"I…" started Jake, totally speechless and not knowing how to explain it to his daughter, yet willing to make Chiyo know he was indeed the father that lacked her young life.
"Jake is a very busy man and has to go to work, right Jake?" Kari explained tenderly, yet casting a menacing glance at the young programer.
"er…yeah, right, well, good bye little Chiyo" Jake stated in a doubtful voice, not knowing exactly what to do in his actual situation, yet simpatheic and eager eyes stared at the little girl, his daughter, "good bye Kari!" Jake finished in a harsh voice full of contained anger and tension.
As soon as Jake closed the door, which had been done in a violent way, making the fine wood crack at the unaccustomed pressure, Kari smiled indulgently, not because she was glad, but because she didn't want to cry in front of her young daughter. Chiyo was very young, yet very intelligent and sensitive, she could feel the pain stabbing her mother's heart and tearing her soul, and she had seen her eyes in the stranger's eyes, since her eyes were not ordinary ones. Chiyo knew yet she refused to let her mother know that she had never believe that her father was in a mission in space, and that she knew her real father was Jake Anderson, former boyfriend of her mother. The young child was not willing to send more pain across her mother's frozen shield, because the only person her mother was warm and kind with was herself, and she knew she could easily acess to her heart without any effort.
Dear Hikari
With motive of the Christmas Eves Celebration we have decided to prepare a party in the honour of this festivity. It will be a dinner and then a small feast with the closest members of our community. We deeply desire you will assist at the feast. Yours Sincerely:
Inoue and Izumi Koushiro
Kari was not willing to arrive at a feast where many familiar faces from her darkenned past were about to inquire at her sudden disappereance and appereance. However it was in her heart to assist to her best friend's party, even although her knowledge had adviced her of the unfortunate encounter that was Izz's best friend, or project mate. In other words, Kari was doubtlessly having an unwanted meeting with Jake Anderson.
Kari placed the warm, cotton quilt over her beautiful daughter's body, covering her with the warmth of natural furs, and her own lofe flowing around the bed like a protective dragon, gliding with gryffin wings. Kari placed a kiss on Chiyo's rosy cheeks and a tender smile curved her lips in a calm way.
"sleep tight my angel!" whispered the mother with care irradiating like the enormous aura of a pale moon in a penetrating, black sky.
"mommy don't go!" whispered Chiyo in a sleepy voice, her occident eyes nearly closed as a drowsee feeling engulfed her little body,altogether with the care and the warmth.
"I have to go Chiyo, but remember that as long as stars shine in the sky and the moon awakes once a month, I will be here, protecting you!" explained Kari in her calm, tender voice, leaving an essence of magick floating on the light and cozy athmosphere upon her words had been pronounced.
"Blessed Be!" whispered Chiyo in such a weak, tired voice it was nothing but an unaudible murmurr.
"Blessed Be!" whispered Kari silently, mostly to herself, never wanting to distract the baby from her trip torwards the land of all possible and wildest desires, the Astral Body crossing the boundaries between the world of living, yet never reaching the world of dead, staying in a small frame in the middle, the area of dreams.
Kari apprached the Nanni she had always called when she had needed someone to take care of Chiyo, a tired look crossing the fine features, yet the beautiful however light makeup covering all negative emotions from the woman's face.
"she's asleep, I'll be here soon so you don't have to worry about anything, take some sleep as well!" explained Kari smiling kindly at the woman.
"no, please, I'll stay awake until you arrive miss, I don't want to fall asleep while I'm supposed to take care of the baby" said the woman submissively, her face contorting into a mask of horror and disbelief.
Kari shrugged and walked off after saying a quiet yet kind good bye, leaving calmly knowing her child was in good hands, yet never eagerly to show up at a feast where eyes would follow her steps and words would whisper behind herself, speculating at her misterious departure.
The feast was very animated yet Kari was not enjoyiing much, she did however participate within the conversations, while a shadow of silverish glitter floated lazily in the air, secretly programmed by the young computer programmer, Izumi Koushiro. Kari force a smile that quickly became a pained frown as it seemed like the only attempt of creating a grateful effect upon her features was terribly harmful to her muscles.
"and then I stepped on his between leg, that jerk trying to force me to bed, but I tell you he wont try again, no he wont!" Sora explained taking one delicate sip from her cup, the one filled with a pale yellowish liquid, tiny, lazy bubbles sparkling brightly upon it's surface, and diving calmly into it's champagne depths.
"he deserved it!" snapped Mimi raising a clenched fist, and then taking a quick sip from her cigar, a cloud of smoke floated lazily in a thin, pale colum torwards the ceiling, where the sky clouded with a wall of pale smoke, like threatening white clouds, menacing snow.
"oh, did I tell you about that boy? Yeah the one who danced with me at that famous disco? Damn him, you should have seen my face when he stopped dancing with me, approached a very handsome man and started making out with him!" commented Sayuri, one of Yoley's cousins, a very atractive girl with a slim body.
"like I tell you, all cute guys are either taken or gay!" commented Yoley calmly, a gentle sip of a creamy substance dancing around her lips in a very sensual way of such an increated excitement Izzy couldn't help but stop his conversation with Jake, Matthew and Cody simply to stare at his beautiful wife.
"well, not all!" commented Sora winking an eye at the younger woman, and signaling with a very seductive way at her husban, action which caused a gentle blush to glimmer faintly overpowering the creamy makeup that covered the pure skin.
"well, what about that project? What was it called? Proyect Matrix?" inquired Cody in a very interested way, never taking his eyes off the older programer and insisting in absorving as much information about the event as possible, therefore to conclude something which could serve him well upon a decition.
"er…oh, right! Proyect Matrix, it consist in a study about the reality, but you have to be very sure about what you are going to do, what you may see might be as shocking as to leave sequels for the rest of your life, understood?" explained Izzy, never stopping a vast gesticulation and a piercing, domint gaze upon the cowering, unsure men. Their eyes stared at Jake in search of an explanation to consider the completely sctrange and unccomon explanation.
"well" started Jake shrugging, an indulgent, innocent smile covering his lips for a brief second, "it is true that what he has to tell you, I case you both decided to join the proyect, might be very shocking indeed" commented Jake calmly.
Inmediatly his eyes danced away from the two men, and his mind wandered with the wings of a hawk away from the conversation. He couldn't hold it yet it was natural, all curious minds and watching eyes get attracted by the flashing beauty and delicacy of an intense, sparkling star or the gentle butterfly. However attempt to combine the star and the butterfly and the irradiation of magnificency is so great no natural heart could resist to desire owning such wonder. Jake examined the fine and delicate features, a hint of sadness irradiated from it's snow paleness and purity, a tint of fresh, rosy pink colouring her cheeks with the clarity of a newbornt, spring rose. Jake examined her long, silky mane of creamy colour, held up in a bun, a cmplicated style which consisted on creating curls which would be then tied and forming the curved legs of a spider, locks of her silky hair floating tenderly in a caressing touch over her eyes and cheeks, like a cascade of copperish gold, or pale bronze.
A shooting star is my love
Silvery blaze which light's the sky
A shooting star is my love
A divine glitter that speedy flies
Jake, entrance not by the melodious music, but by the resemblance of the lyrics with his situation, with the angelic woman, began pacing in calm steps torwards her. He didn't notice the confused gazes of the three men, nor the knowing glances casted at him and Kari by the mischievous women, he only noticed one thing, he could only see his light. He extended a hand, trying to reach the star, knowing well how difficult it was, but also concious that, in dreams, all was possible.
"care to dance?" inquired the man in a calm, even absent voice.
Kari looked up at the man with curious eyes, she was shocked at the sudden question yet never willing to give up to the tender kindness and pleading tone that flickered lightly in his voice, that rippled gently in his eyes.
"please" whispered Jake, starting to land, falling hard like plumber, begging to be grabbed from the certain and painful crash, not wanting to wake up from his dream.
Kari, entranced as well by the melodious games of achords, of gentle voices and delicated instruments and flutes, placed a delicate, long hand resting upon Jake's larger, manly one. He helped her raise from her sedent position my engulfing her delicate hand in his large, thicker fingers, yet with such gentleness it seemed as thogh he was grabing a piece of milimetrical thin glass, a threat of crystal that could break with breathing. Kari and Jake walked with ligh paces torwards the center of the living room, where nothing was placed against their freedom of motion. There they locked their eyes, Kari's left hand was placed in a gentle slumber onto Jake's chest, and the other one engulfed, like a wave with it's spiritual foam, the manly fingers of her dance companion's. Jake's hand was placed with a trembling unsteadiness, yet faint and careful touch on her slim waist. Both started to sway in complete and total compenetration at the melody of the music, the pure, white feather hovering calmly, riding on the breeze's gentle crest, the hawk covering the skies with speed, the wind riding with it.
Jake and Kari, the adult versions vanished inmediatly, melted into a more scrawny figure of flattened chest and slim curves, or the tall yet disarranged with wild, untamed mat of black hair. Both returned to their visions of their teenage years, the happiest seconds of their lives, when they shared their love, when they fused into one flame, one heart and one soul. And so the ignition began again, the ice melted into a torrent of feeling that flooded across their veins and bodies, and the candle lit into a wild ball of draconish fire, an astro with increasing warmth, a calid sensation that engulfed the two minuscule and insignificant bodies. And Kari realized it.
The young woman's eyes oppened wide at the realization of the ocurring event, her muscles tensed, her heard gave in to the increasing sensation, her shield of ice, unable to fight for longer such pressure, shattered into glass, the veil of hardness breaking into the vision of reality. Kari felt a slight pressure in her stomach, something that focused her fear in a phisical way, something subreal yet very strong, and all coherency of her acts was blocked by the sensation of being enclosed in a cage, of being trapped in a tangled net of contradictory thoughts and memories. Kari turned around breaking free of her grip against the man, and rushed outside into the cold night, into the unbearable rush of frozen wind. And Jake crashed, hard, and his dream, the one he fought to maintain vivid, faded into the darkness of a reality he fought hard to evade.
Kari sat there, in a small stone bench covered entirely by the gentleness of pure snow, it's softness yet it's piercing cold tore her flesh with wild fangs, but the woman simply ignored the threatening growls of the white wolves. She felt silent tears drowning her cheeks with it's salty and calid feeling, tears of confusion and realization, tears of sorrow and euphory, tears that represented the contradiction of her complicated and intense thinking. She loved him, she still did but the pain he caused five years ago had been so intense she could not forget it, nor forgive him. He had treated her like something that stood in the middle of his goal, an obstacle, some spark of dirt on his glasses that didn't allow him to view the end of the line. Kari always thought she was the stick that helped the peregrine across the path, not the stone or the river that forced the seeking of another way around. However now, after many years of training, of focusing into how right her decition was and how much of a fool had Jake been, she reencounters with him and discovers that the latent flame was simply asleep, and now sparkled vivid and warm like it had been in times of the first relation.
Her eyes looked up, snow, gentle flakes of frozen snow floated into a delicate hover, only to land and fade into the already vast extentions of white that covered the area of the woodlands surounding, and even the entire city lower down. Flakes that sent so much joy, particles of frozen water forming the most unimaginable figures and the stranges and most delicate structures which altered her vision in such a great range. She loved observing the snow, yet the night of her departure, the night of the greatest decition in her life, it had been snowing, the spirits had danced around her in a swirly motion of spirals and wild movements. And now the spirits were dancing again, wether this meant she was about to make a big decition, she ignored the reality of their reptilian hisses and their antinatural cries and whistles.
"your passion for snow, it is very pretty, pale particles falling from heaven, light like feathers!" a voice, a too familiar voice said behind her, yet the fresh memory of a recently broken voice from a youth, a puberty accesed short ago, this deep tone sounded so rare and strange.
"the cold air clears my mind, I needed to think, but this brings so much memories, good and bad ones!" Kari said in an emotionless voice, absent as if she was not there in spirit, as if her words had been directed to nobody but herself.
"so it's true, the flame in your eyes, it flickers again!" Jake commented trying to focus on a straight point, attempting to make her admit what he had seen reflected in the depths of her eyes.
"I love the snow, watching it fall, walking across it's cottony softness…it's very nice!" she commented, still absently staring at the infinity, as if her mind wandered away from her body and danced with the snow, with each flake in a calm yet unstable dance.
"Kari, damn it, look at me! You cant hide away from me always, what I did was wrong ok? And I admit it, but I told you, I searched for you, I still love you, we can try again!" snapped Jake unable to contain the frustration his body acumulated for a longer period of time.
Kari looked at him, calmly, without hurry, her eyes examined the man's body as if trying to remember where he had seen such pictoresque character before, "you are nuts, how can you love me when you chose material over spiritual and moral aid?" she inquired trying to analize this fact herself, her eyes tearing like basilisks at the man's spirit.
"Kari, how many times will I have to beg forgiveness? What will I have to do? If I could go to the past and change it I swear I would, but I cant!" gasped Jake raising his eyes to the sky, tears itching at the corner of the fantastic orbs, threatening to fall in pure desperation and sadness.
"it's a lesson in life, it'll teach you to choose material over spiritual next time!" Kari growled like a dog warning on it's position in an urban pack or over a certain item of delicious properties.
Jake stared at her and quickly placed both hands grabbing her shoulders, then with gentle yet vigorous shakes he attempted to make her snap awake from the trance of hostility and ice coldness she was penetrating, "damn it Kari, it's going to consume you! Let it free Kari, admit it! Or it'll destroy you!" he snapped, his voice rising to a yell, trying to make himself heard.
Kari, realizing the truth in his words, shook her head with frantic frustration, her eyes shutting tightly and tears flowing in calm but cold trails that froze at the pressence of a wintery breeze.
"no!" she sobbed, her body convulsing, trying with hopeless effort to keep her feelings locked into it's box of ice, where they had been safe never affecting her nor the world around, only one person owning the key.
Chiyo looked at the sky, her young eyes had been focusing on the beauty of the feathery flowing of the calm snow, the passive movements that seemed to draw faces, smiling faces, or galloping unicorns, even white dragons flying with their large, leathery wings. Her eyes sparkled with brightness upon seeing the flash of a shooting star illuminating the sky, creating a blueish white light irradiating from the hot piece of speeding stone, yet shining with magic on the depths of a clouded sky, trespassing this cumulos of evaporated water, now frozen ice.
"oh!" Chiyo beamed with wonder at the first shooting star her eyes had ever seen, "I want daddy to come back!" Chiyo wished, closing her eyes tightly as the astro faded into nothingness, vanished as it consumed into the devouring hunger of the flames.
"say it!" Jake said softly, this time his features became calm, not passive but patient and tranquil, knowing she was sucumbing to her feelings, knowing her heart gave in to the flame.
"I love you!" Kari attempted to say, yet her voce, strangled with a sob, was nothing but a faint whinne. However something magical occurred, some say it was coincidece while others admit it was magick, but the truth was that while Kari said her correspondent conffesion and Jake thought his conffesion, and Chiyo desired the return on her father, a shooting star illuminated the sky with it's enormous and fabulous brightness.
Jake smiled and soon their bodies closed their gap and a tight embrace sealed, stronger than any of the kissed their lips had gven and received, or any other form of romantic appreciation, the powerful love that had bloomed and was to grow, strong and powerful like a tree. And there they stay, sobbing gently, tears flowing like liquid diamonds, but this time, they were tears of joy, no more tears of sorrow were to break their cheeks and eyes with deep, bleeding gashes.
Chiyo rushed torwards her mother's bed and grinned at the male figure that lay asleep next to her mother, both creatures embraced in a tight hug, fearing all had been a dream and would vanish upon waking up. Chiyo simply smiled at them and, with the joy belonging to her nature, leapt on the bed, startling both adults from their deep, tired sleep.
"I knew you'd return!" Chiyo exclaimed smiling at Jake like she had never seen something more fabulous and wonderful in her life.
The End
AN: so there it is, how was it? Nice? I hope so, please review.