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A/N: Lately I was flooded with mountain of school task. And I got bad marks again today. .AAHHHHHH!! I'm going insane. The computer also hates me since I couldn't access the Internet! So I'm sorry for all readers for waiting. (If you're waiting, haha.) Since when do I get this pessimism? Haha...please bear with me in this fic. Thanks to all reviewers that keep support me as:
Hasuko: Sorry for not updating soon. As usual I write Yaoi, and my sisters were anti-yaoi. I couldn't accuse them either. I have little time to write it then since they also dominate the computer. Thank you. But I never wish for H and K to break up either just to remind you. Hehe^-^
Raine Jaganshi: Your review always short but I liked it very much! Thanks!
Curry: Hehe..thanks! You always read my grumble and bubbling. I am thinking another better angle of story. Hopefully you like it!
I gladly thanks for three of you who always give me support to finish this story often. Bye! Saa, shall we go now?
By Irisgem.
The silent snows fell again and rub my ivory cheek gently. The blowing breeze passed my cold heart and mind. I brought myself back to the white pure world where serenity carried upon me. Watching the rustling sea of forest, I leaped over the slippery branches.
I liked the nature of solitude since I didn't have to worry anything or someone. Someone..Then I could feel a warm droplet welled in my eyes. I tried to hold by gritting my lower lip hard. His crimson hair always played in my mind. Quietly he still remained in me and that would last entirely forever. How could a destiny get playing with my life role?
I returned where my last place belonged. My pretty sister was staying with an old priest also good fighter in a temple. I looked at the enormous temple with amusement. A strong kekkai ( kind of shield made by some ki ) surrounded it and protected it from stray youkai.
I rested my feet on the highest pine tree. Yukina was raising her hand and without waiting longer, the birds came down to perched on her hand and shoulders. Her peaceful life made me able to counter anything. For her happiness, I could anything.
I once had another person that I would like to protect but no longer. I should let him go and do as he pleased. I had no rights to keep him. Actually he wasn't mine. Since I was no longer the same person, then he also didn't belong to me. Though he was the reason for me to change, but it also my fault since I was the one who decided to alter myself.
I stared at the cerulean wide sky. Somehow I had a bad feeling about the next mission that Koenma was going about to give the appointment to Reikai Tantei. I would prefer working alone if I should end up meeting that Youko. His fame name and beauty was really not for nothing. I became one of his victims that he got me already.
I couldn't believe that such a Forbidden child ended up on opening his heart and allowed himself to feel. I felt ashamed for this but also the merciless dark night never passed without the throbbing pain inside my chest.
I watched for my sister and the animals that came to protect her with their weak feathery wings. They must be knowing that they didn't posses such a power to protect her, but still....Why did they flutter their wings upon her with such a sacrifice? It would mean a sentence to death but why did they still choose to be at her side?
I shook my head. I answered such a question for myself. Didn't I know the reason? Of course it was because I could feel. We could feel that we allowed ourselves to be the exchange for the one that we would like to protect happiness. Because we wanted to see their smile even in the immortal and nastiest world.
Since when I got my head bumped with something weak and vague things? It was his fault but also my mistakes. No one could be blamed besides me. Yes, The Forbidden Child always became a scapegoat for someone.
Koorime blamed me for something that even couldn't be proved that would happen. They were fear with my possessing power. I couldn't accuse them either as they were just trying to survive with their soon extinction clan. That was why my revenge, hatred, betrayal, agony toward them vanished by time.
Time passed easily like thousands golden sands on fate's hand. They flew gently as someone knew the time would not return. Still no one knew what future might come. We had no choice but played like a mad war on the chess field.
But what all I could thank was that I would not be here if I didn't pass my past. I would not be the black dragon master; I would never be strong to protect my sister. But there was something that bothered my mind. I never knew whether I should thank or regret it. It was for meeting him, the graceful but wicked Youko.
If there weren't him, I would never feel. But then I also didn't want this feeling anymore since I couldn't feel anything more beside pain and agony. All I could know was the place where I was sentenced to remain forever was the eternal snow winter field. Wishing not to wake up, I also wandered, searching for warmth.
I encountered my sister by landing perfectly in front of her. Her ruby soft eyes those were as red as mine glinting with joy. She left her secret fans behind to greet her sibling. I didn't know how the literature of destiny was written on such a paper that I was the one that became her sibling. We were so different yet similar. But somehow we were so far for her not recognizing me as her brother that long gone.
I wondered what she might be if she had the same ordeal like mine. But surely I would not let it happened since she was now the most precious thing I held in this life. I vowed to give my rest life span to protect her. Maybe it wouldn't me who could protect her smile but I'll try to make a better life for her.
That might also the reason for me for not killing that oaf that kept roaming around her. He was so foolish and weak, but his determination was also something I could respect from him.
" You're coming, Hiei-san. Don't you have a meeting with Koenma-sama? " Her sincere smile could appeal anyone. No wonder...
" Yes. How could you know? " I stared her, hiding my emotion behind my empty mask.
" Kazuma-san went just now with Botan-san. I wonder why did he grumbling? " She rested her palm on her cherry cheek.
Sometimes she was not sensitive severely than me. Wasn't it obvious with his way of attitude in front of her? // I knew that someday he might become your prince that made me felt jealous. I just didn't want you to be taken. But it might mean your sorrow that I spared his life. //
" Is that so? Then I shouldn't delay for more. Good-bye. "
Then she held my raven cloak that made me unable to move. " Yukina? " I asked her gently. She seemed snapped her mind out suddenly. She took her hand back and placed it in front of her chest.
Flushing deeply, she lowered her gaze. "Umm...I'm sorry. I don't mean but my hand suddenly...."
I smiled little with a quick hide. But it seemed that she saw it. "You don't have to mind it. Please take care. " Then I leaped to the tree and ran fast to Reikai.
I closed my eyes angrily. They were informed and ran here before I did, but still hadn't caught up until now. I hated waiting since it was a boring thing to do. I watched the prince of hell. Something had bothered his mind clearly. His expression was like am open book.
" I hate to wait. Inform me right away the mission is. " I glared menacingly as I narrowed my ruby eyes on him. He only exhaled and looked at the document. " Couldn't you wait for others? "
" No, since there is a possibility that they would arrive here tomorrow. " I smirked toward him and his foolish worker.
" Not funny, Hiei. Your self couldn't do this task. "
" Oh, I wonder what kind of task that you doubted my ability to do it. " I glared deadly at him. He shuddered a bit and moved his muscles a bit. Still he remained quiet due to his fear of painful death.
" Actually I don't want you to do this but this is a big matter. "
" Hn. You always say that no matter how easy the enemy is. "
" No, this is different. This would influence the three worlds. Failure is not an option. "
I remained silent, as the atmosphere was getting tense. He looked even worried in every passed second. Suddenly he commanded all of his assistants in his workroom to get out. Finally he decided to talk since he sat straight and stared long. I looked at him bored.
" Hiei, when one of you should die, who would you choose? "
Joking harshly I laughed wickedly. " Who else? How about that big oaf? " His solemn face was hard that I became to know that this wasn't a simple thing like that. He was very rare to be deadly serious like that.
" What are you talking about, stupid Koenma? " My expression was harder that matched to him. He closed his eyes and turned his chair back in front me. " Nothing. I just don't want any sacrifice but..."
" Do you mean you have to endanger someone life for this? "
A long wait for his answer drove me insane. Why did he need such long time just to answer? It was easy, right? You just needed to say yes or no.
" Yes. "
My crimson orbs widen completely. Was this mission getting harder like the event of invading of Netherworld? But everyone was saved for succeeding on sealing Netherworld once again. My brow furrowed questioningly.
I cared for some solitude for this time that he freely gave me. I went to the corner of the room and stayed quiet. I thought I relapsed to my bad habit to seal my self in darkness. I folded my arms and watched the endless road of death.
My heart was hollow and my eyes went dull. Everything seemed normal when we even didn't aware for such disaster? Life and death came intertwined each other on a wheel that kept spinning. I still loved this life yet hated it. It was just me who countered the vague future. My decision was set also with my mind.
I walked toward the prince's desk that was full with pile of document. He shunned the contact of eyes with me. I lifted his face and got near.
" What kind of sacrifice do you have to do? " I stared easily. He gazed at the flickering flame inside my ruby eyes.
" If you couldn't finish the task on time, probably we have to sacrifice someone with powerful energy. "
" Why couldn't you just pick someone and sacrifice them? " I glared at his foolish statement.
" We couldn't choose. Actually that thing is the one that chooses its master. "
" Thing? "
" Crystal of Balance that made by holy spirit."
" Then how could you know that the one that should die is one of us? "
" I don't know. It is also one part of your mission. "
I startled with the lack of information. The workers here were too dumb to work properly. I was doubt whether they had mind or not. I sat on the chair in front of his desk, staring the view of outside once again.
" Do you like the view?"
" Hn." I snorted and waited for them to come. Probably this mission would be a pain for someone. Somehow I half prayed that the crystal would choose me since no one would care about me. I was the only one who had no one in this world to love me. How unfair the life was. I could love but couldn't be loved. Maybe I really should never opened my heart.
Probably Yukina would also hate me if she knew the truth but perhaps she would remain innocent about her brother. She would never know. That was the promise I once made for finding her. I didn't know that hiding the truth was the most pain to do that I promised for it easily. I would never break my promise. That was the loyalty and pride of a warrior.
"Koenma, I don't allow you at least to talk about that sacrificial ritual in front of them. "
" Huh? Then they would never know their reason on finding the chosen one. "
I replied him with wild sharp look. " If you tell them, then probably they won't do this. "
He was deep in thought before he answered me back. " Yeah, you probably right this time. " I stayed quiet and glared. " What do you mean ' this time '? "
Then suddenly I heard a shriek sound when the grand door was opened and four guests were coming inside. I didn't bother myself to see them or greet them. I could feel a strong gaze on me that watched for me. I pretended not to see since it would only hurt me.
" What's wrong, Koenma? I have some promise with Keiko to accompany her to shop. I don't want to be slapped by her. " Yusuke looked annoyed. Kuwabara was talking with Botan about Yukina when his mind also wandered back to temple. I really wanted to hit him, watching him like this.
" What is the problem, Koenma-sama? " The silver fox moved forward to see the information clearly. He was reading the document when Koenma explained our mission in short speech.
" The limit time has come since hundreds of years. The power that keeps the balance of three worlds reaches its limit. On the same time, some band of youkai found it. If they yield the power for their advantage, it would be a disaster for three worlds."
" Huh? I don't get it? " A big question mark appeared on that orange head. I snorted and complaint. " Baka. Your stupidity remains forever in your head, ne? " I smirked savagely that provoked him enough. I glared at him with colder eyes. I didn't know how could I relapse into the sullen demon again. All I knew that thief fox demon had softened my heart that he also killed it into nothing.
Kuwabara shuddered a bit and stepped backwards. I was nothing more than a killing machine in front of people beside my sister. I really had enough about the bullshit about love and affection. I wouldn't be tricked any more especially to that fox. I was really bored of his hoax already.
Koenma coughed once while Botan was going at his side. She hid her oar magically and paid attention through the meeting. We stopped our glaring wars and sulked.
" So this item is Crystal of Balance. It is in Makai and big enough to fit a human. It saved a soul in it to supply its power. There is a band of A- class youkai that chased for its marvelous power, but it shouldn't be used. If you retrieve its power to zero, the world would fall. "
" Do you mean the balance is ruined completely? " The Youko predicted the situation like usual. He was sincerely smart and cunning. I once fell for his kindness as human that I thought he was changing but I was actually cheated from the start.
" Yes. And it means Makai would lost its nature power and razed to the ground. When Makai fell, Ningenkai and Reikai would also fell. Ningenkai would turn into Makai and Reikai would turn into Ningenkai. "
" How was about back then in past? "
Koenma looked at me secretly as I shook my head little for not taking attention from them. He lifted his head and spoke quietly.
" In the past, the supply had never run out. But if the power is used, the entire world would be..." Botan gasped for such a bad news. We knew how heavy this mission would be. Finding the chosen one, stopping the bad guys, protecting the crystal, I couldn't believe this.
Yusuke looked so lively that he was full of spirit. I wondered how he would act if he was the chosen one. Probably he would give himself to protect the other. He always acted like that. Sometimes he was so interesting for his nature.
" So what are you waiting for?! We should do this fast before I get hit by Keiko. " He thrust his fist to the this air with spirit. That fool also did his usual habit to praise his own self. Kurama tried to reach out for me to talk but he always stopped in the middle way with a twinkling doubt in his eyes.
I didn't even take a glance on him. I turned my back and lost with black blur from the view. I was better waiting for them in front of Makai's portal to let myself alone. I could hear the soft whisper of my name from his breath when I went out of the room, but I didn't care anymore.
I didn't want to care anymore.
I leaped from tree to tree under the blessed golden moon. I was like a black spot beyond the perfect beauty of shimmering moonlight. The stars twinkled to seal the wide darkness away. Unwanted darkness, unforgivable sin...it was so match with me. When I was with that crimson head, I thought I could be something in this world.
// It was before I knew the truth that I was just a mere toy.//
I lost my faith and taken back to darkness, even fell to the deepest one, to the never-ending cascade of pain. I roamed like a shadow within the mist that should be concealed. I had nowhere to go or return. That was why I had myself in the only my winter world. The only place that was belonged to me was where the eternity existed.
Somehow I could feel a call from faraway land. Awkward yet gentle liked a breeze. I went down to the ground of forest to find the current site of Makai's portal. The voice was through the dimension and echoed loudly inside my ears. I walked slowly toward it, searching for the owner until I could feel a tap on my shoulder.
" What's wrong, Hiei? " Yusuke looked questioningly. I gazed at him for a while before I tried to find that voice again. I was startled with that strange voice that made me lost control. I glared at them.
" Do you hear that voice? "
" What? " Three of them just stared curiously and remained quiet to listen any possible audible sound. They shrugged to each other and blinked at me.
" Is it just the trick that my ears play or what? " I tried to scan any possible presence. I curtly lifted my head since I could feel a power from above. Then the jovial ferry girl went down with her oar. She laughed happily and chatted with Koenma. She was really annoyed me since she made me unable to scan the direction of that voice.
The voice kept ringing vaguely inside my head that wouldn't go away. I was in anger already to listen such a noisy sound. I shouted in frustration. " Would you please shut up?! "
Botan closed her mouth suddenly when the other watched for my sudden attitude. I huffed a bit as the voice was fading away then felt guilty for screaming on Botan for something that wasn't wrong. Since when did I have this feeling? That Youko really ruined my life entirely.
" Sorry. " I whispered quietly. Botan smiled little, as she understood. " Do you really not hear that voice? "
" What are you talking about, you shrimp? You kept saying strange things. There is no one beside us. Of course there is no voice! " He retorted. Luckily I wasn't in mood of fighting that I let him mocked me this time. I should remember to cut his tongue when I was in good situation.
" Are you alright? " Kurama was masking again with something called kindness. I didn't wait long to resist against his touch. I shunned him easily like gentle breeze that he looked hurt. I didn't know whether it was just a lie or not. My heart ached to think it was just a fake.
" Hn. " I jumped across the portal that I soon arrived in the dark gray sky of Makai. The voice still whispered gently but almost inaudible that I tried to keep my dignity. I thought I had another thing to take care of beside the mission. Finding the source of this sound and I would go on my routine life as a Reikai Tantei and cold murder.
I wondered why humans always bothered on building up such a camp. I reposed on the trunk of a big tree. I stayed alert since there was a fox, which had the power of plants nearby. I should anticipate something before he yielded his power for his playing tricks.
They slept around the fire camp. I was watching the flickering flame and admiring the beauty of its heat and color when Kurama spoke gently for not waking up the remaining Tantei. He didn't bother to turn his face on me. He probably knew that I would avoid his gaze also. Then he shouldn't do any vain attempt.
" Haven't slept? "
I didn't speak anything. I just didn't want to talk anything more with him. Maybe I was so childish....
" I'm sorry, Hiei. You're right. I am so selfish yet arrogant. I'm really sorry. ..." I heard him secretly and wondered his aim on saying such thing.
" What do you want for saying that to me? " I replied coldly. He stayed in serenity for a while.
" Nothing. I just want to say sorry for hurting you. I wish you could forgive me, but I have no right to receive it. I also couldn't forgive myself. Since this is my own fault, I should through this by myself. "
Then I saw his smile again toward me. Something inside me was tickling with joy but also felt hollow? Why he asked for forgiveness now? Weren't we finished, as he didn't have any feeling for me anymore? Why should you ask forgiveness? Was everything could be solved that easily? By a simple word of sorry.
" Good night. " He turned his sleeping bag to face the fire camp and fell into his dream world. I stared at him without moving my attention. It had been a while since I last saw him this long. I probably still missed him but time would never return, the shattered mirror wouldn't be weaved like before.
I tried to concentrate on him since the voice echoed louder. I really couldn't sleep if I had through this. I would find out the owner and killed him to death. I snarled quietly before closing my jaded eyes and waiting for golden rays on twilight with new day.
I'm sleepy. My eyes only left with five volt. They were ready to close in front of my computer monitor. Hehehe...so I end it here for a while. Review please....and also good night....Zzzzzzzzzz
A/N: Lately I was flooded with mountain of school task. And I got bad marks again today. .AAHHHHHH!! I'm going insane. The computer also hates me since I couldn't access the Internet! So I'm sorry for all readers for waiting. (If you're waiting, haha.) Since when do I get this pessimism? Haha...please bear with me in this fic. Thanks to all reviewers that keep support me as:
Hasuko: Sorry for not updating soon. As usual I write Yaoi, and my sisters were anti-yaoi. I couldn't accuse them either. I have little time to write it then since they also dominate the computer. Thank you. But I never wish for H and K to break up either just to remind you. Hehe^-^
Raine Jaganshi: Your review always short but I liked it very much! Thanks!
Curry: Hehe..thanks! You always read my grumble and bubbling. I am thinking another better angle of story. Hopefully you like it!
I gladly thanks for three of you who always give me support to finish this story often. Bye! Saa, shall we go now?
By Irisgem.
The silent snows fell again and rub my ivory cheek gently. The blowing breeze passed my cold heart and mind. I brought myself back to the white pure world where serenity carried upon me. Watching the rustling sea of forest, I leaped over the slippery branches.
I liked the nature of solitude since I didn't have to worry anything or someone. Someone..Then I could feel a warm droplet welled in my eyes. I tried to hold by gritting my lower lip hard. His crimson hair always played in my mind. Quietly he still remained in me and that would last entirely forever. How could a destiny get playing with my life role?
I returned where my last place belonged. My pretty sister was staying with an old priest also good fighter in a temple. I looked at the enormous temple with amusement. A strong kekkai ( kind of shield made by some ki ) surrounded it and protected it from stray youkai.
I rested my feet on the highest pine tree. Yukina was raising her hand and without waiting longer, the birds came down to perched on her hand and shoulders. Her peaceful life made me able to counter anything. For her happiness, I could anything.
I once had another person that I would like to protect but no longer. I should let him go and do as he pleased. I had no rights to keep him. Actually he wasn't mine. Since I was no longer the same person, then he also didn't belong to me. Though he was the reason for me to change, but it also my fault since I was the one who decided to alter myself.
I stared at the cerulean wide sky. Somehow I had a bad feeling about the next mission that Koenma was going about to give the appointment to Reikai Tantei. I would prefer working alone if I should end up meeting that Youko. His fame name and beauty was really not for nothing. I became one of his victims that he got me already.
I couldn't believe that such a Forbidden child ended up on opening his heart and allowed himself to feel. I felt ashamed for this but also the merciless dark night never passed without the throbbing pain inside my chest.
I watched for my sister and the animals that came to protect her with their weak feathery wings. They must be knowing that they didn't posses such a power to protect her, but still....Why did they flutter their wings upon her with such a sacrifice? It would mean a sentence to death but why did they still choose to be at her side?
I shook my head. I answered such a question for myself. Didn't I know the reason? Of course it was because I could feel. We could feel that we allowed ourselves to be the exchange for the one that we would like to protect happiness. Because we wanted to see their smile even in the immortal and nastiest world.
Since when I got my head bumped with something weak and vague things? It was his fault but also my mistakes. No one could be blamed besides me. Yes, The Forbidden Child always became a scapegoat for someone.
Koorime blamed me for something that even couldn't be proved that would happen. They were fear with my possessing power. I couldn't accuse them either as they were just trying to survive with their soon extinction clan. That was why my revenge, hatred, betrayal, agony toward them vanished by time.
Time passed easily like thousands golden sands on fate's hand. They flew gently as someone knew the time would not return. Still no one knew what future might come. We had no choice but played like a mad war on the chess field.
But what all I could thank was that I would not be here if I didn't pass my past. I would not be the black dragon master; I would never be strong to protect my sister. But there was something that bothered my mind. I never knew whether I should thank or regret it. It was for meeting him, the graceful but wicked Youko.
If there weren't him, I would never feel. But then I also didn't want this feeling anymore since I couldn't feel anything more beside pain and agony. All I could know was the place where I was sentenced to remain forever was the eternal snow winter field. Wishing not to wake up, I also wandered, searching for warmth.
I encountered my sister by landing perfectly in front of her. Her ruby soft eyes those were as red as mine glinting with joy. She left her secret fans behind to greet her sibling. I didn't know how the literature of destiny was written on such a paper that I was the one that became her sibling. We were so different yet similar. But somehow we were so far for her not recognizing me as her brother that long gone.
I wondered what she might be if she had the same ordeal like mine. But surely I would not let it happened since she was now the most precious thing I held in this life. I vowed to give my rest life span to protect her. Maybe it wouldn't me who could protect her smile but I'll try to make a better life for her.
That might also the reason for me for not killing that oaf that kept roaming around her. He was so foolish and weak, but his determination was also something I could respect from him.
" You're coming, Hiei-san. Don't you have a meeting with Koenma-sama? " Her sincere smile could appeal anyone. No wonder...
" Yes. How could you know? " I stared her, hiding my emotion behind my empty mask.
" Kazuma-san went just now with Botan-san. I wonder why did he grumbling? " She rested her palm on her cherry cheek.
Sometimes she was not sensitive severely than me. Wasn't it obvious with his way of attitude in front of her? // I knew that someday he might become your prince that made me felt jealous. I just didn't want you to be taken. But it might mean your sorrow that I spared his life. //
" Is that so? Then I shouldn't delay for more. Good-bye. "
Then she held my raven cloak that made me unable to move. " Yukina? " I asked her gently. She seemed snapped her mind out suddenly. She took her hand back and placed it in front of her chest.
Flushing deeply, she lowered her gaze. "Umm...I'm sorry. I don't mean but my hand suddenly...."
I smiled little with a quick hide. But it seemed that she saw it. "You don't have to mind it. Please take care. " Then I leaped to the tree and ran fast to Reikai.
I closed my eyes angrily. They were informed and ran here before I did, but still hadn't caught up until now. I hated waiting since it was a boring thing to do. I watched the prince of hell. Something had bothered his mind clearly. His expression was like am open book.
" I hate to wait. Inform me right away the mission is. " I glared menacingly as I narrowed my ruby eyes on him. He only exhaled and looked at the document. " Couldn't you wait for others? "
" No, since there is a possibility that they would arrive here tomorrow. " I smirked toward him and his foolish worker.
" Not funny, Hiei. Your self couldn't do this task. "
" Oh, I wonder what kind of task that you doubted my ability to do it. " I glared deadly at him. He shuddered a bit and moved his muscles a bit. Still he remained quiet due to his fear of painful death.
" Actually I don't want you to do this but this is a big matter. "
" Hn. You always say that no matter how easy the enemy is. "
" No, this is different. This would influence the three worlds. Failure is not an option. "
I remained silent, as the atmosphere was getting tense. He looked even worried in every passed second. Suddenly he commanded all of his assistants in his workroom to get out. Finally he decided to talk since he sat straight and stared long. I looked at him bored.
" Hiei, when one of you should die, who would you choose? "
Joking harshly I laughed wickedly. " Who else? How about that big oaf? " His solemn face was hard that I became to know that this wasn't a simple thing like that. He was very rare to be deadly serious like that.
" What are you talking about, stupid Koenma? " My expression was harder that matched to him. He closed his eyes and turned his chair back in front me. " Nothing. I just don't want any sacrifice but..."
" Do you mean you have to endanger someone life for this? "
A long wait for his answer drove me insane. Why did he need such long time just to answer? It was easy, right? You just needed to say yes or no.
" Yes. "
My crimson orbs widen completely. Was this mission getting harder like the event of invading of Netherworld? But everyone was saved for succeeding on sealing Netherworld once again. My brow furrowed questioningly.
I cared for some solitude for this time that he freely gave me. I went to the corner of the room and stayed quiet. I thought I relapsed to my bad habit to seal my self in darkness. I folded my arms and watched the endless road of death.
My heart was hollow and my eyes went dull. Everything seemed normal when we even didn't aware for such disaster? Life and death came intertwined each other on a wheel that kept spinning. I still loved this life yet hated it. It was just me who countered the vague future. My decision was set also with my mind.
I walked toward the prince's desk that was full with pile of document. He shunned the contact of eyes with me. I lifted his face and got near.
" What kind of sacrifice do you have to do? " I stared easily. He gazed at the flickering flame inside my ruby eyes.
" If you couldn't finish the task on time, probably we have to sacrifice someone with powerful energy. "
" Why couldn't you just pick someone and sacrifice them? " I glared at his foolish statement.
" We couldn't choose. Actually that thing is the one that chooses its master. "
" Thing? "
" Crystal of Balance that made by holy spirit."
" Then how could you know that the one that should die is one of us? "
" I don't know. It is also one part of your mission. "
I startled with the lack of information. The workers here were too dumb to work properly. I was doubt whether they had mind or not. I sat on the chair in front of his desk, staring the view of outside once again.
" Do you like the view?"
" Hn." I snorted and waited for them to come. Probably this mission would be a pain for someone. Somehow I half prayed that the crystal would choose me since no one would care about me. I was the only one who had no one in this world to love me. How unfair the life was. I could love but couldn't be loved. Maybe I really should never opened my heart.
Probably Yukina would also hate me if she knew the truth but perhaps she would remain innocent about her brother. She would never know. That was the promise I once made for finding her. I didn't know that hiding the truth was the most pain to do that I promised for it easily. I would never break my promise. That was the loyalty and pride of a warrior.
"Koenma, I don't allow you at least to talk about that sacrificial ritual in front of them. "
" Huh? Then they would never know their reason on finding the chosen one. "
I replied him with wild sharp look. " If you tell them, then probably they won't do this. "
He was deep in thought before he answered me back. " Yeah, you probably right this time. " I stayed quiet and glared. " What do you mean ' this time '? "
Then suddenly I heard a shriek sound when the grand door was opened and four guests were coming inside. I didn't bother myself to see them or greet them. I could feel a strong gaze on me that watched for me. I pretended not to see since it would only hurt me.
" What's wrong, Koenma? I have some promise with Keiko to accompany her to shop. I don't want to be slapped by her. " Yusuke looked annoyed. Kuwabara was talking with Botan about Yukina when his mind also wandered back to temple. I really wanted to hit him, watching him like this.
" What is the problem, Koenma-sama? " The silver fox moved forward to see the information clearly. He was reading the document when Koenma explained our mission in short speech.
" The limit time has come since hundreds of years. The power that keeps the balance of three worlds reaches its limit. On the same time, some band of youkai found it. If they yield the power for their advantage, it would be a disaster for three worlds."
" Huh? I don't get it? " A big question mark appeared on that orange head. I snorted and complaint. " Baka. Your stupidity remains forever in your head, ne? " I smirked savagely that provoked him enough. I glared at him with colder eyes. I didn't know how could I relapse into the sullen demon again. All I knew that thief fox demon had softened my heart that he also killed it into nothing.
Kuwabara shuddered a bit and stepped backwards. I was nothing more than a killing machine in front of people beside my sister. I really had enough about the bullshit about love and affection. I wouldn't be tricked any more especially to that fox. I was really bored of his hoax already.
Koenma coughed once while Botan was going at his side. She hid her oar magically and paid attention through the meeting. We stopped our glaring wars and sulked.
" So this item is Crystal of Balance. It is in Makai and big enough to fit a human. It saved a soul in it to supply its power. There is a band of A- class youkai that chased for its marvelous power, but it shouldn't be used. If you retrieve its power to zero, the world would fall. "
" Do you mean the balance is ruined completely? " The Youko predicted the situation like usual. He was sincerely smart and cunning. I once fell for his kindness as human that I thought he was changing but I was actually cheated from the start.
" Yes. And it means Makai would lost its nature power and razed to the ground. When Makai fell, Ningenkai and Reikai would also fell. Ningenkai would turn into Makai and Reikai would turn into Ningenkai. "
" How was about back then in past? "
Koenma looked at me secretly as I shook my head little for not taking attention from them. He lifted his head and spoke quietly.
" In the past, the supply had never run out. But if the power is used, the entire world would be..." Botan gasped for such a bad news. We knew how heavy this mission would be. Finding the chosen one, stopping the bad guys, protecting the crystal, I couldn't believe this.
Yusuke looked so lively that he was full of spirit. I wondered how he would act if he was the chosen one. Probably he would give himself to protect the other. He always acted like that. Sometimes he was so interesting for his nature.
" So what are you waiting for?! We should do this fast before I get hit by Keiko. " He thrust his fist to the this air with spirit. That fool also did his usual habit to praise his own self. Kurama tried to reach out for me to talk but he always stopped in the middle way with a twinkling doubt in his eyes.
I didn't even take a glance on him. I turned my back and lost with black blur from the view. I was better waiting for them in front of Makai's portal to let myself alone. I could hear the soft whisper of my name from his breath when I went out of the room, but I didn't care anymore.
I didn't want to care anymore.
I leaped from tree to tree under the blessed golden moon. I was like a black spot beyond the perfect beauty of shimmering moonlight. The stars twinkled to seal the wide darkness away. Unwanted darkness, unforgivable sin...it was so match with me. When I was with that crimson head, I thought I could be something in this world.
// It was before I knew the truth that I was just a mere toy.//
I lost my faith and taken back to darkness, even fell to the deepest one, to the never-ending cascade of pain. I roamed like a shadow within the mist that should be concealed. I had nowhere to go or return. That was why I had myself in the only my winter world. The only place that was belonged to me was where the eternity existed.
Somehow I could feel a call from faraway land. Awkward yet gentle liked a breeze. I went down to the ground of forest to find the current site of Makai's portal. The voice was through the dimension and echoed loudly inside my ears. I walked slowly toward it, searching for the owner until I could feel a tap on my shoulder.
" What's wrong, Hiei? " Yusuke looked questioningly. I gazed at him for a while before I tried to find that voice again. I was startled with that strange voice that made me lost control. I glared at them.
" Do you hear that voice? "
" What? " Three of them just stared curiously and remained quiet to listen any possible audible sound. They shrugged to each other and blinked at me.
" Is it just the trick that my ears play or what? " I tried to scan any possible presence. I curtly lifted my head since I could feel a power from above. Then the jovial ferry girl went down with her oar. She laughed happily and chatted with Koenma. She was really annoyed me since she made me unable to scan the direction of that voice.
The voice kept ringing vaguely inside my head that wouldn't go away. I was in anger already to listen such a noisy sound. I shouted in frustration. " Would you please shut up?! "
Botan closed her mouth suddenly when the other watched for my sudden attitude. I huffed a bit as the voice was fading away then felt guilty for screaming on Botan for something that wasn't wrong. Since when did I have this feeling? That Youko really ruined my life entirely.
" Sorry. " I whispered quietly. Botan smiled little, as she understood. " Do you really not hear that voice? "
" What are you talking about, you shrimp? You kept saying strange things. There is no one beside us. Of course there is no voice! " He retorted. Luckily I wasn't in mood of fighting that I let him mocked me this time. I should remember to cut his tongue when I was in good situation.
" Are you alright? " Kurama was masking again with something called kindness. I didn't wait long to resist against his touch. I shunned him easily like gentle breeze that he looked hurt. I didn't know whether it was just a lie or not. My heart ached to think it was just a fake.
" Hn. " I jumped across the portal that I soon arrived in the dark gray sky of Makai. The voice still whispered gently but almost inaudible that I tried to keep my dignity. I thought I had another thing to take care of beside the mission. Finding the source of this sound and I would go on my routine life as a Reikai Tantei and cold murder.
I wondered why humans always bothered on building up such a camp. I reposed on the trunk of a big tree. I stayed alert since there was a fox, which had the power of plants nearby. I should anticipate something before he yielded his power for his playing tricks.
They slept around the fire camp. I was watching the flickering flame and admiring the beauty of its heat and color when Kurama spoke gently for not waking up the remaining Tantei. He didn't bother to turn his face on me. He probably knew that I would avoid his gaze also. Then he shouldn't do any vain attempt.
" Haven't slept? "
I didn't speak anything. I just didn't want to talk anything more with him. Maybe I was so childish....
" I'm sorry, Hiei. You're right. I am so selfish yet arrogant. I'm really sorry. ..." I heard him secretly and wondered his aim on saying such thing.
" What do you want for saying that to me? " I replied coldly. He stayed in serenity for a while.
" Nothing. I just want to say sorry for hurting you. I wish you could forgive me, but I have no right to receive it. I also couldn't forgive myself. Since this is my own fault, I should through this by myself. "
Then I saw his smile again toward me. Something inside me was tickling with joy but also felt hollow? Why he asked for forgiveness now? Weren't we finished, as he didn't have any feeling for me anymore? Why should you ask forgiveness? Was everything could be solved that easily? By a simple word of sorry.
" Good night. " He turned his sleeping bag to face the fire camp and fell into his dream world. I stared at him without moving my attention. It had been a while since I last saw him this long. I probably still missed him but time would never return, the shattered mirror wouldn't be weaved like before.
I tried to concentrate on him since the voice echoed louder. I really couldn't sleep if I had through this. I would find out the owner and killed him to death. I snarled quietly before closing my jaded eyes and waiting for golden rays on twilight with new day.
I'm sleepy. My eyes only left with five volt. They were ready to close in front of my computer monitor. Hehehe...so I end it here for a while. Review please....and also good night....Zzzzzzzzzz