Meiling's Diary Continued:
Dear Diary,
Okay so let's pick up from where we left off, Eriol is a loser. I hate him, and he hates me. I've just finished dinner from him and I'm waiting for Sakura and Wei to come and pick me up.
I feel so silly trusting Eriol with my secrets. He's probably told nearly fifty people and half of England about my life.
I hate him, why do I trust men? I hate them now; I can't trust them at all. Finding out what he thought about me made he hurt, I thought he might be able to understand me.
Syaoran's right he's not to be trusted.
Sorry this is short diary but I'm too upset to write any more, see I'm tearing the page.
P.S Syaoran's still ill, what if he dies? I know it's silly but I remember what it's like to watch Syaoran dying, gasping for air. Sakura says that she'll find- A Healer to heal poor Syaoran. The Li Clan are telling Wei to bring Syaoran back to Hong-Kong to be with the Li Clan after he has recovered.
Dear Diary,
Back to school today and I think Eriol has noticed that I have been avoiding him. After what he said about me can you flame me for my hates. Eriol seemed like a nice guy and Tomoyo said so herself in a letter she once sent me.
Eriol did come up to me and asked, "Meiling what have I done to make you feel hurt and tormented?" I told him the truth-
"You did what every over man in this world has done to me, you used me for your own pleasure! But it's alright your just another example of my already pathetic excuse for a life". I ran away from him and I remember looking back on him. He was sitting on a bench writing in that diary of his with a red pen. Never, I remember had he used a black pen in his diary. I know... red for blood.
He's like my mama,
He wishes I were dead.
My mother sent me a letter that she will be coming soon to look after Syaoran and I by order of the Li Clan. The Great Elder Li (Syaoran's and my Great-Grandfather) to bring Wei back a send my mother out to baby-sit us. I don't want my mother babysitting Syaoran. I just know, I have a horrid gut feeling that she will take one look at Sakura and call her a 'A Slutty Tart' or was that me she called a slutty tart?
The Clan believe that they should remove Syaoran from the role of Li Clan Leader. Syaoran mother, my lovely auntie says that she will call everyday to make sure Syaoran and I are well.
I wish Yelan was my mama, Syaoran loves her more then anything. Every since she gave Syaoran life she has loved him and watched him grow with a smile on her beautiful face.
My mother is indeed pretty but she hated me, she was very young when I was born, thirteen or fourteen at the most. But even if you where ten when you had your baby you'd still love it even though it ruined your life. My mother once said to my father- "What was the use of bringing that useless carcass into this world? Going through all my pain and work and what do I get, nothing but a Little Runt".
My mother hates me so much and my father doesn't love me. He doesn't even really like me. When I came out of the womb my mother took one look at me and said to have yelled- "What's the point?"
She makes me feel like she'd have rather miscarried me or if I was stillborn. She did tell me once that she wished I wasn't here. She loves Meiquing, but she hates me. I didn't mean to ruin her life; I really have tried my best to stay away from her over the short fourteen-years I've spent on this planet.
I my mother, can't she give me a brake? But I am blamed-
I ruined her life. Does that give her a right to ruin mine?
All my love, Meiling Li
P.S Syaoran has shown no recovery and Chiharu has been in school for the last few days. Sakura says that if Syaoran dies she will kill herself. I wouldn't mind a bit of that myself but I have to stand high, never give up.
I'm Meiling Li; I am a favourite of the Li Clan for a wife for a Li husband. But no, I might never get married. Only if I'm in love I've decided I will marry.
I must remember I'm a Li girl, though I received my Li name from my pathetic excuse for a mother who... so the Kun Clan says bore a little sow.
Outside I'm happy jumpy and gay (gay as in happy) Meiling Li, but inside no one can see I'm screaming for help to come and save me. I thought Eriol understood me, but he doesn't.
Dear Diary,
My mother will be here very soon and Wei will be leaving in the morning. I wish he wasn't going; he's one of the few who know my mother terrifies me. I'll miss him and I know Syaoran will too, he has been our guardian for Syaoran, ever since he was born. He's been a carer for me ever since Ryuu Li died and Syaoran and I were matched up.
Sakura round right now, she's on the phone with 'The Healer' right now. I hope he can heal Syaoran. I have to go for now cause Sakura's calling me...she's making dinner.
(10:27) Later on....
It was a nice dinner and my mother has surfaced and she's on her way here now. What will she say when she sees Sakura, what will she do when she sees me? I haven't seen her in months now ever since Syaoran refused to return to Hong-Kong because he's in love with Sakura. I wish I had some one who loved me but. I don't.
My mother's just a block away cause Wei just got a call from her. My fate moves closer and closer...
Meiling Li, 14
Dear Diary,
When my mother arrived I had a shock that, I still wonder. She ran up to me and hugged me and said she missed me. Never has she ever done that. (I bet what she means is 'I missed beating the living daylights out of you')
The over shock I had was what she brought with her; with her was a boy or rather man of the age of seventeen. He was so handsome; he had wavy steel- black hair (Like Eriol's) and deep brown eyes. His name was Tyler.
My mother introduced him to me, "Daughter" (She hardly ever calls me Meiling) "this is Tyler Li, a very far off cousin who lives in Beijing with his family. He will be your new husband and you will marry next year when you a fifteen, daughter".
Me marry him? I don't even know him, when I was a trained wife for Syaoran I had know him for years and given years to learn what he's like. This guy Tyler, I have a year to learn about him.
"It's lovely to meet Mei-Chan" Tyler said in a deep low voice. It reminded me of Sakura's brother Toya's voice.
Mei-Chan? Eriol called me that once, Eriol what's wrong with me? Why can't I forget him why do I feel this way? Why does his name cause me heart to beat fast?
"It's nice to meet you Li" I replied.
"You can call me Tyler-Kun" he replied to me. Tyler-Kun? Why do I feel like Eriol is talking with me? Why can't I stop this Eriol thing? I told my mother and Tyler goodnight and set off to my room when.
"Syaoran's fever is lower now so... oh hello" Sakura said coming out of Syaoran's room. (Oh no) I remember thinking, and it's still echoing though my head.
"Who are you young lady?" my mother asked,
"Sakura" Sakura replied to my mother, her face dropped.
"Your Sakura Kinomoto aren't you?" my mother said in a low cruel voice. Sakura, Tyler and I all looked scared when Sakura was forced to reply-
"Yes ma'am, I'm Syaoran's girlfriend"
My mother looked at Sakura up and down and begun to circle her like a cat getting ready to pounce.
"I see, so you're the Japanese Whore?"
"I'm sorry, what?"
"You're that bitchy Japanese girl".
I ran away. This was horrible I knew this would happen.
I'll talk tomorrow, love Meiling Li
Dear Diary,
Okay so let's pick up from where we left off, Eriol is a loser. I hate him, and he hates me. I've just finished dinner from him and I'm waiting for Sakura and Wei to come and pick me up.
I feel so silly trusting Eriol with my secrets. He's probably told nearly fifty people and half of England about my life.
I hate him, why do I trust men? I hate them now; I can't trust them at all. Finding out what he thought about me made he hurt, I thought he might be able to understand me.
Syaoran's right he's not to be trusted.
Sorry this is short diary but I'm too upset to write any more, see I'm tearing the page.
P.S Syaoran's still ill, what if he dies? I know it's silly but I remember what it's like to watch Syaoran dying, gasping for air. Sakura says that she'll find- A Healer to heal poor Syaoran. The Li Clan are telling Wei to bring Syaoran back to Hong-Kong to be with the Li Clan after he has recovered.
Dear Diary,
Back to school today and I think Eriol has noticed that I have been avoiding him. After what he said about me can you flame me for my hates. Eriol seemed like a nice guy and Tomoyo said so herself in a letter she once sent me.
Eriol did come up to me and asked, "Meiling what have I done to make you feel hurt and tormented?" I told him the truth-
"You did what every over man in this world has done to me, you used me for your own pleasure! But it's alright your just another example of my already pathetic excuse for a life". I ran away from him and I remember looking back on him. He was sitting on a bench writing in that diary of his with a red pen. Never, I remember had he used a black pen in his diary. I know... red for blood.
He's like my mama,
He wishes I were dead.
My mother sent me a letter that she will be coming soon to look after Syaoran and I by order of the Li Clan. The Great Elder Li (Syaoran's and my Great-Grandfather) to bring Wei back a send my mother out to baby-sit us. I don't want my mother babysitting Syaoran. I just know, I have a horrid gut feeling that she will take one look at Sakura and call her a 'A Slutty Tart' or was that me she called a slutty tart?
The Clan believe that they should remove Syaoran from the role of Li Clan Leader. Syaoran mother, my lovely auntie says that she will call everyday to make sure Syaoran and I are well.
I wish Yelan was my mama, Syaoran loves her more then anything. Every since she gave Syaoran life she has loved him and watched him grow with a smile on her beautiful face.
My mother is indeed pretty but she hated me, she was very young when I was born, thirteen or fourteen at the most. But even if you where ten when you had your baby you'd still love it even though it ruined your life. My mother once said to my father- "What was the use of bringing that useless carcass into this world? Going through all my pain and work and what do I get, nothing but a Little Runt".
My mother hates me so much and my father doesn't love me. He doesn't even really like me. When I came out of the womb my mother took one look at me and said to have yelled- "What's the point?"
She makes me feel like she'd have rather miscarried me or if I was stillborn. She did tell me once that she wished I wasn't here. She loves Meiquing, but she hates me. I didn't mean to ruin her life; I really have tried my best to stay away from her over the short fourteen-years I've spent on this planet.
I my mother, can't she give me a brake? But I am blamed-
I ruined her life. Does that give her a right to ruin mine?
All my love, Meiling Li
P.S Syaoran has shown no recovery and Chiharu has been in school for the last few days. Sakura says that if Syaoran dies she will kill herself. I wouldn't mind a bit of that myself but I have to stand high, never give up.
I'm Meiling Li; I am a favourite of the Li Clan for a wife for a Li husband. But no, I might never get married. Only if I'm in love I've decided I will marry.
I must remember I'm a Li girl, though I received my Li name from my pathetic excuse for a mother who... so the Kun Clan says bore a little sow.
Outside I'm happy jumpy and gay (gay as in happy) Meiling Li, but inside no one can see I'm screaming for help to come and save me. I thought Eriol understood me, but he doesn't.
Dear Diary,
My mother will be here very soon and Wei will be leaving in the morning. I wish he wasn't going; he's one of the few who know my mother terrifies me. I'll miss him and I know Syaoran will too, he has been our guardian for Syaoran, ever since he was born. He's been a carer for me ever since Ryuu Li died and Syaoran and I were matched up.
Sakura round right now, she's on the phone with 'The Healer' right now. I hope he can heal Syaoran. I have to go for now cause Sakura's calling me...she's making dinner.
(10:27) Later on....
It was a nice dinner and my mother has surfaced and she's on her way here now. What will she say when she sees Sakura, what will she do when she sees me? I haven't seen her in months now ever since Syaoran refused to return to Hong-Kong because he's in love with Sakura. I wish I had some one who loved me but. I don't.
My mother's just a block away cause Wei just got a call from her. My fate moves closer and closer...
Meiling Li, 14
Dear Diary,
When my mother arrived I had a shock that, I still wonder. She ran up to me and hugged me and said she missed me. Never has she ever done that. (I bet what she means is 'I missed beating the living daylights out of you')
The over shock I had was what she brought with her; with her was a boy or rather man of the age of seventeen. He was so handsome; he had wavy steel- black hair (Like Eriol's) and deep brown eyes. His name was Tyler.
My mother introduced him to me, "Daughter" (She hardly ever calls me Meiling) "this is Tyler Li, a very far off cousin who lives in Beijing with his family. He will be your new husband and you will marry next year when you a fifteen, daughter".
Me marry him? I don't even know him, when I was a trained wife for Syaoran I had know him for years and given years to learn what he's like. This guy Tyler, I have a year to learn about him.
"It's lovely to meet Mei-Chan" Tyler said in a deep low voice. It reminded me of Sakura's brother Toya's voice.
Mei-Chan? Eriol called me that once, Eriol what's wrong with me? Why can't I forget him why do I feel this way? Why does his name cause me heart to beat fast?
"It's nice to meet you Li" I replied.
"You can call me Tyler-Kun" he replied to me. Tyler-Kun? Why do I feel like Eriol is talking with me? Why can't I stop this Eriol thing? I told my mother and Tyler goodnight and set off to my room when.
"Syaoran's fever is lower now so... oh hello" Sakura said coming out of Syaoran's room. (Oh no) I remember thinking, and it's still echoing though my head.
"Who are you young lady?" my mother asked,
"Sakura" Sakura replied to my mother, her face dropped.
"Your Sakura Kinomoto aren't you?" my mother said in a low cruel voice. Sakura, Tyler and I all looked scared when Sakura was forced to reply-
"Yes ma'am, I'm Syaoran's girlfriend"
My mother looked at Sakura up and down and begun to circle her like a cat getting ready to pounce.
"I see, so you're the Japanese Whore?"
"I'm sorry, what?"
"You're that bitchy Japanese girl".
I ran away. This was horrible I knew this would happen.
I'll talk tomorrow, love Meiling Li