Disclaimer: Have I said this? I don't own anything! Why me? Sob sob..
A/N: Hey thanks! Finally I get reviews more than chapter one! Thanks a loooot!! This chapter is here because of Curry, Hasuko, Me. ^^, Raine Jaganshi. This is especially for you! Enjoy! ( Actually I'm getting to hate my own writing. Kurama-kun is not like that! I really want to write fluff. Sob.sob )
Curry : Thanks for your support!
Hasuko: Thanks to read my compliment all time. Hehe..
Me.^^ : Fluff..I would like to write one, but haven't got any idea yet. I'll try! Thanks for your idea! Well, I should finish one of my fics though to write another. Occasionally I write slower as there are too many fic. ^_^6 I like fluff, but I got writer block. Wahaha!
Raine Jaganshi: Thanks! I love your review.
Trina: Congratulation for YOU! You just win a jackpot! How could guess that easily? Am I making it too clear? Yeah, Kurama is a bit bitch, but please wait and you would read the sweet side of him, OK? Thanks for your console!
By Irisgem
* Your mother is just too depressed. She should take more relax and rest. *
* I just hope you could be engaged with the daughter of your father's friend *
I could feel the warmth of sun blaze. I hated morning now, especially without him. If I could I would like to run away from this kind of life that I was going through. I removed the soft blanket on me and my feet touched the cold floor of my room.
But I wasn't in touch with the ground. I was flying of my mind somewhere else. The event of last night was rewind in my brain vividly. I lost him. As well I betrayed him. I chose my mother over him. I knew that there would be a risk that he would hate me and couldn't forgive me. He might never return to me. And that was what kept me in pain.
There was long silence in this house. Everything would be seemed in eternal for me. There was only me. If I could choose, I didn't want to wake up. I buried my angelic face inside my hand.
I would like to meet you.
Walking slowly with one destination, I expelled myself from society. I didn't know what to regret, so I didn't know what to be healed. I just went past the swarm of girls without single glance. I had enough of this torturing mind to keep.
How shameful..I disgraced the name of Youko. I obeyed the will of a human woman over love I had. I was tied with unbreakable chain with this world. I lost my freedom since I chose to devote myself to Shiori. There were no devotion in Youko's life.
The lessons were just as boring as usual. Without putting any attention, I still could have a perfect mark. I was just thinking about human life. Were we just seeking illusion of well name? Were we killing our self with the same routine all days? For a person like me, we were just spending time without any fun. So what was the difference of us with the living corpses?
Watching the bright blue sky made me miss the freedom that once I had. But I sacrificed it for my love. My bottomless love for Shiori.
* Then how is my love for him? Do I love my mother more than him? If it's true then I really have betrayed him. *
I knew that I was so selfish. I broke the bond of us and still I wanted more. How could we be friends when one of us broke the commitment between us? And the unpredictable thing was that I was the one who broke it.
* Hiei, please forgive me. If I should exchange your hatred and pain, I would give my life. *
Suddenly I could see a flying blur at the corner of my eyes. It was so ephemeral that wasn't last a second. I could only think of one thing.
" Sensei! May I go to the clinic? I suddenly feel ill. " I tried to act. I hoped he would believe. He stared at me with sympathy.
" Of course you could. Go ahead. "
Maybe I could be an actor..
The corridor was empty. Every body was still in class. Well, maybe an exception for me. I tried to chase the shadow, which ran to the empty space. It was behind the school.
Finally, I could see him. He stood with a solemn face under the tree. Lifting up his head, he watched the falling leaves and cherry blossoms. Somehow the peace sight seemed too far for me.
" Why do you leave your class? " he turned his face. I was scared before looking at him. I stunned. There was nothing on his face. Usually I could read him like an open book. He worn the coldest mask that I had ever seen. He was a fire demon, but his heart was made of an ice.
" I think it would important since you come directly to my school. You usually avoided ningen's society. " I tried to pick up some topic. But it was useless.
" Koenma is calling." Then he turned away without any feeling. I didn't like this. " Why don't you just tell me that you hate me, that you would like to kill me?! Why are you holding everything?! Just accused me! I'm the one that betray your faith! "
He gave me a boring look. " Are you insane? You don't do anything to me. " I got confused. I didn't do anything?!
" I'm no longer the one you know. The old Hiei is died. I was rebirth. There is no longer past, Kurama. " His dull ruby eyes made me afraid.
He flitted on the branches like a shadow leaving the light. My tears welled in my eyes when I didn't know why it hurt so much.
" Shuiichi? "
I lifted my head to see her pale face. " Yes? "
" I wonder if I could ever get home again.." She questioned herself with me as her witness. I held her cold hands. " Of course, mother. What are you talking about? "
" I would like to watch your happiness, Shuiichi.."
I smiled in agony. Was I allowed to be happy while I was hurting some one that was very dear to me?
" Maybe I don't deserve for it, mother. Maybe."
" You would be happy with the daughter of your father's friend. She is very pretty, polite and smart. What do you think? "
I hated when my mother took the rules of my lover. But her health was the priority for now.
" Maybe. You must think about your own health. If you wish, I will try to meet her. " I tried to give some consolation for her. She shouldn't worry too much. I watched the clock on her private room.
" It's time to go home, mother. I would come again tomorrow. "
When I stood up, she held my jacket, preventing me to go. " Shuiichi, I..."
" Yes? "
She seemed in doubt to tell me something. I would prefer to her to talk to me directly. I just would like to stop on thinking.
She soon loosened her grip and lied uncomfortably. " Nothing...just nothing. " She lied like a doll that soon broke. She closed her tired eyes.
" You don't have to worry things too much, mother. " I kissed her forehead and shoved away the tangled raven hair on her face.
I closed the door in front of her face. I shouldn't make her worry. She might die if she was in distressed. Her illness would worse and ate her slowly.
But then, should I sacrifice Hiei's happiness on my mother's life?
I shuddered when I remembered the way of his cold look. There was no longer warmth in it. His eyes were looked like in the eternal winter.
Was I the one who made him to be like that? He was looked like the merciless ice maiden from the Ice Land. He still inherited the blood of Koorime anyway. But the eyes...were so blunt and evil, so murderous. He was looked even more in evil than Youko Kurama.
Was I just making a big mistake?
Short? Yes, it is. I'm tired. I hate this fic even more. UGGHHH!! Fuh. Sorry for Kurama's fans. He seems like a bitch here. But I would try to make him sweeter later. Just wait and REVIEW PLEASE! ^_^
A/N: Hey thanks! Finally I get reviews more than chapter one! Thanks a loooot!! This chapter is here because of Curry, Hasuko, Me. ^^, Raine Jaganshi. This is especially for you! Enjoy! ( Actually I'm getting to hate my own writing. Kurama-kun is not like that! I really want to write fluff. Sob.sob )
Curry : Thanks for your support!
Hasuko: Thanks to read my compliment all time. Hehe..
Me.^^ : Fluff..I would like to write one, but haven't got any idea yet. I'll try! Thanks for your idea! Well, I should finish one of my fics though to write another. Occasionally I write slower as there are too many fic. ^_^6 I like fluff, but I got writer block. Wahaha!
Raine Jaganshi: Thanks! I love your review.
Trina: Congratulation for YOU! You just win a jackpot! How could guess that easily? Am I making it too clear? Yeah, Kurama is a bit bitch, but please wait and you would read the sweet side of him, OK? Thanks for your console!
By Irisgem
* Your mother is just too depressed. She should take more relax and rest. *
* I just hope you could be engaged with the daughter of your father's friend *
I could feel the warmth of sun blaze. I hated morning now, especially without him. If I could I would like to run away from this kind of life that I was going through. I removed the soft blanket on me and my feet touched the cold floor of my room.
But I wasn't in touch with the ground. I was flying of my mind somewhere else. The event of last night was rewind in my brain vividly. I lost him. As well I betrayed him. I chose my mother over him. I knew that there would be a risk that he would hate me and couldn't forgive me. He might never return to me. And that was what kept me in pain.
There was long silence in this house. Everything would be seemed in eternal for me. There was only me. If I could choose, I didn't want to wake up. I buried my angelic face inside my hand.
I would like to meet you.
Walking slowly with one destination, I expelled myself from society. I didn't know what to regret, so I didn't know what to be healed. I just went past the swarm of girls without single glance. I had enough of this torturing mind to keep.
How shameful..I disgraced the name of Youko. I obeyed the will of a human woman over love I had. I was tied with unbreakable chain with this world. I lost my freedom since I chose to devote myself to Shiori. There were no devotion in Youko's life.
The lessons were just as boring as usual. Without putting any attention, I still could have a perfect mark. I was just thinking about human life. Were we just seeking illusion of well name? Were we killing our self with the same routine all days? For a person like me, we were just spending time without any fun. So what was the difference of us with the living corpses?
Watching the bright blue sky made me miss the freedom that once I had. But I sacrificed it for my love. My bottomless love for Shiori.
* Then how is my love for him? Do I love my mother more than him? If it's true then I really have betrayed him. *
I knew that I was so selfish. I broke the bond of us and still I wanted more. How could we be friends when one of us broke the commitment between us? And the unpredictable thing was that I was the one who broke it.
* Hiei, please forgive me. If I should exchange your hatred and pain, I would give my life. *
Suddenly I could see a flying blur at the corner of my eyes. It was so ephemeral that wasn't last a second. I could only think of one thing.
" Sensei! May I go to the clinic? I suddenly feel ill. " I tried to act. I hoped he would believe. He stared at me with sympathy.
" Of course you could. Go ahead. "
Maybe I could be an actor..
The corridor was empty. Every body was still in class. Well, maybe an exception for me. I tried to chase the shadow, which ran to the empty space. It was behind the school.
Finally, I could see him. He stood with a solemn face under the tree. Lifting up his head, he watched the falling leaves and cherry blossoms. Somehow the peace sight seemed too far for me.
" Why do you leave your class? " he turned his face. I was scared before looking at him. I stunned. There was nothing on his face. Usually I could read him like an open book. He worn the coldest mask that I had ever seen. He was a fire demon, but his heart was made of an ice.
" I think it would important since you come directly to my school. You usually avoided ningen's society. " I tried to pick up some topic. But it was useless.
" Koenma is calling." Then he turned away without any feeling. I didn't like this. " Why don't you just tell me that you hate me, that you would like to kill me?! Why are you holding everything?! Just accused me! I'm the one that betray your faith! "
He gave me a boring look. " Are you insane? You don't do anything to me. " I got confused. I didn't do anything?!
" I'm no longer the one you know. The old Hiei is died. I was rebirth. There is no longer past, Kurama. " His dull ruby eyes made me afraid.
He flitted on the branches like a shadow leaving the light. My tears welled in my eyes when I didn't know why it hurt so much.
" Shuiichi? "
I lifted my head to see her pale face. " Yes? "
" I wonder if I could ever get home again.." She questioned herself with me as her witness. I held her cold hands. " Of course, mother. What are you talking about? "
" I would like to watch your happiness, Shuiichi.."
I smiled in agony. Was I allowed to be happy while I was hurting some one that was very dear to me?
" Maybe I don't deserve for it, mother. Maybe."
" You would be happy with the daughter of your father's friend. She is very pretty, polite and smart. What do you think? "
I hated when my mother took the rules of my lover. But her health was the priority for now.
" Maybe. You must think about your own health. If you wish, I will try to meet her. " I tried to give some consolation for her. She shouldn't worry too much. I watched the clock on her private room.
" It's time to go home, mother. I would come again tomorrow. "
When I stood up, she held my jacket, preventing me to go. " Shuiichi, I..."
" Yes? "
She seemed in doubt to tell me something. I would prefer to her to talk to me directly. I just would like to stop on thinking.
She soon loosened her grip and lied uncomfortably. " Nothing...just nothing. " She lied like a doll that soon broke. She closed her tired eyes.
" You don't have to worry things too much, mother. " I kissed her forehead and shoved away the tangled raven hair on her face.
I closed the door in front of her face. I shouldn't make her worry. She might die if she was in distressed. Her illness would worse and ate her slowly.
But then, should I sacrifice Hiei's happiness on my mother's life?
I shuddered when I remembered the way of his cold look. There was no longer warmth in it. His eyes were looked like in the eternal winter.
Was I the one who made him to be like that? He was looked like the merciless ice maiden from the Ice Land. He still inherited the blood of Koorime anyway. But the eyes...were so blunt and evil, so murderous. He was looked even more in evil than Youko Kurama.
Was I just making a big mistake?
Short? Yes, it is. I'm tired. I hate this fic even more. UGGHHH!! Fuh. Sorry for Kurama's fans. He seems like a bitch here. But I would try to make him sweeter later. Just wait and REVIEW PLEASE! ^_^