A/N: ______= journal entries
((_____)) = 'flashes'
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It's really starting to scare me- all of these...'flashes'. They're getting clearer now. Everytime those endless grey eyes meet mine I see them. The newest one is of us kissing in the hallway. He was smiling, and so was I. This one keeps happening, and I keep seeing this girl in the background, glaring at us. I can't quite make out who it is yet, but I am not as interested in that as I am in finding out what the hell is going on.
Felicity closed the little rose coloured book and dropped it into her bag, picking it up as the bell rang. Her thoughts on nothing but Draco, she was lost in her own world as she walked down the hallway, blindly walking to potions. She ran into someone, and dropped her things. "Shit..." She whispered to herself, bending down to pick them up. "Here, lemme help." Draco Malfoy kneeled down beside her, gathering up the things that had spilled from her bag. "Oh....thanks..." Felicity said, shoving her things back into her bag, standing up, tucking her hair behind her ear nervously. Their eyes met, but they both looked quickly away. Felicity twisted her hair around her finger, and Draco ran his fingers through his hair, shoving his other hand in his pocket. "Um...I'll...I'll see you later then...." Felicity stuttered, flashes flooding her mind.
(("You know this is a big decision." "Yeah." Draco looked into her eyes, feeling himself drowning in them. "We both need to be comfortable with it- and have no regrets about it." He nodded. "Are you willing to promise me something?" "Anything." Felicity swallowed. "Promise me you love me." Draco continued to gaze into her eyes, seeing his own reflection staring back at him. "I promise." Felicity gave him a soft smile, before leaning in, slipping her hand gently around the back of his neck and kissing him. She withdrew and smiled again. "I love you." He smiled back at her, his hand gently stroking her leg. "I love you, too."))
Felicity shook her head, rubbing at her temples. "I gotta go.." She took off down the hallway, trying her hardest not to meet his eyes.
***
Draco looked down, feeling embarrassed. It was almost ironic- he'd been thinking about Felicity when he suddenly happened to bump into her. Suddenly, he took a double take at the ground. A little rose coloured book was laying there, gold cursive print on the front reading "Diary". He picked it up, flipping open the cover. Felicity had written her name in her bubbly handwriting on the inside cover.
***
Draco turned the small book over in his hands, hesitating. How could he be sure? The last time this happened it had been all part of Pansy's plan to get closer to him. Reluctantly, he opened the book, flipping open to a recent date....
I just don't get it. His eyes- how the hell can they have such a bloody impact on me? Everytime I look into them, or even happen to glance over and meet his stare- I feel so many things at once I almost can't take it. Those little flashes keep getting stronger. Recently I saw one that really scared me. I was looking up at him, and he was crying. The room was really quiet and dim, and people were filling it, all of them crying and holding each other. Draco bent down and kissed me, before walking hurriedly away. Then that Granger girl came up, crying too. I heard her say, "I'm sorry, Felicity. I promise to take care of him for you." Before this one, I'd been having other ones like it, but in a different place. It looked alot like the hospital wing, and Draco was there, holding my hand, sometimes crying. Yesterday I had a flash of Granger blabbing on about jealousy. Why I didn't say anything I don't know. I haven't seen myself in them lately, and I am really getting confused on what they are trying to tell me...I am wondering about Marissa. Does this have to do with her? All this thinking of her is driving me insane. I'm falling again, slipping back to square one. I wish it would all just go away. If none of this is real, then why do I want him so much?
Draco slapped the book closed, tucking it inside his robes. He ran out of the common room, searching for Felicity.
***
Felicity rubbed at her temples, ignoring Professor Snape's droning voice. She was having another memory flash- and what scared her was that Draco was no where in sight.
((Pansy aimed her wand at Felicity, tossing her a small vile. "Drink it." "Pansy, please, let's talk about this," Felicity said in a tear-shaken voice. "I said drink it!" Pansy yelled, anger in her voice. Felicity cried as she removed the top from the vile, putting it to her lips and downing it contents. Pansy stared smugly at her as she went pale, her eyes rolling back in her eyes. They closed and she fell onto the bed, the vile still in her hand.))
Felicity suddenly fell off her chair, collapsing on the floor. The class was staring at her as she lay unconscious, lost in the memories that didn't even exist.
Or did they?
~*~
Whoa so let's give you the highlights if you're lost (which most of you prolly are...)
-Felicity's little 'flashes' (as i call them) are getting stronger
-Draco finds her diary, and, of course, reads it, finding out about the little flash things
-Felicity has a 'flash' of when pansy killed her, as well as her funeral and when she was in her little coma thing.
-Also, we find out that Marissa is real...
-I added 'Or did they?' in the end to give you hints on what is happening here. What is this about all this dreaming?
The next chapter reveals so much- so pay attention to every little detail!!
much love to all my reviewers, i'll give you special shoutoutz in one of the next chapters...
sara
((_____)) = 'flashes'
***
It's really starting to scare me- all of these...'flashes'. They're getting clearer now. Everytime those endless grey eyes meet mine I see them. The newest one is of us kissing in the hallway. He was smiling, and so was I. This one keeps happening, and I keep seeing this girl in the background, glaring at us. I can't quite make out who it is yet, but I am not as interested in that as I am in finding out what the hell is going on.
Felicity closed the little rose coloured book and dropped it into her bag, picking it up as the bell rang. Her thoughts on nothing but Draco, she was lost in her own world as she walked down the hallway, blindly walking to potions. She ran into someone, and dropped her things. "Shit..." She whispered to herself, bending down to pick them up. "Here, lemme help." Draco Malfoy kneeled down beside her, gathering up the things that had spilled from her bag. "Oh....thanks..." Felicity said, shoving her things back into her bag, standing up, tucking her hair behind her ear nervously. Their eyes met, but they both looked quickly away. Felicity twisted her hair around her finger, and Draco ran his fingers through his hair, shoving his other hand in his pocket. "Um...I'll...I'll see you later then...." Felicity stuttered, flashes flooding her mind.
(("You know this is a big decision." "Yeah." Draco looked into her eyes, feeling himself drowning in them. "We both need to be comfortable with it- and have no regrets about it." He nodded. "Are you willing to promise me something?" "Anything." Felicity swallowed. "Promise me you love me." Draco continued to gaze into her eyes, seeing his own reflection staring back at him. "I promise." Felicity gave him a soft smile, before leaning in, slipping her hand gently around the back of his neck and kissing him. She withdrew and smiled again. "I love you." He smiled back at her, his hand gently stroking her leg. "I love you, too."))
Felicity shook her head, rubbing at her temples. "I gotta go.." She took off down the hallway, trying her hardest not to meet his eyes.
***
Draco looked down, feeling embarrassed. It was almost ironic- he'd been thinking about Felicity when he suddenly happened to bump into her. Suddenly, he took a double take at the ground. A little rose coloured book was laying there, gold cursive print on the front reading "Diary". He picked it up, flipping open the cover. Felicity had written her name in her bubbly handwriting on the inside cover.
***
Draco turned the small book over in his hands, hesitating. How could he be sure? The last time this happened it had been all part of Pansy's plan to get closer to him. Reluctantly, he opened the book, flipping open to a recent date....
I just don't get it. His eyes- how the hell can they have such a bloody impact on me? Everytime I look into them, or even happen to glance over and meet his stare- I feel so many things at once I almost can't take it. Those little flashes keep getting stronger. Recently I saw one that really scared me. I was looking up at him, and he was crying. The room was really quiet and dim, and people were filling it, all of them crying and holding each other. Draco bent down and kissed me, before walking hurriedly away. Then that Granger girl came up, crying too. I heard her say, "I'm sorry, Felicity. I promise to take care of him for you." Before this one, I'd been having other ones like it, but in a different place. It looked alot like the hospital wing, and Draco was there, holding my hand, sometimes crying. Yesterday I had a flash of Granger blabbing on about jealousy. Why I didn't say anything I don't know. I haven't seen myself in them lately, and I am really getting confused on what they are trying to tell me...I am wondering about Marissa. Does this have to do with her? All this thinking of her is driving me insane. I'm falling again, slipping back to square one. I wish it would all just go away. If none of this is real, then why do I want him so much?
Draco slapped the book closed, tucking it inside his robes. He ran out of the common room, searching for Felicity.
***
Felicity rubbed at her temples, ignoring Professor Snape's droning voice. She was having another memory flash- and what scared her was that Draco was no where in sight.
((Pansy aimed her wand at Felicity, tossing her a small vile. "Drink it." "Pansy, please, let's talk about this," Felicity said in a tear-shaken voice. "I said drink it!" Pansy yelled, anger in her voice. Felicity cried as she removed the top from the vile, putting it to her lips and downing it contents. Pansy stared smugly at her as she went pale, her eyes rolling back in her eyes. They closed and she fell onto the bed, the vile still in her hand.))
Felicity suddenly fell off her chair, collapsing on the floor. The class was staring at her as she lay unconscious, lost in the memories that didn't even exist.
Or did they?
~*~
Whoa so let's give you the highlights if you're lost (which most of you prolly are...)
-Felicity's little 'flashes' (as i call them) are getting stronger
-Draco finds her diary, and, of course, reads it, finding out about the little flash things
-Felicity has a 'flash' of when pansy killed her, as well as her funeral and when she was in her little coma thing.
-Also, we find out that Marissa is real...
-I added 'Or did they?' in the end to give you hints on what is happening here. What is this about all this dreaming?
The next chapter reveals so much- so pay attention to every little detail!!
much love to all my reviewers, i'll give you special shoutoutz in one of the next chapters...
sara