Control was utterly lost as Heaven and I fell upon each other, throbbing and hot with the intensity of our desire, the fury of our passion that seemed to spill over the entire world and rinse away anything that was sinful about our loving touches. She trembled as she clung to me, pressed herself against me, the last drops of tension in her body melting each with kiss I planted onto her burning skin, until she was slowly peeling away my clothes and tossing them aside, leaving nothing between our bodies but fierce electricity.
Her eyelids fluttered shut and her hands roamed through my hair as my lips made a trail from the soft hollow of her neck to the valley between her breasts to the small puckered navel and beyond. The heat of her body rose ever higher to match mine, until the two of us were creating a fire brighter and hotter than that which blazed and crackled in the fireplace next to us. The light flickering upon her face made her seem a phantom in my arms, a shadow that would slip away soon and leave me cold unless I could fill myself up with her essence while I had the chance. Every movement I made was slow and lingering to make this night of our forbidden surrender last as long as possible, so I could drink in as much of her as I could before we inevitably awoke from the dream that could never last forever.
A strange numbness came over me, made me feel distant, detached. I was hovering somewhere above, out of myself, watching everything unfold before my unfocussed eyes. I couldn't stop it from happening even though a small, weak voice buried deep inside me struggled to burst free from its shackles and convince me to stop this before it was too late... but it was already too late.
"Troy."
The soft hum of her voice brought me crashing back to reality, sending a violent lightning bolt throughout me. Hearing my name in her voice was pure rapture, though it brought tears to my eyes and an silent sob to my lips, wondering if I would ever hear her speak it again. These overwhelming emotions shifted moment to moment until they blended seamlessly together and thrilling ecstasy was the same as crippling depression. It didn't matter what I was feeling inside, as long as I felt her lips on me, her breath rippling over my skin, her arms locked around me and holding me close against her.
"Heaven..." Moaning her name breathlessly, I moved over her and let our limbs intertwine. I rained kisses down upon her, which she eagerly returned, seducing me merely by wanting me, needing me. I felt real only when I was with her, alive only when she was here to breathe life into my withered soul. Losing her again would kill me, batter and bruise me as it had done time and time before, leaving me a ghost of a man doomed to walk through purgatory in his own cold shadow until the pain became unbearable.
"I love you so much..."
I didn't realize I was crying until I saw small drops of wetness on the smooth porcelain of her cheek. I lifted a shaking hand to wipe them away and brush back the feathers of hair that had fallen across her forehead. Our gazes locked and my heart pounded harder, my breath coming faster and heavier, my body tensing in anticipation of what it knew was coming, coming soon. I was trapped in a delicious daze as my body shifted into place between the legs she wrapped around me.
"I love you, Heaven... love more you than life itself..."
Suddenly we were made one being. A choking gasp shuddered through me and burst out of lips that trembled and hung open in blissful shock. We moved rhythmically against each other, our lovemaking never seeming so desperate, so urgent, so fraught with reckless abandon. I was barely able to breathe, barely holding onto consciousness. I gazed down as we rode the waves of our passion for what seemed like forever, but time did not exist now, not in these moments when the world around us blurred and faded to black and we were the only beings left, seized in our own inescapable web of manic exhilaration.
A hot ecstasy rose up inside me, swelled and grew until it took me over completely and made my entire body shiver and tremble against her. I crushed her desperately against me, clung to her for dear life, my mind clouded and dizzy as the burning lava inside bubbled and boiled and finally exploded. My breath hitched in my throat as I hovered over her, shaking with euphoric rapture, trembling with the delirious shock to my system. Heaven held me tight and eased my body down onto hers as my heart raced and throbbed almost painfully. The fire that consumed me died down slowly, slowly, until I was once again able to breathe, able to think, able to move.
Gently I slid down to her side, keeping one of my legs tangled with hers as I wrapped an arm tightly around her and laid my heavy head down on the soft pillow of her hair. I felt intoxicated and delusional, but relieved and fulfilled as I had not been in an incalculable amount of time. But, like the eye of a storm, the rainbow did not last long between the dark, thick clouds of doom that loomed ahead, waiting to settle over me once again. Desperately I staved off the tragic ending of this perfect, unforgettable night, and instead welcomed the sleep that would chase away the clouds if only for a short while longer. Fall asleep enveloped in Heaven's arms, comforted by the warmth of her skin, and don't think yet of the heartache that inevitably awaited.
Her voice was distant and hazy as she murmured that she would always love me, and I whispered the same in reply. I tightened my grasp around her, kissed her forehead weakly, and sighed into her hair as we both slipped off to the saving grace of sleep.
Her eyelids fluttered shut and her hands roamed through my hair as my lips made a trail from the soft hollow of her neck to the valley between her breasts to the small puckered navel and beyond. The heat of her body rose ever higher to match mine, until the two of us were creating a fire brighter and hotter than that which blazed and crackled in the fireplace next to us. The light flickering upon her face made her seem a phantom in my arms, a shadow that would slip away soon and leave me cold unless I could fill myself up with her essence while I had the chance. Every movement I made was slow and lingering to make this night of our forbidden surrender last as long as possible, so I could drink in as much of her as I could before we inevitably awoke from the dream that could never last forever.
A strange numbness came over me, made me feel distant, detached. I was hovering somewhere above, out of myself, watching everything unfold before my unfocussed eyes. I couldn't stop it from happening even though a small, weak voice buried deep inside me struggled to burst free from its shackles and convince me to stop this before it was too late... but it was already too late.
"Troy."
The soft hum of her voice brought me crashing back to reality, sending a violent lightning bolt throughout me. Hearing my name in her voice was pure rapture, though it brought tears to my eyes and an silent sob to my lips, wondering if I would ever hear her speak it again. These overwhelming emotions shifted moment to moment until they blended seamlessly together and thrilling ecstasy was the same as crippling depression. It didn't matter what I was feeling inside, as long as I felt her lips on me, her breath rippling over my skin, her arms locked around me and holding me close against her.
"Heaven..." Moaning her name breathlessly, I moved over her and let our limbs intertwine. I rained kisses down upon her, which she eagerly returned, seducing me merely by wanting me, needing me. I felt real only when I was with her, alive only when she was here to breathe life into my withered soul. Losing her again would kill me, batter and bruise me as it had done time and time before, leaving me a ghost of a man doomed to walk through purgatory in his own cold shadow until the pain became unbearable.
"I love you so much..."
I didn't realize I was crying until I saw small drops of wetness on the smooth porcelain of her cheek. I lifted a shaking hand to wipe them away and brush back the feathers of hair that had fallen across her forehead. Our gazes locked and my heart pounded harder, my breath coming faster and heavier, my body tensing in anticipation of what it knew was coming, coming soon. I was trapped in a delicious daze as my body shifted into place between the legs she wrapped around me.
"I love you, Heaven... love more you than life itself..."
Suddenly we were made one being. A choking gasp shuddered through me and burst out of lips that trembled and hung open in blissful shock. We moved rhythmically against each other, our lovemaking never seeming so desperate, so urgent, so fraught with reckless abandon. I was barely able to breathe, barely holding onto consciousness. I gazed down as we rode the waves of our passion for what seemed like forever, but time did not exist now, not in these moments when the world around us blurred and faded to black and we were the only beings left, seized in our own inescapable web of manic exhilaration.
A hot ecstasy rose up inside me, swelled and grew until it took me over completely and made my entire body shiver and tremble against her. I crushed her desperately against me, clung to her for dear life, my mind clouded and dizzy as the burning lava inside bubbled and boiled and finally exploded. My breath hitched in my throat as I hovered over her, shaking with euphoric rapture, trembling with the delirious shock to my system. Heaven held me tight and eased my body down onto hers as my heart raced and throbbed almost painfully. The fire that consumed me died down slowly, slowly, until I was once again able to breathe, able to think, able to move.
Gently I slid down to her side, keeping one of my legs tangled with hers as I wrapped an arm tightly around her and laid my heavy head down on the soft pillow of her hair. I felt intoxicated and delusional, but relieved and fulfilled as I had not been in an incalculable amount of time. But, like the eye of a storm, the rainbow did not last long between the dark, thick clouds of doom that loomed ahead, waiting to settle over me once again. Desperately I staved off the tragic ending of this perfect, unforgettable night, and instead welcomed the sleep that would chase away the clouds if only for a short while longer. Fall asleep enveloped in Heaven's arms, comforted by the warmth of her skin, and don't think yet of the heartache that inevitably awaited.
Her voice was distant and hazy as she murmured that she would always love me, and I whispered the same in reply. I tightened my grasp around her, kissed her forehead weakly, and sighed into her hair as we both slipped off to the saving grace of sleep.