A/N: This is a one-shot co-written by Insane Pineapple from Naboo. She's my most excellent beta, but she's gone beyond her duties and has guided my writing for this fic and embellished my ideas and paragraphs. Enough so to say it is co-written. I like to think of it in terms that I have provided the bones and she has provided the flesh. Thank you so much IP. I hope you readers enjoy our work.
Trin hadn't been troubled very often, but when she was, she always came to
him. Since Neo had walked into the picture, everything had fallen apart. Neo
was the One, everything she had always dreamed of. Why would she have any
reason to return to him?
"Thank you, Ghost."
He nodded, "Anytime."
He had started to build up the walls again, but she waltzed back into his
life again and threw away the safest barriers. Memories of time spent
together consumed him once more as Ghost recalled surviving the early years
in the Real Wold together, philosophical debates, and lost battles in the
dojo.
She had gotten to the point where she could beat him every time.
He loved a good fight, and she delivered it to him every lonesome night.
Ghost could put up with her good natured gloating; after all, egotism is
only a compensation for the absence of fame.
~*~
I'm so tired of being here,
suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave,
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
~*~
In the one moment of assured triumph, she left. The dam broke, and every
ounce of pain she had caused washed over him in a flood of torment. He tried
to push his emotions farther into denial, but the land of denial wouldn't
cater him any longer. It had almost worked, but everything had been spit
back into his rough face. In her one moment of triumph, he had lost himself.
~*~
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
and I've held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.
~*~
She couldn't know what she did to him. She slowly tore him up inside every
time she showed her face on deck ever morning. How could she do this to me?
He thought he was over her; guess he was wrong.
~*~
You used to captivate me
by your resonating light.
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams.
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me.
~*~
He'd met Trinity so long ago. Or so it seemed. It wasn't just her outer
beauty, but she had the brains of most ships combined. She was also a damn
good fighter. It wasn't the way her hair fell over her eyes at a certain
angle, or how the sun caught the mischievous glint in her reflective gaze.
He was thinking about her again, but it didn't matter anymore. They had once
said they'd always be there for one another. His being ached for her in more
than one way, but he knew his heart had already let her go.
~*~These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.
~*~
Fate was said to be cruel. Nobody knows it until they've been through it
all. Torture wasn't complete until she left him from her visits. He was a
pitstop while her true love waited for her. He felt the acceptance of her
silent betrayal and it sliced through him like hot needles. The bitter irony
of it was she didn't even know she had betrayed him. Not now, not ever. The
feelings lay buried deep inside him, and he would weep in solitude.
~*~
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears,
when you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,
and I've held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.
~*~
Schopenhaur, Nietzsche, Plato; all the pessimistic woman-hating
philosophers in the world couldn't convince him love was useless. Maybe
they'd never been in love....maybe they didn't know how it felt, day and
night, to be under the control of one single person. Love allowed Trinity to
dictate his every feeling; it was like being a puppet. Her every action
would jerk his heart around, causing no end of pain.
~*~
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along.
~*~
Every time she needed something, every time she was confused or lost, she'd
turned to him. He wasn't taken advantage of, he never even considered the
possibility. Instead he thought of himself as support, her refugee; but fate
would allow anything more and Ghost knew this. He accepted it, embraced it;
Amor fati'... he loved it.
~*~
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
and I've held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.
~*~
If all he could be was her brother, he'd be the best goddamn brother anyone
ever had.