koko chan: sequal to hinata's POV. woo hoo...
s: now we focus on sakura's thoughts on her teamates, her role in team seven and the thought of losing her friend.
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I couldn't sleep for days. Everytime I wake up, it's either in the middle of night in cold sweat, or in the morning on the floor. I just can't keep my mind straight. Ever since the incident. With Hinata chan, and her fever. I just can't. I'm happy that she's well and all. I am extremely glad that she's happier these days...but, I feel down everytime I look at HInata chan's smiling face. How sad, I think I kind of...envy her. In truth, I don't have any friends at all. Hinata chan in which I can communicate with, but...I rarely see her. She's mostly hanging around with her teamates.
Teamates...yeah. Maybe that's why I envy her. When I saw Kiba's hand grasp Hinata chan's I felt downsided. Would my teamates do that to me? Would Naruto panic like he did to Hinata chan? Would Sasuke kun rush through the snow to get me home? Would there be someone holding my hand at the hospital?
Depression. Yes, taht's really unhealthy for me. I raise my body off my bed and onto the desk. Reaching out, I felt my hands touch the small black switch that turned on the radio. I sunk in my seat a little. I love this song. It relates to me in a way. I close my eyes and listen carefully.
v: Looking back,
can't forget.
Can't regret.
What's still in me...
Trying so hard but,
but,
can't change a single thing.
But that's the way life is...
c: My prince, has lost his way,
too stubborn to ask for directions!
never coming back,
got to save myself.
'cause that's just reality....
v: so yes, i'm alone.
looking at others,
all so strong.
I'm always facing their back
but I guess I can't cry.
Because I rather be hated for what I am,
than sit back and lie.
c: My prince, has lost his way,
too stubborn to ask for directions!
never coming back,
got to save myself.
"cause that's just reality....
Ugh..I can't stand it. I reach out again and turn off the radio. I always hated the third verse and I always will. The voice in the last verse is so soft and sad. The lyrics are so depressing, in that one last verse. Feh, I listened to the song to much though, and the first time I heard it, I memorized it.
That's the way I am though, the smart one. The one who remebers everything. Yeah, the 101 saying of the shinobis. That never helped me though. Either way, I was still to weak to follow Sasuke kun and Naruto around. Even if I cut my hair, I couldn't beat Ino. So, I watched, as Sasuke kun and Naruto go off to train for the Chunnin exam. Naruto is off somewhere and Sasuke kun is with Kakashi senseu training. I'm stuck alone..all by my lonesome self. I can't rely on other people though. That's just not independent.
..but isn't it okay to cry?
I klunk my head down on the desk and heard another klunk. Wait, another klunk? Jumping to my feet, I race toward the window, who could be? I mean, who would throw rocks at my window? ..are people even still doing that these days?
It must be, because I look outside to a familier greeting.
"Haruno." Said the voice I knew all too well.
"Hyuga." I answered back. I playfully grinend at Neji. Who only eyed me back. "What do you need?" I asked. What could he need? What does he want? I mean, I wouldn't mind helping him.
"Where are your teamates." He demaned. I felt my smile turn into a frown. There it is again. Always about Sasuke and Naruto. The last of the blood line and the sealed kyuubi.
"Gone." I said simply. I didn't know how mad I was until I felt myself slam the window shut. Who could blame me? Is it my fault I don't come from a great clan? That it couldn't be my belly button a demon was sealed in? Ergh. I'm just Sakura, a girl with no special chakura abilities. Even Ino has one. I don't though, I'm so weak in that way.
Another couple of klunks. Leave me alone Neji!!!
Klunk.
Ignore it Sakura.
Klunk.
.....
Klunk, klunk.
That's it. I ran to my door and grabbed a jacket, then rushed outside to Neji.
"Neji!! Stop it!! You'll break my window!!!" I yelled. No reply, I looked up and saw Neji looking at me smirking.
"Your too easy Haruno." He said simply. He dropped a couple of rocks and turn to leave.
Easy? Easy?! Oh no, he's not ging away that easily. "Hey! You know, I really had it!" I stomped right up to him and turned him around, he looked at me surprised. I had to let it out though. "You know?! I've been havign a realy crappy lfie!! I lose my best friend! I try to win a guy I'll never get! I cut my hair! I can't beat Ino(or vice versa)!!! I almost lost one of my friends because she didn't bring a jacket out in the snow!! I'm just a common girl!! I..I.." I trailed off. I nevber really thought about how many mistakes I've actually made.
I was the one who called the rivalry on Ino, even though she knew I liked Sasuke kun, she still stood by me, and I still followed her. It could've been the same..If I hadn't called the rivalry.
A guy I could never get..? If I know I can't win Sasuke kun..then why do I follow him? Then I totally avoid Naruto, whose been following me..
My hair..I don't regreat that...and Losing to Ino, I don't think I regret that either. Almost losing Hinata chan..I suppose it was halfly my fault for not making sure she had a jacket.
..and I really am I common girl..I can't change that right?
I felt alight pat on the head. I looked up and met Neji's eyes. "Your such a crybaby." He stated.
Tears were forming in my eyes. I have so much regrets, i've made so many mistakes. I wish I can go on a tiem machine and set things the way I wanted it to be.
Neji handed me a tissue and started to walk away. "By the way." he added, "Your not a common girl."
What? How can that be? I am normal, and common. Their the same thing but..like any other girl, I have a crush on Sasuke kun. Like any other girl, I brush my hait at least a million times a day.
"How..is that so?" I asked. I really want ot know what he can dish up.
Neji kept on walking but he said, "It takes a lot to reveal your regrets. It takes even more to wear that in public."
Eh?? What does he mean? I looked down at my pants. Eeeks!!! Oh my god!! I forgot about chaning first!! I was wearing ym long clothed pants with the little puppies on them. My cheeks turned really red. I zipped back into my house. Gyaaaa, life really is unfair.
..but...even so, through all what Neji had said. I really am I weak girl, that has to live on her own. And I can only watch others and won't be able to do a thing...
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koko chan: yeah, weird chappie. oh, SakuXneji forever!! SasuXsaku is okay, but i don't see this couple taht often. sooo..... But I gtg to sleep soon!! ^-^ but first... fooooooooooooooooood.
BTW: sakura and Neji got a little closer after the HInata incident. Hey, it's half Au okay? XD
BTW2: for explantion for all you cinfused readers out there about the Hinata incident, read the other fic, Hinats's POV.