Dear Diary,
Sakura's spending the night here because Syaoran's getting worse. He couldn't even get up this morning. That poor thing, I hope he'll get better soon. Sakura staying (again) so that means I'll have to keep her in my room.
Hay Sakura sleeps round kind of a lot these days this place is like her second home.
Sakura came to school with her stuff I guess she'll be staying for quiet a while. I saw Eriol again; he was as sweet a usual. Tomoyo; she was just Tomoyo-Chan. Sakura (Oh wait we've done her) but she was the same Ying La. Ying La's a nice name it's Chinese you know.
Looking back on my first talk with Eriol we talked about names. I looked up my name and it really does mean 'Beautiful, Pretty, Neat, Flax, Lake, Idol, Adored One and Longed for Child' (I wish). I am the most unwanted girl ever to play her part in Li history.
Eriol eat with me again and we talked about our families more. Eriol said that he had been alive for years and in all those years he had never had such a kind friend as I. Eriol makes me feel like I've got a friend who won't throw me away. My new friend is so great. I could tell him anything, like I can tell you. Like what cousin Tora was like.
Eriol said to me- "You can talk to me if you want to, confined in me if you feel you need to". I can confine in him, he makes me feel so special. Like a special friend to him, He gives me a similar feeling to what I felt when Tomoyo and I were working together to get Syaoran and Sakura together, a best friend feeling a bonding thing. So I told him some more about my life. Eriol listened to me with the greatest respect. I can talk freely to him with no wall keeping me out and away from him.
"Okay but don't laugh and don't tell Syaoran I said anything because some of it is about Syaoran", I told him.
"I swear I'll never tell the fire" Eriol chuckled to himself and then listened with a smile. I begun, talking to Eriol was like taking to a more understanding Tomoyo, like a Syaoran, Sakura and Tomoyo in one.
I've been thinking a lot about Tora ever since I told you what happened to her, she was a really nice cousin. I can't really remember her I can tell you what she looked like and how her life was. Tora was Syaoran and my cousin because her father was Auntie Yelan (Syaoran's mother's) brother's daughter. How she's related to me? Well my mother is Syaoran's mother's fifth cousin. It's all very hard to understand, even I'm not sure how this is works. Only Syaoran's really sure. I'll never forget the day we were told she died and Syaoran was on the verge of death. The whole clan prayed for his safety.
Tora's parents blamed Syaoran's older sister Sheifa and Yoshi for Tora's death. They were also very worried for Syaoran's safety he might have died. It's scary how they both fell into the pond I think Tora fell and accidentally pulled Syaoran in with her. Syaoran was in bed for a month because he developed a fever and it was very high for the first few weeks. Twice we almost lost him, once when he could have drowned with Tora and again on the first week of the fever. His fever tem was in the hundreds and you could have fried an egg on his head.
I sometimes think about what this world would be like if Syaoran had died that day how different life would have been. What could have happened to Sakura? She'd be dead herself by now, maybe the Clow Book wouldn't have been opened.
I still have nightmares about Syaoran's death. More often in fact, I'd die if my loving cousin. It's like losing a brother. Of course Syaoran knows the pain of cousin lose, so do I but the second cousin who died wasn't close to me like he was with Syaoran. Yoshi, Syaoran's favourite cousin who loved him more then any older cousin could.
Yoshi, he is my mother and Syaoran's father's older brother Zyiro's son. Don't ask why he didn't become the Li Clan Leader I'm not sure. I think it had something to do with what he did; I think he killed a bird. (Ryuu Li kept a diary for years. In fact the last entry was the very day he died).
Ryuu was always the more attractive of the two I've seen a picture of them and my mother.
My mother was the little sister of them and for some reason I don't know why she was born with hardly any magic. According to Yelan, I do have some magic but she won't tell me how to use it. She says I have to keep it back.
Anyway my mother told me that Zyiro was always mean to Ryuu.
Ryuu was handsome and Zyiro was getting old after all he was like ten years older then Ryuu and sixteen years older then my mother. He hated Ryuu for his wife, Ryuu was friends with Sakura's mother I'm told. And Zyiro was in love with Yelan but she and Ryuu fell in love and got married. Ryuu was sixteen and Yelan was only fourteen. I think it's sweet.
Zyiro thought he was the better brother when he had a son and Ryuu only had daughters, Sheifa and the twins Fuutie and Feimei. Fanren was born a year later and Syaoran and I weren't born for at least five years more. My mother was only ten at this time, I think?
My mother is called Jinling Li and she married her cousin my dad. She was pregnant with me when she got married and I was born early like Syaoran was. I was three weeks early and Syaoran was a month early. Syaoran's mother was twenty-three when he was born and my mother was only fifthteen the same age Yelan was when she had her first child Sheifa.
"I'm going off the subject aren't I?" I said suddenly. I remember feeling silly, was I repeating myself? I think you know what happened next-
"You're not repeating yourself" Eriol said, he really wanted to know more. Kind of like some little child who was hearing and interesting story. "Your not, your story is very interesting I love a woman that can just talk about their problems, tell her secrets" Eriol told me again. I had to tell him that I felt like he was a nice friend, I mean it wasn't hard but...
"The reason I can tell you this stuff is that I see you as a good friend" I could feel my blush; I'd only known him for like three days!
"Thank you Meiling-Chan, that makes me feel quiet at home with you" Eriol told me. "If you want to say more you can, or if you want to go for a walk that's fine too".
'So sweet' I was thinking to myself.
"Oh well thank you Meiling-Chan" Eriol said after starring into my eyes. He did the mind reading thing! Again! Then the bell rang. Just like yesterday he helped me up and instead of walking away he said, "Hay I'll walk home with you if you want to that is." I nodded and we left the school.
We were on our way through the park when we saw two older boys were hanging around Sakura while she was walking home that way. You know flirting and such. Sakura was trying to get rid of them.
I turned to Eriol and said, "Talk to you later, I have duty calls". He laughed and ran ahead to the end of the park.
I went over to Sakura and said, "Alright guys break it up you know she's Syaoran's girlfriend and she likes being his girlfriend". Sakura smiled when she saw me and nodded strongly at them. The two boys pushed Sakura out of the way into a wall and turned on me. They circled me a few times.
"You Syaoran's cousin ain't ya," one of the boys (Ally) said in a cockney way, "What right have you to butt on me and Harry here? Huh, huh?"
I decided to be smart with them, "You're Syaoran's cousin aren't you" I repeated in stranded English and then said, "And yes I am and also I have every right to butt in with you". Harry grabbed my wrist and pressed me hard against a wall. I remember thinking he was going to attack me. Sakura by now was trying to free me from this grip, but Ally grabbed her and pulled her out of the park.
Harry came closer and closer to me the park was empty except for him and I. I could smell his breath it was horrible, it made me feel sicker then terrified. It didn't acre to me to kick him where it hurts him most. Mind you I couldn't move my legs because he had his legs hard on them. As he pressed harder my chest hurt so much. I couldn't breath and my chest was in a huge pain. Suddenly his arm was at my neck, I really was suffocating.
"Stop... it ... leave me alone!" I tried to yell but it came out in a whisper. Harry seemed to get closer and closer and I was dying as he was taking my air. Suddenly he kissed me very hard, harder then what I've seen Syaoran and Sakura do. When he finally stopped he loosened his grip on me. It must have been hard because I could feel the oxygen rush back into my lungs and it felt like some powerful blow.
"Now, what should I do to you next", Harry asked. I shut my eyes hoping that he would just let me go. I really had got myself into trouble. Last time I try to be smart with a tenth grader.
"Help please help..." I tried to scream but him hand went over my mouth. He really was going to hit me or my be even... I can't even write it.
"Hay you big loser leave my Meiling-Chan alone" a voice yelled out. I rolled my eyes up to try and see. But everything I looked at was black or shadowed or blurry. I was losing oxygen again. "I said get your dirty mucky hands off her you loser" the voice yelled again. Harry pushed me to the ground, I tried to get up but my body wouldn't let me. Oh I felt so weak and feeble. The only movement I could make was my eyes. I opened them to see who this person was and I was shocked to see....
"Eriol?" I remember growing and then my eyes closed and I think I feel asleep because the place I woke up wasn't in the park.
I'm at Eriol's house now. Eriol says he carried me here (Me in his arms!). I woke up in his bed and he came in with a cup of warm milk and honey (Yummy perfect for the ill).
"Meiling-Chan, I'm glad you're awake and safe," Eriol said to me when he handed me that drink. I slipped it once and smiled to him.
"Thanks to you coming and helping me, I was really scared there, it felt like I was going to die" I exaggerated to myself, I better think twice before I think. I'm in the presences of a mind reader. This time I think he read my mind and didn't say it out. Syaoran does that with Sakura.
When I finished my drink and Eriol took the cup from me and hugged me. "I'm so glad you're alright", he said smiling to me then I started crying, "Wait you are alright aren't you?"
I dried my tears and said, "Yeah, I'm fine I've just never had a friend who would jump in and save me and ask me if I'm alright. My over friends never ask me that stuff and they'd never take me to their house and bring me warm milk and honey. You're so sweet Eriol-Kun". And BLUSHED, I have never really made a boy blush from my flattering! He likes me he thinks I'm a friend too! I have a sweet best friend (Besides Tomoyo). At least I thought I was a friend why well I'm about to see that he's a bit of a thoney.
"Hay you better have something to eat, Nakuru made some dinner for all of us" Eriol said smiling down on me. "So are you hungry?"
"Starving to death" I chuckled, 'Oh my God what have I done' I remember thinking 'Oh no he'll read my mind'. Luckily he didn't he was too busy looking out the window.
"Great then! I'll tell Nakuru and Spinel Sun" and Eriol ran out the door leaving me alone in his room. Looking around his room is really big and has a huge window in it. Eriol tells me that his old house was pulled down so they could put that amusement park up. I feel sorry for him.
Then on his bedside I saw a book. I picked it up and looked at the front.
It was his diary!
Just like me he keeps a diary! I must admit I really was tempted to read it but I know I wouldn't want Eriol to read my diary but I've only just started mine. His looked like it had been kept for years. I picked it up and felt frozen stiff. Then I picked you up and picked his up and looked at you both. I've had a habit to read over people's diaries. I've read Syaoran's diary, Sakura's diary and my sister's diary. Sadly Syaoran caught me, reading his was like reading a really good book. I put you down and then was going to put his to one side when I dropped it and a picture came out. I slipped out of the long bed and picked the picture up.
It was a picture of him, it was a black and white picture that looked like what the first pictures looked like and in the picture was a man and woman. Probably his mother and father they were really old in this picture. He told me how he had been alive for years and stayed the same age for years too. How hard watching his friends grow up and die.
His diary was open at a page too; I had to have a look. I mean I had to pick it up. I picked up the diary and had a look at the page. It was very near the end. I noticed that Eriol's diary entries weren't as long as mine could be. It read-
'Dear Diary,
I have had a very strange day, a new girl joined our class. I've seen her before but never really got to talk to her. You know it's that Meiling girl, Syaoran's cousin. She's very cute if you know what I mean.
We talked and from her I found out that my name means God's Lion. I hate to be mean but she's a bit, strange. What she thinks about and things like that what did Syaoran see in her in the first place. I don't blame him for liking Sakura better then Meiling, she not exactly a prize.
I'm thinking that if I become her friend I'll get closer to Tomoyo and Syaoran. Meiling asked me if she (Tomoyo) was my girlfriend, I wish. Too bad Meiling can't read my mind over wise she'd see the truth. If I ask her stuff about Syaoran's family and become her friend I'll get both Syaoran and Tomoyo.
Meiling, that silly girl she seems to already trust me when I called her Meiling-Chan. Silly girl she is.
Anyway I'm talking to her tomorrow see what she will tell me.
That all diary, Eriol
"That great thoney" I cried I put the diary down and picked you up again and now I'm writing this.
He's been using me, like my mother, like my father, like my sister and like everybody else I know. Damn it, I hate him. I'm not telling him anything more about our family and I'm letting him near poor Tomoyo. Wait if Tomoyo wants him she can have him. I'm through with men they all knock me about and use me for there silly stuff.
I'm never getting married. Men I hate them all of them and I'm staying single. I'm never letting another man have me for a friend. I guess now the only man I can depend on is my Syaoran-Kun.
I'm reading his diary enries about me so for now diary,
Love Meiling.
P.S I HATE Eriol! Damn him to hell! Some Clow Reed! I hate him, let him have his charm but I'll letting that b#%8d get to Syaoran or Tomoyo or Sakura none of them!
Lion of God? Ha! Yeah more like Dog of The Devil!
Sakura's spending the night here because Syaoran's getting worse. He couldn't even get up this morning. That poor thing, I hope he'll get better soon. Sakura staying (again) so that means I'll have to keep her in my room.
Hay Sakura sleeps round kind of a lot these days this place is like her second home.
Sakura came to school with her stuff I guess she'll be staying for quiet a while. I saw Eriol again; he was as sweet a usual. Tomoyo; she was just Tomoyo-Chan. Sakura (Oh wait we've done her) but she was the same Ying La. Ying La's a nice name it's Chinese you know.
Looking back on my first talk with Eriol we talked about names. I looked up my name and it really does mean 'Beautiful, Pretty, Neat, Flax, Lake, Idol, Adored One and Longed for Child' (I wish). I am the most unwanted girl ever to play her part in Li history.
Eriol eat with me again and we talked about our families more. Eriol said that he had been alive for years and in all those years he had never had such a kind friend as I. Eriol makes me feel like I've got a friend who won't throw me away. My new friend is so great. I could tell him anything, like I can tell you. Like what cousin Tora was like.
Eriol said to me- "You can talk to me if you want to, confined in me if you feel you need to". I can confine in him, he makes me feel so special. Like a special friend to him, He gives me a similar feeling to what I felt when Tomoyo and I were working together to get Syaoran and Sakura together, a best friend feeling a bonding thing. So I told him some more about my life. Eriol listened to me with the greatest respect. I can talk freely to him with no wall keeping me out and away from him.
"Okay but don't laugh and don't tell Syaoran I said anything because some of it is about Syaoran", I told him.
"I swear I'll never tell the fire" Eriol chuckled to himself and then listened with a smile. I begun, talking to Eriol was like taking to a more understanding Tomoyo, like a Syaoran, Sakura and Tomoyo in one.
I've been thinking a lot about Tora ever since I told you what happened to her, she was a really nice cousin. I can't really remember her I can tell you what she looked like and how her life was. Tora was Syaoran and my cousin because her father was Auntie Yelan (Syaoran's mother's) brother's daughter. How she's related to me? Well my mother is Syaoran's mother's fifth cousin. It's all very hard to understand, even I'm not sure how this is works. Only Syaoran's really sure. I'll never forget the day we were told she died and Syaoran was on the verge of death. The whole clan prayed for his safety.
Tora's parents blamed Syaoran's older sister Sheifa and Yoshi for Tora's death. They were also very worried for Syaoran's safety he might have died. It's scary how they both fell into the pond I think Tora fell and accidentally pulled Syaoran in with her. Syaoran was in bed for a month because he developed a fever and it was very high for the first few weeks. Twice we almost lost him, once when he could have drowned with Tora and again on the first week of the fever. His fever tem was in the hundreds and you could have fried an egg on his head.
I sometimes think about what this world would be like if Syaoran had died that day how different life would have been. What could have happened to Sakura? She'd be dead herself by now, maybe the Clow Book wouldn't have been opened.
I still have nightmares about Syaoran's death. More often in fact, I'd die if my loving cousin. It's like losing a brother. Of course Syaoran knows the pain of cousin lose, so do I but the second cousin who died wasn't close to me like he was with Syaoran. Yoshi, Syaoran's favourite cousin who loved him more then any older cousin could.
Yoshi, he is my mother and Syaoran's father's older brother Zyiro's son. Don't ask why he didn't become the Li Clan Leader I'm not sure. I think it had something to do with what he did; I think he killed a bird. (Ryuu Li kept a diary for years. In fact the last entry was the very day he died).
Ryuu was always the more attractive of the two I've seen a picture of them and my mother.
My mother was the little sister of them and for some reason I don't know why she was born with hardly any magic. According to Yelan, I do have some magic but she won't tell me how to use it. She says I have to keep it back.
Anyway my mother told me that Zyiro was always mean to Ryuu.
Ryuu was handsome and Zyiro was getting old after all he was like ten years older then Ryuu and sixteen years older then my mother. He hated Ryuu for his wife, Ryuu was friends with Sakura's mother I'm told. And Zyiro was in love with Yelan but she and Ryuu fell in love and got married. Ryuu was sixteen and Yelan was only fourteen. I think it's sweet.
Zyiro thought he was the better brother when he had a son and Ryuu only had daughters, Sheifa and the twins Fuutie and Feimei. Fanren was born a year later and Syaoran and I weren't born for at least five years more. My mother was only ten at this time, I think?
My mother is called Jinling Li and she married her cousin my dad. She was pregnant with me when she got married and I was born early like Syaoran was. I was three weeks early and Syaoran was a month early. Syaoran's mother was twenty-three when he was born and my mother was only fifthteen the same age Yelan was when she had her first child Sheifa.
"I'm going off the subject aren't I?" I said suddenly. I remember feeling silly, was I repeating myself? I think you know what happened next-
"You're not repeating yourself" Eriol said, he really wanted to know more. Kind of like some little child who was hearing and interesting story. "Your not, your story is very interesting I love a woman that can just talk about their problems, tell her secrets" Eriol told me again. I had to tell him that I felt like he was a nice friend, I mean it wasn't hard but...
"The reason I can tell you this stuff is that I see you as a good friend" I could feel my blush; I'd only known him for like three days!
"Thank you Meiling-Chan, that makes me feel quiet at home with you" Eriol told me. "If you want to say more you can, or if you want to go for a walk that's fine too".
'So sweet' I was thinking to myself.
"Oh well thank you Meiling-Chan" Eriol said after starring into my eyes. He did the mind reading thing! Again! Then the bell rang. Just like yesterday he helped me up and instead of walking away he said, "Hay I'll walk home with you if you want to that is." I nodded and we left the school.
We were on our way through the park when we saw two older boys were hanging around Sakura while she was walking home that way. You know flirting and such. Sakura was trying to get rid of them.
I turned to Eriol and said, "Talk to you later, I have duty calls". He laughed and ran ahead to the end of the park.
I went over to Sakura and said, "Alright guys break it up you know she's Syaoran's girlfriend and she likes being his girlfriend". Sakura smiled when she saw me and nodded strongly at them. The two boys pushed Sakura out of the way into a wall and turned on me. They circled me a few times.
"You Syaoran's cousin ain't ya," one of the boys (Ally) said in a cockney way, "What right have you to butt on me and Harry here? Huh, huh?"
I decided to be smart with them, "You're Syaoran's cousin aren't you" I repeated in stranded English and then said, "And yes I am and also I have every right to butt in with you". Harry grabbed my wrist and pressed me hard against a wall. I remember thinking he was going to attack me. Sakura by now was trying to free me from this grip, but Ally grabbed her and pulled her out of the park.
Harry came closer and closer to me the park was empty except for him and I. I could smell his breath it was horrible, it made me feel sicker then terrified. It didn't acre to me to kick him where it hurts him most. Mind you I couldn't move my legs because he had his legs hard on them. As he pressed harder my chest hurt so much. I couldn't breath and my chest was in a huge pain. Suddenly his arm was at my neck, I really was suffocating.
"Stop... it ... leave me alone!" I tried to yell but it came out in a whisper. Harry seemed to get closer and closer and I was dying as he was taking my air. Suddenly he kissed me very hard, harder then what I've seen Syaoran and Sakura do. When he finally stopped he loosened his grip on me. It must have been hard because I could feel the oxygen rush back into my lungs and it felt like some powerful blow.
"Now, what should I do to you next", Harry asked. I shut my eyes hoping that he would just let me go. I really had got myself into trouble. Last time I try to be smart with a tenth grader.
"Help please help..." I tried to scream but him hand went over my mouth. He really was going to hit me or my be even... I can't even write it.
"Hay you big loser leave my Meiling-Chan alone" a voice yelled out. I rolled my eyes up to try and see. But everything I looked at was black or shadowed or blurry. I was losing oxygen again. "I said get your dirty mucky hands off her you loser" the voice yelled again. Harry pushed me to the ground, I tried to get up but my body wouldn't let me. Oh I felt so weak and feeble. The only movement I could make was my eyes. I opened them to see who this person was and I was shocked to see....
"Eriol?" I remember growing and then my eyes closed and I think I feel asleep because the place I woke up wasn't in the park.
I'm at Eriol's house now. Eriol says he carried me here (Me in his arms!). I woke up in his bed and he came in with a cup of warm milk and honey (Yummy perfect for the ill).
"Meiling-Chan, I'm glad you're awake and safe," Eriol said to me when he handed me that drink. I slipped it once and smiled to him.
"Thanks to you coming and helping me, I was really scared there, it felt like I was going to die" I exaggerated to myself, I better think twice before I think. I'm in the presences of a mind reader. This time I think he read my mind and didn't say it out. Syaoran does that with Sakura.
When I finished my drink and Eriol took the cup from me and hugged me. "I'm so glad you're alright", he said smiling to me then I started crying, "Wait you are alright aren't you?"
I dried my tears and said, "Yeah, I'm fine I've just never had a friend who would jump in and save me and ask me if I'm alright. My over friends never ask me that stuff and they'd never take me to their house and bring me warm milk and honey. You're so sweet Eriol-Kun". And BLUSHED, I have never really made a boy blush from my flattering! He likes me he thinks I'm a friend too! I have a sweet best friend (Besides Tomoyo). At least I thought I was a friend why well I'm about to see that he's a bit of a thoney.
"Hay you better have something to eat, Nakuru made some dinner for all of us" Eriol said smiling down on me. "So are you hungry?"
"Starving to death" I chuckled, 'Oh my God what have I done' I remember thinking 'Oh no he'll read my mind'. Luckily he didn't he was too busy looking out the window.
"Great then! I'll tell Nakuru and Spinel Sun" and Eriol ran out the door leaving me alone in his room. Looking around his room is really big and has a huge window in it. Eriol tells me that his old house was pulled down so they could put that amusement park up. I feel sorry for him.
Then on his bedside I saw a book. I picked it up and looked at the front.
It was his diary!
Just like me he keeps a diary! I must admit I really was tempted to read it but I know I wouldn't want Eriol to read my diary but I've only just started mine. His looked like it had been kept for years. I picked it up and felt frozen stiff. Then I picked you up and picked his up and looked at you both. I've had a habit to read over people's diaries. I've read Syaoran's diary, Sakura's diary and my sister's diary. Sadly Syaoran caught me, reading his was like reading a really good book. I put you down and then was going to put his to one side when I dropped it and a picture came out. I slipped out of the long bed and picked the picture up.
It was a picture of him, it was a black and white picture that looked like what the first pictures looked like and in the picture was a man and woman. Probably his mother and father they were really old in this picture. He told me how he had been alive for years and stayed the same age for years too. How hard watching his friends grow up and die.
His diary was open at a page too; I had to have a look. I mean I had to pick it up. I picked up the diary and had a look at the page. It was very near the end. I noticed that Eriol's diary entries weren't as long as mine could be. It read-
'Dear Diary,
I have had a very strange day, a new girl joined our class. I've seen her before but never really got to talk to her. You know it's that Meiling girl, Syaoran's cousin. She's very cute if you know what I mean.
We talked and from her I found out that my name means God's Lion. I hate to be mean but she's a bit, strange. What she thinks about and things like that what did Syaoran see in her in the first place. I don't blame him for liking Sakura better then Meiling, she not exactly a prize.
I'm thinking that if I become her friend I'll get closer to Tomoyo and Syaoran. Meiling asked me if she (Tomoyo) was my girlfriend, I wish. Too bad Meiling can't read my mind over wise she'd see the truth. If I ask her stuff about Syaoran's family and become her friend I'll get both Syaoran and Tomoyo.
Meiling, that silly girl she seems to already trust me when I called her Meiling-Chan. Silly girl she is.
Anyway I'm talking to her tomorrow see what she will tell me.
That all diary, Eriol
"That great thoney" I cried I put the diary down and picked you up again and now I'm writing this.
He's been using me, like my mother, like my father, like my sister and like everybody else I know. Damn it, I hate him. I'm not telling him anything more about our family and I'm letting him near poor Tomoyo. Wait if Tomoyo wants him she can have him. I'm through with men they all knock me about and use me for there silly stuff.
I'm never getting married. Men I hate them all of them and I'm staying single. I'm never letting another man have me for a friend. I guess now the only man I can depend on is my Syaoran-Kun.
I'm reading his diary enries about me so for now diary,
Love Meiling.
P.S I HATE Eriol! Damn him to hell! Some Clow Reed! I hate him, let him have his charm but I'll letting that b#%8d get to Syaoran or Tomoyo or Sakura none of them!
Lion of God? Ha! Yeah more like Dog of The Devil!