Regret

Iudicium et Viator

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  You stand there, bathed within the moonlight.

  Do you ever know how much you hurt me, when you left? Do you know how much I suffered, because you cheated on me?

  I saved you; I saved you when we were drifting in space. I fought alongside you, I rescued you from Odine!

  And this is how you repay me?

  Do you know how much it hurt for me to receive a report that Sorceress Rinoa was on the rampage, causing death and destruction? Do you know the pain I suffered, the loss, the grief!?

  I do not think you care.

  The most important thing to you is your domination, isn't it? You could not care less for the whole world.

  I regret saving you, Rinoa. I regret loving you; I regret every good deed I've done for you.

  I break my promise to be your Knight. I renounce all the vows I made.

  Foolish, chivalrous vows.

  You showed me how cruel life can be; you showed me the pain you can inflict; you made me know torment, as I was forced to fight the one I loved.

  I loathe you now.

  Remember how you once said that my sword would pierce your heart? I will swear it. Your wretched, accursed heart, that beats to sustain your foul existence. I shall remove you from the world.

  I see you now, within my grasp, pleading for mercy as I have Silenced you. You thought that Hyne was all-powerful, and so sided with him.

  Let me tell you about human spirit.

  Let me tell you of VENGEANCE.

  Do you know, the pain that Irvine went through when Selphie died? Do you know that he lay for a whole week by her tomb, mourning her every single day?

  Even myself; Selphie was a good friend. She was the first girl I shared a room with; she was kind, caring and sweet. She was the only ray of hope we carried with us in the darkest of times.

  Now, all that remains is the cold marble tomb, with that inscription upon it.

  Here lies Selphie Tillmitt, High SeeD and courageous cheerleader of our small group. When everything was dark, she found light, and constantly delighted us with tales of Moombas and Chocobos.

  She was killed by the Sorceress, and all who knew her grieve deeply for her. May her soul rest forever in peace.

  Vivadarium et intervigilium et Viator.

  In the Garden Sleeps a Messenger.

  You plead more. You ask me to think of all the times we shared together, and I tell you to think of Seifer.

  What did you do to him!?

  My fingers tighten around your frail throat; you try to fight back, but there is no stopping a Lion.

  Seifer fought against you that day. He helped us, and fought so valiantly. His presence was worth a dozen men or more.

  You killed him. The one whom you once loved.

  His dying words….

  "Squall, kill her…don't let her kill anymore…she isn't the same person…we knew. Goodbye Squall, you were……my one worth adversary. I'll see you…when-no-I'm going to hell…… there is no salvation for me………farewell, Squall."

  I raged with silent anger. Seifer had redeemed himself, but you damned him once more.

  What about Quistis? You killed her lover. You broke her heart. She was always like a big sister to me, and she loved me only to have you steal everything away from her.

  First me, then Seifer.

  You killed the girl who used to work at the library. Zell did not smile for a month. Irvine will never be the cheerful man he was ever again.

  It's time for payback.

  I shall make you feel the pain of a thousand hearts. You have taught me torture, and I shall do so.

  I shall watch as you scream in agony, your body slowly unravelling itself. I shall not show any mercy.

  I have too many regrets to let you go, and I shall never again do so.

  I hate you, Rinoa.