AN And here is Zoicite. I've been asked to write more and longer stories and believe me, I will. I'm

working on them, with about three or four more ideas in my head. Let's make a little inventory, shall

we? Eight long stories and two semi one-shots on my computer that I'm working on. And four more long

stories spinning around my mind. One of which is about Ami and Zoi by the way. So, trust me when I say

there's a lot more coming up. Oh, and for those of you old enough, I posted an R-rated story. BUT ONLY

IF YOU'RE OLD ENOUGH, GET IT???!!! I don't want problems. And I'm actually quite strict in such matters.

Unfortunately, it's not really under my control, once I post something.

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It's impossible not to like you. Your kind nature, you innocent curiosity and your quick mind.

I had never met anyone like you. You surpassed me at times. And I was so stubborn and... jealous I

guess, that I didn't believe a word what you said unless you proved it to be true.

I remember the sparkle in your eyes every time we came across something that was to then unknown

to you. You soaked up knowledge like a sponge water. Our palace library held many discoveries for you,

as did the Moon palace for me. We spent more time in there than anywhere else.

I don't know how, but either we pulled each other out of the corner we had hidden in, or we

simply joined each other in the same corner. Whatever we did, it made us fall in love.

Never in my whole life had I felt so wonderful. Nothing could compare with being in your

presence. I loved you with every fiber of my being. I still do, except that I'm not a being anymore,

but an entity.

I wish I could be with you, but more do I wish you happiness, and I don't think I can give you

that anymore. If I ever could at all.

You are a strong fighter, Ami. Not like Makoto. Different. Like every Sailor Soldier, you have

your own strength, your own talent. It's what makes your group so unique, so perfectly attuned. I never

had the chance to tell you this, but I'm proud of you, proud of what you have accomplished, what you

have become. You are a strong independent woman and God knows I don't want you dependent on any man

at all. I guess I'm too selfish for that. I wish you happiness, but not in the arms of another man. I

wouldn't be able to bare that.

I know I betrayed you, betrayed our love, but I hope your tears meant something, as I died in

your arms. Believe me, I don't hold it against you for killing me. I wish I could have saved you that

pain, but Beryl's power was too strong. And cruel fate decided to lift the curse right before the moment

of impact.

I deserved it. What you did was mild compared to the punishment due to me. But I'm glad I died

knowing that you still loved me. I thought it was all over when I died then. But the Crystal couldn't

bring us back together and couldn't leave me in peace. I again fell under Beryl's reign.

I welcomed death. The moment Sailor Venus beam hit me, I remembered. I had sworn to myself that

I would never hurt you again, and I had broken that promise. Once more I fought on the wrong side, and

once more I hurt you, fought you.

My sweet, sweet Ami. I wish I could hold you now. I wish all was like it had once been. So

perfect were those days. I wish that perfection to return. I wish I could take away the pain I know

you must be feeling now. Berating myself for all eternity, isn't enough for what I did to you.

I love you. I love you so much. I imagine myself being with you again, pushing that one always

stubborn strand of hair behind your ear, stroking you cheek. I envision the softness of you skin

underneath my fingertips. I pretend to hear your heart beat. For me and for me alone. Such a petite

lady enchanted me in a way I had never dreamed of.

I am so sorry for letting someone else use me. I am so sorry for putting you through so much

heartache. I love you, Ami. I can't say it often enough. Now that's it's too late.

I love you.