Thoughts of A Hanyou
Other Men

Damn monk. Thinks he's so fuckin' smart. He's made it his personal mission to torment the hell out of me since the first day we met. He thinks I've forgotten. Hah! Steal the jewel shards, kidnap Kagome, sic that tanuki on me and try to suck me into that wind tunnel of his. Then he has the nerve to ask her, in front of me no less, to bear his children. Or what about all the times he's peeked on their baths. At least Sango has a bathing towel on, unlike Kagome. He thinks I'm angry because I get just as banged up as he does. I catch him near Kag... I mean the girls while their bathing again.... The mere thought of him watching her bathe makes my blood boil.

No, dammit, I'm not jealous. It's just I'm suppose to protect her. That means from men like Miroku who think on nothing past a single night. Hell, I've lost count of the girls in villages we've passed through that have fallen for his stupid lines. He doesn't care about them. Hell before he'll go off with one of them, he always ask me if there is a chance of the girl getting pregnant. Every time I've said yes, he's turned the girl down. So much for the bear my child shit. Hell the two of us have done that so often he doesn't ask me any more, he just indicates the girl with a nod of his head, I sniff and nod or storm off. Guess which means which. We've talked about it when we go to take our baths, he only wants one girl to bear his children. She'd be surprised how many times he whispers her name in his sleep.

What about Kouga? All his my woman shit. Kagome doesn't realise how dangerous he is. I mean he's a wolf. A human eating wolf. He'd eat her... wait that doesn't sound right. He'd devour... no... well she would be dinner. If not him one of his pack. He kidnapped her. I challenged him. Ya know Youkai to Youkai... he accepted, injured and everything. I wouldn't have fought him if he'd stayed down. Hell, there is no honor in defeating a defeated foe. But he stood up accepting my challenge. Then she sits me. In front of the hold fuckin' wolf pack.

"Inu Yasha, Osuwari" Kami I hate that phrase, word, these beads around my neck. But, they keep her safe, from me, and I've gotten to where I'm use to their weight. Maybe it's silly but it's a connection with her. Something that is ours alone. Painful but ours.

I found a new book in her pack last night. It is just a book with words in it all listed in order. It's called a dictionary. I'm really enjoying it too. I mean I'm beginning to understand some of what she says better now. It's not as interesting as the Asian literature book, but I think I'll be better able to understand the rest of the books. I hate when she says something and I don't understand. I feel stupid. I hate being lacking in any way in her eyes.