Passion's Flame: Faith
By Siren Silver
AN: Longer! Better! Now Absent of bad descriptions! Siren Silver Here, just rewriting my story. Making it better. I do hope to put all of these up at once with a new chapter. If not, oh well. I didn't like the fact that I made Rei cry all the time and Heero got little to no screen time and Minako seemed like a slut...(the only character I really did like was Wufei) so I'm rewriting it to make it well...smoother should I say? The story is now based on the manga instead of the anime, Though Yuuichiro will make appearances.
Ages:
Rei, Makoto: 16
Usagi, Minako, Ami: 15
Heero, Wufei: 16
Duo, Quatre: 15
Trowa, Outers: 17
~*~
They call it faith
When you dream
When you believe
That everything comes true
Wishes, dreams, possiblities
Everything comes true
Happy Endings are normal
Miracles ordinary
Nothing exists to hurt you
But then that faith is shaken
Broken, obliterated
All with a few simple words
Words that bring you back to reality
Back to the awful world of tangibles
Those simple words...
" I don't love you"
~*~
~*~
Cold eyes glinted with indifference, a mask Hino Rei was all too familiar with. The only thing that worried her, as it often did, was the fact that she began to trust this young man, almost immediately. She couldn't help but feel a little scared as her own words came back to haunt her.
You can't have faith in anyone.
Why did she so desperately want his faith, when she knew from experience that men couldn't be trusted. Hadn't her father proved that? Hadn't Kaidou proved that? So why was she so willing, even desperate for this one guy to love her?
" Rei-san..."
Rei-san? Rei-san? Where did that come from; he had always called her Rei-chan. My Rei-chan, always My Rei-chan. A wave of uneasiness pulsed through her. Rei felt her hands grow moist with a clamminess that surprised her. She was never scared, never worried over men. But all that changed when she looked into his guilty blue eyes. Two large and strong hands gripped into hard fists. Rei felt shiver of fright run down her spine as she watched him pull the cold mask on. He was going to... he wouldn't! She had begun to trust him, to love him, like she assumed he did her. One hand went into the pocket of his black denim jeans. His messy brown hair covered a stony face. Hard lips were pursed in a grim line. Rei, unnerved, smiled weakly and looked up into his dark eyes.
" Whats with the long face, Heero? She asked, putting false gaiety into her voice. She had always called him Heero, or Yuy, never with a suffix. First he infuriated her, then he ignited her, so she never had the time nor inclination to call him "Yuy-san" or " Heero-kun". It went from hate to passion very quickly, giving Rei hardly enough time to give him a pet name. Besides, secretly, Rei felt pet names were kind of corny. So she had resorted to Heero. She said his name just a bit too cheerfully, making
" Rei-san...I..." Damn! Heero had never been particularly articulate. Eloquence wasn't in his nature. How could he tell her? This isn't working, I can't let this go on, I don't love you... What could he say? How could he break her heart, when it was his fault that he let her fall in love? How could he break her heart when all he wanted was to be with her? But passion like hers never lasted. It always faded just when it burned brightest. Besides she was damn near royalty in Tokyo. How could a nice, bright politician's daughter love him? He was low class, an average person with an average heritage. Not a single drop of blue-blood. She could never truly love him-
" Heero? Why are you calling me Rei-san? Did I do something to make you mad again?" Rei asked carefully. She was always doing something to make him mad, to the point of rage. He'd yell at her, but most times she would just tell him off. But lately she was trying to impress him. She couldn't tell if it was working anymore.
" No..."
" You always call me Rei-chan. I must have done something..." She mumbled weakly, mostly to herself.
'Heero, you're going to do it, aren't you? Must everyone prove my words right? Prove me wrong, tell me the words I want to here, not the ones I know are coming. I want to have faith in you. Prove to me that my faith isn't misplaced!' Rei thought, feeling stricken. Her eyes grew wide with doubt, shock, and horror. She took one more look at his Prussian eyes, searching for a sign of hope. Her mouth fell open when she realized there was none.
" Heero, I.."
" Rei-san, I have to tell you something."
" No Heero."
" I.."
" I don't want to hear it!"
"..don't.."
" Don't prove me right, Heero! Don't you dare!"
Heero, feeling both frustrated at Rei's words and guilty for her feelings, grabbed both of her shoulders and stared into her eyes. Rei could feel the burning she didn't want. The tears were going to come. Rei wouldn't let them, she'd let them burn her eye out before she let a single one fall. Deep Prussian blue battled with dark violet.
"I don't love you! I don't want you. And I won't let you cling to me anymore." Heero spat out, his voice mocking and hurtful. He then let his hands fall. He felt warm tears on his hands. Rei's? Rei never cried for anything, or anybody. He looked at her, but Rei's eyes had gone hard. Gone was the pleading, the silent emotions. Pulled over was the mask of indifference he had first saw on her. Her lip was trembling slightly, the only give to her pain.
" Cling to you? Why in the world would I do that! Men are nothing but low life scum, bastards who rip out your heart then show it to you. How I had wished you wouldn't prove me right. But I was right. You can't have faith in anyone." Rei said in disgust. How could she have let her guard down? Didn't she learn the first time?
" Rei that's not true. I just don't feel like leading you on anymore! I don't love you. You're a strong woman, get over it." He said spitefully, the jab about faith hurting.
" Tell me why! Was I just a passing fling? A bit of fun?" Rei ground out, her fists gripping his dark blue tank. The warm tears continued to flow, though her expression was set.
" Yes, a bit of fun. I thought you understood. I told you once that I couldn't love anyone. Anyone includes you." Heero glared at her coldly, taking her hands off of his chest and pushing them away. He turned to leave, the sunlight rippling on his body. Rei watched as he left, feeling inadequate, small, foolish... He always had the power to make her feel undesirable. Lifting slender hands up, Rei wiped her foolish tears away, and brushed them on her black mini skirt.
" Heero, just a bit of fun? Do I really mean that little to you? Did you ever even like me?"
~*~
" Moshi Moshi?" A tired voice asked. Makoto Kino put the cordless to her head, still half asleep and supposed to be working on a history project. Her emerald eyes were have closed, and her long curly auburn surrounded her sleepy face.
" Hey Mako-chan."
" Maxwell! You are late! Projects are meant to be worked on together! I've been busting my ass for three hours now. Where have you been?"
Duo Maxwell laughed. It was so easy to rile Kino.
" Where are you!?" Kino asked, her voice on the verge of screaming.
" Right outside your door."
Makoto got off of her bed and rushed to the front room, opening the front door. Her chest heaving, and her eyes narrowed with rage, she watched as Duo Maxwell's indigo eyes opened in surprise.
" How often do you open the door in your pajamas?"
Makoto blushed.
~*~
Heero sat on a park bench, hardly believing what he said to Rei. He didn't love her? Yeah right. The fact was, he loved her too much. He couldn't date Tokyo's golden girl. Blue eyes were troubled, and guilt washed over him. The pain in her eyes, how could he have known she loved him so much? He couldn't possibly have known. Yeah right, he knew. He reveled in it for a while. Until he figured out that she was the daughter of Akira Hino (anyone know her father's real name?). The truth was, he never had good luck with girls. The biggest fact was that he was afraid of not measuring up in her father's eyes, of being too low class. It had already happened to him more than once.
It still hurt to think of her. She had honey blonde hair and bewitching blue eyes. Her skin was fair, and she had a great smile. Everything about her was bright. He had fallen in love unwillingly. But it happened. She was also a politician's daughter. Her name was Relena. Relena Peacecraft. He had been so sure she loved him. They went to dinner, went to the movies. They had a whirlwind relationship. But one day, it all came crashing down. He remembered it so clearly. The vanilla scent of her, the way her eyes refused to meet his. She had shown up on his door step, looking grim. Heero was surprised, she always seemed so happy and polite. His blue eyes widened when she told him she couldn't do it anymore. He asked what she meant, and she told him it was over.
" I'm a Peacecraft. You're just Yuy. It wouldn't work."
He remembered the feeling of inadequacy and the shame of being just low class. The bitch. He could never remember Relena fondly. She was always subtly reminding him of why he detested the upperclass. When he met Rei, she had infuriated him by running into him and then trying to run away.
[flash back]
" Itai!"
Rei hit the pewter sidewalk with a thud, her hair flailing about her as she fell. Sitting on the ground, she realized that in her rush to get home, she failed to notice the person in front of her. Rei's eyes scanned up, slowly studying the body and form of the clearly male youth in front of her. The youth offered her his hand, looking down at the young girl with cool amusement. Rei slipped her slim hand into his, and he lifted her quite easily up. The young brunette was quite embarrassed, and bowed slightly, before moving to leave. How ever, the youth in front of her grabbed her arm suddenly and pulled Rei towards him.
" It's not nice to leave with out introducing yourself." The steely edged voice quipped, a faint note of annoyance threading his tone. Rei smiled weakly, for she already knew whom this person was. He was Heero Yuy, the most infamous recluse at school.
" I am Hino Rei-san, miko of Hiwaka Jinja. It's nice to meet you."
" I am Yuy Heero." With that, he let her go, and just stalked off down the street, avoiding the eyes of passers by.
[end]
Rei had been so different from Relena. She was mannered and elegant just like Relena had been, but unlike Relena, she hadn't been haughty or snobby. She hadn't said she was a Hino like the name made her a queen. She didn't even tell him she was the daughter of a Democratic Liberal party member. She just said she was a priestess, a shrine maiden. She was dark, where Relena had been very fair. Humble, sort of, where Relena had been snobbish. It crushed him when he learned that Rei was a politician's daughter too. But he couldn't break it so soon. He waited and waited and pushed it off. But each time Heero saw Rei, he was convinced she'd become haughty, judgemental. So he broke it off before she could break him, like she most probably would.
" Rei, I miss you already..."
~*~
Wufei hated his father at this moment in time. He didn't want to go to Japan with some stupid family he never knew. Learn the culture? What if he didn't want to be an ambassador? He didn't really. He wanted to be a writer. Why, if he wasn't in the gym honing his fighting skills, then he was in the library reading books. Angrily pulling on his silk shirt, Wufei put his glasses on with the other hand. Then he grabbed his suitcase, and a few well read books.
" I really don't want to go to Japan of all places. I was raised here for heaven's sake. I may be half Japanese, but I sure as hell don't feel it." Wufeitered angrily, walking out of his bedroom door. He had to leave for the air port in ten minutes. He spent one of those minutes just staring at his room. He was going to miss this room, this house. He had to live in a stupid Shinto shrine of all places. He didn't even understand the religion. He only knew formal Japanese, the kind they taught at school, not the local dialect. He was going to seem either stuck up, or really stupid.
" Ahh Damn it to hell!"
~*~
Minako's worried eyes glanced at her mirror. Heero had broken up with Rei, but how could he? She remembered the shouting, the pain, the tears flowing from Rei's eyes. She had watched them from a distance, wondering what the fighting was about. She had gotten closer and gotten a earful of what was going on.
How could he do that to her? It was obvious to Minako that Heero adored Rei, even if he wasn't the most affectionate of people. He had only four male friends, and three really close friends. Minako felt a tear slide down her cheek. She had always been emotional. Any sort of romantic problems got to her. The kicker was, Minako had harbored a huge crush on Heero since before Rei even went out with her. But they got together first, and Minako had set her feelings aside. Rei was not real friendly with men, and the fact she opened up to Heero of all people was a shocker alone. Rei didn't really like men, the exception being Mamoru and her grandfather. Yuuichiro she tolerated, but she was pretty indifferent to him. Minako remembered Rei telling her about a man named Kaidou, who she had trusted, and had burned her love.
" Oh Rei, you let him get away with hurting you?"
~*~
So, what does everyone think? Thank you Miayaka-chan and Firako-chan, I do indeed thank you for your help! Please review, it's like heroine for
authors!
By Siren Silver
AN: Longer! Better! Now Absent of bad descriptions! Siren Silver Here, just rewriting my story. Making it better. I do hope to put all of these up at once with a new chapter. If not, oh well. I didn't like the fact that I made Rei cry all the time and Heero got little to no screen time and Minako seemed like a slut...(the only character I really did like was Wufei) so I'm rewriting it to make it well...smoother should I say? The story is now based on the manga instead of the anime, Though Yuuichiro will make appearances.
Ages:
Rei, Makoto: 16
Usagi, Minako, Ami: 15
Heero, Wufei: 16
Duo, Quatre: 15
Trowa, Outers: 17
~*~
They call it faith
When you dream
When you believe
That everything comes true
Wishes, dreams, possiblities
Everything comes true
Happy Endings are normal
Miracles ordinary
Nothing exists to hurt you
But then that faith is shaken
Broken, obliterated
All with a few simple words
Words that bring you back to reality
Back to the awful world of tangibles
Those simple words...
" I don't love you"
~*~
~*~
Cold eyes glinted with indifference, a mask Hino Rei was all too familiar with. The only thing that worried her, as it often did, was the fact that she began to trust this young man, almost immediately. She couldn't help but feel a little scared as her own words came back to haunt her.
You can't have faith in anyone.
Why did she so desperately want his faith, when she knew from experience that men couldn't be trusted. Hadn't her father proved that? Hadn't Kaidou proved that? So why was she so willing, even desperate for this one guy to love her?
" Rei-san..."
Rei-san? Rei-san? Where did that come from; he had always called her Rei-chan. My Rei-chan, always My Rei-chan. A wave of uneasiness pulsed through her. Rei felt her hands grow moist with a clamminess that surprised her. She was never scared, never worried over men. But all that changed when she looked into his guilty blue eyes. Two large and strong hands gripped into hard fists. Rei felt shiver of fright run down her spine as she watched him pull the cold mask on. He was going to... he wouldn't! She had begun to trust him, to love him, like she assumed he did her. One hand went into the pocket of his black denim jeans. His messy brown hair covered a stony face. Hard lips were pursed in a grim line. Rei, unnerved, smiled weakly and looked up into his dark eyes.
" Whats with the long face, Heero? She asked, putting false gaiety into her voice. She had always called him Heero, or Yuy, never with a suffix. First he infuriated her, then he ignited her, so she never had the time nor inclination to call him "Yuy-san" or " Heero-kun". It went from hate to passion very quickly, giving Rei hardly enough time to give him a pet name. Besides, secretly, Rei felt pet names were kind of corny. So she had resorted to Heero. She said his name just a bit too cheerfully, making
" Rei-san...I..." Damn! Heero had never been particularly articulate. Eloquence wasn't in his nature. How could he tell her? This isn't working, I can't let this go on, I don't love you... What could he say? How could he break her heart, when it was his fault that he let her fall in love? How could he break her heart when all he wanted was to be with her? But passion like hers never lasted. It always faded just when it burned brightest. Besides she was damn near royalty in Tokyo. How could a nice, bright politician's daughter love him? He was low class, an average person with an average heritage. Not a single drop of blue-blood. She could never truly love him-
" Heero? Why are you calling me Rei-san? Did I do something to make you mad again?" Rei asked carefully. She was always doing something to make him mad, to the point of rage. He'd yell at her, but most times she would just tell him off. But lately she was trying to impress him. She couldn't tell if it was working anymore.
" No..."
" You always call me Rei-chan. I must have done something..." She mumbled weakly, mostly to herself.
'Heero, you're going to do it, aren't you? Must everyone prove my words right? Prove me wrong, tell me the words I want to here, not the ones I know are coming. I want to have faith in you. Prove to me that my faith isn't misplaced!' Rei thought, feeling stricken. Her eyes grew wide with doubt, shock, and horror. She took one more look at his Prussian eyes, searching for a sign of hope. Her mouth fell open when she realized there was none.
" Heero, I.."
" Rei-san, I have to tell you something."
" No Heero."
" I.."
" I don't want to hear it!"
"..don't.."
" Don't prove me right, Heero! Don't you dare!"
Heero, feeling both frustrated at Rei's words and guilty for her feelings, grabbed both of her shoulders and stared into her eyes. Rei could feel the burning she didn't want. The tears were going to come. Rei wouldn't let them, she'd let them burn her eye out before she let a single one fall. Deep Prussian blue battled with dark violet.
"I don't love you! I don't want you. And I won't let you cling to me anymore." Heero spat out, his voice mocking and hurtful. He then let his hands fall. He felt warm tears on his hands. Rei's? Rei never cried for anything, or anybody. He looked at her, but Rei's eyes had gone hard. Gone was the pleading, the silent emotions. Pulled over was the mask of indifference he had first saw on her. Her lip was trembling slightly, the only give to her pain.
" Cling to you? Why in the world would I do that! Men are nothing but low life scum, bastards who rip out your heart then show it to you. How I had wished you wouldn't prove me right. But I was right. You can't have faith in anyone." Rei said in disgust. How could she have let her guard down? Didn't she learn the first time?
" Rei that's not true. I just don't feel like leading you on anymore! I don't love you. You're a strong woman, get over it." He said spitefully, the jab about faith hurting.
" Tell me why! Was I just a passing fling? A bit of fun?" Rei ground out, her fists gripping his dark blue tank. The warm tears continued to flow, though her expression was set.
" Yes, a bit of fun. I thought you understood. I told you once that I couldn't love anyone. Anyone includes you." Heero glared at her coldly, taking her hands off of his chest and pushing them away. He turned to leave, the sunlight rippling on his body. Rei watched as he left, feeling inadequate, small, foolish... He always had the power to make her feel undesirable. Lifting slender hands up, Rei wiped her foolish tears away, and brushed them on her black mini skirt.
" Heero, just a bit of fun? Do I really mean that little to you? Did you ever even like me?"
~*~
" Moshi Moshi?" A tired voice asked. Makoto Kino put the cordless to her head, still half asleep and supposed to be working on a history project. Her emerald eyes were have closed, and her long curly auburn surrounded her sleepy face.
" Hey Mako-chan."
" Maxwell! You are late! Projects are meant to be worked on together! I've been busting my ass for three hours now. Where have you been?"
Duo Maxwell laughed. It was so easy to rile Kino.
" Where are you!?" Kino asked, her voice on the verge of screaming.
" Right outside your door."
Makoto got off of her bed and rushed to the front room, opening the front door. Her chest heaving, and her eyes narrowed with rage, she watched as Duo Maxwell's indigo eyes opened in surprise.
" How often do you open the door in your pajamas?"
Makoto blushed.
~*~
Heero sat on a park bench, hardly believing what he said to Rei. He didn't love her? Yeah right. The fact was, he loved her too much. He couldn't date Tokyo's golden girl. Blue eyes were troubled, and guilt washed over him. The pain in her eyes, how could he have known she loved him so much? He couldn't possibly have known. Yeah right, he knew. He reveled in it for a while. Until he figured out that she was the daughter of Akira Hino (anyone know her father's real name?). The truth was, he never had good luck with girls. The biggest fact was that he was afraid of not measuring up in her father's eyes, of being too low class. It had already happened to him more than once.
It still hurt to think of her. She had honey blonde hair and bewitching blue eyes. Her skin was fair, and she had a great smile. Everything about her was bright. He had fallen in love unwillingly. But it happened. She was also a politician's daughter. Her name was Relena. Relena Peacecraft. He had been so sure she loved him. They went to dinner, went to the movies. They had a whirlwind relationship. But one day, it all came crashing down. He remembered it so clearly. The vanilla scent of her, the way her eyes refused to meet his. She had shown up on his door step, looking grim. Heero was surprised, she always seemed so happy and polite. His blue eyes widened when she told him she couldn't do it anymore. He asked what she meant, and she told him it was over.
" I'm a Peacecraft. You're just Yuy. It wouldn't work."
He remembered the feeling of inadequacy and the shame of being just low class. The bitch. He could never remember Relena fondly. She was always subtly reminding him of why he detested the upperclass. When he met Rei, she had infuriated him by running into him and then trying to run away.
[flash back]
" Itai!"
Rei hit the pewter sidewalk with a thud, her hair flailing about her as she fell. Sitting on the ground, she realized that in her rush to get home, she failed to notice the person in front of her. Rei's eyes scanned up, slowly studying the body and form of the clearly male youth in front of her. The youth offered her his hand, looking down at the young girl with cool amusement. Rei slipped her slim hand into his, and he lifted her quite easily up. The young brunette was quite embarrassed, and bowed slightly, before moving to leave. How ever, the youth in front of her grabbed her arm suddenly and pulled Rei towards him.
" It's not nice to leave with out introducing yourself." The steely edged voice quipped, a faint note of annoyance threading his tone. Rei smiled weakly, for she already knew whom this person was. He was Heero Yuy, the most infamous recluse at school.
" I am Hino Rei-san, miko of Hiwaka Jinja. It's nice to meet you."
" I am Yuy Heero." With that, he let her go, and just stalked off down the street, avoiding the eyes of passers by.
[end]
Rei had been so different from Relena. She was mannered and elegant just like Relena had been, but unlike Relena, she hadn't been haughty or snobby. She hadn't said she was a Hino like the name made her a queen. She didn't even tell him she was the daughter of a Democratic Liberal party member. She just said she was a priestess, a shrine maiden. She was dark, where Relena had been very fair. Humble, sort of, where Relena had been snobbish. It crushed him when he learned that Rei was a politician's daughter too. But he couldn't break it so soon. He waited and waited and pushed it off. But each time Heero saw Rei, he was convinced she'd become haughty, judgemental. So he broke it off before she could break him, like she most probably would.
" Rei, I miss you already..."
~*~
Wufei hated his father at this moment in time. He didn't want to go to Japan with some stupid family he never knew. Learn the culture? What if he didn't want to be an ambassador? He didn't really. He wanted to be a writer. Why, if he wasn't in the gym honing his fighting skills, then he was in the library reading books. Angrily pulling on his silk shirt, Wufei put his glasses on with the other hand. Then he grabbed his suitcase, and a few well read books.
" I really don't want to go to Japan of all places. I was raised here for heaven's sake. I may be half Japanese, but I sure as hell don't feel it." Wufeitered angrily, walking out of his bedroom door. He had to leave for the air port in ten minutes. He spent one of those minutes just staring at his room. He was going to miss this room, this house. He had to live in a stupid Shinto shrine of all places. He didn't even understand the religion. He only knew formal Japanese, the kind they taught at school, not the local dialect. He was going to seem either stuck up, or really stupid.
" Ahh Damn it to hell!"
~*~
Minako's worried eyes glanced at her mirror. Heero had broken up with Rei, but how could he? She remembered the shouting, the pain, the tears flowing from Rei's eyes. She had watched them from a distance, wondering what the fighting was about. She had gotten closer and gotten a earful of what was going on.
How could he do that to her? It was obvious to Minako that Heero adored Rei, even if he wasn't the most affectionate of people. He had only four male friends, and three really close friends. Minako felt a tear slide down her cheek. She had always been emotional. Any sort of romantic problems got to her. The kicker was, Minako had harbored a huge crush on Heero since before Rei even went out with her. But they got together first, and Minako had set her feelings aside. Rei was not real friendly with men, and the fact she opened up to Heero of all people was a shocker alone. Rei didn't really like men, the exception being Mamoru and her grandfather. Yuuichiro she tolerated, but she was pretty indifferent to him. Minako remembered Rei telling her about a man named Kaidou, who she had trusted, and had burned her love.
" Oh Rei, you let him get away with hurting you?"
~*~
So, what does everyone think? Thank you Miayaka-chan and Firako-chan, I do indeed thank you for your help! Please review, it's like heroine for
authors!