A few days later and Diane and baby Grace were ready to go home. Alex
picked Dianes bag up from the bed and started out of the room. Diane stood
by the bed looking anxious.
DIANE: Alex what about.her
ALEX: You can carry Grace can't you honey?
Diane sighed and picked up the carrycot.
They walked out of the room to be met by Owen
OWEN: Going home then?
Alex smiled. He was so excited.
ALEX: Yeah. I've been waiting for this day for ages.
OWEN: I know the feeling. You'll be fine. Tired, but fine.
Owen and Alex laughed
DIANE: (muttering to herself under her breath) Great! Can't bl***y wait!
Diane was very quiet during the journey home and went to lie on the bed as soon as they got home. A tear rolled down her cheek as she thought about what was ahead of her. She was dreading the next day when Alex would be going into work and she would be left alone in the apartment with Grace all day. She wished so much that it was her that would be going to work instead of him. Things weren't how she had expected them to be. She had thought that things would be great once the baby had been born, but it wasn't. Not for her anyway. She had thought that she would be so happy and love her child so much. But she didn't. Alex seemed so natural with Grace. She could hear him playing with Grace in the next room, laughing and giggling. He was so happy and excited. Why couldn't she be feeling this way? She wanted to, but she just didn't feel it. 'I must be such an evil person ' she thought, 'what sort of mother would feel like this?' Another tear rolled down her face. She heard Alex coming towards the room, so quickly closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep. She couldn't tell him how she was feeling. She couldn't tell anyone. How could she? People would think she was such a horrible person and bad mother. Why wouldn't they, when it was what she thought herself. Alex came in and gently moved Dianes hair out of her face and kissed her on the forehead, before closing the door after him. She opened her eyes again and another tear fell from her eyes.
DIANE: Alex what about.her
ALEX: You can carry Grace can't you honey?
Diane sighed and picked up the carrycot.
They walked out of the room to be met by Owen
OWEN: Going home then?
Alex smiled. He was so excited.
ALEX: Yeah. I've been waiting for this day for ages.
OWEN: I know the feeling. You'll be fine. Tired, but fine.
Owen and Alex laughed
DIANE: (muttering to herself under her breath) Great! Can't bl***y wait!
Diane was very quiet during the journey home and went to lie on the bed as soon as they got home. A tear rolled down her cheek as she thought about what was ahead of her. She was dreading the next day when Alex would be going into work and she would be left alone in the apartment with Grace all day. She wished so much that it was her that would be going to work instead of him. Things weren't how she had expected them to be. She had thought that things would be great once the baby had been born, but it wasn't. Not for her anyway. She had thought that she would be so happy and love her child so much. But she didn't. Alex seemed so natural with Grace. She could hear him playing with Grace in the next room, laughing and giggling. He was so happy and excited. Why couldn't she be feeling this way? She wanted to, but she just didn't feel it. 'I must be such an evil person ' she thought, 'what sort of mother would feel like this?' Another tear rolled down her face. She heard Alex coming towards the room, so quickly closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep. She couldn't tell him how she was feeling. She couldn't tell anyone. How could she? People would think she was such a horrible person and bad mother. Why wouldn't they, when it was what she thought herself. Alex came in and gently moved Dianes hair out of her face and kissed her on the forehead, before closing the door after him. She opened her eyes again and another tear fell from her eyes.