"I think you could be right. I'll get the healer, I think he may be able to
breathe alone and although he isn't responding to me the fact his breathing
is improving is a very good sign."
Before long the healer was in the room, casting a variety of revealing spells on Remus' motionless body. Sirius couldn't stand still, he felt like he had developed a sudden nervous twitch.
"I've removed him from the breathing apparatus Mr. Black. He isn't out of the woods yet but it is a big step forward. We'll not know until he wakes up."
"So you think he actually will regain consciousness?" Sirius held his breath waiting for the answer, finally things seemed to be picking up.
"There is a stronger possibility now than earlier yes. However there is still the risk that he could deteriorate once more or that when he wakes up he could be impaired. I'm sorry but I feel it best to be honest with you. Let's keep our fingers crossed for him. He really is a fighter."
Sirius nodded. Not the answer he'd wanted exactly but definitely better than what had been suggested previously. He could tell from the tone of the healer's voice and the look on his face that he was surprised that Remus was still alive, after all silver poisoning was deadly.
"C'mon Rem, prove them wrong baby, show them just what a fighter you are!"
"Talking of fighting, remember that afternoon we had a massive bust up? It was all James' fault, well everything is right? Oh so it isn't. Well most things are! We were having that afternoon in at your place, that I'd made my place as well by then, listening on the radio to the quidditch, few cans and all of that. We'd just had the living room done up and Prongs lit up a cigarette and knocked the ashtray on the floor so you were out with your wand and then you were knocking Wormtail's feet off the coffee table. Just being generally house-proud. Not that you seem to mind when we're messing up the bedroom! James guffawed, you know how he does, then says "Merlin Moony, I think you're Mona! He's a fucking chick with a dick!" Well I laughed didn't I? It was just the way he said it, and ok I admit it was rather funny because you were only about a step short of your marigolds and an apron! You, being the huffy sod I know and love, turned on me, face like thunder, 'Well it's better than being someone who doesn't give a fuck about where they live. If you don't give a shit and just think I'm some fucking woman you can pack your bags and go back to your own shithole!'
"Funny really how quickly everyone suddenly remembered things they had to do. Pete was the best one. He'd promised to buy some baby food for his sister, who just happens to not even have one! You stomped round the house cleaning up after everyone and cursing under your breath and occasionally giving me some extremely dirty looks as I sat watching you, failing to hide my amusement. Eventually you lost it. After flinging a tea towel at me as hard as you could and still missing, which I have to say irritated you more and amused me even further, you flung yourself onto the seat opposite mine and began screaming. And I mean screaming! "Are you only with me because I'm blatantly like a woman but just have a bit more understanding than one of them about the need to be crude and talk about quidditch 24 hours a day? If you're not gay leave me. Go on get out! If I disgust you so much and I'm just some object of ridicule! If you're homophobic and think I'm some kind of little girl!" Now I hadn't expected that. I gave you a minute to pacify yourself knowing that outburst was the end of it and that you would now sit and sulk or cry, most likely both." He smiled lovingly at Remus and lowered his lips to his forehead once again, he would never tire of kissing his soft pale skin.
"You jumped as I touched your arm, not having seen me move because your eyes were downcast. I wasn't surprised when you looked up that they were full of tears. 'Is that honestly what you think I think of you?' I asked you. You shrugged your shoulders and blinked against the tears that were threatening but some escaped. I wiped them away with my hand and pulled you into my arms. 'You're caring, loving and gorgeous and that is why I'm with you. And yes it helps I can fart in bed and not get dirty looks for it but that's hardly reason enough to want to spend my life with someone. I want to spend it with you because you're you, cleaning or not cleaning!' I only laughed because the way Prongs said it was hilarious. I didn't mean to upset you! You soft lump! You hugged me and apologized. 'It's alright' I said, then with a dead straight face I added, "I understand how you girls get PMT and behave irrationally.' You slapped me, but it was only playful and you were laughing this time. You've got a great laugh, it's a proper one, not a stupid giggle or a total cackle just in between and hearty, I like it. Merlin I like everything, even if you are a chick with a dick! Just kidding, anyway for the record you've got a really nice dick!"
There it was again, Remus clenching his fingers around Sirius' hand. "Come on darling, try to open your eyes, really try, I'm here alright?" Sirius' heart almost stopped beating as Remus' eyelashes started fluttering. He pressed the bell for the nurse and before long the healer was there as well.
"He's waking up yes, we'll just let him take his time. He's going to be feeling confused and groggy when he wakes up and will probably still need lots of rest. Just talk to him Sirius, alright? Let him know he's alright."
So when Remus finally managed to open his eyes and focus Sirius had to try desperately hard not to cry but couldn't stop himself. "Oh Merlin Moony! I'm so pleased you've woken up." Oh shit! He thought as he saw Remus ready to cry, I'm upsetting him! "Hey, shh! You're alright. Well getting there anyhow. I've been so worried about you! He clasped Remus' hand tighter, rubbing little circles with his thumb on the flesh.
"What happened?" Remus croaked, throat very sore from the tubes he'd had down until a few hours earlier. And so Sirius explained everything to him. Remus remembered getting into bed at the hotel and nothing else beyond that. Maybe it's for the best Sirius couldn't help but think.
Remus drifted back to sleep before long and Sirius pecked his lips before going to floo everyone else. He was sure they'd be awake by now and delighted to hear the news.
Hurrying back to Remus he was surprised to find him awake again. "Been asleep too long anyhow." He muttered at Sirius' surprised glance. "Knew you'd moved, wanted to know where you were."
"Sorry, just letting everyone know you were awake again. They've all been in to see you, and your parents."
Remus nodded slowly. "I know. I knew people were here but I just couldn't wake up! What day is it?"
"Oh Merlin." Sirius said, realisation hitting him.
"What?" Remus asked confused.
"Happy anniversary sweetheart." He leaned down and placed a soft but long kiss on Remus' lips. They were dry and chapped but he still felt wonderful. "Not the ideal way to spend it, but we'll be together, at least you're awake and ok now."
Remus smiled slightly. "I wouldn't go as far as to say I'm ok, I feel like I've been ran over by a high speed train! But from the sound of it I'm a lot better than what I was!"
Siriussmiled. "You know what I mean!" Sounding like a child with a new toy, totally flippant, just delighted that things were almost how they should be once again.
"I've got you something which I wanted to give you tonight."
"I'm not up to shagging love!" Sirius pouted, then quickly straightened his face realising he was at risk of turning into Remus, this being one of his favourite expressions.
"Still funny then I see! No I wanted to do this over dinner but since you're going nowhere for a while and I think you could do with something nice I'd like you to have this now. So close your eyes and hold out your hands."
Remus did as he was bidden and held his hands together as best he could. The raven haired boy took the box from his pocket and slipped the gold band onto Remus' finger. Remus gasped a little and his eyes shot open.
"If I'd known you'd open you eyes that quickly if I did that then I'd have done it two days ago!" Sirius laughed and leant down for a loving kiss, gently easing his tongue into Remus' mouth and caressing him with it.
"It's beautiful Siri, thank you." Remus was chewing his lip trying not to cry. "Sorry, I'm so emotional!"
Sirius stroked his arm. "That's alright, you've been through a lot poppet. So you like it I take it?"
Remus nodded. "Nearly as much as I like you actually."
"Well I got it so that if ever we're not together and you're feeling lonely then I'm still with you really."
"You always were anyhow, but this is pretty special and I particularly like the finger it's on, show people that you're mine forever."
"You'll definitely be mine forever if I have my way. Even when you're practically dying in a hospital bed you look gorgeous you know!"
"So then." Remus said, having had a drink of water and feeling more able to speak again. "How many blow jobs do I need to give you for not having an anniversary present yet because I was planning to go looking in Hogsmeade when I took poorly?"
"Ooh hundreds!" Sirius laughed. "The best thing you can do for me sweetheart is to concentrate on getting better, just take your time, and make sure you're alright before you do anything too much, I'm going to look after you ok?"
Remus nodded and smiled "Some of the things you said when you were here, well I heard them. I knew you loved me, but Padfoot, I didn't realise just how much I meant to you I guess, so thank you, I'm really lucky to have you. And yeah it was learning to know you all over again, and you know what? It was absolutely wonderful because I really love you, you know that."
"I know, even if you do insist on lowering the tone when I give you a ring by talking about oral sex!"
Remus let his jaw fall in mock horror. "Like you can talk you dirty git! You've been talking about my cock and all kinds! I could hear some of what you were saying you know. Do you realise how frustrating it is when your boyfriend is talking about the most romantic time we made love and not being able to relieve yourself because you're in an unconscious mess? I was asleep and ill but there was kind of this warm feeling inside, I knew when you were there, and when you weren't. When you were there I came closer to waking up sometimes, it was harder to fight without my hand in yours you know." Remus' voice wobbled. "I was scared Siri, I thought I would lose you."
"Never babe. Now don't exhaust yourself, you need plenty of sleep. I can't believe I'm persuading you to sleep after days of just wanting you to wake up!"
Remus nodded, his eyes heavy wanting to close and give in to rest again. "Just promise me one, no two things; don't leave me now, because I hate hospitals and I know I'm a big soft wimp but I'm scared without you here. And two, you will be talking more openly about sex with me from now on because I really like it! You need to be more open about your body, oh and you will be skinny dipping when we're on holiday, I heard that bit as well! Oh and do NOT call me a chick with a dick one more time!" A small smirk played on Remus' lips as he closed his eyes.
"Ok I'll do all of that, I found it quite nice talking about you know sex and stuff, I always thought the actions spoke louder than the words, but if you say them out loud, well it's liberating isn't it, special somehow when it's so intimate. Sleep well love. My little snugglebum." He leaned down and kissed Remus softly again.
One of the amber eyes opened. "I heard that!"
"Ah don't pretend you don't love being called that!"
"Yeah I do, but don't tell anyone!"
"You're a silly git but Merlin I love you Rem!"
"Love you too Sirius...." THE END Ah how fluffy was that!
Before long the healer was in the room, casting a variety of revealing spells on Remus' motionless body. Sirius couldn't stand still, he felt like he had developed a sudden nervous twitch.
"I've removed him from the breathing apparatus Mr. Black. He isn't out of the woods yet but it is a big step forward. We'll not know until he wakes up."
"So you think he actually will regain consciousness?" Sirius held his breath waiting for the answer, finally things seemed to be picking up.
"There is a stronger possibility now than earlier yes. However there is still the risk that he could deteriorate once more or that when he wakes up he could be impaired. I'm sorry but I feel it best to be honest with you. Let's keep our fingers crossed for him. He really is a fighter."
Sirius nodded. Not the answer he'd wanted exactly but definitely better than what had been suggested previously. He could tell from the tone of the healer's voice and the look on his face that he was surprised that Remus was still alive, after all silver poisoning was deadly.
"C'mon Rem, prove them wrong baby, show them just what a fighter you are!"
"Talking of fighting, remember that afternoon we had a massive bust up? It was all James' fault, well everything is right? Oh so it isn't. Well most things are! We were having that afternoon in at your place, that I'd made my place as well by then, listening on the radio to the quidditch, few cans and all of that. We'd just had the living room done up and Prongs lit up a cigarette and knocked the ashtray on the floor so you were out with your wand and then you were knocking Wormtail's feet off the coffee table. Just being generally house-proud. Not that you seem to mind when we're messing up the bedroom! James guffawed, you know how he does, then says "Merlin Moony, I think you're Mona! He's a fucking chick with a dick!" Well I laughed didn't I? It was just the way he said it, and ok I admit it was rather funny because you were only about a step short of your marigolds and an apron! You, being the huffy sod I know and love, turned on me, face like thunder, 'Well it's better than being someone who doesn't give a fuck about where they live. If you don't give a shit and just think I'm some fucking woman you can pack your bags and go back to your own shithole!'
"Funny really how quickly everyone suddenly remembered things they had to do. Pete was the best one. He'd promised to buy some baby food for his sister, who just happens to not even have one! You stomped round the house cleaning up after everyone and cursing under your breath and occasionally giving me some extremely dirty looks as I sat watching you, failing to hide my amusement. Eventually you lost it. After flinging a tea towel at me as hard as you could and still missing, which I have to say irritated you more and amused me even further, you flung yourself onto the seat opposite mine and began screaming. And I mean screaming! "Are you only with me because I'm blatantly like a woman but just have a bit more understanding than one of them about the need to be crude and talk about quidditch 24 hours a day? If you're not gay leave me. Go on get out! If I disgust you so much and I'm just some object of ridicule! If you're homophobic and think I'm some kind of little girl!" Now I hadn't expected that. I gave you a minute to pacify yourself knowing that outburst was the end of it and that you would now sit and sulk or cry, most likely both." He smiled lovingly at Remus and lowered his lips to his forehead once again, he would never tire of kissing his soft pale skin.
"You jumped as I touched your arm, not having seen me move because your eyes were downcast. I wasn't surprised when you looked up that they were full of tears. 'Is that honestly what you think I think of you?' I asked you. You shrugged your shoulders and blinked against the tears that were threatening but some escaped. I wiped them away with my hand and pulled you into my arms. 'You're caring, loving and gorgeous and that is why I'm with you. And yes it helps I can fart in bed and not get dirty looks for it but that's hardly reason enough to want to spend my life with someone. I want to spend it with you because you're you, cleaning or not cleaning!' I only laughed because the way Prongs said it was hilarious. I didn't mean to upset you! You soft lump! You hugged me and apologized. 'It's alright' I said, then with a dead straight face I added, "I understand how you girls get PMT and behave irrationally.' You slapped me, but it was only playful and you were laughing this time. You've got a great laugh, it's a proper one, not a stupid giggle or a total cackle just in between and hearty, I like it. Merlin I like everything, even if you are a chick with a dick! Just kidding, anyway for the record you've got a really nice dick!"
There it was again, Remus clenching his fingers around Sirius' hand. "Come on darling, try to open your eyes, really try, I'm here alright?" Sirius' heart almost stopped beating as Remus' eyelashes started fluttering. He pressed the bell for the nurse and before long the healer was there as well.
"He's waking up yes, we'll just let him take his time. He's going to be feeling confused and groggy when he wakes up and will probably still need lots of rest. Just talk to him Sirius, alright? Let him know he's alright."
So when Remus finally managed to open his eyes and focus Sirius had to try desperately hard not to cry but couldn't stop himself. "Oh Merlin Moony! I'm so pleased you've woken up." Oh shit! He thought as he saw Remus ready to cry, I'm upsetting him! "Hey, shh! You're alright. Well getting there anyhow. I've been so worried about you! He clasped Remus' hand tighter, rubbing little circles with his thumb on the flesh.
"What happened?" Remus croaked, throat very sore from the tubes he'd had down until a few hours earlier. And so Sirius explained everything to him. Remus remembered getting into bed at the hotel and nothing else beyond that. Maybe it's for the best Sirius couldn't help but think.
Remus drifted back to sleep before long and Sirius pecked his lips before going to floo everyone else. He was sure they'd be awake by now and delighted to hear the news.
Hurrying back to Remus he was surprised to find him awake again. "Been asleep too long anyhow." He muttered at Sirius' surprised glance. "Knew you'd moved, wanted to know where you were."
"Sorry, just letting everyone know you were awake again. They've all been in to see you, and your parents."
Remus nodded slowly. "I know. I knew people were here but I just couldn't wake up! What day is it?"
"Oh Merlin." Sirius said, realisation hitting him.
"What?" Remus asked confused.
"Happy anniversary sweetheart." He leaned down and placed a soft but long kiss on Remus' lips. They were dry and chapped but he still felt wonderful. "Not the ideal way to spend it, but we'll be together, at least you're awake and ok now."
Remus smiled slightly. "I wouldn't go as far as to say I'm ok, I feel like I've been ran over by a high speed train! But from the sound of it I'm a lot better than what I was!"
Siriussmiled. "You know what I mean!" Sounding like a child with a new toy, totally flippant, just delighted that things were almost how they should be once again.
"I've got you something which I wanted to give you tonight."
"I'm not up to shagging love!" Sirius pouted, then quickly straightened his face realising he was at risk of turning into Remus, this being one of his favourite expressions.
"Still funny then I see! No I wanted to do this over dinner but since you're going nowhere for a while and I think you could do with something nice I'd like you to have this now. So close your eyes and hold out your hands."
Remus did as he was bidden and held his hands together as best he could. The raven haired boy took the box from his pocket and slipped the gold band onto Remus' finger. Remus gasped a little and his eyes shot open.
"If I'd known you'd open you eyes that quickly if I did that then I'd have done it two days ago!" Sirius laughed and leant down for a loving kiss, gently easing his tongue into Remus' mouth and caressing him with it.
"It's beautiful Siri, thank you." Remus was chewing his lip trying not to cry. "Sorry, I'm so emotional!"
Sirius stroked his arm. "That's alright, you've been through a lot poppet. So you like it I take it?"
Remus nodded. "Nearly as much as I like you actually."
"Well I got it so that if ever we're not together and you're feeling lonely then I'm still with you really."
"You always were anyhow, but this is pretty special and I particularly like the finger it's on, show people that you're mine forever."
"You'll definitely be mine forever if I have my way. Even when you're practically dying in a hospital bed you look gorgeous you know!"
"So then." Remus said, having had a drink of water and feeling more able to speak again. "How many blow jobs do I need to give you for not having an anniversary present yet because I was planning to go looking in Hogsmeade when I took poorly?"
"Ooh hundreds!" Sirius laughed. "The best thing you can do for me sweetheart is to concentrate on getting better, just take your time, and make sure you're alright before you do anything too much, I'm going to look after you ok?"
Remus nodded and smiled "Some of the things you said when you were here, well I heard them. I knew you loved me, but Padfoot, I didn't realise just how much I meant to you I guess, so thank you, I'm really lucky to have you. And yeah it was learning to know you all over again, and you know what? It was absolutely wonderful because I really love you, you know that."
"I know, even if you do insist on lowering the tone when I give you a ring by talking about oral sex!"
Remus let his jaw fall in mock horror. "Like you can talk you dirty git! You've been talking about my cock and all kinds! I could hear some of what you were saying you know. Do you realise how frustrating it is when your boyfriend is talking about the most romantic time we made love and not being able to relieve yourself because you're in an unconscious mess? I was asleep and ill but there was kind of this warm feeling inside, I knew when you were there, and when you weren't. When you were there I came closer to waking up sometimes, it was harder to fight without my hand in yours you know." Remus' voice wobbled. "I was scared Siri, I thought I would lose you."
"Never babe. Now don't exhaust yourself, you need plenty of sleep. I can't believe I'm persuading you to sleep after days of just wanting you to wake up!"
Remus nodded, his eyes heavy wanting to close and give in to rest again. "Just promise me one, no two things; don't leave me now, because I hate hospitals and I know I'm a big soft wimp but I'm scared without you here. And two, you will be talking more openly about sex with me from now on because I really like it! You need to be more open about your body, oh and you will be skinny dipping when we're on holiday, I heard that bit as well! Oh and do NOT call me a chick with a dick one more time!" A small smirk played on Remus' lips as he closed his eyes.
"Ok I'll do all of that, I found it quite nice talking about you know sex and stuff, I always thought the actions spoke louder than the words, but if you say them out loud, well it's liberating isn't it, special somehow when it's so intimate. Sleep well love. My little snugglebum." He leaned down and kissed Remus softly again.
One of the amber eyes opened. "I heard that!"
"Ah don't pretend you don't love being called that!"
"Yeah I do, but don't tell anyone!"
"You're a silly git but Merlin I love you Rem!"
"Love you too Sirius...." THE END Ah how fluffy was that!