****SPOILERS FOR THE KYOTO ARC****
A/N: Omg! I'm so sorry, minna-san! I have been so busy, as you can see by the author's note, but I'm here and updated! Finally…
This is a poem, actually, that I wrote during Spanish class. The lyrics splattered through it are from different Evanescence songs and were added after I wrote the poem. I was going to post it under a separate fic, but I figured if I added the lyrics in, it would fit into this lil' saga of mine! ^_^
This probably isn't my best work; I'm not that pleased with it. I actually tried to rhyme every other line, for the most part, and I don't really like it that much. It makes it seem like it has a childish beat, in my opinion; kinda like a little happy, carefree thing. However, my dear friend (who inspired me to write "Permanent Ecstasy"), Alexia, said it seemed like I was using a kind of ironic literary tool. As this poem is about Soujiro, the carefree and childish beat of the poem reflects a bit of his character like we see it on the outside, while the words are a bit angsty and painful, like he is on the inside. Weird, ne? But enough to keep me from destroying the poem. Still, I must admit I couldn't fight the urge to put a few, offbeat lines in there. Hey, I like poetry like that (the timing a bit off)!
Once again, FORGIVE ME FOR NOT UPDATING! bows x_x I hope to write a couple of extra chapters this Thanksgiving break (if the relatives are too demanding for my time ^_^) to make up for it. On to the poem!
WARNING: Angst.
Disclaimer: I would write a fan fiction if I owned the characters and could manipulate the original story line to my every whim. Yep. I would.
I don't own Whisper, Understanding, Lies, Going Under, or Everybody's Fool, all by Evanescence.
Rating: PG-13
POV: Seta Soujiro
Time Period: Near the end of the Kyoto arc
~*~*~*~
"Just Like You"
A smile, a smirk
To hide the pain
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
Stench of blood
Driving me insane.
But I'll hide the pain
And I won't tell
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
They'll be ignorant of
My personal hell.
if I will it all away
I suffer alone.
can't wash it all away, can't wish it all away
can't cry it all away, can't scratch it all away
And I've lost.
I've lost to Himura
He's becoming the best
In this tangled web
This survival of the fittest.
So I wander.
forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end
I wander to find
Truth within myself
blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so I don't know what's real and what's not
The world I knew
I have now left.
I'm now alone
To wander ten years
I want to learn
How to shed tears.
I want to express
The pain inside
To remove the mask
Behind which I hide.
without the mask where you hide
can't find yourself, lost in your lie
But I can't.
Not yet.
But one day my dreams
They will come true
And I will become
Human, just like you.
but through my tears breaks a blinding light
birthing a dawn to this endless night
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Muse
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