Chapter 11
Harry could not believe what he was hearing. Why would Dumbeldore want me in his order now after he very animatedly stated that I was not ready for his order? It just doesn't make sense, thought Harry.
"Why are you allowing me to join now when you turned me down not so long ago?" Asked Harry.
"Humph," sniffed Snape in a disapproving manner.
"Harry it seems that I have made a terrible mistake in not allowing you into the order when you asked. I only hope you can except my sincerest apology and join the order where you rightfully belong," said Dumbeldore.
This doesn't make since, why are they doing this now, thought Harry?
"Honestly Potter, how long does it take for a simple yes? We all know you have been dying to get into the order," drawled Snape.
"But why are you asking me to join now professor, I don't understand?" said Harry.
"Harry some things have been brought to my attention that concerns me," said Dumbeldore.
"What is it," said Harry.
"For heavens sakes Potter we have not got all day to explain such trivial matters to you. Just except our offer so we don't have to worry about you going off and start--, Snape begin to say.
"SEVERUS!" Yelled Mrs. Weasley.
Harry now understood why Dumbeldore wanted him to join his order. He wants me to join so he can keep me in the dark like he always has, thought Harry.
"I'm sorry professor, I can not except your invitation," said Harry.
"Harry, I thought this is what you wanted? Don't listen to that weasel Harry, please," said Tonks.
"It. It was what I wanted then Tonks, but th-things have changed that I can not turn away from," said Harry.
"Harry, please understand that it was a mistake on our part. We truly want you to join us, it just took us some time to realize it," said McGonagall.
"No, I believe you all witnessed something that changed your minds for you," said Harry.
"I understand that you feel hurt and betrayed by us Harry, but please understand that we were only doing what we thought was best," said Dumbeldore.
"Professor, I. I think it is time that I take control of what goes on in my own life, and relieve you and everyone else of that burden," said Harry.
At this point Dumbeldore truly looked like he had been defeated. "I am sorry Harry," said Dumbeldore.
"Don't be professor," said Harry.
"Potter," snarled Snape. "You ungrateful boy, do you honestly think I wanted you in this order? No, I detested the idea, but I was out voted, and then you go and turn us down. You think just because you are Harry Potter we are supposed to do what ever you ask. You are just like your father when it comes to decision making. Albus warned him against using Black for his secrete keeper, but James insisted on using him over Albus, and that mistake killed himself and Lily," said Snape.
"Severus, hold your tongue," snapped McGonagall for she knew exactly how Harry reacted when his parents where spoken about poorly.
Pure repressed anger began radiating from deep inside Harry that he could no longer keep under control.
"SHUT UP!" "DON'T EVER SPEAK MY PARENTS NAMES AGAIN!" Harry roared.
"MY FATHER. MY FATHER WAS TWICE THE MAN YOU WILL EVER BE. HE DIED TO PROTECT ME FROM HIM. HE. HE DIED BECAUSE OF ME AND THAT DAMN PROPHECY!" Raged Harry throwing caution to the wind.
"MY MOTHER!" A tear slowly slid down Harry's face as he mentioned his mother. "SIRI.!" "JUST SHUT UP!" bellowed Harry.
"YOU ARE THE LAST PERSON THAT SHOULD LIVE HIS LIFE IN THE PAST YOU-YOU!" Harry said.
"SAY IT POTTER!" Snarled Snape.
"ENOUGH!" Said Dumbeldore, which efficiently ended both of the men's raving.
"I-I am sorry professor, Tonks, Remus, Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, I'm sorry," said Harry and he quietly left the headmasters office.
"Severus that was completely unforgivable, you actions tonight have been heartless and not befitting of a Hogwarts Professor," said McGonagall as she also had tears threatening to spill over as well. Molly on the other hand could not keep her tears from falling and was now being consoled by her husband.
"UNFORGIVABLE, YOU HAVE PUSHED HARRY FURTHER INTO THE HANDS OF VOLDEMORT!" Screamed Lupin catching the room off guard by his uncharacteristic outburst.
"Don't talk to me in that manner Lupin, I did what the headmaster should have done. That boy gets away with everything and we are just supposed to set back and watch it. Potter is being foolish as always, and he is now leading our students, his so called friends into battle where their outcome will be death, and yet we do nothing." said Severus. "What I still do not comprehend is how Potter hoodwinked all of them to follow him into battle against the most feared man in the world?" Continued Snape.
"Severus sit down," said Dumbeldore in a voice that left no room for argument. After Severus had sitting down, Dumbeldore began to speak to his order.
"You want to know why students and younger generation witches and wizards flock towards Harry, well then I will tell you all," said Dumbeldore. "Why did all of you in this room tonight come to me to join my order and risk your lives to stop Voldemort?" Asked Dumbeldore.
"Because Albus, you have faced so much and come out of each situation victorious," said Arthur Weasley.
"Ah that is my point exactly Arthur. All of you hear tonight joined my order and follow my lead because of what I have been through. That is precisely the reason why Harry has such a large following in his group. The older witches and wizard come to me to fight Voldemort because they all know what I have done and whom I have defeated. Harry has a large following of younger witches and wizards because of what he has done and whom he has faced and walked away from so many times in his young age. They have placed their faith in him just as you all have placed your faith in me," said Dumbeldore.
"But Albus he is taking his followers into dangerous battle where they may die. This is not their fight, I love that boy as if he was my own son, but I fear he is not thinking clearly. I had hoped after he joined we could keep certain things away from him like we had originally been doing," said Mrs. Weasley.
"You see Molly, that is where we are wrong. Who are we to say who can fight against Voldemort and who cannot?" Said Dumbeldore. "Harry is not forcing any of them that is in his group to fight against Voldemort with him. They have all chosen that path on their own. Harry's friends will gladly lay down their lives for him as Harry has almost done so many times before for everyone in this school," said Dumbeldore.
Harry was now lost deep in thought as he made his way back to the Gryffindor Tower. "Password!" "Huh, oh Padfoot," said Harry. "Correct, you may enter dear, and might I add that you should head straight to bed. You look half asleep now dear," said the painting of the fat lady. "I believe I just may do that," said Harry as he walked through the door.
"Harry, mate what took so long?" asked Ron.
"Oh, you didn't get in trouble for something did you Harry?" Asked Sarah.
"Don't be silly Sarah, Harry couldn't have gotten in trouble because he hasn't done anything," said Hermione.
"No, I'm not in trouble," Harry said while he debated on whether or not to tell them that Dumbeldore tried to recruit him for his order.
"Harry, what's the matter. I can tell there is something on your mind," said Sarah while Hermione looked at her friend in concern.
"They called me up there because they wanted me to join their order, but it's not like you think. They wanted me in their order so they could keep me in the dark like they have been doing basically my whole life. Dumbeldore and his order think that I am acting irrational and that we are getting in the way," said Harry all in one breath.
"Bloody stinking Hell we are in the Bloody Freaken way," said Ron causing several people in the common room to look over at him for his out burst.
"Shush Ron, you are making a seen," said Hermione.
"It's just like the grown ups to rant and rave that we are getting in the way, when a simple thank you would have been sufficient," said Ron as he was teetering on the edge of his seat.
"Harry what did you say to them?" Asked Hermione.
"I told them that I had things I could not turn my back on, and that I could not join their order. I also told Dumbeldore that I thought it was time I took control of what went on in my life," said Harry.
"Well good for you," said Sarah. "But you don't look to happy Harry. Did something else happen?" Asked Sarah.
"No, its just that I am afraid that Tonks, Remus, and Mr. and Mrs. Weasley will look differently towards me now after I turned them down. I don't want to lose them," said Harry.
"Mate, I don't think Tonks or Remus are going any where. I mean for peat's sake, Tonks sends you a letter every week making sure you are okay, and Remus practically acts like an uncle to you already. Trust me on this they are not going anywhere, and my parents love you. You are just short of being dubbed a Weasley as it is. Fred and George have been petitioning it all over the house since they left school last year and Percy sent them a letter of disapproval. Things have gotten somewhat better between Percy and my parents, but I don't think things will ever be the same," said Ron.
"Harry don't worry, Ron's rite. Just because you turned them down does not mean they are going to abandon you. It just doesn't work that way. When someone loves another person they love them even if they make a mistake. The Weasley's don't hate Percy, they are just disappointed, but they will get over it. You don't even know if Tonks, Remus, and the rest are even upset at your refusal, and if they are you will always have us and your order to fall back on," said Hermione.
"Yeah, we will always be here for you Harry," said Sarah as she and Hermione looked over at the clueless Ron for his input.
"Whaaat, Oh! Same here mate, I shouldn't even need to say that. You and I are already brothers even if you haven't officially been dubbed a Weasley.
"Thanks again you guys," said Harry.
"No need to thank us," said Ron, just throw a chocolate frog my way from time to time and will call it even," said Ron.
"RON!" both girls screamed at him.
A small cough came from behind them causing all of them to turn around to see who was the source of the noise.
"Tonks, what are you doing here?" Asked Harry.
"Wotcher Harry!" Said Tonks quietly and a small smile. "Uh, I was wondering if I could speak to you alone if that would be alright?" she asked.
"We were just heading to bed Tonks, so we will leave you alone," said Hermione as she and Sarah both tugged Ron up from his chair before he could resay what he had said earlier to someone from Dumbeldore's order.
"Thank you," said Tonks.
As the three left Tonks came around and sat by Harry with her hands in her lap, waiting for Harry to look up at her. However, Harry could not bring himself to look Tonks in the face, and feared what she had come to say. He also noticed that Remus wasn't with him so his suspicions where already being confirmed in his mind.
"I'm sorry, I don't want you guys to hate me, its just you guys didn't leave me with many options," said Harry in a small voice where he had yet to look up at Tonks. "Is that why Remus didn't come with you?" Asked Harry.
"What! No, No Harry, we don't hate you, and that is not the reason I am here. Remus is also not here because I persuaded him to let me handle this," said Tonks as she began smiling. In her mind she feared Harry resented her and Remus for not warning Harry on what Dumbeldore's order where trying to persuade him into.
"You don't? Well then why are you here?" asked Harry.
"Because I wanted to check and see if you were okay. That was some row that took place between you and Snape. Rows like that can take their tow on the toughest of people," said Tonks.
"Oh," Harry said finally looking up to see Tonks smiling at him. "Well in that case I wish I had said more to him, but I couldn't get everything I wanted to say out," said Harry.
"Well you certainly have my admiration, you even inspired Remus to do a little bit of ranting himself which was good fun. I'll see if I can't get him to do some more again while you are with us," said Tonks.
Harry couldn't help but laugh at this. He was just so relieved that the order didn't hate him for his refusal that he couldn't help but relax a bit. Even though he resented them for what they tried to do, he still had a strong amount of love for Professor McGonagall, Dumbeldore, Moody, and the rest.
"Come here Harry," Tonks said pulling him into a strong hug. "You look like you could fall asleep any moment," she said. Harry couldn't help but relax into her embrace and let her rub her fingernails up and down his back. "You know even though you have your own order now, we will still always be there for you, and that you don't have to run headstrong into ever battle without us," said Tonks as she continued to rub Harry's back.
"I know, but that should go both ways," said Harry.
"Well, I don't know if I will be able to persuade the others, but you have a deal with me," said Tonks.
"Harry let out an indignant grunt as he felt himself falling to sleep, so technically that is a no then," said Harry.
"Hold on there Harry, I didn't say that, it's just they don't exactly share the same views Remus, Moody, and I do along with old Mundungus and Shackelbolt," said Tonks.
"Well I guess that's good enough. I'll see if I can persuade my order to as well. I'm pretty sure I can persuade mine after yours have been persuaded," mumbled Harry as he was desperately trying to fight off sleep. He wanted to sit up and talk to Tonks and not fall asleep against her. He had found it quite embarrassing when he had woken up that morning asleep on Sarah's lap with Parvati, Lavender, Alicia, and Katie all smiling at him as if he was some sort of baby. However, he believed Tonks was doing this on purpose because she and Mrs. Weasley had both been writing to him about not getting a proper amount of sleep as he had accidentally put it in one of his letters that he had not slept well one night.
"Tonks," Harry mumbled.
"Huh," she said as she continued to rub his back in small circles.
"Thank you for coming and talking to me. Will you tell Remus that I will write to him soon?" asked Harry.
"Of course sweetie," said Tonks.
"Hhmkay," sighed Harry. "Well I better get to my bed. I'm sure you don't want a dead weight laying against you all night," said Harry
"Your fine Harry," Tonks said as she could feel him drifting off to sleep. "I have to leave in a little while anyway, so just rest now and I'll cover you up on the couch before I leave," said Tonks. She didn't want to tell him, but she wanted him to fall asleep against her. She had rather enjoyed holding him that night at Grimmauld Place while he slept, and she and Mrs. Weasley were worried that he wasn't sleeping enough as it was. She thought it was funny how there relationship together was now. It was funny and sad all at the same time. She looked at him now as a little brother who had the rottenest luck imaginable, and he looked at her as a happy go lucky older sister who just had a soft spot for him. She also felt a deep sadness towards Harry and Remus's new relationship. Remus was trying to feel the void of James and Sirius's premature departure even though he new he would never be able to fill both of those men's shoes, but Harry appreciated it all the same. With one last shift of his weight Harry lay asleep against Tonks. She couldn't help but laugh to herself as she saw Harry lying asleep against her. It had been quite an amusing few letters Harry had sent to her and Remus after Sarah had evidently caught him in one of his sleepy moods too. She could see why all of the girls thought he looked cute when the found him asleep that morning against Sarah. For Harry during the day was quite handsome, but it was hard to not notice the way his body and eyes carried many burdens and sadnesses. However, when he slept he looked peaceful, at least that night he did. ```````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` ````````````````````````````````
Harry's dream was not like his usual dreams that night. He did not fear what he was dreaming tonight, to him his dream was vaguely familiar, he just couldn't place his finger on where he had heard this, and what it could possibly mean. ".. at the Solstice will come a new..." ```````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` ````````````````````````````
Well, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I know there was no action in this chapter, but I promise there is more coming. You will also find out why a few more things have taken place in the next chapter or two. I don't know which chapter yet though. I hope the last bit wasn't too corny, but I wanted to add a little foreshadowing of what is to come. I hope the people that requested more Tonks liked her part. I haven't been able to write much with her character seeing as he is in school, but there you go.
I also greatly enjoyed all of your reviews on chapter ten. Sorry, I am not going to push Sarah off of a bridge, but believe me when I say she does not play a big role in this story. I just made her up on a whim one day and threw her into the story after I read one day that Rowling was not planning on pairing Harry with either Hermione or Ginny. I'm a little bummed out about that. I personally thought Hermione would have been great for Harry. You know it almost seemed like James and Lily all over again, and when she ended book four with Hermione kissing him on the cheek I thought well there you go. Apparently that was a feign tactic to throw us off that much more. Oh, well her stories still rock, and I will just have to wait to see whom she pairs him up with so I don't have to guess. Until next Saturday, have fun.
Harry could not believe what he was hearing. Why would Dumbeldore want me in his order now after he very animatedly stated that I was not ready for his order? It just doesn't make sense, thought Harry.
"Why are you allowing me to join now when you turned me down not so long ago?" Asked Harry.
"Humph," sniffed Snape in a disapproving manner.
"Harry it seems that I have made a terrible mistake in not allowing you into the order when you asked. I only hope you can except my sincerest apology and join the order where you rightfully belong," said Dumbeldore.
This doesn't make since, why are they doing this now, thought Harry?
"Honestly Potter, how long does it take for a simple yes? We all know you have been dying to get into the order," drawled Snape.
"But why are you asking me to join now professor, I don't understand?" said Harry.
"Harry some things have been brought to my attention that concerns me," said Dumbeldore.
"What is it," said Harry.
"For heavens sakes Potter we have not got all day to explain such trivial matters to you. Just except our offer so we don't have to worry about you going off and start--, Snape begin to say.
"SEVERUS!" Yelled Mrs. Weasley.
Harry now understood why Dumbeldore wanted him to join his order. He wants me to join so he can keep me in the dark like he always has, thought Harry.
"I'm sorry professor, I can not except your invitation," said Harry.
"Harry, I thought this is what you wanted? Don't listen to that weasel Harry, please," said Tonks.
"It. It was what I wanted then Tonks, but th-things have changed that I can not turn away from," said Harry.
"Harry, please understand that it was a mistake on our part. We truly want you to join us, it just took us some time to realize it," said McGonagall.
"No, I believe you all witnessed something that changed your minds for you," said Harry.
"I understand that you feel hurt and betrayed by us Harry, but please understand that we were only doing what we thought was best," said Dumbeldore.
"Professor, I. I think it is time that I take control of what goes on in my own life, and relieve you and everyone else of that burden," said Harry.
At this point Dumbeldore truly looked like he had been defeated. "I am sorry Harry," said Dumbeldore.
"Don't be professor," said Harry.
"Potter," snarled Snape. "You ungrateful boy, do you honestly think I wanted you in this order? No, I detested the idea, but I was out voted, and then you go and turn us down. You think just because you are Harry Potter we are supposed to do what ever you ask. You are just like your father when it comes to decision making. Albus warned him against using Black for his secrete keeper, but James insisted on using him over Albus, and that mistake killed himself and Lily," said Snape.
"Severus, hold your tongue," snapped McGonagall for she knew exactly how Harry reacted when his parents where spoken about poorly.
Pure repressed anger began radiating from deep inside Harry that he could no longer keep under control.
"SHUT UP!" "DON'T EVER SPEAK MY PARENTS NAMES AGAIN!" Harry roared.
"MY FATHER. MY FATHER WAS TWICE THE MAN YOU WILL EVER BE. HE DIED TO PROTECT ME FROM HIM. HE. HE DIED BECAUSE OF ME AND THAT DAMN PROPHECY!" Raged Harry throwing caution to the wind.
"MY MOTHER!" A tear slowly slid down Harry's face as he mentioned his mother. "SIRI.!" "JUST SHUT UP!" bellowed Harry.
"YOU ARE THE LAST PERSON THAT SHOULD LIVE HIS LIFE IN THE PAST YOU-YOU!" Harry said.
"SAY IT POTTER!" Snarled Snape.
"ENOUGH!" Said Dumbeldore, which efficiently ended both of the men's raving.
"I-I am sorry professor, Tonks, Remus, Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, I'm sorry," said Harry and he quietly left the headmasters office.
"Severus that was completely unforgivable, you actions tonight have been heartless and not befitting of a Hogwarts Professor," said McGonagall as she also had tears threatening to spill over as well. Molly on the other hand could not keep her tears from falling and was now being consoled by her husband.
"UNFORGIVABLE, YOU HAVE PUSHED HARRY FURTHER INTO THE HANDS OF VOLDEMORT!" Screamed Lupin catching the room off guard by his uncharacteristic outburst.
"Don't talk to me in that manner Lupin, I did what the headmaster should have done. That boy gets away with everything and we are just supposed to set back and watch it. Potter is being foolish as always, and he is now leading our students, his so called friends into battle where their outcome will be death, and yet we do nothing." said Severus. "What I still do not comprehend is how Potter hoodwinked all of them to follow him into battle against the most feared man in the world?" Continued Snape.
"Severus sit down," said Dumbeldore in a voice that left no room for argument. After Severus had sitting down, Dumbeldore began to speak to his order.
"You want to know why students and younger generation witches and wizards flock towards Harry, well then I will tell you all," said Dumbeldore. "Why did all of you in this room tonight come to me to join my order and risk your lives to stop Voldemort?" Asked Dumbeldore.
"Because Albus, you have faced so much and come out of each situation victorious," said Arthur Weasley.
"Ah that is my point exactly Arthur. All of you hear tonight joined my order and follow my lead because of what I have been through. That is precisely the reason why Harry has such a large following in his group. The older witches and wizard come to me to fight Voldemort because they all know what I have done and whom I have defeated. Harry has a large following of younger witches and wizards because of what he has done and whom he has faced and walked away from so many times in his young age. They have placed their faith in him just as you all have placed your faith in me," said Dumbeldore.
"But Albus he is taking his followers into dangerous battle where they may die. This is not their fight, I love that boy as if he was my own son, but I fear he is not thinking clearly. I had hoped after he joined we could keep certain things away from him like we had originally been doing," said Mrs. Weasley.
"You see Molly, that is where we are wrong. Who are we to say who can fight against Voldemort and who cannot?" Said Dumbeldore. "Harry is not forcing any of them that is in his group to fight against Voldemort with him. They have all chosen that path on their own. Harry's friends will gladly lay down their lives for him as Harry has almost done so many times before for everyone in this school," said Dumbeldore.
Harry was now lost deep in thought as he made his way back to the Gryffindor Tower. "Password!" "Huh, oh Padfoot," said Harry. "Correct, you may enter dear, and might I add that you should head straight to bed. You look half asleep now dear," said the painting of the fat lady. "I believe I just may do that," said Harry as he walked through the door.
"Harry, mate what took so long?" asked Ron.
"Oh, you didn't get in trouble for something did you Harry?" Asked Sarah.
"Don't be silly Sarah, Harry couldn't have gotten in trouble because he hasn't done anything," said Hermione.
"No, I'm not in trouble," Harry said while he debated on whether or not to tell them that Dumbeldore tried to recruit him for his order.
"Harry, what's the matter. I can tell there is something on your mind," said Sarah while Hermione looked at her friend in concern.
"They called me up there because they wanted me to join their order, but it's not like you think. They wanted me in their order so they could keep me in the dark like they have been doing basically my whole life. Dumbeldore and his order think that I am acting irrational and that we are getting in the way," said Harry all in one breath.
"Bloody stinking Hell we are in the Bloody Freaken way," said Ron causing several people in the common room to look over at him for his out burst.
"Shush Ron, you are making a seen," said Hermione.
"It's just like the grown ups to rant and rave that we are getting in the way, when a simple thank you would have been sufficient," said Ron as he was teetering on the edge of his seat.
"Harry what did you say to them?" Asked Hermione.
"I told them that I had things I could not turn my back on, and that I could not join their order. I also told Dumbeldore that I thought it was time I took control of what went on in my life," said Harry.
"Well good for you," said Sarah. "But you don't look to happy Harry. Did something else happen?" Asked Sarah.
"No, its just that I am afraid that Tonks, Remus, and Mr. and Mrs. Weasley will look differently towards me now after I turned them down. I don't want to lose them," said Harry.
"Mate, I don't think Tonks or Remus are going any where. I mean for peat's sake, Tonks sends you a letter every week making sure you are okay, and Remus practically acts like an uncle to you already. Trust me on this they are not going anywhere, and my parents love you. You are just short of being dubbed a Weasley as it is. Fred and George have been petitioning it all over the house since they left school last year and Percy sent them a letter of disapproval. Things have gotten somewhat better between Percy and my parents, but I don't think things will ever be the same," said Ron.
"Harry don't worry, Ron's rite. Just because you turned them down does not mean they are going to abandon you. It just doesn't work that way. When someone loves another person they love them even if they make a mistake. The Weasley's don't hate Percy, they are just disappointed, but they will get over it. You don't even know if Tonks, Remus, and the rest are even upset at your refusal, and if they are you will always have us and your order to fall back on," said Hermione.
"Yeah, we will always be here for you Harry," said Sarah as she and Hermione looked over at the clueless Ron for his input.
"Whaaat, Oh! Same here mate, I shouldn't even need to say that. You and I are already brothers even if you haven't officially been dubbed a Weasley.
"Thanks again you guys," said Harry.
"No need to thank us," said Ron, just throw a chocolate frog my way from time to time and will call it even," said Ron.
"RON!" both girls screamed at him.
A small cough came from behind them causing all of them to turn around to see who was the source of the noise.
"Tonks, what are you doing here?" Asked Harry.
"Wotcher Harry!" Said Tonks quietly and a small smile. "Uh, I was wondering if I could speak to you alone if that would be alright?" she asked.
"We were just heading to bed Tonks, so we will leave you alone," said Hermione as she and Sarah both tugged Ron up from his chair before he could resay what he had said earlier to someone from Dumbeldore's order.
"Thank you," said Tonks.
As the three left Tonks came around and sat by Harry with her hands in her lap, waiting for Harry to look up at her. However, Harry could not bring himself to look Tonks in the face, and feared what she had come to say. He also noticed that Remus wasn't with him so his suspicions where already being confirmed in his mind.
"I'm sorry, I don't want you guys to hate me, its just you guys didn't leave me with many options," said Harry in a small voice where he had yet to look up at Tonks. "Is that why Remus didn't come with you?" Asked Harry.
"What! No, No Harry, we don't hate you, and that is not the reason I am here. Remus is also not here because I persuaded him to let me handle this," said Tonks as she began smiling. In her mind she feared Harry resented her and Remus for not warning Harry on what Dumbeldore's order where trying to persuade him into.
"You don't? Well then why are you here?" asked Harry.
"Because I wanted to check and see if you were okay. That was some row that took place between you and Snape. Rows like that can take their tow on the toughest of people," said Tonks.
"Oh," Harry said finally looking up to see Tonks smiling at him. "Well in that case I wish I had said more to him, but I couldn't get everything I wanted to say out," said Harry.
"Well you certainly have my admiration, you even inspired Remus to do a little bit of ranting himself which was good fun. I'll see if I can't get him to do some more again while you are with us," said Tonks.
Harry couldn't help but laugh at this. He was just so relieved that the order didn't hate him for his refusal that he couldn't help but relax a bit. Even though he resented them for what they tried to do, he still had a strong amount of love for Professor McGonagall, Dumbeldore, Moody, and the rest.
"Come here Harry," Tonks said pulling him into a strong hug. "You look like you could fall asleep any moment," she said. Harry couldn't help but relax into her embrace and let her rub her fingernails up and down his back. "You know even though you have your own order now, we will still always be there for you, and that you don't have to run headstrong into ever battle without us," said Tonks as she continued to rub Harry's back.
"I know, but that should go both ways," said Harry.
"Well, I don't know if I will be able to persuade the others, but you have a deal with me," said Tonks.
"Harry let out an indignant grunt as he felt himself falling to sleep, so technically that is a no then," said Harry.
"Hold on there Harry, I didn't say that, it's just they don't exactly share the same views Remus, Moody, and I do along with old Mundungus and Shackelbolt," said Tonks.
"Well I guess that's good enough. I'll see if I can persuade my order to as well. I'm pretty sure I can persuade mine after yours have been persuaded," mumbled Harry as he was desperately trying to fight off sleep. He wanted to sit up and talk to Tonks and not fall asleep against her. He had found it quite embarrassing when he had woken up that morning asleep on Sarah's lap with Parvati, Lavender, Alicia, and Katie all smiling at him as if he was some sort of baby. However, he believed Tonks was doing this on purpose because she and Mrs. Weasley had both been writing to him about not getting a proper amount of sleep as he had accidentally put it in one of his letters that he had not slept well one night.
"Tonks," Harry mumbled.
"Huh," she said as she continued to rub his back in small circles.
"Thank you for coming and talking to me. Will you tell Remus that I will write to him soon?" asked Harry.
"Of course sweetie," said Tonks.
"Hhmkay," sighed Harry. "Well I better get to my bed. I'm sure you don't want a dead weight laying against you all night," said Harry
"Your fine Harry," Tonks said as she could feel him drifting off to sleep. "I have to leave in a little while anyway, so just rest now and I'll cover you up on the couch before I leave," said Tonks. She didn't want to tell him, but she wanted him to fall asleep against her. She had rather enjoyed holding him that night at Grimmauld Place while he slept, and she and Mrs. Weasley were worried that he wasn't sleeping enough as it was. She thought it was funny how there relationship together was now. It was funny and sad all at the same time. She looked at him now as a little brother who had the rottenest luck imaginable, and he looked at her as a happy go lucky older sister who just had a soft spot for him. She also felt a deep sadness towards Harry and Remus's new relationship. Remus was trying to feel the void of James and Sirius's premature departure even though he new he would never be able to fill both of those men's shoes, but Harry appreciated it all the same. With one last shift of his weight Harry lay asleep against Tonks. She couldn't help but laugh to herself as she saw Harry lying asleep against her. It had been quite an amusing few letters Harry had sent to her and Remus after Sarah had evidently caught him in one of his sleepy moods too. She could see why all of the girls thought he looked cute when the found him asleep that morning against Sarah. For Harry during the day was quite handsome, but it was hard to not notice the way his body and eyes carried many burdens and sadnesses. However, when he slept he looked peaceful, at least that night he did. ```````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` ````````````````````````````````
Harry's dream was not like his usual dreams that night. He did not fear what he was dreaming tonight, to him his dream was vaguely familiar, he just couldn't place his finger on where he had heard this, and what it could possibly mean. ".. at the Solstice will come a new..." ```````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` ````````````````````````````
Well, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I know there was no action in this chapter, but I promise there is more coming. You will also find out why a few more things have taken place in the next chapter or two. I don't know which chapter yet though. I hope the last bit wasn't too corny, but I wanted to add a little foreshadowing of what is to come. I hope the people that requested more Tonks liked her part. I haven't been able to write much with her character seeing as he is in school, but there you go.
I also greatly enjoyed all of your reviews on chapter ten. Sorry, I am not going to push Sarah off of a bridge, but believe me when I say she does not play a big role in this story. I just made her up on a whim one day and threw her into the story after I read one day that Rowling was not planning on pairing Harry with either Hermione or Ginny. I'm a little bummed out about that. I personally thought Hermione would have been great for Harry. You know it almost seemed like James and Lily all over again, and when she ended book four with Hermione kissing him on the cheek I thought well there you go. Apparently that was a feign tactic to throw us off that much more. Oh, well her stories still rock, and I will just have to wait to see whom she pairs him up with so I don't have to guess. Until next Saturday, have fun.