Chapter 3
*Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and
Never comes out right
Tegan knew once she opened the door she would have to put her shield back up. She would have to act like the person Draco always saw her as. She looked down at Warren sleeping in her arms and smiled. Suddenly she felt that she couldn't hide anymore. Not when suddenly Draco was being so soft. Maybe she should let her fear go. She knew she wouldn't though. No one would ever see through her. No one would understand. She opened the door and saw Draco sitting on his bed doing his potions homework. She groaned remembering that her assignment was due tomorrow. Draco looked up at her and she saw no expression on his face. She put Warren in his crib and dropped her bag as she plopped down on her bed. Draco raised his eyebrow to her for a second and then continued on with his potions assignment. Tegan sat back up and reached into her bag reaching for her potions book. She took the book out for the millionth time in two days and sighed. She hated potions. She glanced over at Draco who seemed to be working out the assignment without thinking twice. Tegan mumbled some words under her breath in anger wishing she could do that. She arranged herself into a more comfortable position as she opened her book. She looked at the question in front of her and sighed. Her brain wasn't functioning right, it never did when it came to potions. She always seem to draw a blank when she had to think.
" How much snake skin would you have to include in the invisibility spell when you have 3/4 teaspoons of dragon blood and ½ teaspoons of unicorn blood?" Tegan read quietly to herself as she felt Draco's eyes on her. She rubbed her nose and closed her eyes tightly. How could she not remember this. They had just learned it today.
" Need help?" Draco asked as Tegan shrugged.
" If you want too help" Tegan said as Draco got up and sat down next to her.
" What question are you on?" Draco asked and Tegan felt her cheeks heat up a bit. She ignored the feeling of embarrassment as she pointed to the first one. She watched as Draco read it over and only shook his head.
" Ok well if you could only have 2 full teaspoons of liquid in an invisibility potion. How much would you have left after you added the dragon and unicorn blood together?" Draco asked as Tegan started scribbling numbers on her parchment.
" 2/8ths teaspoon?" Tegan asked as Draco nodded.
" Don't forget too reduce" Draco said as Tegan reduced it and showed him the answer of 1/4.
" Yup. That's your answer" Draco said as Tegan smiled to herself but then the smile slowly faded.
" Thanks" She said lightly and Draco just nodded as he went back too his own bed. Tegan sped through her potions homework hoping Draco knew how much he had helped her. She would never tell him of course because then he'd see through her. She wasn't going to have that especially since she work so hard to not let him. Tegan looked through her bag for her journal where she kept all her personal things and noticed it wasn't there. She felt her heart start to speed up as she got up and started looking around the room. Draco looked up at her and wondered why she was running around the room like a mad person.
" Have you seen a black journal. Please say you have" Tegan said looking as she was about too cry.
" Yeah. You left it in potions and I knew it was yours so I picked it up" Draco said as he reached into his bag and pulled it out. Tegan snatched the book away from him and glared.
" Why didnt you tell me earlier!" Tegan said angrily and looked through the pages quickly.
" My mind wasn't on it OK. Plus I didnt want to get yelled at by you like I usually do!" Draco said as Tegan looked up at him the coldness fading from her eyes. He was right, she had a thing for yelling at him. She knew that he didnt ask to be paired up with her.
" I'm sorry Malfoy" Tegan said suddenly but silently. Draco just shrugged and went back to his homework. Tegan noticed the eerie silence and started to write in her journal.
September 4th
God I feel like crap right about now. I just yelled at someone who didnt desearve it. But then again. Does anyone I yell at deserve it? Maybe I yelled at them because it was Malfoy. You know the Malfoy that made my beggining years here at Hogwarts crap. I don't know really. I mean I cant believe how snappy I've been lately. Its just people want to understand me and I don't want them too. If they would of been there in first year it would of been different. Maybe even in second year I would of gave them a chance but now its just hard. There's so many things to explain about my past. Especially when they see my scars. Oh that's another thing. Malfoy DID see my scars. He also heard me screaming after a dream about mom. It was embarrassing but also I was afraid. I really don't want to open my self up to him and tell him anything. Wait I don't want to tell anyone anything. Well I had to get that out of me. So until next time I feel like I need to bust. Im sure it will be soon.
Tegan
Tegan felt Draco's eyes on her as she closed her journal. She looked at him and he returned his gaze back to his book. She sighed as she put her journal back in her bag and laid back down.
" What were you doing Weasley? Writing a novel?" Draco asked as she groaned.
" No, actually I was writing about how much I hate you Malfoy" Tegan said as Draco just gave her his famous smirk.
" Wow I feel touched. You dedicated a whole journal page to me" Draco said as he heard Tegan groan and his smiler became a little bigger.
" Don't flatter yourself" Tegan said as she rolled over onto her side so her back was facing him.
" Going asleep again? This time don't scream so loud. Gave me a headache last night" Draco said not really wanting it to come out like that. He knew Tegan was pissed when he felt her pillow hit his head.
" You scummy bastard! You don't even know what I've been through and yet you ridicule me. I bet you if you were put in my shoes Malfoy. You'd be crying like a fucking baby!" Tegan yelled as she felt anger running through out her body. She could not stay in the room with this arrogant prick anymore longer. She got up from her bed and walked out the door slamming it. Draco felt his heart go cold for a second. He didnt mean what he said. As soon as the door slammed Warren had started crying and Draco groaned. He picked the baby up and held him close trying to comfort him. He bet the baby didnt feel as rejected as he did right about now.
* Song By Alex Band and Santana
*Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and
Never comes out right
Tegan knew once she opened the door she would have to put her shield back up. She would have to act like the person Draco always saw her as. She looked down at Warren sleeping in her arms and smiled. Suddenly she felt that she couldn't hide anymore. Not when suddenly Draco was being so soft. Maybe she should let her fear go. She knew she wouldn't though. No one would ever see through her. No one would understand. She opened the door and saw Draco sitting on his bed doing his potions homework. She groaned remembering that her assignment was due tomorrow. Draco looked up at her and she saw no expression on his face. She put Warren in his crib and dropped her bag as she plopped down on her bed. Draco raised his eyebrow to her for a second and then continued on with his potions assignment. Tegan sat back up and reached into her bag reaching for her potions book. She took the book out for the millionth time in two days and sighed. She hated potions. She glanced over at Draco who seemed to be working out the assignment without thinking twice. Tegan mumbled some words under her breath in anger wishing she could do that. She arranged herself into a more comfortable position as she opened her book. She looked at the question in front of her and sighed. Her brain wasn't functioning right, it never did when it came to potions. She always seem to draw a blank when she had to think.
" How much snake skin would you have to include in the invisibility spell when you have 3/4 teaspoons of dragon blood and ½ teaspoons of unicorn blood?" Tegan read quietly to herself as she felt Draco's eyes on her. She rubbed her nose and closed her eyes tightly. How could she not remember this. They had just learned it today.
" Need help?" Draco asked as Tegan shrugged.
" If you want too help" Tegan said as Draco got up and sat down next to her.
" What question are you on?" Draco asked and Tegan felt her cheeks heat up a bit. She ignored the feeling of embarrassment as she pointed to the first one. She watched as Draco read it over and only shook his head.
" Ok well if you could only have 2 full teaspoons of liquid in an invisibility potion. How much would you have left after you added the dragon and unicorn blood together?" Draco asked as Tegan started scribbling numbers on her parchment.
" 2/8ths teaspoon?" Tegan asked as Draco nodded.
" Don't forget too reduce" Draco said as Tegan reduced it and showed him the answer of 1/4.
" Yup. That's your answer" Draco said as Tegan smiled to herself but then the smile slowly faded.
" Thanks" She said lightly and Draco just nodded as he went back too his own bed. Tegan sped through her potions homework hoping Draco knew how much he had helped her. She would never tell him of course because then he'd see through her. She wasn't going to have that especially since she work so hard to not let him. Tegan looked through her bag for her journal where she kept all her personal things and noticed it wasn't there. She felt her heart start to speed up as she got up and started looking around the room. Draco looked up at her and wondered why she was running around the room like a mad person.
" Have you seen a black journal. Please say you have" Tegan said looking as she was about too cry.
" Yeah. You left it in potions and I knew it was yours so I picked it up" Draco said as he reached into his bag and pulled it out. Tegan snatched the book away from him and glared.
" Why didnt you tell me earlier!" Tegan said angrily and looked through the pages quickly.
" My mind wasn't on it OK. Plus I didnt want to get yelled at by you like I usually do!" Draco said as Tegan looked up at him the coldness fading from her eyes. He was right, she had a thing for yelling at him. She knew that he didnt ask to be paired up with her.
" I'm sorry Malfoy" Tegan said suddenly but silently. Draco just shrugged and went back to his homework. Tegan noticed the eerie silence and started to write in her journal.
September 4th
God I feel like crap right about now. I just yelled at someone who didnt desearve it. But then again. Does anyone I yell at deserve it? Maybe I yelled at them because it was Malfoy. You know the Malfoy that made my beggining years here at Hogwarts crap. I don't know really. I mean I cant believe how snappy I've been lately. Its just people want to understand me and I don't want them too. If they would of been there in first year it would of been different. Maybe even in second year I would of gave them a chance but now its just hard. There's so many things to explain about my past. Especially when they see my scars. Oh that's another thing. Malfoy DID see my scars. He also heard me screaming after a dream about mom. It was embarrassing but also I was afraid. I really don't want to open my self up to him and tell him anything. Wait I don't want to tell anyone anything. Well I had to get that out of me. So until next time I feel like I need to bust. Im sure it will be soon.
Tegan
Tegan felt Draco's eyes on her as she closed her journal. She looked at him and he returned his gaze back to his book. She sighed as she put her journal back in her bag and laid back down.
" What were you doing Weasley? Writing a novel?" Draco asked as she groaned.
" No, actually I was writing about how much I hate you Malfoy" Tegan said as Draco just gave her his famous smirk.
" Wow I feel touched. You dedicated a whole journal page to me" Draco said as he heard Tegan groan and his smiler became a little bigger.
" Don't flatter yourself" Tegan said as she rolled over onto her side so her back was facing him.
" Going asleep again? This time don't scream so loud. Gave me a headache last night" Draco said not really wanting it to come out like that. He knew Tegan was pissed when he felt her pillow hit his head.
" You scummy bastard! You don't even know what I've been through and yet you ridicule me. I bet you if you were put in my shoes Malfoy. You'd be crying like a fucking baby!" Tegan yelled as she felt anger running through out her body. She could not stay in the room with this arrogant prick anymore longer. She got up from her bed and walked out the door slamming it. Draco felt his heart go cold for a second. He didnt mean what he said. As soon as the door slammed Warren had started crying and Draco groaned. He picked the baby up and held him close trying to comfort him. He bet the baby didnt feel as rejected as he did right about now.
* Song By Alex Band and Santana