Disclaimer: X and related characters belong to CLAMP, not me. Though I really want to have Fuuma as my plushie…
BlindedAn X/1999 Fanfiction by pluto-mint.
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: F/K, S/S, Fuu/Su, K/K, etc.
Summary: AU. They're sixteen and they're in love.
Minna-san…. I'm sorry for the long update. Been quite busy lately… Gomennasai! ^_^ Blinded Chapter 4Kamui was enjoying the beautiful Sunday morning together with Kotori, they're talking and laughing about nothing at all. Both of them sat on the terrace floor with their legs folded while occasionally watching the white clouds floating over the blue sky. Sometimes they tried to figure out the shape of the cloud. Kamui kept saying that all the clouds have the shape of a sheep. Kotori just giggle at the comment, sometimes she tried to make a correction but in the end it's useless because Kamui was too stubborn to admit it.
Kamui was always like that. He could be very persistent sometimes.
Kotori smiled and the smile made Kamui happy. He sipped his jasmine tea and enjoying the warmth of Kotori's smile. His heart beat a little too fast every time he saw the smile.
It's perfect.
The green grass seemed to glow under the ray of early summer sun. Though spring was almost over but the coolness within was still linger in the morning air. The shrine looked so fresh and clean and its presence made the morning felt more peaceful. Through the thick branches of the tree, few streaking line of the summer sun were coming through, making Kotori's golden hair glow even more.
Kotori looked so beautiful.
Kamui blushed at the thought. He's always been attracted to Kotori since they're little. But just being together like this, was a complete bliss for Kamui. He had always liked Kotori but now he feels something deeper than that. He wondered if this is the same feeling that could make someone giving away all of his possession for a moment like this? Maybe he's not just being attracted to Kotori, maybe he's-
"Kamui-chan, you're spacing out again. Are you alright?"
Kotori's soft and concern words snap him back to reality. He smiled warmly to her. "I'm alright. I was just thinking."
"What were you thinking?"
"Oh. Nothing."
"I don't believe you," there's still a smile on her face but that didn't conceal the sadness in her eyes, "Usually when Oniichan said 'nothing', it means that something really troubled his mind."
"Kotori…" The girl bowed her head slightly. The strands of her golden hair covered her eyes. But they didn't manage to conceal her sadness. Kamui felt a tight knot in his chest. To see her in such a state was just too much for him. Gently he took her hands and gave it a light squeeze.
Their fingers intertwined with each other, as if they're trying to be each other strength. Kotori turned her face and smiled to him. "I'm fine. Don't worry about me. I'm just worried about Oniichan, lately he looked so broken and empty. But every time I asked him what's wrong he only smiled and said nothing. I hate to see him like that."
Kotori's words hit him hard like a slap on his face. Something's wrong with Fuuma and Kotori noticed this. But he didn't.
He should have noticed this.
What kind of friend is he? Guilty feeling filled his heart. How could he never notice it? He's too preoccupied with his life. Fuuma was still his best friend or maybe more because he could never imagine what his life would be without Fuuma by his side.
"But you're not the only Kotori, it also makes me sad. I'll talk to him today. Maybe he would tell me something about it."
"Kamui-chan," Kotori's eyes were filled with gratitude, "Thank you."
***
He ran his hand through his dampened hair. His skin was glistened with a sheer layer of water due to the shower he just took. He used to think that a cold shower could soothe his anger, and maybe the burning feeling inside his heart right now. But he was wrong. Not even a cold shower could cool down his temper right now.
Through his slightly opened window, he could see the couple laughing and talking about nothing at all.
His heart burned with jealousy, he should be the one and the only one who could make his Kamui laughed like that.
He sighed in frustration.
Damn!!! But it's wrong… so wrong…He should be happy for them… but… he couldn't bring himself to do it.
Get over it Monou!He told himself over and over again but that didn't wipe the anger away from his heart. He's so angry, he fumbled slightly to find his loose pants and somehow managed to wear it without tearing the fabric apart. Deliberately he took a black short sleeve shirt from the drawers and put it on without even bother to button the shirt.
A hand reached to the nightstand where his eye glasses lay. He pushed his glasses gently to the bridge of his nose with his index finger, not many people knew that he wore eye glasses occasionally. Subaru was the one who picked the eye glasses for him. It was modeled like John Lennon's eye glasses. The emerald eyed boy said that the eye glasses made him look more 'friendly'. He didn't take Subaru's comment seriously but he still bought it. He needed the glasses anyway.
Glancing to the couple once again, he felt another emotion flooded his heart. Despair. He let his head fall and touched the window glass. Another sigh was coming out of his lips. He closed his eyes but all he could see was Kamui, Kamui's smile… Kamui's eyes… the violet shade of his eyes… everything that is Kamui. He couldn't think anything else besides Kamui.
Don't think, don't feel…He groaned slightly. He hasn't got his usual morning coffee, maybe that's why he felt so emotional this morning. Or maybe he just loved Kamui a little bit too much.
Smiling bitterly, he rubbed his temple to soothe his headache.
I need my black coffee right now!At least in the kitchen he could enjoy his morning coffee peacefully.
***
"Kamui?"
They met halfway on the stairs. Kamui was headed to Fuuma's room before he saw the older boy walking down the stairs. Kamui smiled to him with his shy smile. A faint shade of pink tinted his pale cheeks. They only made him look more cute and adorable.
"Ohayou Fuuma, where were you all this morning?"
Ah… so he noticed.
But that doesn't mean a thing.
Fuuma just smiled and passed him by, trying to ignore his anger toward Kamui. Kamui had let himself touched by Kotori. You belong to me Kamui… Fuuma thought helplessly.
***
"Fuuma..?"
"Fuuma… I need to talk with you."
Kamui's heart started to beat in a frantic pace because Fuuma didn't response to everything he said. No… please don't ignore me again just like what you did that afternoon. Am I related to your trouble Fuuma?
"Well? Why are you still standing there? Didn't you just say that you need to talk with me?"
The taller boy arched his eyebrow and bore his gaze to Kamui. "Kamui?"
"Aa." Kamui rushed himself to the kitchen.
Fuuma started to brew the coffee. Kamui noticed that Fuuma's wearing an eye glasses right now but instead making him looked clumsy, the eye glasses only made him looked smarter, more friendly, and of course more attractive. And when the boy turned around to find the mug, he could see the board chest that was covered with slightly tanned skin. The black shirt was unbuttoned, it exposed the smooth skin and the athletic torso freely for Kamui. Kamui blushed slightly when he found himself staring at Fuuma's body.
Maybe Fuuma had caught him staring, that's why the older boy grinned at him and said, "Why don't you come in? Or are you prefer enjoying the view from there?"
Kamui swore that his face could beat a tomato that moment.
Fuuma pulled the chair for Kamui and smiled to him, "I'm making some coffee, do you want some?"
The question brought confusion to Kamui. "Am I allowed to?"
Fuuma laughed softly, not in an insulting tone but plainly just because he's amused to Kamui's response. "What makes you think that you're not allowed?"
Kamui scratched his head, hoping to find the right answer. "Er… well coffee is only for adults. Though I'm barely sixteen this year, Tokiko-san doesn't find me as an adult."
"Oh… I understand what she thinks about you, you're just too cute sometimes. I couldn't even picture you drinking something like black coffee or alcohol. You are meant to be with milk, tea, and honey I guess." The soft laughter went along with Fuuma's words.
Kamui's face started to flush slightly. He disliked to be considered only as a 'kid'. And the word 'cute' was almost implying that he's weak, sometimes. It's true that he's still 16 but that didn't mean that he's not going to grow. But Fuuma had already grow so much, he could never catch up with him. He would be left behind once again.
Fuuma noticed the changes in Kamui's expression. Seeing his best friends bowed like a defeated soldier was too much for him. Slowly he crouched in front of Kamui, trying to make their eyes on the same level. Fingers started to wipe the bangs that covering Kamui's eyes. His voice was gentle and caring.
"I'm not saying that you'll never grow up. The 'you' that is here right now in front of me would surely be different with the 'you' that I'm going to see in next five year. You will grow, and so am I. People will change and so are we. But something deep inside won't change, the one thing that is purely you Kamui. The same goes to me and Kotori and everyone else."
Kamui's eyes snap open and he stared deeply to Fuuma's eyes. Though they are covered with the eye glasses that he wore, Kamui could see the iris clearly. For once he noticed that Fuuma's eyes were a beautiful shade of gold. Not light brown as he used to think they were. But that didn't imply that Fuuma had changed. He was still and will always be the same boy in that golden afternoon.
Somehow Fuuma's words had answered all the worry that dwelled inside his heart lately. He gave his best smile to Fuuma, hands resting on his broad shoulder. This is another moment that he would treasure all his life. This serene moment was so special.
"I know Fuuma… I know."
His voice was barely a whisper. Fuuma's fingers ghosted around his face. Lips lookin so moist and warm. Enchanting, enticing. Their face was so close to each other, they could almost feel their breath mingled between their lips. Unconsciously Kamui made a weak throaty moan. Abruptly Fuuma took his fingers away. There's a glimpse of something in his eyes that Kamui could not quite fathom.
Fuuma smiled at him before turning his attention to the coffee machine. Kamui watched his every move intently.
And right now, Kamui felt very happy. Fuuma will never change. He knew that for sure.
But still he was slightly embarrassed when he thought about himself. Fuuma was so mature, he could never be someone like that. Well not in a near future anyway. What if he got left behind? What if he could never catch up with Fuuma?
The smell of freshly brewed coffee brought him back to reality.
Fuuma's standing there in front of him, cradling his coffee lovingly.
"So… I guess you turned down coffee offer right?"
Kamui smiled.
"For now."
"Yes Kamui, for now."
"One day we'll have coffee together Fuuma."
"I'll be waiting."
It's a promise. Not only a promise that ensured them to have coffee together in the future but it also implied that Fuuma would be there waiting for him. He was grateful to have Fuuma by his side.
***
He was glad that Kamui's alright now. The boy sat on the chair and smiled to him with gratitude. Looking so sweet and fragile and yet so enchanting. Seeing him like that is almost enough to make him lose control. And he almost is.
When his fingers ghosted around Kamui's face he couldn't help but to wonder how it felt to have those skins slide against his. When he saw Kamui's soft pink lips he can't help but to wonder if they are as sweet as they look like. And when he felt their breath mingled between their lips he can't help but to wonder how it felt to have their body mingled in unison.
He almost kissed Kamui there.
What woke him up to reality was his illusion of Kamui's throaty moan. It could never happen.
Kamui rose from his seat. The sudden movement had made him a little nervous. His fingers trembled slightly. Kamui is only few inches away, he could kissed him right now.
"Fuuma… I …"
Kamui lowered his gaze. His long lashes fluttered and covered his eyes in a half lidded gaze, making him look almost shy.
Control yourself…But having Kamui so closed to him and looked almost willing to be kissed was too much.
So Fuuma unconsciously leaned closer to the smaller boy and started to close the gap between their lips.
*Ring* *Ring*
Damnit!! Just when he got the chance to kiss Kamui, his cell phones started to rang.
"Fuuma… your cell phone…" Kamui smiled lightly to him. Doesn't the boy realized how beautiful he is?
"I know… I know…" He searched and his pocket and found what he's been looking for.
"Moshi-moshi, … Yuuto?... No, I'm not busy…Aa… Okay. I'll be there in 15 minutes, ja!"
Fuuma shut his cell phones and put his coffee on the table. A part of him felt grateful that Yuuto had called him right before he brushed his lips against Kamui's. But he couldn't deny the other part of him that regret it. It's safer if I don't kiss him, he could broke our friendship if I do that.
"Where are you going?"
"To meet someone. We've promised to watch the soccer match together. Sorry for the interruption Kamui. We haven't talked yet so I guess we'll talk later okay?"
Kamui somehow look disappointed but then again maybe he just making things up.
"I'd better be going, I'll find Kotori first."
"Fuuma…"
"Hmm?"
The smaller boy unexpectedly was walking toward him before tugging his shirt lightly.
"Your shirt… it's unbuttoned. Let me fix that for you…"
He was startled. He never thought that he would get so much attention from Kamui. He caught his breath when he felt the soft thread of Kamui's silky hair tickled his jaw. And that apple and mint scent that was so Kamui were flowing inside his vein again. He could lose his control easily and he would regret it…. Well not really...
Slowly Kamui started to do the button near his collar bone, the tip of fingers grazed the skin of Fuuma's jaw in order to do that. Fuuma had to hold back the moan that was threatening to be sound. He felt so special and so honoured to have such a lavish attention from Kamui.
Kamui's fingers worked the other button, this time it was the skin on Fuuma's chest that was touched by Kamui soft and delicate fingers. The touch felt so intimate. It's like Kamui's trying to search for something that was hidden inside him.
Soon the other buttons followed. Fingers touching his skin. The skin on the upper part of his abdomen… the skin just a little over his navel… He made a choking sound everytime Kamui touched him. A vain attempt to cover his moan. But Kamui was so serious in doing his task, he made no sign that he was hearing the sound the other boy made.
Kamui's fingers making their path steadily. Going under. The anticipation of the touch almost made Fuuma want to scream. If he hadn't knew Kamui he might think that Kamui was seducing him, but the fact is he's not. The boy was too clueless and naïve for his own good. Everytime their skin met Fuuma tried hard to control himself from ravishing Kamui here and now.
Finally it's the last button.
"Fuuma… your skin is so soft."
Kamui's fingers marvel along the skin of his arm. The gesture was intimate in so many ways.
"I guess we can do this again another time." Kamui sighed softly.
Fuuma's mind was in a daze, he dimly wondered if Kamui had meant to touch him again. But as soon his consciousness come into his mind he realized that Kamui was implying to the talk.
"Of course we can Kamui." Fuuma said with a smile, "Anytime."
TBC
A/N: I know… I know… I've promised to put Sei-chan this chapter, but I got too carried away with Fuuma-Kamui fluffy moments. For you Sei-chan shipper I will put him on the next chapter. There will be Subaru too as well. So look up for next chapter again Ok?
I'm working this chapter in a gloomy mood, I thought I was going to make another angsty chapter. But I'm glad it didn't turn out that way… wouldn't want to spoil the fluffy moment for the sake of our dear Fuuma ^_^. And for you Sei/Su shipper, I have planned to make a special chapter for them. Just wait and see…
By the way, I always think that Fuuma looked so sexy with his glasses * flipping the page of X vol.14 * . Don't you all agree with me?
Please review this chapter. I need to wipe away this gloomy mood of mine… I need my Athrun too sigh. Athrun forever! Yay!
Yanagi-san: smile You always be the first one to review my fic, thank you. Though Sei-chan isn't here yet but I hope the F/K fluffy moment would light this chapter. ^_^
Whales-san: Thank you! ^_^ though I'm not sure if Fuuma's IC in this chapter. Seishirou? He will be there on the next chapter.
Gisela-san: No, I'm not going to make our dear Fuuma having a split personality but there will be times when he will show his Dark Kamui personality. You find my idea original? Thank you. ^o^ And every body is wondering about Kotori, read the fic and I'll tell you. ^_^
Bella15-san: I will. Don't worry ^_^
Lady Zephyros-san: Why, thank you! I hope you like this chapter.