Just friend's - His words
Disclaimer: As previous
Authors note: Sorry you had to wait this long but, I had to wait for the end of season 3 to show on sky one before I could continue as I wanted to keep this in line (just about) with the show. Now read on and enjoy.
Sleep that's what she really needed but, that was not to come tonight not when thoughts of him still rushed though her mind. Before there had not been time before for the trauma of his words to hit her but, now she was alone the full force of them hit her and held her captive it was inescapable and, it was tormenting her; how could he say those things to her and then do what he did.
His words continued to circle her mind and, she wanted to scream out loud but she held it back it would only attract attention that she didn't want and couldn't deal with so instead she screamed inside but, she felt no better for it.
He hadn't said he loved her exactly but, it was as close to a declaration of love as she was ever going to get. He had cared for her and, for a moment her sprit soared in his love then it fell and it was still falling now. She was alone, and that was the way it was going to stay, he cared for her, now she knew that at last, but still it wasn't enough to hold him to her, still she remained alone.
For a moment she wounded whether it was better to know or not; his words had hurt her more than a force lance ever could but, not knowing had hurt too. She had meant something to him and she cherished that thought but, what good had that knowledge done her? She was still alone, and he was still out of her reach but, now he was further still from her.
He loved her but, still she was doomed to be alone; there was no happy endings in sight for her. That child she had dreamed of would forever remain a dream. She supposed if she did not know she could go on dreaming the dream instead of this waking nightmare he had left her with; the knowledge that it would never be.
So she cried, she wept until there were no more tears to come for her body could spare no more precious moisture. She hadn't cried for such a long time and now it felt as if she had cried every tear she had never shed. He had done this to her, he had held out his love for her then snatched it back before she even got to feel it and, all he had left her with was tears.
She closed her eyes and for a second she sore him, she sore what their life could have been, she held the girl in her arms and felt what it was like to have his love, then reality snatched her back. She was not meant to have him what ever god happened to be out there it appeared he didn't want her to be happy.
The universe was cruel but, still that wasn't really a big surprise to her the universe seemed to get a kick out of snatching away the ones she loved, her mum, dad, the others she had lost, they were all gone from her life and, now he was too.
Fresh tears sprung to her eyes, tears that his words had put there, she should hate him for that she thought but still she couldn't, loss was the only emotion she felt and it consumed her. He had told her he loved her then walked way, right though the airlock and out of her life, why can't she hate him for that?
Some were in her she realised that hope still flicked, hope that he would come back one day and they would be together finally but, the rational part of her mind told her that it would not happen even if he came back.
Tyr was lost to her forever and, she Beka Valentine would remain alone.
The end (probably!)
Well done to anybody who guessed the couple and sorry to anyone who would rather have remained in the dark or were disappointed.
So what did you think, did you like it? Would you have preferred me to keep it a mystery; would you like me to post the alternate version of chapter 3 which spills the beans much earlier, would you like a final chapter form Tyr's pov. Let me know, I value your opinions and appreciate the time you take to review my work.
P.S. Do you like my new penname, I am a designing a web site under the same name look out for it in the future.
Claire. (Rommie's Voice)
Disclaimer: As previous
Authors note: Sorry you had to wait this long but, I had to wait for the end of season 3 to show on sky one before I could continue as I wanted to keep this in line (just about) with the show. Now read on and enjoy.
Sleep that's what she really needed but, that was not to come tonight not when thoughts of him still rushed though her mind. Before there had not been time before for the trauma of his words to hit her but, now she was alone the full force of them hit her and held her captive it was inescapable and, it was tormenting her; how could he say those things to her and then do what he did.
His words continued to circle her mind and, she wanted to scream out loud but she held it back it would only attract attention that she didn't want and couldn't deal with so instead she screamed inside but, she felt no better for it.
He hadn't said he loved her exactly but, it was as close to a declaration of love as she was ever going to get. He had cared for her and, for a moment her sprit soared in his love then it fell and it was still falling now. She was alone, and that was the way it was going to stay, he cared for her, now she knew that at last, but still it wasn't enough to hold him to her, still she remained alone.
For a moment she wounded whether it was better to know or not; his words had hurt her more than a force lance ever could but, not knowing had hurt too. She had meant something to him and she cherished that thought but, what good had that knowledge done her? She was still alone, and he was still out of her reach but, now he was further still from her.
He loved her but, still she was doomed to be alone; there was no happy endings in sight for her. That child she had dreamed of would forever remain a dream. She supposed if she did not know she could go on dreaming the dream instead of this waking nightmare he had left her with; the knowledge that it would never be.
So she cried, she wept until there were no more tears to come for her body could spare no more precious moisture. She hadn't cried for such a long time and now it felt as if she had cried every tear she had never shed. He had done this to her, he had held out his love for her then snatched it back before she even got to feel it and, all he had left her with was tears.
She closed her eyes and for a second she sore him, she sore what their life could have been, she held the girl in her arms and felt what it was like to have his love, then reality snatched her back. She was not meant to have him what ever god happened to be out there it appeared he didn't want her to be happy.
The universe was cruel but, still that wasn't really a big surprise to her the universe seemed to get a kick out of snatching away the ones she loved, her mum, dad, the others she had lost, they were all gone from her life and, now he was too.
Fresh tears sprung to her eyes, tears that his words had put there, she should hate him for that she thought but still she couldn't, loss was the only emotion she felt and it consumed her. He had told her he loved her then walked way, right though the airlock and out of her life, why can't she hate him for that?
Some were in her she realised that hope still flicked, hope that he would come back one day and they would be together finally but, the rational part of her mind told her that it would not happen even if he came back.
Tyr was lost to her forever and, she Beka Valentine would remain alone.
The end (probably!)
Well done to anybody who guessed the couple and sorry to anyone who would rather have remained in the dark or were disappointed.
So what did you think, did you like it? Would you have preferred me to keep it a mystery; would you like me to post the alternate version of chapter 3 which spills the beans much earlier, would you like a final chapter form Tyr's pov. Let me know, I value your opinions and appreciate the time you take to review my work.
P.S. Do you like my new penname, I am a designing a web site under the same name look out for it in the future.
Claire. (Rommie's Voice)