AN: Hey once again there's a dream sequence so this mark ~ means the beggining and the end of the dream. Also. How are you guys enjoying it so far? R&R Please! ALso the song is by evanescence
Chapter 4
Fear makes you fragile darling
But hate makes you weak
Tegan stormed into the library not really knowing why she was there. She didnt need to take out a book or anything. But she knew exactly what she wanted to do. She wanted to cause some trouble. Make people feel how she felt right now. She could feel the anger boiling up inside her. She wanted to make people feel miserable too. Just like Draco did, just so she could get the happy feeling Draco obviously got when he hurt people. He had to get a happy feeling while making people miserable other wise she knew he wouldnt keep on doing it. Or maybe he just wanted to see the hurt in people's eyes and it made him feel good. She didnt understand what ran through Draco's mind but knew she would never sink down to his level. She couldn't even believe that she wanted to be like him. She sat down at one of the tables in the farthest corner. She looked around the library and noticed only a few other people there besides herself. For some reason she thought everything was going to go fine. Draco hadn't pissed her off all day until now. They were actually getting along. Tegan shook her head. No she would not let them get along. It was a sign of weakness that she wanted someone to lean on. She didnt need anyone to lean on. She leaned on herself and fought through anything on her own. She didnt need anyone now. Tegan laid her head down on the table and felt a few tears escape her eyes. She wiped them away quickly. God why was she crying. She hated when she cried. She knew Draco never cried. He was too cold too cry. She was surprise she saw a smirk come from him every once in a while. It seemed like he didnt even have feelings. She wanted that. She didnt want too have feelings so every time she went home she could face her mother. Tegan wouldnt hide from her mother in fear, she wouldnt cry once that fear took over. She needed to be like Draco. Stone cold so no one would ever figure her out. Maybe if she tried hard enough she would scare everyone away too while she was at it. Tegan felt a tap on her shoulder and turned her head quickly. She met a pair of concerned green eyes and looked away.
" What's wrong Tegan?" Harry asked as she felt a little shock run through her. But she didnt let Harry see that.
" Nothing. I'm just fine Harry. Don't need to be concerned about me" Tegan said even though she knew Harry could see through her. Harry Potter could see through anyone he wanted. That's how caring he was. She heard a chair being pulled out and watched as Harry sat down.
" What did Draco do to you?" Harry asked as she shook her head.
" He didnt do anything. I don't see why your so worried about me. You haven't ever worried before" Tegan said as she was about to get up and walk away when Harry grabbed her wrist so she couldn't.
" Look, I'm sorry none of us came up too you in the beggining. But we're concerned for you. We have been even if we haven't showed it. Now, tell me what did Draco do to make you so upset?" Harry asked.
" It's nothing I cant handle by myself Potter. I always handled it haven't I?" Tegan said as she pulled her wrist away from his grasp. She made her way towards the library door and saw Harry sitting there still. If he cared so much he would follow. Tegan walked out of the library and started to walk back towards the room. For some reason now she felt that her anger was calmed. She didnt understand it but maybe Harry helped her. Maybe she should of told Harry? There she went again with telling people about her past. She needed to get it into her mind that it was never going to happen. She found herself in front of the door to the room and stopped. Did she really want to go back in there and have to see him? She knew it wasn't Draco's fault he didnt understand but he didnt have too say what he did. She opened the door to the room quietly and walked into the room. She saw Draco laying on the bed while holding Warren against his chest. Tegan noticed his calmed breathing and knew that he had fallen asleep. She was about to move Warren from his chest when Draco's eyes fluttered open. His grey eyes mixed with hers and she saw a hint of anger and a hint of sadness. She broke away from his stare as she walked Warren over to his crib and put him in. She saw Draco sit up as she turned around. He opened his mouth to speak but she stopped him by putting her index finger to her lips. Draco just ignored her knowing he had to get out what he had to say.
" Weasley, Look. I'm sorry ok. What I said earlier I didnt mean. It wasn't even supposed to come out of my mouth" Draco said as Tegan just shrugged.
" Ok Malfoy" Tegan said simply as she grabbed a change of clothes from her dresser and walked into the bathroom. Draco couldn't believe that after thinking that over for so long that's all she had too say. As soon as she came out of the bathroom he continued talking.
" You were so mad earlier. Don't you wanna claw my eyes out or something?" Draco asked as Tegan just pulled down her bed covers.
" No that's Ok. Im not abusive" Tegan said simply as she got into her bed and for some reason the word abusive stayed with him.
" Good night Malfoy" Tegan said turning her light out.
" But I have to talk to you" Draco said wanting to make sure she understood. He hated when people were mad at him.
" Tomorrow Draco" She said without even noticing she had said his name. Draco noticed though and smiled to himself. Maybe they would be friends after all. Tegan closed her eyes and fell asleep instantly.
~ Tegan looked down into the kitchen sink and picked up another dirty dish. For some reason she didnt mind cleaning the dishes. She like to put a lot of soap in the water so she could pop the bubbles. She also liked how her hands that wrinkly feeling to them. It was a weird but fun feeling to her. She continued washing the dishes for a while until she heard her mother come through the door and slammed it. Tegan stopped instantly and looked to the door where her mother was standing. Tegan's hands started to shake with fear and she turned back to the sink continuing with the dishes so her mother wouldnt notice her shaking. She felt her mother stand behind her and was turned around so quickly the wet dish went flying from her hands. She was about to go to pick up the broken pieces when her mother pushed her back against the sink. She looked into her mothers eyes and noticed she had a ' gone' look to them. Tegan swallowed trying not to show her mother she was afraid but her mother knew. She could never get anything passed her mother. Tegan tried to get away from her mother's grip but her mother only gripped her shoulder harder. Tegan winced in pain knowing she would have a hand print there the next day. Her mother's long nails started to dig into her skin and Tegan felt tears come to her eyes.
" Mother stop it please!" Tegan begged but she could only feel her mothers nails dig deeper. Tegan pushed her mother away and watched as she fell to the floor. Tegan tried to run but her mother grabbed her ankle before she could get any where. Tegan fell forward and onto the pieces of glass plate. She felt the glass cut through the skin on her arms and face. She felt her mother put her foot on her back holding her down to the ground. Her mother pushed her forward so her face and arms would get cut on the glass even more. Tegan saw a puddle of blood slowly forming around her and tears fell down her cheeks. She hissed as one of her salty tears made its way into one of the cuts on her face.
" You said you wanted to understand what your father did to me Tegan! Now you understand. Every night I went through this for you! So you wouldnt get beat by him. It's your fault Tegan! Everything was fine until you came. I regret having you! I regret it!" Her mother screamed angrily as she walked out of the room leaving Tegan there to bleed.~
Tegan's eyes popped open as she looked around the room in fear. She felt tears fall slowly down her cheeks as she traced over the scar that was hidden on her face. She heard Draco stir in his sleep and tried to stop crying before he woke up. As soon as the light came on she knew she had woken him up.
" Weasley, what's wrong?" Draco asked as Tegan sat on her bed wiping away her tears quickly.
" Nothing Malfoy, just leave me alone ok?" Tegan said as she tried to stop crying.
" Did you have another nightmare?" Draco asked as Tegan only nodded.
" But it's nothing. Really I'm fine now" Tegan said turning around so Draco couldn't see she was still crying. Draco frowned to himself as he moved over to her bed and sat down behind her. He put his hand on her shoulder and she jumped slightly. She wanted to him to take his off hand but she didnt say nothing. She just sat there trying not to cry. Trying not to show how weak she was compared to him.
" I don't think just nothing would make you cry Tegan" Draco said. She felt a shiver run through her as he said her name and brushed his hand off.
" You wouldnt understand" She said quietly and Draco sighed.
" You haven't gave me a chance too" He said as he moved off the bed and got back into his own. She sat there for another second before turning off the light. She thought of how she was afraid of Draco's touch and how fragile she felt. If his hand was on her for another second she felt like she would just fall into him and let him know everything. She hated this feeling running inside her. Feeling so fragile she'd almost spill her guts out to an enemy. She suddenly felt tired as she thought of how her grandmother used to say that hating made you weak. Know she knew why it was true.
Chapter 4
Fear makes you fragile darling
But hate makes you weak
Tegan stormed into the library not really knowing why she was there. She didnt need to take out a book or anything. But she knew exactly what she wanted to do. She wanted to cause some trouble. Make people feel how she felt right now. She could feel the anger boiling up inside her. She wanted to make people feel miserable too. Just like Draco did, just so she could get the happy feeling Draco obviously got when he hurt people. He had to get a happy feeling while making people miserable other wise she knew he wouldnt keep on doing it. Or maybe he just wanted to see the hurt in people's eyes and it made him feel good. She didnt understand what ran through Draco's mind but knew she would never sink down to his level. She couldn't even believe that she wanted to be like him. She sat down at one of the tables in the farthest corner. She looked around the library and noticed only a few other people there besides herself. For some reason she thought everything was going to go fine. Draco hadn't pissed her off all day until now. They were actually getting along. Tegan shook her head. No she would not let them get along. It was a sign of weakness that she wanted someone to lean on. She didnt need anyone to lean on. She leaned on herself and fought through anything on her own. She didnt need anyone now. Tegan laid her head down on the table and felt a few tears escape her eyes. She wiped them away quickly. God why was she crying. She hated when she cried. She knew Draco never cried. He was too cold too cry. She was surprise she saw a smirk come from him every once in a while. It seemed like he didnt even have feelings. She wanted that. She didnt want too have feelings so every time she went home she could face her mother. Tegan wouldnt hide from her mother in fear, she wouldnt cry once that fear took over. She needed to be like Draco. Stone cold so no one would ever figure her out. Maybe if she tried hard enough she would scare everyone away too while she was at it. Tegan felt a tap on her shoulder and turned her head quickly. She met a pair of concerned green eyes and looked away.
" What's wrong Tegan?" Harry asked as she felt a little shock run through her. But she didnt let Harry see that.
" Nothing. I'm just fine Harry. Don't need to be concerned about me" Tegan said even though she knew Harry could see through her. Harry Potter could see through anyone he wanted. That's how caring he was. She heard a chair being pulled out and watched as Harry sat down.
" What did Draco do to you?" Harry asked as she shook her head.
" He didnt do anything. I don't see why your so worried about me. You haven't ever worried before" Tegan said as she was about to get up and walk away when Harry grabbed her wrist so she couldn't.
" Look, I'm sorry none of us came up too you in the beggining. But we're concerned for you. We have been even if we haven't showed it. Now, tell me what did Draco do to make you so upset?" Harry asked.
" It's nothing I cant handle by myself Potter. I always handled it haven't I?" Tegan said as she pulled her wrist away from his grasp. She made her way towards the library door and saw Harry sitting there still. If he cared so much he would follow. Tegan walked out of the library and started to walk back towards the room. For some reason now she felt that her anger was calmed. She didnt understand it but maybe Harry helped her. Maybe she should of told Harry? There she went again with telling people about her past. She needed to get it into her mind that it was never going to happen. She found herself in front of the door to the room and stopped. Did she really want to go back in there and have to see him? She knew it wasn't Draco's fault he didnt understand but he didnt have too say what he did. She opened the door to the room quietly and walked into the room. She saw Draco laying on the bed while holding Warren against his chest. Tegan noticed his calmed breathing and knew that he had fallen asleep. She was about to move Warren from his chest when Draco's eyes fluttered open. His grey eyes mixed with hers and she saw a hint of anger and a hint of sadness. She broke away from his stare as she walked Warren over to his crib and put him in. She saw Draco sit up as she turned around. He opened his mouth to speak but she stopped him by putting her index finger to her lips. Draco just ignored her knowing he had to get out what he had to say.
" Weasley, Look. I'm sorry ok. What I said earlier I didnt mean. It wasn't even supposed to come out of my mouth" Draco said as Tegan just shrugged.
" Ok Malfoy" Tegan said simply as she grabbed a change of clothes from her dresser and walked into the bathroom. Draco couldn't believe that after thinking that over for so long that's all she had too say. As soon as she came out of the bathroom he continued talking.
" You were so mad earlier. Don't you wanna claw my eyes out or something?" Draco asked as Tegan just pulled down her bed covers.
" No that's Ok. Im not abusive" Tegan said simply as she got into her bed and for some reason the word abusive stayed with him.
" Good night Malfoy" Tegan said turning her light out.
" But I have to talk to you" Draco said wanting to make sure she understood. He hated when people were mad at him.
" Tomorrow Draco" She said without even noticing she had said his name. Draco noticed though and smiled to himself. Maybe they would be friends after all. Tegan closed her eyes and fell asleep instantly.
~ Tegan looked down into the kitchen sink and picked up another dirty dish. For some reason she didnt mind cleaning the dishes. She like to put a lot of soap in the water so she could pop the bubbles. She also liked how her hands that wrinkly feeling to them. It was a weird but fun feeling to her. She continued washing the dishes for a while until she heard her mother come through the door and slammed it. Tegan stopped instantly and looked to the door where her mother was standing. Tegan's hands started to shake with fear and she turned back to the sink continuing with the dishes so her mother wouldnt notice her shaking. She felt her mother stand behind her and was turned around so quickly the wet dish went flying from her hands. She was about to go to pick up the broken pieces when her mother pushed her back against the sink. She looked into her mothers eyes and noticed she had a ' gone' look to them. Tegan swallowed trying not to show her mother she was afraid but her mother knew. She could never get anything passed her mother. Tegan tried to get away from her mother's grip but her mother only gripped her shoulder harder. Tegan winced in pain knowing she would have a hand print there the next day. Her mother's long nails started to dig into her skin and Tegan felt tears come to her eyes.
" Mother stop it please!" Tegan begged but she could only feel her mothers nails dig deeper. Tegan pushed her mother away and watched as she fell to the floor. Tegan tried to run but her mother grabbed her ankle before she could get any where. Tegan fell forward and onto the pieces of glass plate. She felt the glass cut through the skin on her arms and face. She felt her mother put her foot on her back holding her down to the ground. Her mother pushed her forward so her face and arms would get cut on the glass even more. Tegan saw a puddle of blood slowly forming around her and tears fell down her cheeks. She hissed as one of her salty tears made its way into one of the cuts on her face.
" You said you wanted to understand what your father did to me Tegan! Now you understand. Every night I went through this for you! So you wouldnt get beat by him. It's your fault Tegan! Everything was fine until you came. I regret having you! I regret it!" Her mother screamed angrily as she walked out of the room leaving Tegan there to bleed.~
Tegan's eyes popped open as she looked around the room in fear. She felt tears fall slowly down her cheeks as she traced over the scar that was hidden on her face. She heard Draco stir in his sleep and tried to stop crying before he woke up. As soon as the light came on she knew she had woken him up.
" Weasley, what's wrong?" Draco asked as Tegan sat on her bed wiping away her tears quickly.
" Nothing Malfoy, just leave me alone ok?" Tegan said as she tried to stop crying.
" Did you have another nightmare?" Draco asked as Tegan only nodded.
" But it's nothing. Really I'm fine now" Tegan said turning around so Draco couldn't see she was still crying. Draco frowned to himself as he moved over to her bed and sat down behind her. He put his hand on her shoulder and she jumped slightly. She wanted to him to take his off hand but she didnt say nothing. She just sat there trying not to cry. Trying not to show how weak she was compared to him.
" I don't think just nothing would make you cry Tegan" Draco said. She felt a shiver run through her as he said her name and brushed his hand off.
" You wouldnt understand" She said quietly and Draco sighed.
" You haven't gave me a chance too" He said as he moved off the bed and got back into his own. She sat there for another second before turning off the light. She thought of how she was afraid of Draco's touch and how fragile she felt. If his hand was on her for another second she felt like she would just fall into him and let him know everything. She hated this feeling running inside her. Feeling so fragile she'd almost spill her guts out to an enemy. She suddenly felt tired as she thought of how her grandmother used to say that hating made you weak. Know she knew why it was true.