Another Night, Another Tree and More Thoughts
Back again huh? We, well I guess to be honest, I saw Kikyou today. Hell, I never plan to run into her. Just sometimes I turn a corner and there she is. Yea, I know it upsets Kagome. She thinks I can't meet her eyes afterwards because she looks like Kikyou. Hello, I've got this thing on my face called a nose, and it works better than a pathetic human one. I mean I know the difference. Kikyou's scent is almost the same as it was. Herbs, dirt, and the scent of the first cool autumn breeze, but, it is missing something. Kagome's scent is cherry blossoms, wildflowers and the scent of the first warm breath of spring, with the subtle tinges of her emotions. Yea, you say they don't have a scent. They do.
I've read Kagome's books and know that it's possible. Something about hormones and such. Yes, the stupid, arrogant jerk can read. Damn, my Hahaoya was a princess and my Chichioya was a demon lord. You think they would have an illiterate for a son? Feh. Besides what else is there to do at night? Miroku, Sango, Kagome and Shippo all curl up and go to sleep. I don't sleep much. So after everyone is asleep I hop down and pick one of Kagome's books and read it. I like the history, and literature the best. Can't stand the math or English and that's what she's brought with her this time.
Anyway back to the Kagome/Kikyou thing. Kikyou is missing that one thing Kagome has. Well actually Kikyou is missing two things that Kagome has. One she never had and the other Naraku took from her. The tinges of her emotions in her scent, but then Kikyou always was cold to Kagome's warmth. I sometimes wonder how the same soul can be so different.
I know what Kagome wants from me. To be more than friends, it's in her scent. That tempting musky scent of her arousal. Kami, it makes me hard just thinking about it. I'll never act on it. Not that I don't want too, but it's not fair to her. Oh right, sure I can hear it. 'Sure Kagome, I'll be your mate. You do realize that once we defeat Naraku I'm going to go to hell with Kikyou.' What kind of mate would I be, huh? So I sit up in a tree and curse Urasue.
Curse Kikyou? Are you nuts!?! Everything that ever happened to her wasn't her fault. Damn exterminator's gave her the jewel to guard and purify. Naraku killed her. Urasue brought her back to life. So I owe her. Even if it wasn't me, Naraku took my form and killed her. So I'll go to hell with her, like she wants.
I loved her once. Then I was pinned to the tree for fifty years. Now I'm nuts about a girl who walks around in a way to short kimono and has the most gorgeous blue eyes. So what if they share a soul. The only thing I hate are her tears. They tear me apart, and I cause most of them.
Sometimes I wonder if Urasue hadn't brought Kikyou back, what would happen between Kagome and me. I mean I only own three things. The Tetsusaiga, my fire rat Kimono and my honor. That's it. That is all that I can truly call mine. I don't think that would be enough for her Ofukuro. I know if I had a daughter I'd want more for her. Yea, I think about things like that. I would have loved to have a family, but as I said before no one wants a filthy hanyou, like me, in the family.
I'll eventually tell you who he's talking to.