~Always and Forever~
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I jumped down onto my chair and then to the floor and walked slowly out the door. I couldn't stand to be in there anymore, with everyone staring at me. Once I made it out of the Cafeteria, I ran through the halls of the school and home. I normally wouldn't run out on something like that but I had too. I had the feeling that there were a lot of people laughing in that cafeteria.
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I sat in my backyard on the swing that my Dad had rigged up for Matt and me when we were little. I dug the toe of my sneaker into the ground and pushed myself half heartedly backwards and forwards. I was looking at the ground so I didn't hear anyone approach.
"Hey." A voice called hesitantly to me. I snapped my head up in surprise and upon seeing Gordo, wished that I could look back to the ground again.
"Hi." I whispered.
"Can we talk?" he asked as he stood in front of me with his hands in his pockets. He looks so cute when he does that. Yeah, I think Gordo is cute. I like him don't I? I can think that now.
"Sure." I said shrugging my shoulders slightly.
Gordo sat down on the grass in front of me. I hopped off the swing and sat across from him. The grass felt cool beneath my touch and I wished that I could lie down and look up at the stars, without a worry in the world, but unfortunately I had a lot of worries in the world and this was one of them.
"What you did today.was." he looked like he was stuck for words. Not a common occurrence with Gordo.
"Incredibly stupid and embarrassing?" I supplied somewhat amused.
"No.it was.something that you wouldn't have done a year ago."
Ok.that was weird. I must have shown what I was thinking with my facial expressions because Gordo spoke again.
"What I mean is, that you wouldn't have bothered with something like that a year ago, sure you would have been feeling the same thing, but you wouldn't have thought to make a public apology to Miranda and me. It shows that you have really changed over the last few years." He grinned at me, which totally shocked me, but I found myself grinning back.
"So what made you do it? In front of the whole school I mean."
"Well neither of you were too keen to talk to me and I had to talk to you somehow. I guess I just wanted to show you how much I missed you.and Miranda." I added quickly afterward.
"Well I accept your apology. I'm not sure about Miranda yet. We didn't talk about it."
"Oh." I was surprised that Gordo seemed to be forgiving me so easily, it just didn't make sense, and yet Miranda was no where to be seen. I bit my lip to stop from crying but a sob escaped me all the same and Gordo didn't miss it. He put a hand on my shoulder.
"Hey.I'm sure that she will come around Lizzie. Everything will work out for the best."
"Speaking of coming around, how come you've forgiven me this easily?"
"Well I respect what you did today, I know it couldn't have been easy for you and I admire you for it. Besides, I knew you couldn't live without me and Miranda for much longer." He grinned and lay back on the grass propping his head up with his hands and looked at me.
I was so relieved that I flopped down next to him. I couldn't keep the grin off my face. I was so glad that he didn't hate me that I decided I would tell him how I felt. Now was as good a time as any.
"Gordo.there was one other reason why I apologised. I got to thinking a lot when I was having my little bout of popularitism-"
"You do realise that isn't a word?" he asked, raising his eyebrow at me. I sent him a look that shut him up.
"Anyway, I realised a lot of things. Although there was one thing that kind of scared me. I thought that I might not ever be friends again with you and that's when I realised that I care about you.a lot. Not just as a friend, as more. A whole lot more. I understand that you don't feel the same way; I just thought that you should know. I'm not going to stop liking you because you don't like me but you should know. Nothing will change of course, Miranda doesn't need to know, no one does. Just us."
I said feeling stupider by the minute. I looked down to my shoes and started plucking blades of grass from the ground. Then after what felt like an eternity, he spoke.
"Well that's a bit of a pity you not wanting anyone to know how you feel because people are gonna get the hint when we start walking around holding hands and hugging and whatever else we might be doing." He said grinning at me.
Huh? What?
"What?"
"Lizzie, I like you too, I can't believe you didn't know that. I thought it was obvious. So did Miranda."
Obvious? Not to me it wasn't.
"I.feel incredibly stupid right now." I said to him feeling a blush creep slowly but steadily onto my face. He noticed.
"You look incredibly cute when you blush."
He said, touching the side of my face gently with his hand. I almost shivered under his touch, despite the warm weather. I can't believe I'd deprived myself of this for so long. I put my hand on his and moved our hands to my lap where I entwined our fingers. I looked at Gordo in the eye for the first time in a long time and almost gasped as I noticed how blue his eyes got. I knew that when he wanted something really bad, they would turn the brightest blue I'd ever seen. I couldn't remember the last time I had seen them so blue. I know that the time I had spoken to him in the classroom they had been a steely grey but before when he was around me they were like they were now.his eyes have always been that brilliant blue when he's been with me. How couldn't I have noticed it?! I am so incredibly stupid.
I hadn't realised that we had been moving closer to each other as I was deep in thought and just as I realised what was going to happen, I felt Gordo's mouth on mine. I was shocked at first but recovered quickly, kissing him back. Compared to the kiss that we had shared in Rome, this one was even more magical. I couldn't believe my luck.
It was short but sweet. I personally, didn't ever want to stop. We broke apart and I looked at Gordo, his eyes were shining. Crystal blue. Beautiful.
"You have amazing eyes." I said. I really said that! How embarrassing.
"Thanks. Aren't the guys supposed to say things like that to the girls though?" he asked, grinning at me.
"I was right. Chivalry is dead. Can't a girl tell her beau how much she loves him?" I asked giddily.
"L-loves him?" Gordo stuttered quietly.
I felt my eyes go wide. I hadn't meant to say that! Oh god.
"I.um.Oh god Gordo, I am so sorry, I didn't mean to say that! It slipped out!"
Well done McGuire. Very well done.
"You're sorry? Well I'm not." He said grinning at me and cupping my face in his hands.
"I love you too Lizzie McGuire." Then he kissed me again, this time his tongue begging entrance to my mouth.
"Hey," I said breaking apart from him "let's keep this G-rated thank you very much!"
I said and he laughed and lay back down on the ground, pulling me against him. We stayed like that for the next few hours. Until we were interrupted.
Miranda.
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One more chapter to go!
Nesserz.
Disclaimer: Oh hello peoples. Sigh.
I jumped down onto my chair and then to the floor and walked slowly out the door. I couldn't stand to be in there anymore, with everyone staring at me. Once I made it out of the Cafeteria, I ran through the halls of the school and home. I normally wouldn't run out on something like that but I had too. I had the feeling that there were a lot of people laughing in that cafeteria.
***
I sat in my backyard on the swing that my Dad had rigged up for Matt and me when we were little. I dug the toe of my sneaker into the ground and pushed myself half heartedly backwards and forwards. I was looking at the ground so I didn't hear anyone approach.
"Hey." A voice called hesitantly to me. I snapped my head up in surprise and upon seeing Gordo, wished that I could look back to the ground again.
"Hi." I whispered.
"Can we talk?" he asked as he stood in front of me with his hands in his pockets. He looks so cute when he does that. Yeah, I think Gordo is cute. I like him don't I? I can think that now.
"Sure." I said shrugging my shoulders slightly.
Gordo sat down on the grass in front of me. I hopped off the swing and sat across from him. The grass felt cool beneath my touch and I wished that I could lie down and look up at the stars, without a worry in the world, but unfortunately I had a lot of worries in the world and this was one of them.
"What you did today.was." he looked like he was stuck for words. Not a common occurrence with Gordo.
"Incredibly stupid and embarrassing?" I supplied somewhat amused.
"No.it was.something that you wouldn't have done a year ago."
Ok.that was weird. I must have shown what I was thinking with my facial expressions because Gordo spoke again.
"What I mean is, that you wouldn't have bothered with something like that a year ago, sure you would have been feeling the same thing, but you wouldn't have thought to make a public apology to Miranda and me. It shows that you have really changed over the last few years." He grinned at me, which totally shocked me, but I found myself grinning back.
"So what made you do it? In front of the whole school I mean."
"Well neither of you were too keen to talk to me and I had to talk to you somehow. I guess I just wanted to show you how much I missed you.and Miranda." I added quickly afterward.
"Well I accept your apology. I'm not sure about Miranda yet. We didn't talk about it."
"Oh." I was surprised that Gordo seemed to be forgiving me so easily, it just didn't make sense, and yet Miranda was no where to be seen. I bit my lip to stop from crying but a sob escaped me all the same and Gordo didn't miss it. He put a hand on my shoulder.
"Hey.I'm sure that she will come around Lizzie. Everything will work out for the best."
"Speaking of coming around, how come you've forgiven me this easily?"
"Well I respect what you did today, I know it couldn't have been easy for you and I admire you for it. Besides, I knew you couldn't live without me and Miranda for much longer." He grinned and lay back on the grass propping his head up with his hands and looked at me.
I was so relieved that I flopped down next to him. I couldn't keep the grin off my face. I was so glad that he didn't hate me that I decided I would tell him how I felt. Now was as good a time as any.
"Gordo.there was one other reason why I apologised. I got to thinking a lot when I was having my little bout of popularitism-"
"You do realise that isn't a word?" he asked, raising his eyebrow at me. I sent him a look that shut him up.
"Anyway, I realised a lot of things. Although there was one thing that kind of scared me. I thought that I might not ever be friends again with you and that's when I realised that I care about you.a lot. Not just as a friend, as more. A whole lot more. I understand that you don't feel the same way; I just thought that you should know. I'm not going to stop liking you because you don't like me but you should know. Nothing will change of course, Miranda doesn't need to know, no one does. Just us."
I said feeling stupider by the minute. I looked down to my shoes and started plucking blades of grass from the ground. Then after what felt like an eternity, he spoke.
"Well that's a bit of a pity you not wanting anyone to know how you feel because people are gonna get the hint when we start walking around holding hands and hugging and whatever else we might be doing." He said grinning at me.
Huh? What?
"What?"
"Lizzie, I like you too, I can't believe you didn't know that. I thought it was obvious. So did Miranda."
Obvious? Not to me it wasn't.
"I.feel incredibly stupid right now." I said to him feeling a blush creep slowly but steadily onto my face. He noticed.
"You look incredibly cute when you blush."
He said, touching the side of my face gently with his hand. I almost shivered under his touch, despite the warm weather. I can't believe I'd deprived myself of this for so long. I put my hand on his and moved our hands to my lap where I entwined our fingers. I looked at Gordo in the eye for the first time in a long time and almost gasped as I noticed how blue his eyes got. I knew that when he wanted something really bad, they would turn the brightest blue I'd ever seen. I couldn't remember the last time I had seen them so blue. I know that the time I had spoken to him in the classroom they had been a steely grey but before when he was around me they were like they were now.his eyes have always been that brilliant blue when he's been with me. How couldn't I have noticed it?! I am so incredibly stupid.
I hadn't realised that we had been moving closer to each other as I was deep in thought and just as I realised what was going to happen, I felt Gordo's mouth on mine. I was shocked at first but recovered quickly, kissing him back. Compared to the kiss that we had shared in Rome, this one was even more magical. I couldn't believe my luck.
It was short but sweet. I personally, didn't ever want to stop. We broke apart and I looked at Gordo, his eyes were shining. Crystal blue. Beautiful.
"You have amazing eyes." I said. I really said that! How embarrassing.
"Thanks. Aren't the guys supposed to say things like that to the girls though?" he asked, grinning at me.
"I was right. Chivalry is dead. Can't a girl tell her beau how much she loves him?" I asked giddily.
"L-loves him?" Gordo stuttered quietly.
I felt my eyes go wide. I hadn't meant to say that! Oh god.
"I.um.Oh god Gordo, I am so sorry, I didn't mean to say that! It slipped out!"
Well done McGuire. Very well done.
"You're sorry? Well I'm not." He said grinning at me and cupping my face in his hands.
"I love you too Lizzie McGuire." Then he kissed me again, this time his tongue begging entrance to my mouth.
"Hey," I said breaking apart from him "let's keep this G-rated thank you very much!"
I said and he laughed and lay back down on the ground, pulling me against him. We stayed like that for the next few hours. Until we were interrupted.
Miranda.
***
One more chapter to go!
Nesserz.