Disclaimer: X and related characters belong to CLAMP, not me. They're not mine.
Blinded
An X fanfiction by Pluto-mint
Summary: Fuuma's confused about his feelings to a certain someone named Kamui. AU X universe.
Pairings: F/K/K, Fuuma/Subaru, Seishirou/Subaru (in later chapters)
Warning: This fic featured a goody-goody Fuuma, but don't worry I will put the Dark Kamui personality in later chapters. Bad grammar, a really bad one. And..oh yeah shounen ai of course.
Blinded
Chapter 1
Blue.
That's what he first saw in the morning. The blue shades of the morning sky. Blue. Not white, the color of his ceiling, as it used to be in every other morning.
The warmth of the morning light touched his skin. The cool morning breeze caressed his face like a lover's touch. In an instant he felt truly blessed.
A smile grows on his lips as he hugs his pillow closer. This is a rare moment in his life, in which he woke up with a blessed feeling filled his heart.
***
Kotori's giggle filled the shrine's yard. She was telling her brother, Fuuma , about the girls who often squealed every time they took a glance on Kamui. Kamui only blushed in returns, though his face showed how much the situation annoyed him. Fuuma smiled slightly as he reminisce the same feeling he had in his childhood days.
They're always together. Playing, laughing, and dreaming together, always. Kotori would lead them with her cheerful nature. And they'd follow her. It was as if Kotori was their guide. Kamui would watch Kotori with a loving smile in his face while Fuuma's always be the one who would watch them from afar. And he would stay behind to protect them from anything. Sometimes Kotori noticed this and took his hands so he could join them. And he was happy.
Happy as he should be right now. It's been six year since their separation and now they're together. Though they're not kids anymore but nothing really changed. Well, not physically anyway. Kamui had grown into a handsome teenage boy with a slightly effeminate look that only made him look more attractive. Kotori is still as beautiful as ever. She's just a girl now but soon she would become a beautiful young lady. And him, he didn't really feel that he's changed. Sure he became taller and stronger but he never realized that. Not until Kamui remark how tall he is compared to Kamui's delicate form.
To see the smile of the two people he loved most gives him a warm feeling inside his heart. Every thing's okay as long as they're happy.
Kotori's chatter light up the day as they're making their way to the school. He never brought his bike again since Kamui join their daily walk to the school. The sky is bright. The air is fresh. And the two people he loved most are happy. Every thing is perfect for him.
***
The school library is not as crowded as usual. Monou Fuuma sat in a chair nearby the window, biting the end of his pencil. He's deep in thought. A frown is on his face. And his eyebrow is nearly connected to each other. Some English literature books were sprawled in the table. The sunlight illuminates his handsome face as he's thinking the next line of his English paper.
Kishuu Arashi is taking the seat in front of him. She's in the library for the same reason with him, but instead of doing her own English paper, her eyes are silently observing her best friend's feature.
Fuuma was always known for his cool and composed nature. Other students even acknowledge him for his strength and his 'possessive brother' image. But Arashi knows better than that. Some times beyond the cool surface she could see a boy, sad and lonely. It's very rare to find a happy smile plastered on her best friends face. That's why she can't help but wonder why lately she always found a glimpse of happiness in her best friend's usually empty gaze.
"Fuuma?"
"Hn?"
"Who is he?"
"He?"
"Yeah. Him. You know…the boy who's always around Kotori lately.."
For a while Arashi swore she could see something flicker on Fuuma's honey colored eyes. This boy must be really someone dear to Fuuma judging from the attention she gets from the question.
"Oh. His name is Shirou Kamui. His mother's just passed away two weeks ago and now he's living in Tokyo with his aunt Magami Tokiko. We, I mean Kamui, Kotori and I, are childhood friends."
A childhood friend?
"Really? But Kotori seems so close with him and you don't seem to mind either. It makes me wonder about something. Fuuma..are they lovers?"
***
"…Are they lovers?"
Arashi's words startle him in the first place.
Lovers? Kotori and Kamui…
He never thought about it. But that doesn't seem so impossible right?
Suddenly he felt there's a knot inside his heart. Why does it feel so hard to breathe?
He always knows that Kotori always liked Kamui the way a girl likes a boy. They even made a vow to be each others bride when they're still kids. But what about Kamui's feeling? Does Kamui love her? Maybe he does. They could be happy together. They would be perfect for each other. And if the two persons he loved most are happy then he should be happy as well, right?
But then why does it hurt so bad just to think about it.
"...I don't know"
And that's the truth, because he really doesn't know what to say, what to think, and what to feel.
He look passed the window. There's a heavy cloud coming. It covers the sun and turns the blue sky into a grayish shade of stormy sky.
A raging storm is coming.
***
In an empty classroom, two persons are watching the rain silently. The first one is a boy with a pair of deep violet eyes. He was watching the other person back with a gentle expression. And the other person, a girl, is standing near the foggy window with a sad expression in her face.
Kotori's watching the raindrops fall heavily on the school yard. The rain's slowly turn into a fit storm now. A silver lining is seen beyond the stormy skies. The thunder is coming. Her body shakes a little. She always hates the sounds of the thunder. It always reminds her the night when her mother passed away.
She remembered how the sadness of her mother death nearly broke her. If it wasn't for her brother strength she might never passed those bitter years. Fuuma is always there when she need him. And oh how she long for her brother arms in times like these..
"Kotori, are you alright?"
Kamui's soft voice brought her back to the reality. Kamui's eyes filled with worry and concern. She hates to see that two emotions tinted the violet shade of his eyes.
"Aa. I'm alright..It's just that..I hate the sounds of the thunder. It brings back some painful memories. I wish that Oniichan is here."
There's a hint of sadness in her soft voice.
"That's okay. You don't have to be afraid anymore. I.. I'm here with you. I will protect you, you know."
Kamui blushes as he spokes those words. He doesn't know what makes him says those words to Kotori. But to see Kotori sad and broken is too much for him. Besides he really wanted to protect her. He had known for quite a long time that he's keeping a crush to Kotori. It's just a childhood crush but the feeling's getting stronger since their meeting last week.
"Thank you, Kamui-chan. It's very sweet. I really appreciate it."
Kamui is not the only one with a red face in the room because Kotori's face is dusted with faint shade of pink. He wonders if this means that Kotori likes him too. Hesitantly he slips his fingers into Kotori's small and delicate fingers.
"It's alright. I'm here with you." He smiled tenderly.
At first Kotori looks mildly surprised but then she whispers softly, "Thank you."
***
Behind the slightly opened door a pair of golden eyes is watching sadly. The couple seems happy and content with each other presence.
They are happy.
It hurts.
But then why does it hurt? Why does he found himself isolated from his own happiness? Why does he feel so sad and broken?
Why?...
Why?
TBC
A/N: Eeep! Finally! I know.. I know Fuuma is too OOC in this fic and you may find this chapter as a crappy one but I can't help it! I wrote this fic because my mind can't stop wondering how Fuuma and Kamui's relationship would be if there's no end of the world issue.
Subaru is coming in the next chapter, but I don't have any idea how to put him on the fic. Should I put him as the sad and angsty guy or should I put it as the cute boy next door like in TB? Give me a suggestion please! And for you Sei-chan lovers, don't worry he'll show up in later chapters.
Yanagi-san: Yes, this is a F/K fic. But the road isn't easy. ^__^ And by the way I love your fic, I'm sorry I haven't review it.
Kaori-san: You dislike Fuuma/Subaru pairing? Well I kinda like them, that's why I put it on the fic. But not to worry, the pairing is only a minor one. Nothing can beat Seishirou/Subaru pairing to me. Umm.. maybe except Akira/Hikaru (HikaGo), Fuuma/Kamui, and Athrun/Kira (Gundam SEED) *grin*
And the last but not least I'm sorry for the bad grammar. I don't have a beta reader to edit it. *sniff*
By the way, does anyone know where I can find Gundam SEED's fanfiction archive, especially the Yaoi ones? I'm kinda obsessed with Athrun Zala right now so please..please.. let me know if you do.
Read and Review please! Thank you! ^o^