"Kari" Jake started, making the woman wince. Jake would only call her by her name if something very serious was to be crossing his mind, or heart.
"Kari, look, I love you ok? Never forget that!" the young man continued. His dark brown eyes had been shut tightly with pain, not phisical but in a place where nothing could ease it. His soul and heart were shattering apart, like a dry leaf being stepped on by the enormous weight and pressure of a horse. His lips were shut so tightly they became pale with the lack of blood, and his throat was so dry that swallowing hurted greatly to the delicate tissue.
"Jake…what?" Kari attempted, her eyes starting to itch signaling the pressence of tears. Her tounge was feeling as if a huge ammount of chocolate had been placed in it.
"let me speak, please" he cut her abruptly, "listen, my studies are taking the best of me, I barely have time to breathe, I need some time to relax, to get away from everything and focus on my studies. I'm sorry Kari, this is really hard for me, really…I…" Jake speeded across his words yet made them as clear as possible. However his voice failed him at the last sentece, and he chocked on his own pain, suffocating with the intense anguish of failure.
Kari stayed there, the earphone placed against her delicate skin, the loud and continuous beeping demonstrating the end of the conversation. She wouldn't react, the hit had been so strong and sudden that her coherency could not process the information with enough speed as to conclude the consequences. Stray tears trailed down her cheeks in a glittering dance of diamond like, yet liquid structure. The humid and salty fluid dripped against her cloth with a shinning motiong of jewelish glimmer, shattering stars floating lazily with their flashes of brief ranbows, rays of light difracting in their transparent deepness. Only then did the young girl react, placing delicately the phone back on it's place she managed to gain control over her body, which hesitantly reacted with numb muscles and almost robotic movements.
Yoley placed an arm around the young girl's shoulder, a tender and simpatheic hug pressed the slender body against the taller girl's body, and her eyes stared at the sky with a reproaching look flashing in the light brown eyes.
"and he said he needed time!" Kari spat, her body convulsing with each sob, her voice strangled with the acumulation of tears in her throat.
"shhh, there are more guys in this world, don't worry, I'm sure you'll find your Prince Charming very soon" Yoley said staring down with very unconvincing reassuring eyes at the youngster.
"Anyways, he's not right, I mean, all of us here are also having troubles at school, yet none of us drop our girlfriends!" spat an active Davis, fists clenched tightly and eyes flashing with anger, flames boiling inside the black orb of his brown eyes. Kari could see the young boy's body trembling with rage, and she knew of the deep care Davis had demonstrated for her in the past two years.
Kari smiled lightly at the three people surounding her, all full with worry and care, and the desire to punish the man's negligence aparent in Davis and Ken's eyes. She attempted to appear more content, yet her soul ached with the feeling of rejection, and the reality of having lost him forever, "what can I do? I love him!" she remarked making her point clear with the sincerity her eyes showed, the calid glitter that appeared in the blue orbs upon aknowledging such reality.
"Kari, forget him, he does not deserve your love!" a calm yet severe voice boomed in her heart, instead of easing the pain the thruth pierced her soul with the sharpness of an arrow. Ken stared at her, his icy blue eyes flashing and letting her know of the reality of his words, making her see that her tears were gone to waste.
"he's right, nobody who hurts you deserves your tears, because the one who cares about you will never make you cry!" stated Yoley in a calm voice, a gentle whisper pointing out the wisdom contained in such simple words.
Kari nodde shyly, yet inside her heart she knew well nothing could ease the pain that crossed the integrity of her soul, breaking her own happiness and shattering all the dreams she had ever considered precious for the future of her young life. The four friends made their way back torwards their respective homes, walking in intense silence across the cold streets, their calmness being tore apart only by the desperate and deep roaring of numerous cars, the screams of joy emmited by throats that had no knowledge of unhappiness, and the incoherent comunication of dogs. A general sound, like a hoarse mumble, or a deep growl, even a strangled sob would fly over the heads of the four friends, yet nobody inquired, nor did they speak to break the tension that threatened to split very soon.
Young blue eyes flashed with timid tears as the anhelant desire reflected on the crystaline surface. Kari's eyes were locked in the dull paleness of the phone, the steady item that seemed to laugh at her deception, at her hopeless wait. Indeed, knees pressed against her body, arms hugging her own, warm flesh, Kari waited patiently to hear the acute shrill and feel the gentle trembling of the phone. Her patiente would be granted with the stunning yell, and the gnetle rumble shook the plastic item with a seismic calm.
"Hello?" breathed in Kari eagerly as she grabbed the phone, leaping on it like a wild feline pouncing on it's prey.
"Kari dear, how are you?" inquired a familiar, yet cracked voice at the other side of the phone. Kari's face fell with deception, the person, a woman, speaking on the other side was not the person she had desired with all her heart that would answer her prayers.
"Hi Grandma, I'm fine!" she explained dully, closing her eyes tightly and sighing for herself.
"are you sure dear?" Inquired with insistence the woman, her voice flowing from it's usual dullness to a more dynamic worry.
"didn't feel too well this morning, I'm fine now!" Kari answered trying to appear more cheerful than she had been lately.
"hope you get well, is your mother there?" inquired the older woman, trying to sound something close to sympatheic, but too worried in her own priorities to even realize her grand daughter was nothing close to fine, happy or similar.
"sure, MOM!" Kari's voice boomed across the house with amplified intensity, and her throat screamed in pain at not being used to emit such powerful waves, since, for a long time, the loudest her voice had ever reached was a broken whisper of sadness.
Two months had passed by with nothing close to a change, two intense months in which Yoley had seen Kari consuming herself into grief. Yoley observed her friend's actions as they repeated themselves each day. Kari would sit by herself at a rotten, wooden bench, and for half an hour straight her mind would be lost into the infinity of nothingness, staring her eyes at the brilliance of a glow only she could observe. Then the bell would ring and the young woman would stand up and pace slowly, lifelessly, torwards the mouth of the beast that swalloed all teenager, the enormous, wooden doors that directed the students torwards their classes. An unemotive smile would be sent at the group, yet nothing would be spoken between them, no words, nothing but a gesture more propper of someone who has nothing to value in life.
"she's done for!" mumbled Davis with nostalgy and anger mixing in a venomous fluid into his mouth.
"And I cant contact Jake, every time I call his mother tells me he's too busy and doesn't want to be disturbed!" explained Yoley, her shoulder hanged down with deception and defeat, knowing well their actions were futile unless Kari ever decided that she wanted to live.
"contact him? I say we break his face! Look what he has done!" exclaimed Ken, strands of blueish black hair flashing past like the long threads of a wild stallion when his head turned abruptly and violently to focus his gaze on the two teenagers.
Yoley's fists clenched and all actions occuring in her organism inmediatly stopped upon a flashing realization crossed the vast extentions of her brain, "NO!" she snapped with a voice similar to a wolvish howl.
Ken and Davis turned around, confused expressions contorting their fine features, eyes locked into the woman's flaming ones.
"don't you understand? It's not him! We cant force him to be with someone he doesn't love any more!" Yoley growled, her arms shaking with fury at the expectances flashing in front of her eyes, at the obvious realities pouring down over her shoulders.
Ken and Davis stared at each other, their faces, angered at first, confused as a second choice, relaxed with understanding torwards the older female, yet that itch of overprotection torwards their angel would still pump through their veins.
"it's Kari! She's sad, but she's letting helself consume into nothingness, perhaps expecting Jake to feel simpathy and return to her!" snapped the woman with a bright conclusion, yet this remark only brought enraged blood to the taller boy's faces, whose fists quickly clenched into white and tense knuckles.
"Kari would never do that!" Davis remarked protecting the girl who had become like a sister to him.
"NO! I don't mean it as in doing it in purpose, but rather an authomatic action, instinct! Cant you see it?" Yoley explained with brief traces over her theory about the human instincts. The two teenager males exchanged confused glances, which caused the older woman's frustration to break like a ballon that had been inflated too much for it's capacity, "AH! FORGET IT!" exclaimed Yoley throwing her arms to the sky in total defeat.
She stormed past the boys, eyes fixed in her prey, the slender girl that had been their friend, who was currently isolating herself from the world, permeabilized by a coat of false hope to the reality raining in bucketfulls over her gentle head. Yoley reached her with a few long leaps, and was soon situated behind her. A hand like a claw pressed against the thin arm and spinned the feeble creature to focus the dreamy gaze on the furious eyes.
"Kari, damn it, react! You cant stay like this till the end of your life, you'll fall sick!" exclaimed with worry, yet also with anger, the young woman in front of her.
"what? Yoley! Just leave me alone ok?" growled the younger woman, yet her voice was the feeeble hiss of a puny and wounded snake, the most perilous of all for their unpredictable personalities.
"I WONT!" snarled the older and taller woman, plunging forward and throwing an extended hand at the thinner girl. Her long palm made contact with Kari's rosy cheek, the singing sensation of the collision coursed like electric impulses across the woman's palm and the girl's cheek. A pinkish stain appeared on Kari's cheek, yet the mark of her friend's hand didn't hurt as much as the realization of her own mistakes, of her own stupidity.
Ken and Davis took a step forward, yet they inmediatly stopped in expectation upon observing Kari's passive and even absent expression, eyes glossy, staring at the woman with something close to reverencial respect and submisive shame. Kari, to their surprise, pounced gently over the girl, embracing Yoley in a tight hug, hiding her pale face in her shoulder. Her small body convulsed with sobs and the tears moisted Yoley's shirt with a humid and warm sensation.
"I love him!" cried Kari with desperate sobs. Yoley looked up at the sky with a sad look shinning duly in her eyes, even a reproachfull gaze pierced the intense infinity of a clouded, wintery sky. Why did life had to be so complicated? Her arms surounded the slender body with motherly care and a gentle pat slapped the back with tender care. Kari's nails gripped the girl's shirt so tightly it seemed as if they had suddenly turned into sharp feline claws, and would tear through the thick coat, yet she was only attempting to gain support, to regain her balance, not phisically, but emotional.
Kari paced hurriedly across the street, the cold wind playing with the short strands of hair. Her eyes were teary but mostly due to the wind than the desperation that coursed her body, the intense feeling of despair that seemed to tear her soul apart with cruel fangs. Her gaze was lost into infinity, as shocked as she was feeling, as surprised at the recent event. Only one thing took her out of the inmense stupor she had been submerged in, the great unreality that locked her away from her ideal world. Her eyes looked up at the sky as…
To Be Continued…
AN: here comes another chapter, is it getting better? I sure hope so because I'm working hard on this idea.