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What is there to live for? Chapter 5
Jareth arrived in Sarah's, no, his, bedchamber shortly after he had stormed off. He had decided against going straight there so he could try and work a few things out more clearly in his head before discussing them with Sarah.
When he walked in the room, he saw that Sarah was still asleep in the same position he had left her in a few hours earlier. "Of course," He muttered under his breath, "some of those pills must still be in her bloodstream and she's sleeping off the effects." With that he turned and went to leave the room. Just as he reached the door, a sound, like a muffled sob reached his ears. It had come from Sarah. Jareth turned to see if she had awoken, but she was still asleep, if not as soundly as she had been a few minutes ago.
Sarah lay on the bed, tossing and turning fitfully as she slept. Occasionally she would call out in her sleep. Jareth wasn't sure if he should wake her, so he just walked over to the bed to take a closer look at her.
On closer inspection Jareth could see that Sarah's forehead was coated in a fine sheen of perspiration, and that she was unusually pale. Sarah continued to cry out and Jareth knew that she was having a nightmare. She was tossing more frantically and she had even scratched herself in her sleep. Three fine lines of blood began to form along Sarah's left collar bone from clawing at herself. Jareth realized he would have to wake her before she did anymore damage.
"Sarah, wake up, you're dreaming." Jareth tried to wake her up quietly, but so far it didn't seem to be working. "Sarah. Wake up, Sarah!" he tried again, but he still didn't seem to be getting through to her. Sarah started to try and scratch out at him, so he quickly held her arms down, to avoid her injuring herself, or him.
He decided to try once more, if she still didn't wake up he would use magic to wake her. "Sarah! Sarah, please wake up!
Sarah awoke with a jolt. She quickly looked around her and saw Jareth looking at her worriedly from his perch on the edge of the bed. Sarah tried to hold herself together, but they both knew it wasn't going to work.
Sarah turned away from him, as she done earlier, and began to cry.
Jareth didn't know what to do. Slowly he moved towards her, and gently he took her within his arms, he than began to lovingly stroke her chocolate coloured locks, and make soothing noises and try to calm her down.
"Shh, Sarah, it's alright now, you were only dreaming. Do you want to tell me what it was about?" Jareth asked, his voice filled with love for the sobbing woman in his arms.
Sarah just stared up at him with a blank look on her face. When she finally found her voice she asked him, "Why are you being so nice to me? Why do you care if I was having a nightmare about my little brother dying, only to wake up here and realize it wasn't just a dream, it's reality. You should hate me for what I've done to you. You definitely shouldn't be rescuing me from night terrors and soothing me when I cry. So why are doing it?"
Jareth just sighed, after a moment he answered her with, "My dear Sarah, still so blind to what is right in front of your very nose. I probably should hate you, but I can't hate somebody I feel this strongly for. Remember the line that you told Toby that night?"
Sarah looked confused, but then a look of understanding crossed her face, "The king of the goblins had fallen in love with the girl."she trailed off looking at Jareth in a state of semi-shock.
"Oh, don't look so surprised. I practically speeled it out for you last time, but you were so set on your goal that you tossed my efforts aside." A look of regret passed over Jareth's features as he said this.
Sarah looked so lost and confused, she felt as much too. "Ja..Jareth.I never realized that you meant those things, I..I just assumed that they were a ploy to stop me from getting to Toby in time. Jareth I..I'm sorry. You really should hate me. You did so much for me, and I just threw it all back I your face. God, I'm such a horrible human being. How can you possibly love me?" After she had finished her little speech Sarah buried her face in her hands and began to cry again in silence.
Jareth pulled Sarah's face up and away from her hands, he then lay both hands on her shoulders, careful to avoid the scratches Sarah had caused herself while sleeping, and looked straight into Sarah's eyes. "Gods, you are so negative about yourself. Sarah, I love you, and I don't care what happened in the past, what's done is done, and nothing can change that. I don't hate you, I never could hate you. Don't feel bad or gulity about what happened last time, you were too young and you couldn't comprehend what it was I was really offering to you. I don't blame you, so please don't blame yourself, in the long run it won't matter how much you blame yourself, or, if I blamed you, how much I did so, because it is in the past now and nothing is going to change it." Jareth pulled Sarah to him in a tight embrace and prayed that he wasn't moving too fast for her. But, she had tried to kill herself once, and after her question last time they had talked, he feared if he didn't give her a reason to live then she might attempt to kill herself once again. And next time he might not get there in time to save her.
Jareth continued to gently rock Sarah until she fell asleep once more. She really did need to rest, and if every time she woke up there was an episode like this, well, she would never get a chance to fully recover.
When Sarah was well and truly asleep he pulled the blankets up over her and tucked her in, making sure that she would be comfortable and warm. Jareth just couldn't believe the depth of his feelings towards her. He hoped that, in time, she would accept him, and maybe even come to love him as he loved her.
Jareth leant over and placed a light kiss on Sarah's forehead, then gently stroked her cheek for a moment before he turned and left and the room, leaving Sarah to sleep in peace.
To be continued.
A/N: So what do you all think? At least this chapter was longer. Anywho, please review and I will update as soon as I can.
What is there to live for? Chapter 5
Jareth arrived in Sarah's, no, his, bedchamber shortly after he had stormed off. He had decided against going straight there so he could try and work a few things out more clearly in his head before discussing them with Sarah.
When he walked in the room, he saw that Sarah was still asleep in the same position he had left her in a few hours earlier. "Of course," He muttered under his breath, "some of those pills must still be in her bloodstream and she's sleeping off the effects." With that he turned and went to leave the room. Just as he reached the door, a sound, like a muffled sob reached his ears. It had come from Sarah. Jareth turned to see if she had awoken, but she was still asleep, if not as soundly as she had been a few minutes ago.
Sarah lay on the bed, tossing and turning fitfully as she slept. Occasionally she would call out in her sleep. Jareth wasn't sure if he should wake her, so he just walked over to the bed to take a closer look at her.
On closer inspection Jareth could see that Sarah's forehead was coated in a fine sheen of perspiration, and that she was unusually pale. Sarah continued to cry out and Jareth knew that she was having a nightmare. She was tossing more frantically and she had even scratched herself in her sleep. Three fine lines of blood began to form along Sarah's left collar bone from clawing at herself. Jareth realized he would have to wake her before she did anymore damage.
"Sarah, wake up, you're dreaming." Jareth tried to wake her up quietly, but so far it didn't seem to be working. "Sarah. Wake up, Sarah!" he tried again, but he still didn't seem to be getting through to her. Sarah started to try and scratch out at him, so he quickly held her arms down, to avoid her injuring herself, or him.
He decided to try once more, if she still didn't wake up he would use magic to wake her. "Sarah! Sarah, please wake up!
Sarah awoke with a jolt. She quickly looked around her and saw Jareth looking at her worriedly from his perch on the edge of the bed. Sarah tried to hold herself together, but they both knew it wasn't going to work.
Sarah turned away from him, as she done earlier, and began to cry.
Jareth didn't know what to do. Slowly he moved towards her, and gently he took her within his arms, he than began to lovingly stroke her chocolate coloured locks, and make soothing noises and try to calm her down.
"Shh, Sarah, it's alright now, you were only dreaming. Do you want to tell me what it was about?" Jareth asked, his voice filled with love for the sobbing woman in his arms.
Sarah just stared up at him with a blank look on her face. When she finally found her voice she asked him, "Why are you being so nice to me? Why do you care if I was having a nightmare about my little brother dying, only to wake up here and realize it wasn't just a dream, it's reality. You should hate me for what I've done to you. You definitely shouldn't be rescuing me from night terrors and soothing me when I cry. So why are doing it?"
Jareth just sighed, after a moment he answered her with, "My dear Sarah, still so blind to what is right in front of your very nose. I probably should hate you, but I can't hate somebody I feel this strongly for. Remember the line that you told Toby that night?"
Sarah looked confused, but then a look of understanding crossed her face, "The king of the goblins had fallen in love with the girl."she trailed off looking at Jareth in a state of semi-shock.
"Oh, don't look so surprised. I practically speeled it out for you last time, but you were so set on your goal that you tossed my efforts aside." A look of regret passed over Jareth's features as he said this.
Sarah looked so lost and confused, she felt as much too. "Ja..Jareth.I never realized that you meant those things, I..I just assumed that they were a ploy to stop me from getting to Toby in time. Jareth I..I'm sorry. You really should hate me. You did so much for me, and I just threw it all back I your face. God, I'm such a horrible human being. How can you possibly love me?" After she had finished her little speech Sarah buried her face in her hands and began to cry again in silence.
Jareth pulled Sarah's face up and away from her hands, he then lay both hands on her shoulders, careful to avoid the scratches Sarah had caused herself while sleeping, and looked straight into Sarah's eyes. "Gods, you are so negative about yourself. Sarah, I love you, and I don't care what happened in the past, what's done is done, and nothing can change that. I don't hate you, I never could hate you. Don't feel bad or gulity about what happened last time, you were too young and you couldn't comprehend what it was I was really offering to you. I don't blame you, so please don't blame yourself, in the long run it won't matter how much you blame yourself, or, if I blamed you, how much I did so, because it is in the past now and nothing is going to change it." Jareth pulled Sarah to him in a tight embrace and prayed that he wasn't moving too fast for her. But, she had tried to kill herself once, and after her question last time they had talked, he feared if he didn't give her a reason to live then she might attempt to kill herself once again. And next time he might not get there in time to save her.
Jareth continued to gently rock Sarah until she fell asleep once more. She really did need to rest, and if every time she woke up there was an episode like this, well, she would never get a chance to fully recover.
When Sarah was well and truly asleep he pulled the blankets up over her and tucked her in, making sure that she would be comfortable and warm. Jareth just couldn't believe the depth of his feelings towards her. He hoped that, in time, she would accept him, and maybe even come to love him as he loved her.
Jareth leant over and placed a light kiss on Sarah's forehead, then gently stroked her cheek for a moment before he turned and left and the room, leaving Sarah to sleep in peace.
To be continued.
A/N: So what do you all think? At least this chapter was longer. Anywho, please review and I will update as soon as I can.