Icy waves of rain cascaded down the tree branches on pounded the closed
window. The small, emaciated form was still clinging to the tree in hopes
that it would somehow save him. He could no longer feel the burning cold in
his feet or hands. He was slowly growing numb, slowly dieing. Knowing that
his demise was inevitable, he cried out in pain that was not from injury
but from loss.
"I Loved you!" he yelled to the bitter winds as the tears flowed freely down his face for only the second time in his life
Novelty Toy,
Chapter Three
When Kurama went to school the next day Hiei sat on his bed and thought of everything that had happened. He thought of the dream he had had that night. Sitting there, he realized that Kurama had not given him a kiss before leavening. It brought his thoughts back to the dream. 'no!' he told himself. 'Kurama loves me and would never leave me. I just was running late and could not find his books. He simply forgot, he will still remember'
At school Kurama had no idea of the tormenting thoughts that had griped Hiei's heart. He was thinking of how to explain to the teacher that he had not finished his homework that he was sure that she would not collect. He tried a few out in his head. 'I'm sorry, I stopped doing my homework so that I could watch a movie with my lover, which I might add he slept through. Yes, that is right, I said that HE slept through it. Yes, I know that it is taboo for humans but he is a demon and so am I so it really is not too strange.' Somehow he did not think that that one would go over too well.
He walked into class on time and joined his friends. Mrs. Sonth, the teacher, stood up in front of the class, who were busy writing down everything on the board. "Unless any of you can produce a good enough sob story, I will collect your papers now" Kurama looked up at her in shock. He had not finished, he had not had time. He explained that he had not been able to complete it because he was accompanying his mother to the hospital or some tests. The rest of the class backed him up in saying that his mother had been very ill at one point. It was true that his mother had gone to the hospital but he had never left the house. Mrs. Sonth bought the story and told him to hand it in tomorrow. Kurama did not think of the fact that he would have to do homework from two nights in one night.
Kurama managed to skimp along in her class. In the past, his Youko side had known the answers. This subject was new to him. He soon quit art club so that he could do his homework and then drama so that he could study. The amount of time that he was dedicating to his class was growing steadily and his time with everything else was lowering dramatically. It was now often that he would have Upton quiz him as he drove him home. He was getting less and less sleep and now was resembling a zombie who was deader than most others. But it was not Kurama that suffered the most, it was Hiei.
'It's going to be alright' he lied to himself. 'Kurama will be done with that class soon and then I can watch movies with him and fall asleep in his arms.' Hiei took a glance at Kurama's tv. It had not been turned on for over a month and his DVDs, once more valuable to Kurama than gold, gathered dust. Hiei spent more and more time sitting on Kurama's bed, looking longingly at the fox as Kurama did his mounting amounts of homework. He broke contact with him long enough to look at the calendar. It had only been one month since he had started the class. Hiei had watched him get sucked into a downward spiral. Because he was spending so much time studying, he no longer had time to do his other homework. He had stopped doing everything that had given him joy. Even through that, Hiei still would not let him go. 'Kurama, please, you have to stop. You need to sleep more.'
"Suiichi!" Kurama's human mother called. "Time for dinner!"
Kurama begrudgingly got up from his homework and went downstairs. Hiei went over to Kurama's chair and sat in it, it was still warm. He looked over Kurama's work and tried to do some of it in an attempt to wind up with some time with his lover. He reached for one of Kurama's pens and his hand accidentally bumped into something else. It was a black ball of some sort.
~Flashback~
Kurama was sitting at his desk, which covered with pictures of his fiends. In his hand he held a black ball. He shook it up and peered into a flat section. Hiei, who was in the window, had no idea what was going on. He went over to Kurama and looked at him and then at the strange ball in his hands.
"It's called a magic 8 ball. It's a novelty toy"
"A what?"
"A magic 8 ball, you ask it a yes or no question, shake it, and an answer floats to the top."
"And the second thing"
"A novelty toy, it is a toy that is really interesting for a short period of time but then it mainly just sits around."
~End Flashback~
Hiei shook off the odd feeling that he had and looked down at Kurama's homework. He mimicked his handwriting and wrote in a few answers. Under his lies to himself, he knew that even if he answered everything for Kurama he would not get any time with him. Kurama would devote it to studying for one class or another. He heard familiar footsteps on the stairs and moved back to the bed.
Kurama walked in the room determined to study all night if he had to to get his grades up. His mother had just given him a lecture about doing well I school and had pointed out that his grades were slipping. She told him again about how proud she had been when he started off the year. He was not going to let the woman who had saved his life be disappointed in him.
Hiei watched Kurama walk into the room, waiting for his plate of food. He remembered when Kurama would sometimes make him something just for them. Those times seemed far away. Hiei thought back to the night before. He had had a nightmare, just a usual one, and had tried to get Kurama to comfort him as he always had before. He had just been pushed away as Kurama mumbled something about sleed. He remembered looking at him with wide eyes, having never been pushed away by him. He had blamed it on lack of sleep and had pushed it out of his mind. 'He still loves me' he lied once more. 'He knows what it would do to me if he left me' he hugged his knees closer and looked at Kurama, who was now sitting at his desk. He sniffed the air before he realized that there was no food in the room. 'no matter, there were most likely no leftovers. He would never forget about me like that' another voice, a more pessimistic one, popped into his head. 'then why didn't he tell you that?'
Again, Kurama worked until he was ready to drop. He got into his bed and soon found that there was a strong pressure against his right side. "Hiei" he mumbled "go away, I need to sleep" it was true, sleep never came easily any more no matter how much he needed it. Questions about math, science, and history would attack his every thought for hours on end before leaving him to his peace.
Hiei sat up and looked down at Kurama. He wanted so bad to tell him everything that was bothering him, tell him how much he missed the time that they usually spent together, and how he felt ignored but he knew just how much Kurama needed his sleep. 'I'll tell him tomorrow' he vowed and laid down on the opposite side of the bed. He soon found his sleep attacked by vicious dreams.
(~) Dream
Kurama was at his desk where he always was. Hiei was, as always, sitting on their bed watching Kurama torturing himself with homework. Kurama continued to work as a demon climbed in through the window. The demon leapt upon Hiei. Hiei tried to fight back but the demon was winning. He tried yelling for help from Kurama but the fox did not hear his screams. He watched his own blood stain Kurama's carpet. He realized that he was dead. The demon started to walk over to Kurama. Hiei, even though he knew he had died, tried to get up and help. The demon had taken Hiei's sword and aimed it at Kurama's neck.
Hiei sat up, sweat pouring off of him. He looked over at Kurama who was still sound asleep. He knew that his jagan was trying to send him a message and he knew that it was not the first time that it had. He understood it but would not believe it. 'he will listen to me, he has to or it will kill both of us!' suddenly Hiei could no longer stand to be in the same bed as him. He suppressed the urge to leave for good. 'What Kurama really needs is someone who cares about him, someone like me. I will not give up on him'
Even though he was able to keep from leaving, he did not want to be close to him. He moved to the very edge of the bed. He slept without a pillow and with hardly a blanket in Kurama's cold room. In his dreams he was haunted by thoughts worse than death.
(~) Dream
Yukina was sitting on a log next to a stream that Hiei had often seen her visit. She was crying about something. 'Someone probably told her that they had still not found her brother' Hiei thought. Because he felt the need to protect her, he went over to see what was wrong. She looked up at him and screamed. She ran off into the woods.
He was left alone until he sought out Yusuke. He found him looking terribly sad. Deciding not to get involved, he went to see Kuwabara so that he could tease him about something. He didn't have a plan at the time but something always came up.
When Kuwabara saw him he lunged forward, knocking Hiei backwards. Tears were streaming out of his eyes. He mumbled something over and over, slowly growing to an ear shattering shout. "You bastard! You killed her!" he yelled as he grabbed a firm hold on Hiei's arm.
"What are you talking about?" Hiei demanded. Kuwabara grabbed him and threw him into a room. As soon as he entered he could smell blood. He looked over and the self mutilated body of Yukina. Suddenly Kurama was behind him.
"Wha. . ." Hiei's voice faltered. "What happened to her?"
Kurama looked down with a stern gaze, "She found her brother"
Hiei felt himself collapse to the ground. This was what he had feared would happen. He looked around to see that he was in a black room. Out of the blackness came Yukina, still sporting the wounds of her suicide.
"You murderer" she shouted "You bastard!" her screams pierced his heart. "Look what you did to me! I would rather be dead than related to you!" Hiei backed up a few steps. "I hate you, everyone hates you! You thought that I would be happy to find my brother, didn't you! Why would anyone love you!"
Hiei backed up until he bumped into Kurama.
"Stupid child! How could I love you? How could anyone love you? You should be glad that none of us kill you just so that we don't have to look at you, you selfish coward!" Kurama yelled at him
Hiei woke up to find that he had fallen on the floor. He looked up at the bed and peered over the edge. Kurama was sleeping. He wanted so much to wake Kurama up to tell him that he was alright. He needed a warm embrace to keep him feeling safe and warm. He hugged his knees close to him and cried, something that he had never done before. The tears washed his cheeks like little streams before they fell to the ground and hardened. He scooped them up and put them in a box that he had found some time before.
In the morning he woke up to find that Kurama had gone to school already. Was it possible that he had missed Hiei lying on the floor, clutching his legs to his chest?
WOW! That was one hell of a dark dream! It is now official, I frighten myself!
Maybe I should go into writing more dark stuff, or maybe I should stay the hell away from it!
"I Loved you!" he yelled to the bitter winds as the tears flowed freely down his face for only the second time in his life
Novelty Toy,
Chapter Three
When Kurama went to school the next day Hiei sat on his bed and thought of everything that had happened. He thought of the dream he had had that night. Sitting there, he realized that Kurama had not given him a kiss before leavening. It brought his thoughts back to the dream. 'no!' he told himself. 'Kurama loves me and would never leave me. I just was running late and could not find his books. He simply forgot, he will still remember'
At school Kurama had no idea of the tormenting thoughts that had griped Hiei's heart. He was thinking of how to explain to the teacher that he had not finished his homework that he was sure that she would not collect. He tried a few out in his head. 'I'm sorry, I stopped doing my homework so that I could watch a movie with my lover, which I might add he slept through. Yes, that is right, I said that HE slept through it. Yes, I know that it is taboo for humans but he is a demon and so am I so it really is not too strange.' Somehow he did not think that that one would go over too well.
He walked into class on time and joined his friends. Mrs. Sonth, the teacher, stood up in front of the class, who were busy writing down everything on the board. "Unless any of you can produce a good enough sob story, I will collect your papers now" Kurama looked up at her in shock. He had not finished, he had not had time. He explained that he had not been able to complete it because he was accompanying his mother to the hospital or some tests. The rest of the class backed him up in saying that his mother had been very ill at one point. It was true that his mother had gone to the hospital but he had never left the house. Mrs. Sonth bought the story and told him to hand it in tomorrow. Kurama did not think of the fact that he would have to do homework from two nights in one night.
Kurama managed to skimp along in her class. In the past, his Youko side had known the answers. This subject was new to him. He soon quit art club so that he could do his homework and then drama so that he could study. The amount of time that he was dedicating to his class was growing steadily and his time with everything else was lowering dramatically. It was now often that he would have Upton quiz him as he drove him home. He was getting less and less sleep and now was resembling a zombie who was deader than most others. But it was not Kurama that suffered the most, it was Hiei.
'It's going to be alright' he lied to himself. 'Kurama will be done with that class soon and then I can watch movies with him and fall asleep in his arms.' Hiei took a glance at Kurama's tv. It had not been turned on for over a month and his DVDs, once more valuable to Kurama than gold, gathered dust. Hiei spent more and more time sitting on Kurama's bed, looking longingly at the fox as Kurama did his mounting amounts of homework. He broke contact with him long enough to look at the calendar. It had only been one month since he had started the class. Hiei had watched him get sucked into a downward spiral. Because he was spending so much time studying, he no longer had time to do his other homework. He had stopped doing everything that had given him joy. Even through that, Hiei still would not let him go. 'Kurama, please, you have to stop. You need to sleep more.'
"Suiichi!" Kurama's human mother called. "Time for dinner!"
Kurama begrudgingly got up from his homework and went downstairs. Hiei went over to Kurama's chair and sat in it, it was still warm. He looked over Kurama's work and tried to do some of it in an attempt to wind up with some time with his lover. He reached for one of Kurama's pens and his hand accidentally bumped into something else. It was a black ball of some sort.
~Flashback~
Kurama was sitting at his desk, which covered with pictures of his fiends. In his hand he held a black ball. He shook it up and peered into a flat section. Hiei, who was in the window, had no idea what was going on. He went over to Kurama and looked at him and then at the strange ball in his hands.
"It's called a magic 8 ball. It's a novelty toy"
"A what?"
"A magic 8 ball, you ask it a yes or no question, shake it, and an answer floats to the top."
"And the second thing"
"A novelty toy, it is a toy that is really interesting for a short period of time but then it mainly just sits around."
~End Flashback~
Hiei shook off the odd feeling that he had and looked down at Kurama's homework. He mimicked his handwriting and wrote in a few answers. Under his lies to himself, he knew that even if he answered everything for Kurama he would not get any time with him. Kurama would devote it to studying for one class or another. He heard familiar footsteps on the stairs and moved back to the bed.
Kurama walked in the room determined to study all night if he had to to get his grades up. His mother had just given him a lecture about doing well I school and had pointed out that his grades were slipping. She told him again about how proud she had been when he started off the year. He was not going to let the woman who had saved his life be disappointed in him.
Hiei watched Kurama walk into the room, waiting for his plate of food. He remembered when Kurama would sometimes make him something just for them. Those times seemed far away. Hiei thought back to the night before. He had had a nightmare, just a usual one, and had tried to get Kurama to comfort him as he always had before. He had just been pushed away as Kurama mumbled something about sleed. He remembered looking at him with wide eyes, having never been pushed away by him. He had blamed it on lack of sleep and had pushed it out of his mind. 'He still loves me' he lied once more. 'He knows what it would do to me if he left me' he hugged his knees closer and looked at Kurama, who was now sitting at his desk. He sniffed the air before he realized that there was no food in the room. 'no matter, there were most likely no leftovers. He would never forget about me like that' another voice, a more pessimistic one, popped into his head. 'then why didn't he tell you that?'
Again, Kurama worked until he was ready to drop. He got into his bed and soon found that there was a strong pressure against his right side. "Hiei" he mumbled "go away, I need to sleep" it was true, sleep never came easily any more no matter how much he needed it. Questions about math, science, and history would attack his every thought for hours on end before leaving him to his peace.
Hiei sat up and looked down at Kurama. He wanted so bad to tell him everything that was bothering him, tell him how much he missed the time that they usually spent together, and how he felt ignored but he knew just how much Kurama needed his sleep. 'I'll tell him tomorrow' he vowed and laid down on the opposite side of the bed. He soon found his sleep attacked by vicious dreams.
(~) Dream
Kurama was at his desk where he always was. Hiei was, as always, sitting on their bed watching Kurama torturing himself with homework. Kurama continued to work as a demon climbed in through the window. The demon leapt upon Hiei. Hiei tried to fight back but the demon was winning. He tried yelling for help from Kurama but the fox did not hear his screams. He watched his own blood stain Kurama's carpet. He realized that he was dead. The demon started to walk over to Kurama. Hiei, even though he knew he had died, tried to get up and help. The demon had taken Hiei's sword and aimed it at Kurama's neck.
Hiei sat up, sweat pouring off of him. He looked over at Kurama who was still sound asleep. He knew that his jagan was trying to send him a message and he knew that it was not the first time that it had. He understood it but would not believe it. 'he will listen to me, he has to or it will kill both of us!' suddenly Hiei could no longer stand to be in the same bed as him. He suppressed the urge to leave for good. 'What Kurama really needs is someone who cares about him, someone like me. I will not give up on him'
Even though he was able to keep from leaving, he did not want to be close to him. He moved to the very edge of the bed. He slept without a pillow and with hardly a blanket in Kurama's cold room. In his dreams he was haunted by thoughts worse than death.
(~) Dream
Yukina was sitting on a log next to a stream that Hiei had often seen her visit. She was crying about something. 'Someone probably told her that they had still not found her brother' Hiei thought. Because he felt the need to protect her, he went over to see what was wrong. She looked up at him and screamed. She ran off into the woods.
He was left alone until he sought out Yusuke. He found him looking terribly sad. Deciding not to get involved, he went to see Kuwabara so that he could tease him about something. He didn't have a plan at the time but something always came up.
When Kuwabara saw him he lunged forward, knocking Hiei backwards. Tears were streaming out of his eyes. He mumbled something over and over, slowly growing to an ear shattering shout. "You bastard! You killed her!" he yelled as he grabbed a firm hold on Hiei's arm.
"What are you talking about?" Hiei demanded. Kuwabara grabbed him and threw him into a room. As soon as he entered he could smell blood. He looked over and the self mutilated body of Yukina. Suddenly Kurama was behind him.
"Wha. . ." Hiei's voice faltered. "What happened to her?"
Kurama looked down with a stern gaze, "She found her brother"
Hiei felt himself collapse to the ground. This was what he had feared would happen. He looked around to see that he was in a black room. Out of the blackness came Yukina, still sporting the wounds of her suicide.
"You murderer" she shouted "You bastard!" her screams pierced his heart. "Look what you did to me! I would rather be dead than related to you!" Hiei backed up a few steps. "I hate you, everyone hates you! You thought that I would be happy to find my brother, didn't you! Why would anyone love you!"
Hiei backed up until he bumped into Kurama.
"Stupid child! How could I love you? How could anyone love you? You should be glad that none of us kill you just so that we don't have to look at you, you selfish coward!" Kurama yelled at him
Hiei woke up to find that he had fallen on the floor. He looked up at the bed and peered over the edge. Kurama was sleeping. He wanted so much to wake Kurama up to tell him that he was alright. He needed a warm embrace to keep him feeling safe and warm. He hugged his knees close to him and cried, something that he had never done before. The tears washed his cheeks like little streams before they fell to the ground and hardened. He scooped them up and put them in a box that he had found some time before.
In the morning he woke up to find that Kurama had gone to school already. Was it possible that he had missed Hiei lying on the floor, clutching his legs to his chest?
WOW! That was one hell of a dark dream! It is now official, I frighten myself!
Maybe I should go into writing more dark stuff, or maybe I should stay the hell away from it!