on to his face and felt as warm as blood, he closed his eyes and let his mind drift.
Yugi felt someone's lips press against his, a tongue part his lips and begin to explore his mouth, a hand lightly touching his cock. His eyes opened and there in Seto's crystalline blues looking back tenderly and seductively. The water from the shower made Seto's hair lay flat as he shielded Yugi from the spray. He kissed Yugi again then working his way to Yugi's ear he nibbled on the tip. Then moving down and biting Yugi's neck as he gently wrapped his hand around Yugi's cock and started moving up and down its length. Yugi moaned softly. Seto bit down harder onto Yugi's neck and was rewarded with a louder moan of ecstasy. Then he knelt down before Yugi and wrapped his lips around Yugi's manhood and.
.Yugi's eyelids fluttered open, he was alone in the shower, he looked down and saw that he had the biggest hard on.
"SHIT!!"
He got out of the shower a few minutes later, toweled off, got dressed and went to the shop.
"Okay. It's nine-thirty; I swept up, polished and organized the display cases. Um I think that's it." He looked around the shop pleased with himself. 'I kinda don't want to reopen the shop, but I need the bill money. I wonder if the Kaiba brothers will get chance to see the place today?'
Yugi went into the kitchenette, in the house area. "Alright I've got half an hour." He said as he poured himself a bowl of cereal.
He finished his cereal and was fidgeting with anticipation. "You know I could just open early!" he said and turned the "Closed" sign to "Open" and pressed the button that lifted the gate over the storefront.