Note from Meiling: This is the last entry I ever write and I also wrote an afterwards or something like that for the person who I send my diary to. I realise at the end that I can't keep it and I need to give it to someone I can trust and someone who no one will suspect. The story so far, well it was my engament party and something strange was going on when Tomoyo, Sakura, Eriol and I saw my uncle do something to a drink he thought Syaoran would drink but Yukito drank it and I used my new found healing powers to save him. I also had a vision from the past of Eriol and Melissa. I saw it from the eyes of Melissa. From that I've been wondering, I know it may sound silly but, I have been wondering-
Am I Melissa?
Uncle Zyro must have been trying to kill him, Syaoran, and now its clear the only ones who can stop him... Is me. But I have a fake wedding to think of....
Note from Cardwitch: You heard whats been going on and it's intresting that Meiling is thinking that she might be Melissa, what do you think? Thank you to all who have reviewed my stories in the past. A short list with a special note to you will be put at the end and I promise you all that if you think it's too hard to wonder about the end. I am planning and writing a sequil which I hope you will love. Meiling didn't say the title for her last entry or entries, so.... It will be simply-
The Wedding, Part II (Finale)
Good luck, no flames and THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE!
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2:00 am
Dear Diary,
I know it's very early. 3 hours from my last entry but.... I'm so scared.... I thought when I was a baby getting was the best thing I'll ever need to do but from this is horrible thing. I don't love Tyler, what if I do end up marrying him. I remember the first day I met him, I was so angry at Eriol. Now I'm marrying Tyler, I hate him and I am in love with Eriol.
I can't go on if I do end up marrying Tyler, he's not the face I want to look at every morning and night! Far from it, far from it, I hate him, hate, hate, hate, hate him. I wish I could flee this life but I can't because it keeps coming back to me.
I can't write anymore, I feel tired, yet I know that the moment I put you down and switch off my light I will quickly become a wake again. So I will write on, I don't have much to talk about but I will write on.
My uncle Zyro, I know I have named him Shiro now and again but I be confused, my uncle re-named jhmself after his father when Ryuu became a leader. Now I believe Zyro is a crule man who hates Syaoran. I hate my uncle, he keeps trying to harm my dear Syaoran. It's un fair and I hate him, yet he will be there at this wedding I'm having tomorrow.
Zyro is my mother's brother too, Jinling is indeed my mother and his young sister, having me at 13 or 14 years old made my uncle think her as a silly girl. Eriol used to think of me as a silly girl in his diary.... maybe I got it from my mother. At least I'm am not married at my age of 15, well at least not yet and pregnant or already birthed of a child. I don't intend to do so especially with that foolish old, monster Tyler. I will not let him touch me, myself, I will not let him have myself. I hate the idea- him touching my body... I don't even want to think about it. It's so grotesc.
I can't think of and think anymore more...
Dear Diary,
I dropped off on the last words I wrote in my last entry sorry. I had a dream about Eriol, it was strange where I was yet sweet what I saw. I tend to dream on these days, with only 13 hours to my wedding... what will I do?
My dream made me happy, but near the end before I woke up, Tyler came in and broke me away from a warming hug that I was in with Eriol. I wanted to hit him like any other day of my life with him. I dreamet that I was already married to Tyler and I was bashed around, made to have children for his terrible family and told off by his horrible mother. Like with my mother before. Eriol tried to save me, but Tyler killed him and Eriol, died in my arms. Tyler just stood there looking over me with his crule eyes.
I wanted to kill him too, or kill myself, justify the taking of Eriol's life somehow. I woke up then. I felt like I had had a horrible hang over... I wish to just die for I wait till morning now to find out the out come of my life...
Yours Meiling.
Dear Diary,
I am far away now, my day has been long but my struggle is over. I lost the battle but I won the war, I am free. This was a day I will never forget...
I woke up this morning, once again for the third time. My mother, Yelan and Syaoran were all there. Syaoran looked at me so oddly like he heard something that was bound to change our lives, it's weird how I just got all that by looking at him. I treat him like a little brother these days, Tomoyo does too, she once said he's like the little she'll never have. I think it's wonderful she feels that way... Syaoran does act and in fact is the baby of the group, he's very protective and very shy, what you find in a little brother. ^_^ He's cute to be one too. I've loved him the past but now, I just was to hug him cause he's like my brother.
Auntie Yelan was combing him hair like she did when Uncle Ryuu was still alive, Syaoran's hair has always been very soft and kitten like, I should know, from the age of 5 to 10 I combed his hair and from 7 he started to find it weird. Probably cause he didn't like me the way I liked him, I'm glad we're in the same place now and moved on. Yelan once said that there is a soul mate out there for everyone, sadly some of us miss them but if you have the right feeling then you found the soul mate. My mother then said to her that the way to find them, is to stop looking for them. What a wonderful theroy, that just proves the doubts of marrying Tyler I thought then.
"Meiling" Yelan then said, "Your wedding is very soon, you should let us help you get ready". I thought there was something going on by the tone of her voice, I know her voice doesn't change to often but I could tell. Syaoran walked by me and said-
"It'll be okay" and walked towards his room. Syaoran was in there for most of the day while the grown ups fiddled with my hair and made me get dressed. I had a red wedding dress. the one my father chose. It was a Chinese style one, it was really strange... how no one said anything. My mother is quiet a talker around Yelan and she likes her a lot, when she was with Ryuu Li, Auntie was all mama wanted to talk about. Like with me and Syaoran, I think he's totally cool!
We all do!
Tyler, so says mother, is with the other men and they are already there. Mequing looked really sad as soon as I asked about father, Yelan patted her on the head. Mequing blushed.
I was dreading lunchtime, that was when I would leave for the chruch up on the hill. Sakura said she oftern saw Eriol on one of the towers up there, Syaoran said that he felt that Eriol was thinking about things when he was up there.
I doubt he'll be up there today, he did say he loved me and if I was still deeply in love with Syaoran and he and Sakura were getting married, I'd be sad, maybe not come. I guess Tomoyo would have said it's the right thing to do, to go.
Now that I think about it I think I would go because its my own will not to, but I'd be bothered by it for the rest of my life I wasn't there for their wedding.
Sakura came round with something, I don't know what. She straight away went into Syaoran's room. But before she did she said how beautiful I looked.
It was nice of her but this was the one time I thought that I'd be better off be an ugly hag for my wedding day.
Tomoyo came round with her camara and the flowers. She also came with the bridesmaids dresses and helped my sister get dressed up in hers.
"You look super cute Meiling" Tomoyo said when Meiquing was dressed up. She then got out ther camara and taped me.
"This is the before the wedding shot, you look really sweet" Tomoyo went on and the she said, "I just want to capture this moment on the video so I can tresure it always. I don't have to many videos of you you know".
Tomoyo then grabbed my hands, and said- "Try not to get to shy and if you have a reason to worry just come to me. Oh and one more thing, at any time of the wedding please talk to me, or Touya or Yukito" then she backed away with the camara still on me and into Syaoran's room.
I didn't get what she ment but I wondered a lot after that. As it got to 11:00 I started to feel upset and I felt like crying so I went to my room.
Meiquing asked me if I was feeling well. I said I just wanted to lie down while I can. I don't care if I'm late... it's my job, I didn't care if never show up for this stupid waste of my time wedding.
I realised then, I had finally become like Syaoran.
I begun to cry in my room, I think I may have sobbed out that I didnt want to do this and that I couldn't do this. It was then my angels came to aid.
Syaoran and Tomoyo came in. Syaoran sat my bed with me and Tomoyo kneeled infront of me.
"Meiling" Syaoran said, "I know you dont want to do this, I know how you feel, but you have remember that if you want you can run out on it"
"I can" I said,
"Hell yeah" Syaoran told me, "And you know a good way to escape, I've been practising it since I was six" Syaoran said. (That was when I fell in love with him). "Okay I know this is a silly six year old escape plan but it works... you go into the bathroom and then you can pop the glass out of the frame, that way you crawl out and run away" Syaoran sad with a smile. We both giggled.
Tomoyo sat there and took my hands like she does, and said, "You really don't want to marry him do you?"
I just shock me head.
"Well it just so happens that, Syaoran, Sakura and I have a plan, so what ever happens there you just play along with it... Your mom and Syaoran's mom have a plan too, but Syaoran thought up the first part" Tomoyo said patting Syaoran's soft head.
"What are you going to do?" I asked,
"Trust me, I'm Syaoran Li" Syaoran said with a smile and a peace throw. I admitt a blush I made ^_^ I can't help still thinking he's cute. Syaoran's sisters think he's 'The most sweet brother in the world and there is no other brother better because they have the best'.
I trusted them as the two left the room, I'm glad I have a cousin and a friend like that.
But as Tomoyo left, Syaoran stopped in the door and smiled, "Remember, it'll be okay. Tyler is looser I know one person who loves you..." he said.
I was confussed, I guessed Tomoyo may have said something or maybe even Eriol... but Eriol knows Eriol loves me. I told him, though it seemed to be like Syaoran to forget.
"I know, but I don't know if he ment it anymore" I said,
"Oh, I didn't mean... never mind I think Eriol does though" Syaoran said walking back to me. I was confussed, did he mean someone else."But before we leave as it's time to go, I want to say that no matter what happens I will always be there if you really need to talk to a family member... here I am, and thanks you've been just like a sister to me" he said. He then sat next to me a then did something I'd never thought he'd do, to me at least.
He kissed my cheek, his lips are so soft and kind. They were diffrent from when Eriol kissed me, Syaoran felt like I was kissed by my brother. I think thats the best way. Syaoran then walked out.
That was the last time I have spoken with Syaoran in privert.
As he said, it was time to go to the church. All of us- Me, mother, auntie, Syaoran, Meiquing, Sakura and Tomoyo all left together we walked out the door. I looked at the sky and saw how gray it was. It reminded me of Eriol's eyes when he was sad, it hurt me so to know that I was going to go to a church and... but then I remebered, Syaoran's plan.
I decided to fake smile, as we went down to the car. Meiquing held my train, when mother first said the train was going to be 1 meter long, Meiquing said- "That's small for a choo-choo".
I thought that was sweet of her to say that...
As we came closer to the chruch people were already showing up... Syaoran patted my head, so did Sakura, Yelan and Tomoyo took the camara and taped me. As she walked in she gave me a okay sign and taping me walked backwards.
Yelan walked in, I only noticed that her hair was down, I'm suprised that she wasn't falling over it, I guess she's had it cut. Mymother took my hand and said under her breath- "I'm sorry, for being such a horrible mother, I'll never forgive myself for the mark on your back. I'm sorry".
I didn't say anything, I just cluched her hand tighter so she knew I was okay. Something inside me knew I was being watched by someone at that time but by the time I decided to look up it was time to start walking. I had my bridesmaids just making it to the end of the run and it was time for mother and I had to start walking.
Everyone looked at me it felt horrible, like I wanted to fall onto the floor and cry. I always thought getting married would be wonderful and simple, but its nothing like I wanted my wedding day to be. I don;t have butterflies or cold feet. I just was to kick or punch Tyler in the nose when I stand next to him.
As I walked I turned around, Syaoran wasn't in sight, nither was Sakura. When I got the other end next to Tyler, I wanted to turn around and run out. I knew if I tried my father and Zyro would go mad and stop me somehow. Tomoyo smiled and whispered- "It'll be okay, it always is".
I can't believe I heard her say it, but I did- I'm happy! But then the vicar guy started talking... I wasn't listening. Suddenly the guy stopped and we all looked up when we heard something moving about on the roof. He started again but there was more scratching.
"Just ignore it, go on" my father snapped. Zyro nodded sharply.
The vicar went on, every word hit me... finally he said, "If anyone has any objection why these two should not be joined together in holy matromony speck now or forever hold your peace..."
I hoped someone would say something...
Suddenly... the roof of the church caved in a bit and some came flying through the roof... and landed on Tyler. I went down to see who it was and to my surprise-
"Eriol?" I said, a bit of hope hit me.
"Sorry what did you just say?" Eriol said turning to the vicar.
"I asked if there was anyone who had any objection" the Vicar said. Eriol nodded and still standing on Tyler's back said-
"Oh yeah that's me" Eriol said and pointing down to the ground or rather Tyler, "She can't marry him".
"And why not?" my father bellowed, Eriol looked at me and all stary eyed he said-
"Because I'm in love with her" Eriol said, looking at me with a smile. Tyler the got up causing Eriol to fall off him.
"Get off me you pest" Tyler said, I ran to Eriol's aide, Tomoyo came out of the crowed and helped too. "That's the guy I told you about Li, he's the guy who Meiling has been making eyes at" Tyler said pointing at Eriol. Eriol got up himself and Tomoyo helped me up.
Eriol then looked at Tyler and said, "I've seen how you've treated her", Eriol spun around to face father, "And you", Eriol turned to my mother and looked at her with coldness... but then smiled. "You are the only one who has learnt that Meiling is a living creature who by one has always dreamt of this day and I want you to know...." he winked, "I know and am in on the plan!"
"What plan" Zyro yelled,
"This one!" Syaoran's voice said, suddenly he jumped throw the hole in the roof, "Sorry but we happen to be crashing this wedding" he said with a smile.
"Syaoran?" Sakura's voice said, Syaoranopened his arms and out of the hole jumped Sakura and into Syaoran's arms they smiled at each other like they we're staring in a romantic movie.
"The Japanese Whore!" Zyro yelled,
Syaoran and Sakura frowned, "If your going to call me something, call me the Japanese Concubine!" Sakura joked, still in Syaoran's arms.
"Call her that one more time I get out my sword and rip you a new mouth!" Syaoran said pointing to Zyro.
"Oh Syaoran" Sakura said in a starry way...
"Oh Sakura" Syaoran said in the same starry way...
(I don't know if they had noticed but this is my messed up wedding, they were totally stealing my thunder!)
I looked to Eriol and smiled, he smiled back... Suddenly, Tyler jumped forward and thrashed into Eriol causing his noise to bleed. Tyler then went back to me while Eriol was down and he picked me up and Tyler then bought me level with him face.
Something inside me had finally after 15 year has had enough of my beating, my being pushed around, rejection this had really cause my tp to blow off! I felt like a dragon was breathing fire inside me and I had to realise it.
I kicked Tyler in his.... err.... you know.... and he dropped me to the ground. What a wimp I thought. I turned around and my father came towards me, I started up my guns and begun to through my fists and feet at him. My father is good at this too so I'd finally met my match.
He swang at my head and I swang and his legs. I didn't care what I hit, I was kicking for der life, I felt like this was the way I was going to get out of here. Finally I kicked my father in the same place I'd kicked Tyler and boy it must have hurt him. My father fell down.
While I was free I looked around, most of the guests had ran off but Sakura, Syaoran, Tomoyo, my father's friends, Zyro and mother and Meiquing still were there. One of the guys were fighting with mother, she was far to good for them. She's so good at this, I must have got what I got from her.
I looked around Sakura was fighting with the other thug with her staff out. I looked round and my sister was in a cornor crying, I tried to go to her but Tyler's back up and grabs me from behind. I kicked backwards, I felt so powerful bringing down some people who were way bigger then me.
I looked back to my sister, Tomoyo was with her. I then saw one of the thugs came up behind her.
"Tomoyo-chan!" I cried,
Tomoyo turned around and...
"AHHHHH!" Tomoyo screamed, I opened my eyes and, "MY HAIR!" Tomoyo cried. I looked at her and to my shock...
Tomoyo's hair had been cut to shoulder lengh... her beautiful violet waved lay on the floor and they were dead, no longer part of her pretty head. Tomoyo sat onto the ground and cried. I ran towards her and so did Eriol but Eriol was held back by my father.
"Oh Tomoyo" I said giving her a hug, Meiquing patted her shoulder.
"She's right, it'll grow back" she said. I stayied with the two of them and watched. Tomoyo needed my support. I watched the fighting go on but one caught me eyes.
Syaoran was fighting with Zyro with the sword, Zyro had his own out too. I watched and heard everything that came between them.
"Give it up boy" Zyro grunted,
"What's there to give up, I can fight if I want" Syaoran said, "And fight you I will" Syaoran said he pushed back on Uncle and then swords met again.
"You know you are your father's son, just as foolish" Zyro said trying to push on Syaoran. "Thats why he's dead". Syaoran pushed again but then fell back on himself. Zyro was on him but Syaoran push forwards again, his sword had always been very good.
"Why do you do this uncle, why is it that when ever you are near me trouble seems to follow me about?" Syaoran asked,
"Because, Little Wolf" Zyro said with an evil smile, then he bash Syaoran to the ground and trapped him under him. "Ever since your father died, I've to kill you too, little one". Everyone in the room stopped fighting and looked at them, nearly all of us, me also were shocked. Zyro hated Ryuu Li, Syaoran's sweethearted father, all this time he's tried to kill Syaoran too.
Syaoran then tried to get out of Zyro's clush but he was too heavy. I wanted to run out and stop this but Eriol grabbed my arm and wouldn't let me. "And nows the time to rid the clan of you!"
Zyro lifted his sword towards Syaoran's heart but then Sakura grabbed the arms of my uncle and pulled him back. He turned around and...
Sakura was thrown into me and all the others in the room.
"You killed my father... didn't you?" Syaoran said, he seemed very upset and angry my heart hit me like a nightmare. Zyro nodded and watched at the same time I saw... them run towards each other and then finally. They stabbed into eachother.
Zyro's eyes seemed strucken,
Syaoran eyes lost all beautiful shine and their wonder brown beauty like he had been take by shock. Zyro suddenly feel back.
I ran towards them, Zyro was holding his arm as it was bleeding, Syaoran's was bleeding too. I got a bit of my wedding dress and put it round his arm. I didn't want to but I did the same with my uncle, but when I tried he wouldn't let me. He just lay down and didn't move.
My mother, got up and said- "Go with Tomoyo, Touya and Yukito. Take this envolope and your sister, everything you need is in there, I promise. Yelan will take care of this" my mother said, she then grabbed both of us and hugged us. "Go!" she said.
I looked back at Eriol, he looked sad, but Tomoyo grabbed my hand and pulled me away. As we walked away we saw an ambulance come. I think it's too late for my uncle, I would have used my healing power but I didn't have the time to ask.
I feel like I should have done more... but it's too late now...
I opened the envolope and had a look inside, inside was mine and Meiquing's passports, two tickets and something that starts an account or something. I had other stuff which I guess I had to use. I was shocked when I saw that the tickets were one-way, no return to... HAWAII! I looked at the other stuff, it said where I was going and where I was living and where my job would be. The school I had to send Meiquing to and who my boss would be. Some guy called Big Bob?
I saw that Tomoyo, Touya and Yukito were taking me to the airport, a place I know all too well!
Touya, when we got there grabbed my things and checked them right away. Tomoyo took my hand and walked off towards where I'd get on the plane.
It has been 20 mins since my moment... my bording call was called and I said my byes.
"I'll miss you Meiling" Tomoyo told me she was hugging me so tight I couldn't breath. The boys bid me good bye too. Tomoyo walked me to the bording tunnle thing.
Tomoyo saw I was sad, "Meiling-chan? You so troubled, you didn't get to tell Eriol did you?"
"No I didn't, I wish I...I wish I" I said, I remember hurting so much. I guessed Eriol would feel just how my Syaoran dear, I didn't know if I'd ever see Eriol again.
But then as if by magical powers... Eriol ran towards us.
"Meiling" Eriol cried. I span around as so did Meiquing and I saw a happy smile spread across my dear friend Daidoji's face.
"Eriol!" I cried, he ran up to us, and smiled to me, he patted Meiquing's head. He then faced me as I said-
"Eriol, I have to tell you" I said, my heart felt like a knife was stabbing it and I knew this feeling wouldn't go away until I told him. "I, I love you Eriol, I really do and I wish I didn't have to leave". I felt like I was going to fall onto the floor and my legs were hurting to sit down.
"I'm glad that you told me" Eriol told me. Meiquing hid behind me and giggled when Eriol kissed me one last time.
I felt like me world was ending, like I had to stay here, I felt horrible and painful. I love him so much, that last kiss woke me up and proved to me that letting him go would ruin me. But I'm here on the plane right now so I lived.
I said good bye and I still remember the last words Eriol said before I left.
"My sweet Mei, my Pretty Mei, never forget me and when your father stops looking for you, Sakura, Syaoran and I will come for you. If this is a bad time for them only I will." Eriol then said, "I'll wait for you forever".
No one loves me enough to love me forever. I trust him but...
I doubt he'll wait.
Love Mei-Lin Li, Aged 15.
MEILING'S DIARY ENDS HERE
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REVIEW EVERYONE! I will thank you all on my web site and in other places. I'm not writing anymore stories or the sequil until I'm out of Hospital... Sorry.... ^_^
But this isn't the end, I don't know if I'll write anymore M+E for a while. I'm working on a M+T and I want to finsh all my stories now.
Farewell,
Trust me I'm the Cardwitch
Am I Melissa?
Uncle Zyro must have been trying to kill him, Syaoran, and now its clear the only ones who can stop him... Is me. But I have a fake wedding to think of....
Note from Cardwitch: You heard whats been going on and it's intresting that Meiling is thinking that she might be Melissa, what do you think? Thank you to all who have reviewed my stories in the past. A short list with a special note to you will be put at the end and I promise you all that if you think it's too hard to wonder about the end. I am planning and writing a sequil which I hope you will love. Meiling didn't say the title for her last entry or entries, so.... It will be simply-
The Wedding, Part II (Finale)
Good luck, no flames and THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE!
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2:00 am
Dear Diary,
I know it's very early. 3 hours from my last entry but.... I'm so scared.... I thought when I was a baby getting was the best thing I'll ever need to do but from this is horrible thing. I don't love Tyler, what if I do end up marrying him. I remember the first day I met him, I was so angry at Eriol. Now I'm marrying Tyler, I hate him and I am in love with Eriol.
I can't go on if I do end up marrying Tyler, he's not the face I want to look at every morning and night! Far from it, far from it, I hate him, hate, hate, hate, hate him. I wish I could flee this life but I can't because it keeps coming back to me.
I can't write anymore, I feel tired, yet I know that the moment I put you down and switch off my light I will quickly become a wake again. So I will write on, I don't have much to talk about but I will write on.
My uncle Zyro, I know I have named him Shiro now and again but I be confused, my uncle re-named jhmself after his father when Ryuu became a leader. Now I believe Zyro is a crule man who hates Syaoran. I hate my uncle, he keeps trying to harm my dear Syaoran. It's un fair and I hate him, yet he will be there at this wedding I'm having tomorrow.
Zyro is my mother's brother too, Jinling is indeed my mother and his young sister, having me at 13 or 14 years old made my uncle think her as a silly girl. Eriol used to think of me as a silly girl in his diary.... maybe I got it from my mother. At least I'm am not married at my age of 15, well at least not yet and pregnant or already birthed of a child. I don't intend to do so especially with that foolish old, monster Tyler. I will not let him touch me, myself, I will not let him have myself. I hate the idea- him touching my body... I don't even want to think about it. It's so grotesc.
I can't think of and think anymore more...
Dear Diary,
I dropped off on the last words I wrote in my last entry sorry. I had a dream about Eriol, it was strange where I was yet sweet what I saw. I tend to dream on these days, with only 13 hours to my wedding... what will I do?
My dream made me happy, but near the end before I woke up, Tyler came in and broke me away from a warming hug that I was in with Eriol. I wanted to hit him like any other day of my life with him. I dreamet that I was already married to Tyler and I was bashed around, made to have children for his terrible family and told off by his horrible mother. Like with my mother before. Eriol tried to save me, but Tyler killed him and Eriol, died in my arms. Tyler just stood there looking over me with his crule eyes.
I wanted to kill him too, or kill myself, justify the taking of Eriol's life somehow. I woke up then. I felt like I had had a horrible hang over... I wish to just die for I wait till morning now to find out the out come of my life...
Yours Meiling.
Dear Diary,
I am far away now, my day has been long but my struggle is over. I lost the battle but I won the war, I am free. This was a day I will never forget...
I woke up this morning, once again for the third time. My mother, Yelan and Syaoran were all there. Syaoran looked at me so oddly like he heard something that was bound to change our lives, it's weird how I just got all that by looking at him. I treat him like a little brother these days, Tomoyo does too, she once said he's like the little she'll never have. I think it's wonderful she feels that way... Syaoran does act and in fact is the baby of the group, he's very protective and very shy, what you find in a little brother. ^_^ He's cute to be one too. I've loved him the past but now, I just was to hug him cause he's like my brother.
Auntie Yelan was combing him hair like she did when Uncle Ryuu was still alive, Syaoran's hair has always been very soft and kitten like, I should know, from the age of 5 to 10 I combed his hair and from 7 he started to find it weird. Probably cause he didn't like me the way I liked him, I'm glad we're in the same place now and moved on. Yelan once said that there is a soul mate out there for everyone, sadly some of us miss them but if you have the right feeling then you found the soul mate. My mother then said to her that the way to find them, is to stop looking for them. What a wonderful theroy, that just proves the doubts of marrying Tyler I thought then.
"Meiling" Yelan then said, "Your wedding is very soon, you should let us help you get ready". I thought there was something going on by the tone of her voice, I know her voice doesn't change to often but I could tell. Syaoran walked by me and said-
"It'll be okay" and walked towards his room. Syaoran was in there for most of the day while the grown ups fiddled with my hair and made me get dressed. I had a red wedding dress. the one my father chose. It was a Chinese style one, it was really strange... how no one said anything. My mother is quiet a talker around Yelan and she likes her a lot, when she was with Ryuu Li, Auntie was all mama wanted to talk about. Like with me and Syaoran, I think he's totally cool!
We all do!
Tyler, so says mother, is with the other men and they are already there. Mequing looked really sad as soon as I asked about father, Yelan patted her on the head. Mequing blushed.
I was dreading lunchtime, that was when I would leave for the chruch up on the hill. Sakura said she oftern saw Eriol on one of the towers up there, Syaoran said that he felt that Eriol was thinking about things when he was up there.
I doubt he'll be up there today, he did say he loved me and if I was still deeply in love with Syaoran and he and Sakura were getting married, I'd be sad, maybe not come. I guess Tomoyo would have said it's the right thing to do, to go.
Now that I think about it I think I would go because its my own will not to, but I'd be bothered by it for the rest of my life I wasn't there for their wedding.
Sakura came round with something, I don't know what. She straight away went into Syaoran's room. But before she did she said how beautiful I looked.
It was nice of her but this was the one time I thought that I'd be better off be an ugly hag for my wedding day.
Tomoyo came round with her camara and the flowers. She also came with the bridesmaids dresses and helped my sister get dressed up in hers.
"You look super cute Meiling" Tomoyo said when Meiquing was dressed up. She then got out ther camara and taped me.
"This is the before the wedding shot, you look really sweet" Tomoyo went on and the she said, "I just want to capture this moment on the video so I can tresure it always. I don't have to many videos of you you know".
Tomoyo then grabbed my hands, and said- "Try not to get to shy and if you have a reason to worry just come to me. Oh and one more thing, at any time of the wedding please talk to me, or Touya or Yukito" then she backed away with the camara still on me and into Syaoran's room.
I didn't get what she ment but I wondered a lot after that. As it got to 11:00 I started to feel upset and I felt like crying so I went to my room.
Meiquing asked me if I was feeling well. I said I just wanted to lie down while I can. I don't care if I'm late... it's my job, I didn't care if never show up for this stupid waste of my time wedding.
I realised then, I had finally become like Syaoran.
I begun to cry in my room, I think I may have sobbed out that I didnt want to do this and that I couldn't do this. It was then my angels came to aid.
Syaoran and Tomoyo came in. Syaoran sat my bed with me and Tomoyo kneeled infront of me.
"Meiling" Syaoran said, "I know you dont want to do this, I know how you feel, but you have remember that if you want you can run out on it"
"I can" I said,
"Hell yeah" Syaoran told me, "And you know a good way to escape, I've been practising it since I was six" Syaoran said. (That was when I fell in love with him). "Okay I know this is a silly six year old escape plan but it works... you go into the bathroom and then you can pop the glass out of the frame, that way you crawl out and run away" Syaoran sad with a smile. We both giggled.
Tomoyo sat there and took my hands like she does, and said, "You really don't want to marry him do you?"
I just shock me head.
"Well it just so happens that, Syaoran, Sakura and I have a plan, so what ever happens there you just play along with it... Your mom and Syaoran's mom have a plan too, but Syaoran thought up the first part" Tomoyo said patting Syaoran's soft head.
"What are you going to do?" I asked,
"Trust me, I'm Syaoran Li" Syaoran said with a smile and a peace throw. I admitt a blush I made ^_^ I can't help still thinking he's cute. Syaoran's sisters think he's 'The most sweet brother in the world and there is no other brother better because they have the best'.
I trusted them as the two left the room, I'm glad I have a cousin and a friend like that.
But as Tomoyo left, Syaoran stopped in the door and smiled, "Remember, it'll be okay. Tyler is looser I know one person who loves you..." he said.
I was confussed, I guessed Tomoyo may have said something or maybe even Eriol... but Eriol knows Eriol loves me. I told him, though it seemed to be like Syaoran to forget.
"I know, but I don't know if he ment it anymore" I said,
"Oh, I didn't mean... never mind I think Eriol does though" Syaoran said walking back to me. I was confussed, did he mean someone else."But before we leave as it's time to go, I want to say that no matter what happens I will always be there if you really need to talk to a family member... here I am, and thanks you've been just like a sister to me" he said. He then sat next to me a then did something I'd never thought he'd do, to me at least.
He kissed my cheek, his lips are so soft and kind. They were diffrent from when Eriol kissed me, Syaoran felt like I was kissed by my brother. I think thats the best way. Syaoran then walked out.
That was the last time I have spoken with Syaoran in privert.
As he said, it was time to go to the church. All of us- Me, mother, auntie, Syaoran, Meiquing, Sakura and Tomoyo all left together we walked out the door. I looked at the sky and saw how gray it was. It reminded me of Eriol's eyes when he was sad, it hurt me so to know that I was going to go to a church and... but then I remebered, Syaoran's plan.
I decided to fake smile, as we went down to the car. Meiquing held my train, when mother first said the train was going to be 1 meter long, Meiquing said- "That's small for a choo-choo".
I thought that was sweet of her to say that...
As we came closer to the chruch people were already showing up... Syaoran patted my head, so did Sakura, Yelan and Tomoyo took the camara and taped me. As she walked in she gave me a okay sign and taping me walked backwards.
Yelan walked in, I only noticed that her hair was down, I'm suprised that she wasn't falling over it, I guess she's had it cut. Mymother took my hand and said under her breath- "I'm sorry, for being such a horrible mother, I'll never forgive myself for the mark on your back. I'm sorry".
I didn't say anything, I just cluched her hand tighter so she knew I was okay. Something inside me knew I was being watched by someone at that time but by the time I decided to look up it was time to start walking. I had my bridesmaids just making it to the end of the run and it was time for mother and I had to start walking.
Everyone looked at me it felt horrible, like I wanted to fall onto the floor and cry. I always thought getting married would be wonderful and simple, but its nothing like I wanted my wedding day to be. I don;t have butterflies or cold feet. I just was to kick or punch Tyler in the nose when I stand next to him.
As I walked I turned around, Syaoran wasn't in sight, nither was Sakura. When I got the other end next to Tyler, I wanted to turn around and run out. I knew if I tried my father and Zyro would go mad and stop me somehow. Tomoyo smiled and whispered- "It'll be okay, it always is".
I can't believe I heard her say it, but I did- I'm happy! But then the vicar guy started talking... I wasn't listening. Suddenly the guy stopped and we all looked up when we heard something moving about on the roof. He started again but there was more scratching.
"Just ignore it, go on" my father snapped. Zyro nodded sharply.
The vicar went on, every word hit me... finally he said, "If anyone has any objection why these two should not be joined together in holy matromony speck now or forever hold your peace..."
I hoped someone would say something...
Suddenly... the roof of the church caved in a bit and some came flying through the roof... and landed on Tyler. I went down to see who it was and to my surprise-
"Eriol?" I said, a bit of hope hit me.
"Sorry what did you just say?" Eriol said turning to the vicar.
"I asked if there was anyone who had any objection" the Vicar said. Eriol nodded and still standing on Tyler's back said-
"Oh yeah that's me" Eriol said and pointing down to the ground or rather Tyler, "She can't marry him".
"And why not?" my father bellowed, Eriol looked at me and all stary eyed he said-
"Because I'm in love with her" Eriol said, looking at me with a smile. Tyler the got up causing Eriol to fall off him.
"Get off me you pest" Tyler said, I ran to Eriol's aide, Tomoyo came out of the crowed and helped too. "That's the guy I told you about Li, he's the guy who Meiling has been making eyes at" Tyler said pointing at Eriol. Eriol got up himself and Tomoyo helped me up.
Eriol then looked at Tyler and said, "I've seen how you've treated her", Eriol spun around to face father, "And you", Eriol turned to my mother and looked at her with coldness... but then smiled. "You are the only one who has learnt that Meiling is a living creature who by one has always dreamt of this day and I want you to know...." he winked, "I know and am in on the plan!"
"What plan" Zyro yelled,
"This one!" Syaoran's voice said, suddenly he jumped throw the hole in the roof, "Sorry but we happen to be crashing this wedding" he said with a smile.
"Syaoran?" Sakura's voice said, Syaoranopened his arms and out of the hole jumped Sakura and into Syaoran's arms they smiled at each other like they we're staring in a romantic movie.
"The Japanese Whore!" Zyro yelled,
Syaoran and Sakura frowned, "If your going to call me something, call me the Japanese Concubine!" Sakura joked, still in Syaoran's arms.
"Call her that one more time I get out my sword and rip you a new mouth!" Syaoran said pointing to Zyro.
"Oh Syaoran" Sakura said in a starry way...
"Oh Sakura" Syaoran said in the same starry way...
(I don't know if they had noticed but this is my messed up wedding, they were totally stealing my thunder!)
I looked to Eriol and smiled, he smiled back... Suddenly, Tyler jumped forward and thrashed into Eriol causing his noise to bleed. Tyler then went back to me while Eriol was down and he picked me up and Tyler then bought me level with him face.
Something inside me had finally after 15 year has had enough of my beating, my being pushed around, rejection this had really cause my tp to blow off! I felt like a dragon was breathing fire inside me and I had to realise it.
I kicked Tyler in his.... err.... you know.... and he dropped me to the ground. What a wimp I thought. I turned around and my father came towards me, I started up my guns and begun to through my fists and feet at him. My father is good at this too so I'd finally met my match.
He swang at my head and I swang and his legs. I didn't care what I hit, I was kicking for der life, I felt like this was the way I was going to get out of here. Finally I kicked my father in the same place I'd kicked Tyler and boy it must have hurt him. My father fell down.
While I was free I looked around, most of the guests had ran off but Sakura, Syaoran, Tomoyo, my father's friends, Zyro and mother and Meiquing still were there. One of the guys were fighting with mother, she was far to good for them. She's so good at this, I must have got what I got from her.
I looked around Sakura was fighting with the other thug with her staff out. I looked round and my sister was in a cornor crying, I tried to go to her but Tyler's back up and grabs me from behind. I kicked backwards, I felt so powerful bringing down some people who were way bigger then me.
I looked back to my sister, Tomoyo was with her. I then saw one of the thugs came up behind her.
"Tomoyo-chan!" I cried,
Tomoyo turned around and...
"AHHHHH!" Tomoyo screamed, I opened my eyes and, "MY HAIR!" Tomoyo cried. I looked at her and to my shock...
Tomoyo's hair had been cut to shoulder lengh... her beautiful violet waved lay on the floor and they were dead, no longer part of her pretty head. Tomoyo sat onto the ground and cried. I ran towards her and so did Eriol but Eriol was held back by my father.
"Oh Tomoyo" I said giving her a hug, Meiquing patted her shoulder.
"She's right, it'll grow back" she said. I stayied with the two of them and watched. Tomoyo needed my support. I watched the fighting go on but one caught me eyes.
Syaoran was fighting with Zyro with the sword, Zyro had his own out too. I watched and heard everything that came between them.
"Give it up boy" Zyro grunted,
"What's there to give up, I can fight if I want" Syaoran said, "And fight you I will" Syaoran said he pushed back on Uncle and then swords met again.
"You know you are your father's son, just as foolish" Zyro said trying to push on Syaoran. "Thats why he's dead". Syaoran pushed again but then fell back on himself. Zyro was on him but Syaoran push forwards again, his sword had always been very good.
"Why do you do this uncle, why is it that when ever you are near me trouble seems to follow me about?" Syaoran asked,
"Because, Little Wolf" Zyro said with an evil smile, then he bash Syaoran to the ground and trapped him under him. "Ever since your father died, I've to kill you too, little one". Everyone in the room stopped fighting and looked at them, nearly all of us, me also were shocked. Zyro hated Ryuu Li, Syaoran's sweethearted father, all this time he's tried to kill Syaoran too.
Syaoran then tried to get out of Zyro's clush but he was too heavy. I wanted to run out and stop this but Eriol grabbed my arm and wouldn't let me. "And nows the time to rid the clan of you!"
Zyro lifted his sword towards Syaoran's heart but then Sakura grabbed the arms of my uncle and pulled him back. He turned around and...
Sakura was thrown into me and all the others in the room.
"You killed my father... didn't you?" Syaoran said, he seemed very upset and angry my heart hit me like a nightmare. Zyro nodded and watched at the same time I saw... them run towards each other and then finally. They stabbed into eachother.
Zyro's eyes seemed strucken,
Syaoran eyes lost all beautiful shine and their wonder brown beauty like he had been take by shock. Zyro suddenly feel back.
I ran towards them, Zyro was holding his arm as it was bleeding, Syaoran's was bleeding too. I got a bit of my wedding dress and put it round his arm. I didn't want to but I did the same with my uncle, but when I tried he wouldn't let me. He just lay down and didn't move.
My mother, got up and said- "Go with Tomoyo, Touya and Yukito. Take this envolope and your sister, everything you need is in there, I promise. Yelan will take care of this" my mother said, she then grabbed both of us and hugged us. "Go!" she said.
I looked back at Eriol, he looked sad, but Tomoyo grabbed my hand and pulled me away. As we walked away we saw an ambulance come. I think it's too late for my uncle, I would have used my healing power but I didn't have the time to ask.
I feel like I should have done more... but it's too late now...
I opened the envolope and had a look inside, inside was mine and Meiquing's passports, two tickets and something that starts an account or something. I had other stuff which I guess I had to use. I was shocked when I saw that the tickets were one-way, no return to... HAWAII! I looked at the other stuff, it said where I was going and where I was living and where my job would be. The school I had to send Meiquing to and who my boss would be. Some guy called Big Bob?
I saw that Tomoyo, Touya and Yukito were taking me to the airport, a place I know all too well!
Touya, when we got there grabbed my things and checked them right away. Tomoyo took my hand and walked off towards where I'd get on the plane.
It has been 20 mins since my moment... my bording call was called and I said my byes.
"I'll miss you Meiling" Tomoyo told me she was hugging me so tight I couldn't breath. The boys bid me good bye too. Tomoyo walked me to the bording tunnle thing.
Tomoyo saw I was sad, "Meiling-chan? You so troubled, you didn't get to tell Eriol did you?"
"No I didn't, I wish I...I wish I" I said, I remember hurting so much. I guessed Eriol would feel just how my Syaoran dear, I didn't know if I'd ever see Eriol again.
But then as if by magical powers... Eriol ran towards us.
"Meiling" Eriol cried. I span around as so did Meiquing and I saw a happy smile spread across my dear friend Daidoji's face.
"Eriol!" I cried, he ran up to us, and smiled to me, he patted Meiquing's head. He then faced me as I said-
"Eriol, I have to tell you" I said, my heart felt like a knife was stabbing it and I knew this feeling wouldn't go away until I told him. "I, I love you Eriol, I really do and I wish I didn't have to leave". I felt like I was going to fall onto the floor and my legs were hurting to sit down.
"I'm glad that you told me" Eriol told me. Meiquing hid behind me and giggled when Eriol kissed me one last time.
I felt like me world was ending, like I had to stay here, I felt horrible and painful. I love him so much, that last kiss woke me up and proved to me that letting him go would ruin me. But I'm here on the plane right now so I lived.
I said good bye and I still remember the last words Eriol said before I left.
"My sweet Mei, my Pretty Mei, never forget me and when your father stops looking for you, Sakura, Syaoran and I will come for you. If this is a bad time for them only I will." Eriol then said, "I'll wait for you forever".
No one loves me enough to love me forever. I trust him but...
I doubt he'll wait.
Love Mei-Lin Li, Aged 15.
MEILING'S DIARY ENDS HERE
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But this isn't the end, I don't know if I'll write anymore M+E for a while. I'm working on a M+T and I want to finsh all my stories now.
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