AN I know, I know. I said it was finished, but... I got asked whether I would write something

from the generals PoV. So here I am, starting with Jadeite. It's a little shorter, but I didn't]

have enough inspiration to make it any longer. I wasn't so down anymore. I won't update as fast

as the last time though, so please be a little patient. And please review?

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Cursed. Cursed, cursed, cursed, cursed, cursed! How could I have been so stupid? How could

I have believed that witch? How could I have let her poison my mind like that? Was my love for you

not strong enough? Did I fool you as well as myself?

My Rei. My sweet, wonderful, indescribably fantastic Rei. The times we fought. We were ruthless.

I was so pissed when I woke to find my hair turned green. I never thought a princess would

stoop so low as to play tricks on a sleeping person. I got back at you. Was it with the worms or the

salt? I don't remember. Maybe even both.

I never sneaked into your bedroom though. I would never have admitted then, that I loved you,

but I didn't want to take any chances. I didn't trust myself, didn't know what I would do, should I

see you sleeping.

I found out later, though. With your permission, of course.

I miss you. Even when I was still under Beryl's spell, I missed you. I just didn't realize it.

I ignored you in our battles, because I didn't want to find out the exact effect you had on me.

But now I know. Now I remember. And now I can't reach you.

I long for you. I miss you. I even find myself wishing for the days we argued to return, so that

I can at least be with you.

I was the first, the first who had to face the reincarnated Sailor Soldiers. My memory was

incomplete. I didn't know who this Sailor Moon was, whom I had to fight, but I didn't like the fact

she managed to foil my plans so often. And she even got help. First Mercury. And then you.

I was blinded by my hatred towards life and everything. I had forgotten my love to you. Like I

had so long ago.

Nothing I can say will ever surmount to the kind of guilt I feel. And I will never expect you

to forgive me. I can't even forgive myself, so how I can ask such a thing of you.

I killed you. I know I did. There was no way you could have survived the injuries I inflicted

upon you during our battle in the Silver Millennium. My heart is torn because of what I did to you.

Nothing will ever be enough to set things right. The only thing I can do is remain dead and away from you.

I hope you never have to go through such heartache again.

I can see you. I follow you from the realm of the dead. We all do. Just recently Kunzite joined

us. We are a miserable group indeed. Imagine. Four grown men moping about their loves. You'd laugh if you

saw us.

Still, in some twisted way I'm glad to be here. It means that you're strong, strong enough to

defy Beryl's power and the Dark Kingdom. Strong enough to overcome your emotions, however suppressed

or forgotten they are, in favor of the world.

I hope you will always be as strong as I picture you. Stronger even. You'll need it when the

final battle comes and you have to stand by your princess.

I just wish I could stand by you.