Note from Meiling: This is a part of my diary I call 'The Kiss' because of the last moments of this part of my diary. Everything in this part is about friendship. And remember keep your life going.

                                                            - Meiling Li

Very early in the morning, it's around 2:00 am

Dear Diary,

I thought about Eriol a lot last night and him image was in my dreams. My dream had Syaoran in it at first, Syaoran was dying and I could only watch as Sakura wept. The dream made me scared and feeble. But then I saw a pale hand take mine and hand me a peony (Syaoran's favourite flower). When I looked to see who it was I remember seeing a woman of her mid-thirties. Syaoran's mother my Sweet Auntie Yelan.

Then in her kind and sweet voice said in my ear, "Remember your magic and remember, someone loves you". Then she was gone and Sakura's weeping faded away. I looked to Syaoran and lay the flower on Syaoran and put my hand on the flower. Then I saw a hand on my hand, when I tried to turn around but I could (I my mind) picture the face I saw. I've forgotten but I know it was a boy and I remember what he said. He said-

"I will always own you, have you, and possess your dreams. Here you will always be mine" and then everything glowed and I woke up.

I wanted to keep record of my dreams in you since I can't tell anyone.

Good night, Meiling

Dear Diary- 4: 34

I can't get back to sleep and I was woken by a heart stabbing scream. It must have been mother since she didn't storm out to the lead of the cry. She did yelp when she had nightmares. I remember once when I was younger, mother did this and it woke dad and they started yelling at each other. Then Meiquing woke up. She was only one and I wanted to stop her, so I got her out of her cot and rocked her from side to side.

Three minutes later, mother came in and thought the reason Meiquing was crying was because I'd woken her. So my mother grabbed me by one of my pigtails and pulled me a way from Meiquing.

She pulled me out Meiquing's bedroom and pulled me still by my hair. Before I knew it I was in mother and father's room and my mother now picked me up by my hair. Lifting me from the ground. She then dropped me on the floor and slapped me three times round the face. I didn't cry, at this time, I didn't know how to cry.

My father used to abuse me too. Mother hit me and father touched me. He would stick up for me in some fights, but I still hated him, he said that he loved me, but I don't know what love in a parent is. He scares me mother and father like Meiquing but not me.

Last night was a nightmare in and out of sleep. Mother yelled at me for putting too much sugar in Syaoran's hot chocolate, he's still sick and we hope he'll come round if we give him a reason to wake. Mother said I was a useless housewife and she asked me how do I expect to be a good wife to Tyler if I'm a clutts who can't do anything right.

Hey, I'm no Michelle Thither I know but Tyler isn't Brad Pitt. We both have our floors don't we?

I can't help but think that Tyler's too old for me, I'm only fourteen and he's almost eighteen. I can't see myself walking the wedding match with Tyler at my side. I can't see our children; I can't see anything with Tyler.

All I see is a stranger………

Romance is nothing in this family. The elders find you a match, tell your parents and married at a very young age. Some are even married at thirteen like with Syaoran's mother my auntie Yelan.

Yelan was in love with Ryuu and I believe he was too. My grandmother from my mother's side once told me how foolish this was but I love the story of Syaoran's parents. Ryuu Li was sixteen when he married Yelan and she was only thirteen. (And you thought Sakura's mother was young).

Ryuu and Yelan married in the same year that Sakura's parents did. Syaoran's father was around the same age as Sakura's mother was (Which is very common) and Yelan was my age or younger.

I think it goes that, Yelan Li and Ryuu Li, both where of the Li family but Yelan was of the Reed family and Ryuu Li was of the Li Clan elders.

At first, Ryuu Li was betrothed to another cousin, I think her name was Umeko Li and Yelan was going to marry Ryuu's very old brother Shiro. When Ryuu was only thirteen I found out that Umeko had been plotting with the Kun Clan to murder my grandfather, Ryuu's father, so she was beheaded. I know it's horrid but it isn't murder, killing evil magicians is the only was to stop them

Now I think, at a family festival, Yelan was only eleven and Ryuu was fourteen (My age). When they meet each other they fell in love with each other. Yelan was still betrothed to Shiro, Yelan begged the elders to let her marry Ryuu. But they said that she must marry the Li Clan Leader.

But when Yelan was twelve and Ryuu was fifthteen, Shiro Li killed an animal and the great elder had him removed from the Li Clan Circle. This is a really bad thing. Since Ryuu was the next oldest and the great elder liked him the most, Ryuu was named the Chosen One.

With in a year he was the Li Clan leader when his father died. His mother had been dead for years, she died giving birth to my mother.

Now that I think about it, maybe that's why my mother neglects me. Or maybe it's cause she was worried she'd die giving birth to me, but I haven't killed her. I've been on this earth fourteen years and I'm deader then she is. I'm damaged on my legs, arms and brews on my back and all I have to say after all these years of abuse?

I'm okay, I've lived fourteen years and I'm still here and I'm going to keep going.

Dear Diary,

School has seemed to change since Eriol told me someone loved me. Tyler has made sure that I got to school, and everyone seems to interrupt when I try to ask Eriol the question that nags at the back of my head.

Who loves me?

I asked Tomoyo what she thought; she said that maybe he ment Tyler. But how could that be? I had only just told Eriol who Tyler was, no way he ment Tyler. He's never seen him, Tomoyo has never seen him! Maybe I should introduce them sometime, I don't know. I can't think straight!

I can concentrate at school, since the teacher put me in Tomoyo's seat and put her at the front of the class next to Harrison I have Eriol staring at the back of my head. Yesterday he was playing with my long black hair. When I was sitting eating on the bench I looked to my right and he was spying on me from up a tree, smiling.

He's stalking me! Why, why would he want to watch me? Tomoyo was stalking me once, but she stopped when I asked her why. I knew anyway, since she was video taping her independent study project, I was her model. Her project was called- 'The Documentary of My Best Friend'.

I wondered why she wasn't stalking Sakura and Syaoran, she said 'Because we did them last time!'

Of course! Silly me, (Being sarcastic!)

Now I think again, Eriol said his diary that he likes Tomoyo, why isn't he making a move on her? And why stalk me when you like someone else? I say, Eriol is a weird, twisted mama's boy who goes his own sweet way. He is a British Charm, but he probably uses to hitch a ride. (Going with girls wise).

What's with my obsession with Eriol? Why is my every diary entry about what he's done? Maybe it's cause most of my day; Eriol is doing something that makes the main headline of my day. But now he's making me feel uneven, or in other words, he's not acting like… well Eriol.

Why Eriol? Why! Syaoran's illness is still great and he's really ill. The doctors coming soon, what will happen to dear Syaoran? Is there a cure to the pain he's going through?

God I hope and pray there is… he's one of the two men in my life who I can depend on to help me. If he dies this time, I don't think I'll live much longer myself with my mother here.

God help Syaoran get passed this, and if God must take him, then protect me from my mother or take me too.

Love Meiling Li

Dear Diary,

We where told he was going to die,

Syaoran couldn't be saved he was going to die. I couldn't believe he's not going to be here, 'he's going to die' rushing through my head. Sakura's refusing to leave his side and therefore is still not coming to school.

When I told Tomoyo, I cried and Tomoyo cried like me and we through us into each other's arms. This attracted others attention but only one had the guts to ask me what was wrong, I'm sure you know who it was,

"Meiling, what's wrong?" Eriol asked me,

"Syaoran he's dying" I said through my violent tears when we where away from Tomoyo and out of public sight.

Eriol looked like he was going to cry too, but he held it back I could tell. Then as I cried Eriol took my hand and led me to one of the benches and sat me down next to him. And then he put his arm round me and pulled me towards his chest. Then he started rocking me from side to side. I felt his heart beating with worry like mine, but faster. I still cried and cried in his arms and my tears made his school top very wet as I sobbed more.

"Calm down Li-Chan, calm down, I can help you… if you let me" he whispered in my ear. I looked up to him; my eyes must have been red and horrid because my eyes felt sore from the all my salt-water tears. But Eriol just looked at me with a kind face and he gave me 'It'll be just fine' look. "Don't cry Li-Chan", he said again.

Something in me made me forgive him from my insult, maybe he had changed his opinion on me, maybe this was another trick to get round me. I don't know, but at that time I'd do anything to save Syaoran. Even do sins like murder, steal or adultery against Tyler to save his life he has too much to leave behind? I'd give my own life.

"If you can save him, please do… Eriol-Kun" I said, and then I realized, I'd called him Eriol-Kun. He looked as surprised as I.

"What?" he asked,

"Please save him Eriol-Kun. And… you can call me Meiling-Chan now, I'm not mad at you any more" I told him. Eriol's eyes seemed to shine from cruel grey to river blue.

Then without a warning, Eriol pressed his warm lips on my forehead and helped me up.

When we came back here mother was out and Tyler was in Syaoran's room with Sakura. When we came into the room I was holding Eriol's hand, this made Tyler react with a frown.

"Who's this… person", Tyler asked with a note of disgust,

"He's a friend from school, and he can help" I told Tyler but Tyler didn't take kindly to Eriol's smile when I stuck up for him.

"Oh and what can this chirpy do?" Tyler asked. I didn't know, but Eriol took it from here.

"I am the Clow and I have the power to save lives of those who have no reason of death, I only save Li's if there is a reason or if I'm asked by someone special or both" Eriol said giving Tyler a serious look and specking in a formal voice.

Sakura looked up from her tears, "Eriol-San?"

Eriol and I came closer to Syaoran; his face was paler the Tomoyo's skin and he was breathing hard and deep.

Eriol went into his pocket and pulled out a Chinese peony and placed it on Syaoran's heart. I felt like I had seen this before. Then Eriol pulled my hand to touch the peony and then he placed his hand on top of mine.

"We have to do this together", Eriol told me, then he started saying things, and I think it was in English but I don't really understand English much. Then the room glowed and the peony Eriol and I were holding glowed and the pink light seemed to seek into Syaoran's chest and then the room went back to normal.

"That's it?" I asked, Eriol nodded,

"It should be, he should be talking to you by tomorrow and he will fit to go back to school by the end of the week" Eriol told me. Tyler just looked at the peony, it was now shrived and dead. Sakura cried with Joy and though herself onto Syaoran's chest and hugging him laughing and in joy.

I felt the darkness in my heart lift and my relief seemed to race through it. The feeling was pleasuring and wonderful, but I could only look to Eriol who looked back to me with a small blush.

He had just saved my cousin's life. I owed him Syaoran's life; I owed him a life of a human being. I through my arms round him with tears of joy almost as happy as Sakura's.

"Oh Eriol, thank you, I can't believe what you did" I said with my arms round his neck. He looked at me with a deep blush and told me that we did it and it was all down to us.

Eriol then hugged me back and I did something that I never thought I'd do to Eriol.

I kissed him, right on his lips, I felt their warmness again only it felt more twinge then him kiss on my forehead. Eriol seemed confused but then he seemed to kiss back and this kiss went on for three seconds (Like a year in kissing). Then I pulled away and all he could say was, "I just hope this saving Syaoran proves to you how sorry I am I insulted you" Eriol said with his arms still round my body, "Saving Syaoran was a pleasure to do, but not a pleasuring as that kiss".

Then he let go of me and said before leaving, "I hope we're friends again" and he left.

He's not as much as a rat I thought he was, but still, in side me. I will never forgive the first few weeks of lying to me about being a friend. Maybe he still feels the same way, but this was defiantly the day, we renewed our friendship and saved a friend too.

Meiling Li

P.S Eriol was your messiah God, thank you!