DISCLAIMER: I do not own anything to do with Buffy the Vampire Slayer - it
all belongs to Joss Whedon.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I thought I'd post this now, considering today's my birthday (yay me!) and this is a big Spuffy milestone, so all those who have been awaiting it, here it is. Also, a special dedication of this chapter to Mia, who drew me the most amazing picture of Spike on my birthday card. Thank you so much! As a special birthday present for me, please everybody review!
Chapter 6
Spike picked up his candle, recited the blessing and began his speech. Everyone was interested in what he had to say, since he had the least 'experience' with Willow.
'Well, Red, I guess looking at everyone around me, I can safely say I probably mean the least to you. But you know, you have made quite an impact on me.' He laughed darkly.
'I thought I knew you, all the brains, perfect in every way. . .until of course that excuse for a human Warren popped into town. You really showed what you could be. And, even though I wasn't physically there, to me that meant a lot. You must be wondering why. . .'
He took a deep breath. 'Don't think I've forgotten my evil days. The mass killing, the blood-sucking vampire side of me - it'll never leave me, despite my being human. All those images of people begging for their lives, they'll forever stay with me.' They all stared at him with looks of "will you get to the point?" He acknowledged them.
'When I went from Sunnydale to rid myself of all the feelings I was having, and return to the way I was before, I was fully prepared to go evil again. When I got a soul though. . . it's the ultimate punishment a vampire can get. At least I thought it was. . .' He looked at Buffy briefly, and with the candle still in his right hand, he took her hand with his left. 'I thought I was only going to live in pain the rest of my life. But somehow. . .somehow. . . you gave me hope, Willow. The way you'd become the biggest threat to the world overnight, and suddenly went back to fighting evil, it really inspired me. Inspired me to be the man I wanted to. To admit my feelings. I became the closest thing to a human being that a vampire could've become. I think that's partly what helped me come back as a human after I was resurrected. I am able to love. And I do love,' He paused and turned to Buffy.
'Perhaps she does not feel the same way as I do, but deep down my soul will combine with hers, and that day will be my greatest.' He turned back to Willow's body.
'So thank you, Willow, for giving me hope, and showing me that I am able to live. Spiritually, not just physically.'
There was a moment of silence as everyone stared, shocked, at the touching speech Spike had just made. He recited the other blessing in a finalised sort of tone, while Buffy looked at him in amazement. At that moment, she knew exactly what she would say to him when this was all over.
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Spike handed Buffy the piece of paper with the blessing on it. She was still shocked, yet happy at that moment. She picked up her candle and recited the blessing. Then she went on to her own speech.
'I still remember the first time we met Willow. Funnily enough it was through Cordelia's taunting. I guess it's weird, but we have Cordelia to thank for becoming such good friends, because seeing her do that to you at that moment, I knew I couldn't do that. So, I guess you, me, Xander and Giles started off our own mini fight club. Perhaps you guys thought at times that you were holding me back, but being there for me is one of the things I wanna thank you for. Through those years of high school, when any normal teenager was meant to be worrying about finals, about guys, about celebrities' latest scandals. . .I was worrying about the next apocalypse, about vampires and the newest demons in town. It wasn't easy, looking in the mirror each day, thinking to myself "why was I cursed with this? Why me?"'
She paused, slightly tearful in her own misery. But then she continued. 'There was not a lot to live for. I mean, if I was gone, a new slayer would've been picked, right? That wouldn't have mattered. . . No. The reason I got out of bed each day and smiled was because of you, Xander and Giles. You made me happy. You gave me the back-up I needed. . . and even though I've already died twice, I probably would've died a lot more times if it hadn't been for you.'
She laughed quietly, and everyone else smiled vaguely. 'Also. . . I suppose what you think is one of your biggest regrets was bringing me back to life the second time.' Everyone suddenly held their breath; this was something Buffy had hardly ever talked about, not since the musical extravaganza. But even then, she'd only sang about it, and hadn't revealed the fact that she'd been in heaven intentionally.
'You probably think it was the biggest mistake of your life; taking me out of the only peace I'd ever had.' They all looked at the floor, a couple of them slightly guilty.
'But you're wrong.'
Everyone looked up at her, not believing their ears. 'You have no idea how much I thought about it. But you know, since I came back,' she started counting off on her fingers. 'I've helped save the world from you, I saved the world from ultimate evil, and I guess most importantly,' now it was her turn to put Spike on the spot. She turned to him, taking his hand like he'd taken hers. 'I've realised who the love of my life is.'
His eyes widened. 'I thought I'd never find peace again. But I did. In his eyes.' He started getting tears in his eyes. So did she for that matter. 'And in his heart, where I had been kept dearly.' They held each other's hands tighter, and felt a powerful energy flowing through that touch.
Buffy turned back to Willow. 'So I wanna thank you Will, for helping me survive, and for bringing me back to life to realise my true purpose.' She tearfully recited the blessing after, and passed the sheet of paper to Kennedy.
Normally, in a different situation, the rest of them would have made fake vomiting actions (or at least Anya would've), but now, everyone was staring, bewildered. Spike and Buffy had admitted to loving each other more than anything else. . . were pigs flying by the window?
**********
But now the pressure was on Kennedy. Normally, this would've been easy for her, considering they were a couple, but after she had found out about Tara, the future of their relationship was in jeopardy. What would she say?
She picked up her candle, recited the first blessing and began her speech.
'Several months ago, I was called to this place because I was going to fight the biggest evil. All I thought that lay ahead of me was hard labour, pain and possibly my own death. I was ready to face that.' She was speaking confidently, strongly, but then the tone of her voice changed, as did the subject of her speech.
'But one thing I didn't expect. . .was love. Like I'd never experienced before. Sure, I'd had girlfriends before - like I told you, I knew I was gay since I was four, watching 'Gone with the Wind' and wanting to sweep Scarlet off her feet myself. . .' She smiled, remembering that moment. So did everyone else.
'All I ever wanted was to experience true love. I've never told you this, but I knew I would have something amazing with you. And I did. The first time we kissed. . .' she stopped for a moment. 'Well, maybe not that time so much, considering you turned into that Warren guy. . .but the second time, definitely. And every other time we kissed.'
She paused. Now she was crying, like the rest of them had. 'And the first time we made love. . .it was the most magical moment of my life.' Everyone was raising their eyebrows, thinking they'd heard too much, except of course Anya, who was listening intently, eager to hear more.
'I guess I now know that our love won't ever be perfect. You'll always love Tara, and unfortunately, that's something I think we can't overcome.' Everyone stared at her. Did this mean they were going to break up?
'I love you more than anything Willow, and I would give up my own life to save yours. Because these last few months have been the best of my life. And even though this won't be able to last forever. . .' she was crying properly now. 'I will be grateful always for what you have given me. True love. I want to thank you Willow, for giving me so much love and making me happier than I have ever been.'
She read the second blessing, while everyone else couldn't believe what they'd just heard from someone Willow had only known a few months. And they all felt Kennedy's sorrow, of loving someone so much who could never love them back like that.
The piece of paper was passed to Anya.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I thought I'd post this now, considering today's my birthday (yay me!) and this is a big Spuffy milestone, so all those who have been awaiting it, here it is. Also, a special dedication of this chapter to Mia, who drew me the most amazing picture of Spike on my birthday card. Thank you so much! As a special birthday present for me, please everybody review!
Chapter 6
Spike picked up his candle, recited the blessing and began his speech. Everyone was interested in what he had to say, since he had the least 'experience' with Willow.
'Well, Red, I guess looking at everyone around me, I can safely say I probably mean the least to you. But you know, you have made quite an impact on me.' He laughed darkly.
'I thought I knew you, all the brains, perfect in every way. . .until of course that excuse for a human Warren popped into town. You really showed what you could be. And, even though I wasn't physically there, to me that meant a lot. You must be wondering why. . .'
He took a deep breath. 'Don't think I've forgotten my evil days. The mass killing, the blood-sucking vampire side of me - it'll never leave me, despite my being human. All those images of people begging for their lives, they'll forever stay with me.' They all stared at him with looks of "will you get to the point?" He acknowledged them.
'When I went from Sunnydale to rid myself of all the feelings I was having, and return to the way I was before, I was fully prepared to go evil again. When I got a soul though. . . it's the ultimate punishment a vampire can get. At least I thought it was. . .' He looked at Buffy briefly, and with the candle still in his right hand, he took her hand with his left. 'I thought I was only going to live in pain the rest of my life. But somehow. . .somehow. . . you gave me hope, Willow. The way you'd become the biggest threat to the world overnight, and suddenly went back to fighting evil, it really inspired me. Inspired me to be the man I wanted to. To admit my feelings. I became the closest thing to a human being that a vampire could've become. I think that's partly what helped me come back as a human after I was resurrected. I am able to love. And I do love,' He paused and turned to Buffy.
'Perhaps she does not feel the same way as I do, but deep down my soul will combine with hers, and that day will be my greatest.' He turned back to Willow's body.
'So thank you, Willow, for giving me hope, and showing me that I am able to live. Spiritually, not just physically.'
There was a moment of silence as everyone stared, shocked, at the touching speech Spike had just made. He recited the other blessing in a finalised sort of tone, while Buffy looked at him in amazement. At that moment, she knew exactly what she would say to him when this was all over.
**********
Spike handed Buffy the piece of paper with the blessing on it. She was still shocked, yet happy at that moment. She picked up her candle and recited the blessing. Then she went on to her own speech.
'I still remember the first time we met Willow. Funnily enough it was through Cordelia's taunting. I guess it's weird, but we have Cordelia to thank for becoming such good friends, because seeing her do that to you at that moment, I knew I couldn't do that. So, I guess you, me, Xander and Giles started off our own mini fight club. Perhaps you guys thought at times that you were holding me back, but being there for me is one of the things I wanna thank you for. Through those years of high school, when any normal teenager was meant to be worrying about finals, about guys, about celebrities' latest scandals. . .I was worrying about the next apocalypse, about vampires and the newest demons in town. It wasn't easy, looking in the mirror each day, thinking to myself "why was I cursed with this? Why me?"'
She paused, slightly tearful in her own misery. But then she continued. 'There was not a lot to live for. I mean, if I was gone, a new slayer would've been picked, right? That wouldn't have mattered. . . No. The reason I got out of bed each day and smiled was because of you, Xander and Giles. You made me happy. You gave me the back-up I needed. . . and even though I've already died twice, I probably would've died a lot more times if it hadn't been for you.'
She laughed quietly, and everyone else smiled vaguely. 'Also. . . I suppose what you think is one of your biggest regrets was bringing me back to life the second time.' Everyone suddenly held their breath; this was something Buffy had hardly ever talked about, not since the musical extravaganza. But even then, she'd only sang about it, and hadn't revealed the fact that she'd been in heaven intentionally.
'You probably think it was the biggest mistake of your life; taking me out of the only peace I'd ever had.' They all looked at the floor, a couple of them slightly guilty.
'But you're wrong.'
Everyone looked up at her, not believing their ears. 'You have no idea how much I thought about it. But you know, since I came back,' she started counting off on her fingers. 'I've helped save the world from you, I saved the world from ultimate evil, and I guess most importantly,' now it was her turn to put Spike on the spot. She turned to him, taking his hand like he'd taken hers. 'I've realised who the love of my life is.'
His eyes widened. 'I thought I'd never find peace again. But I did. In his eyes.' He started getting tears in his eyes. So did she for that matter. 'And in his heart, where I had been kept dearly.' They held each other's hands tighter, and felt a powerful energy flowing through that touch.
Buffy turned back to Willow. 'So I wanna thank you Will, for helping me survive, and for bringing me back to life to realise my true purpose.' She tearfully recited the blessing after, and passed the sheet of paper to Kennedy.
Normally, in a different situation, the rest of them would have made fake vomiting actions (or at least Anya would've), but now, everyone was staring, bewildered. Spike and Buffy had admitted to loving each other more than anything else. . . were pigs flying by the window?
**********
But now the pressure was on Kennedy. Normally, this would've been easy for her, considering they were a couple, but after she had found out about Tara, the future of their relationship was in jeopardy. What would she say?
She picked up her candle, recited the first blessing and began her speech.
'Several months ago, I was called to this place because I was going to fight the biggest evil. All I thought that lay ahead of me was hard labour, pain and possibly my own death. I was ready to face that.' She was speaking confidently, strongly, but then the tone of her voice changed, as did the subject of her speech.
'But one thing I didn't expect. . .was love. Like I'd never experienced before. Sure, I'd had girlfriends before - like I told you, I knew I was gay since I was four, watching 'Gone with the Wind' and wanting to sweep Scarlet off her feet myself. . .' She smiled, remembering that moment. So did everyone else.
'All I ever wanted was to experience true love. I've never told you this, but I knew I would have something amazing with you. And I did. The first time we kissed. . .' she stopped for a moment. 'Well, maybe not that time so much, considering you turned into that Warren guy. . .but the second time, definitely. And every other time we kissed.'
She paused. Now she was crying, like the rest of them had. 'And the first time we made love. . .it was the most magical moment of my life.' Everyone was raising their eyebrows, thinking they'd heard too much, except of course Anya, who was listening intently, eager to hear more.
'I guess I now know that our love won't ever be perfect. You'll always love Tara, and unfortunately, that's something I think we can't overcome.' Everyone stared at her. Did this mean they were going to break up?
'I love you more than anything Willow, and I would give up my own life to save yours. Because these last few months have been the best of my life. And even though this won't be able to last forever. . .' she was crying properly now. 'I will be grateful always for what you have given me. True love. I want to thank you Willow, for giving me so much love and making me happier than I have ever been.'
She read the second blessing, while everyone else couldn't believe what they'd just heard from someone Willow had only known a few months. And they all felt Kennedy's sorrow, of loving someone so much who could never love them back like that.
The piece of paper was passed to Anya.