Eternal
By Akasha Ravensong
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Chapter 10:
Song Fic: Running Away by Hoobastank
The whole world seemed to stand still when I turned around and my worst fears were confirmed. I don't know how long I stood there just staring at them, but after a while I noticed that people had started to stare at Heero, Quatre, and I. My face clearly showed how frightened I was. I knew it did. If looks could kill, the look of pure hatred that Heero was giving Quatre would have done so ten times over.
"I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you..."
From their corner duo and Trowa happened to look up just as Heero walked over to Amber. Nodding to each other they got up and began making their way over there in case of trouble. They watched warily never allowing their eyes to leave their friends.
Quatre put his hand on my shoulder and squeezed it in an attempt to comfort me. "Amber, are you okay? Do you know him?"
Heero moved closer and took my hand gently in his, and I gasped at the sudden contact and looked into his eyes. He leaned closer to me and whispered in my ear. "Lena, honey please dance with me." With a strangled cry I pushed him away from me and did the only thing I could think of. I ran.
Noticing my hectic free-for-all most people moved out of my way, but a few poor innocents were left sprawled across the dance floor. I never even noticed as I ran out the back door I had noticed earlier. Every single atom in my body was focused on getting out of there as quickly as possible. Turning the corner I ran into a rock hard someone and was about to fall to the ground when strong steady arms grabbed me gently and firmly.
"Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?..."
"Lena, hun, please give me a chance."
"No! You'll just hurt me again Heero. Just like every other time I gave you a chance!"
"It wasn't like you were the only one who got hurt Relena. You never let me into your life. You were too afraid of being hurt again that you wouldn't let me love you. I tried which is more then I can say for you!"
"You don't know what you're talking about Heero Yuy. Don't you dare judge me you don't know what its like! You don't know" I sobbed.
"To hell that I don't! I've been hurt just as many times as you. But I didn't push you away! Every time I tried to get close to you you'd run off scared or do something to distance me from yourself. You're too afraid to take a chance, and your pathetic excuse for giving me a chance was worth shit woman!"
"Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you..."
Footsteps echoed on the cobblestone roads and Heero looked up. Curious, I looked back to see Quatre, Duo, and Trowa running towards us. I sighed with relief and tried to move away from the hands that still held my shoulders. Heero just gripped my arms harder and I felt his hands dig into my arms. But I knew tha I had help with me and my courage grew a little bit.
"So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?..."
"You with your pretty words. If I pushed you away so much why the fuck did you stay. You could have left. Goddess knows you had more ten enough women around you. I doubt you ever had to spend a night alone even when I wasn't around!"
"Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind..."
"Damn You Relena! I never wanted anyone but you! They were friends of mine. I invited you to be with my friends, but you never even bothered giving me the chance to go out with your friends." He shook me hard and I felt disorientated for a moment. "You just left me out of your circle and never even introduced me to any of them. That hurt Lena, more then you could ever know."
"I'll ask you again, then why the hell did you bother with me Heero?"
"Because I love you Relena, even after everything we've been through. I haven't had another woman in my life since the day you left and I never stopped loving you. I want you to let me love you Relena. Let me into your heart in your life. Don't hold back. Don't shut me out Lena, please. I couldn't' take loosing you now that I've found you again. I love you Lena honey."
"Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?..."
It was more then I could take, and I started sobbing. I couldn't see I just sank into his chest and sobbed harder then I had ever before. There weren't many times that I had allowed myself to cry... I held everything inside. In the past two days I had cried more then I had in the three years that I had been away from Heero.
"Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind..."
What surprised me was that Heero pulled me into his arms and wrapped them around me. For the first time in far to long I felt completely safe and loved. He whispered sweet nothings in my ear and rubbed my back with his hands comforting me best he could. He was being so sweet and understanding that it just made me sob harder. When I finally stopped crying, Heero placed his hand under my chin and lifted my face up so that he could look in my eyes.
I smiled, Insanely happy with the world. "Heero, I love you too."
"So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
What is it I've got to say
So why are you running away?
To make you admit you're afraid
Why are you running away?..."
I saw tears into his eyes too and he leaned down and closed the gap between our lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and ran my hands through his hair as the innocent kiss became something more. Behind me I heard somebody clear their throats. We looked over at my three companions who had dumbstruck looks on their faces.
"What in Bloddy Hell is going on here Amber?"
By Akasha Ravensong
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Chapter 10:
Song Fic: Running Away by Hoobastank
The whole world seemed to stand still when I turned around and my worst fears were confirmed. I don't know how long I stood there just staring at them, but after a while I noticed that people had started to stare at Heero, Quatre, and I. My face clearly showed how frightened I was. I knew it did. If looks could kill, the look of pure hatred that Heero was giving Quatre would have done so ten times over.
"I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you..."
From their corner duo and Trowa happened to look up just as Heero walked over to Amber. Nodding to each other they got up and began making their way over there in case of trouble. They watched warily never allowing their eyes to leave their friends.
Quatre put his hand on my shoulder and squeezed it in an attempt to comfort me. "Amber, are you okay? Do you know him?"
Heero moved closer and took my hand gently in his, and I gasped at the sudden contact and looked into his eyes. He leaned closer to me and whispered in my ear. "Lena, honey please dance with me." With a strangled cry I pushed him away from me and did the only thing I could think of. I ran.
Noticing my hectic free-for-all most people moved out of my way, but a few poor innocents were left sprawled across the dance floor. I never even noticed as I ran out the back door I had noticed earlier. Every single atom in my body was focused on getting out of there as quickly as possible. Turning the corner I ran into a rock hard someone and was about to fall to the ground when strong steady arms grabbed me gently and firmly.
"Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?..."
"Lena, hun, please give me a chance."
"No! You'll just hurt me again Heero. Just like every other time I gave you a chance!"
"It wasn't like you were the only one who got hurt Relena. You never let me into your life. You were too afraid of being hurt again that you wouldn't let me love you. I tried which is more then I can say for you!"
"You don't know what you're talking about Heero Yuy. Don't you dare judge me you don't know what its like! You don't know" I sobbed.
"To hell that I don't! I've been hurt just as many times as you. But I didn't push you away! Every time I tried to get close to you you'd run off scared or do something to distance me from yourself. You're too afraid to take a chance, and your pathetic excuse for giving me a chance was worth shit woman!"
"Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you..."
Footsteps echoed on the cobblestone roads and Heero looked up. Curious, I looked back to see Quatre, Duo, and Trowa running towards us. I sighed with relief and tried to move away from the hands that still held my shoulders. Heero just gripped my arms harder and I felt his hands dig into my arms. But I knew tha I had help with me and my courage grew a little bit.
"So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?..."
"You with your pretty words. If I pushed you away so much why the fuck did you stay. You could have left. Goddess knows you had more ten enough women around you. I doubt you ever had to spend a night alone even when I wasn't around!"
"Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind..."
"Damn You Relena! I never wanted anyone but you! They were friends of mine. I invited you to be with my friends, but you never even bothered giving me the chance to go out with your friends." He shook me hard and I felt disorientated for a moment. "You just left me out of your circle and never even introduced me to any of them. That hurt Lena, more then you could ever know."
"I'll ask you again, then why the hell did you bother with me Heero?"
"Because I love you Relena, even after everything we've been through. I haven't had another woman in my life since the day you left and I never stopped loving you. I want you to let me love you Relena. Let me into your heart in your life. Don't hold back. Don't shut me out Lena, please. I couldn't' take loosing you now that I've found you again. I love you Lena honey."
"Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?..."
It was more then I could take, and I started sobbing. I couldn't see I just sank into his chest and sobbed harder then I had ever before. There weren't many times that I had allowed myself to cry... I held everything inside. In the past two days I had cried more then I had in the three years that I had been away from Heero.
"Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind..."
What surprised me was that Heero pulled me into his arms and wrapped them around me. For the first time in far to long I felt completely safe and loved. He whispered sweet nothings in my ear and rubbed my back with his hands comforting me best he could. He was being so sweet and understanding that it just made me sob harder. When I finally stopped crying, Heero placed his hand under my chin and lifted my face up so that he could look in my eyes.
I smiled, Insanely happy with the world. "Heero, I love you too."
"So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
What is it I've got to say
So why are you running away?
To make you admit you're afraid
Why are you running away?..."
I saw tears into his eyes too and he leaned down and closed the gap between our lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and ran my hands through his hair as the innocent kiss became something more. Behind me I heard somebody clear their throats. We looked over at my three companions who had dumbstruck looks on their faces.
"What in Bloddy Hell is going on here Amber?"