A Lover's Destiny

Chapter 7- Coping with the Loss

It still hadn't really sunk in with Hiei or Hikari... somewhere in the back of their minds they knew the baby was dead but they only thought right now that somehow, the baby was okay and would be born healthy.

Yukina sank onto her bed. She laid with her hands behind her head. She knew it would happen...she knew that if she had stopped her, it never would have. But it was all over. She hoped that some day, they could have another.

It was late at night, and she decided she'd better get to bed. Kurama was thinking the same. He tossed and turned in his sleep. It was anything but blissful.

Hiei finally fell asleep but Hikari couldn't get to sleep.

Hikari just cuddled to Hiei closer. Very sad.

Yukina was having dreams...more like nightmares. She had tossed and turned during one where the baby was born but disappeared in Hikari's arms. And another one where the baby was born stillborn. That was all she had on her mind.

Hikari just cuddled to Hiei even closer. Hiei was having dreams... well nightmares... that Hikari had died along with the baby in the fight. Another nightmare was that when Hikari had had the child, Hikari had died and so did the child. Yet another was that Hikari hated Hiei for not stopping her from fighting and she blamed the whole thing on him.

He whimpered gently in his sleep.

*In the morning*

Yukina awoke from her sleep. She hadn't had a very good night.

Kurama hadn't had a very good night either and frankly he didn't feel like getting up.

Hikari hadn't slept all night. Hiei's whimpering had kept her up. Hiei woke up with a headache from not sleeping.

Yukina stepped out of bed and knocked on Hikari and Hiei's door.

Hikari sighed. "Come in" she said tiredly.

Yukina slipped in silently. She stood right next to Hikari.

"Did you sleep well?" she asked.

Hikari sighed. "I didn't sleep and Hiei was whimpering all night" Hikari murmured.

"Oh...is that what that noise was? I thought I heard something. I was up all night too." she admitted.

Hiei sighed. "I was having nightmares all night..."

"So was I." Yukina said.

Kurama's legs hurt and he had a major headache. He stood up tiredly and put on some better clothes.

Then he went downstairs to fix breakfast.

Even though he didn't feel like it.

Hiei held his head.

"I got a headache..." he mumbled. Hikari just looked away. "Hiei. How do you think I feel? I have a stomach ache, a headache, I can't think, I am ready to have a nervous breakdown AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF ME! BECAUSE I COULDN'T BLOCK ONE FREAKING PUNCH!" Hikari yelled and then slunk away from Hiei, hugging a pillow and the covers trying to get some comfort.

Yukina rubbed Hikari's back. "It's ok." she said. 'I thought we did this yesterday' Yukina thought.

Hikari just looked away. Tears in her eyes.

Hiei stroked Hikari's hair but Hikari fidgeted. Hiei pulled his hand away.

Yukina sat on the bed. "I know how you feel. It's like part of you was taken away. And you can never make it come back. But you cant mourn like this all your life." she said. Yukina always had good advice.

Hikari shrugged. "If I want to I can..." she said coldly.

"No." Yukina said. She was usually not this outward. But this was one thing she couldn't...just couldn't let Hikari do. "No you cant." she said bravely. "I...wont let you."

Hikari just looked away.

She was depressed.

Yukina was kind of mad that Hikari wouldn't talk to her. But she didn't blame her. "I'm going to eat breakfast now." she said and she left abruptly.

Hiei just glared at Hikari. "You were very rude Hikari..." he said. Hikari shrugged. "You're always rude..."

"So I don't see the problem" Hikari said.

Hiei just shook his head. He picked Hikari up in his arms and went to go eat breakfast.

Yukina and Kurama were in the kitchen. Yukina stood next to him. "Hikari is depressed." she said.

"I figured she would be." he replied.

Hiei went into the kitchen. Still holding Hikari.

Hikari looked really tired... and Hiei still had the bad headache so he was going to be easily aggravated.

Kurama went to the bathroom and grabbed some Tylenol out of the cabinet. "Would you like some medicine Hiei. I'm sure it'll help. You too Hikari?" he said offering it to them.

Hiei sighed. "Thanks" he went and took two Tylenol. Hiei tried to make Hikari take them and she mumbled "I don't deserve them..."

"I don't deserve anything right now..."

Yukina glared at her. Something she hadn't done in a long time. Usually her disposition was happy and made people feel better. But this time, not even that worked. She had to get it through Hikari's mind. It wasn't ALL her fault!

Hikari just looked at Yukina. Pain and sadness in her eyes

Yukina couldn't bear it anymore. She turned away then stood up and ran out the front door of the house. She didn't stop until she was far enough away from it all.

Hikari sighed. "Hiei... I'm sorry... I... should go talk to her" she got out of his grasp and ran to Yukina.

Yukina was on a bench at the park. She was crying. Birds were fluttering around her. They kept her company, just like they had done so many times before.

Hikari sat next to Yukina. "Yukina... I'm sorry..." which she truly was.

Yukina turned away and remained silent.

"Yukina... please believe me. This is just really hard for me."

Yukina turned to Hikari. Her face was stained with tears. "I know. But you wouldn't even listen...you acted like you hated me this morning." she said a single tear running down her cheek.

"Yukina... I could never hate you... it is just I have a really bad headache and when I don't sleep I am really very rude"

Yukina sniffed and rubbed her eyes. "Ok, that's all I needed to hear. It makes me sad to see you like this. Same with Hiei. You two are the closest to me. And Kuwabara...but I can't very well go talking to him about it. He wouldn't understand." she said.

Hikari nodded. "Anyways... he would say something stupid... he hates me and Hiei so... yea"

"Yeah, I know." she said. "But I still love him anyway."

"He's very sweet once you get to know him." Yukina said playing with one of the birds.

Hikari nodded. "Maybe. But he hated me the first time he met me because I like Hiei"

"I guess it comes with the package. " Yukina said smiling cutely.

Hikari chuckled.

"Yea"

Yukina stood up and a bird came to rest on her finger. She kissed it and it flew away. "I feel a little better now."

Hikari smiled. "I feel better also"

"Good." she said glowing.

Hikari stood and smiled.

"Lets go back now. I'm kinda hungry." she said.

Hikari nodded. "Yea so am I"

Yukina and Hikari walked together towards Kurama's house.

Hikari opened the door to Kurama's house. Hiei was sitting at the table now.

Yukina took a seat at the table and started helping herself to the eggs and bacon and english muffins.

Hikari sat next to Hiei. She ate a piece of bacon and an english muffin.

Yukina was happy Hikari was actually eating. She looked at Hiei. "Hiei. Did you already eat?" she asked curiously.

Hiei shook his head. "I'm not hungry"

Yukina shrugged and continued eating.

Hiei took a piece of bacon and ate it.

Yukina smiled cutely.

Hikari continued to eat. She finished, having eaten an english muffin and 4 pieces of bacon.

Yukina took one more bite. "I'm full now. That was really good. Kurama, where did you learn to cook like that?" she asked.

Kurama beamed. "My mother."

Hikari smiled. "It was very good. Thank you" she said happily.

She leaned into Hiei comfortably.

Yukina was overjoyed to see them happy again.

Hiei smiled softly.

He was so happy Hikari was happy.

Keiko and Yusuke knocked on the door of Kurama's house.

Kurama's mom heard it.

"Suiichi, get the door." she told him from her bedroom.

Hikari yawned.

Kurama went and answered the door.

He was surprised to see Yusuke and Keiko and he invited them in.

They looked like they hadn't gotten much sleep either.

Hikari was so tired right now.

"Hey, how are you guys doing.?" Yusuke asked. He was surprised to see Hikari and Hiei looked pretty happy, even if they were half asleep.

And Yukina, she looked really good compared to yesterday.

Hikari smiled softly. "Good I guess..." she said to Yusuke.

"Would you have any idea where Kazuma is?" Yukina asked him.

"Uh...probably at his house." he said.

"Oh..." Yukina had no idea where his house was.

Hiei sighed. "Yusuke... she has no idea where Kuwabara's house is..." Hikari mumbled tiredly.

"Oh, yeah...um...right down the road. It's the one with the banner on the front of the house that says 'YUKINA I LOVE YOU!' on it." he replied.

Yukina smiled. "It shouldn't be too hard to find then."

Hiei almost growled at Kuwabara's stupidity but stopped himself.

Yukina beamed at him then walked out the door to find Kuwabara.

Kuwabara was sitting on the porch of his house, thinking.

He got a headache from thinking and held his head. "HEADACHE!"

Yukina walked up to him. She smiled.

Kuwabara smiled. "Hello"

Yukina sat on the porch next to him. "So, what have you been doing all night.? You look really tired. It cant be because you stayed up all night can it?"

Kuwabara sighed. "I couldn't sleep. Even though I hate them... I feel really sorry for Hikari and Hiei"

Yukina nodded. "Yes. Me too. But don't. They're ok now. You'll see. I think they've finally settled it out, at least for the most part."

Kuwabara sighed. "Good"

Yukina leaned over and kissed Kuwabara.

Kuwabara kissed her also*

Hikari mumbled something to Hiei. Hiei grinned. "Sure... but aren't you too tired?" Hiei asked her. Hikari grinned. "Never too tired for that..." she said. Hiei kissed her.

Hiei broke the kiss. "Kurama... we are going to leave.... okay?"

Kurama nodded. "Go ahead. Have fun." he replied smiling.

Hiei left quickly. He ran deep into some woods where no one was. He ran into a cleaning in the woods. No one was around for miles.

Yukina broke the Kiss with Kuwabara. "I love you. Do you know that?" she asked him. Then she glanced at the banner and smiled.

Kuwabara smiled. "I love you too"

"Forever until the end of time"

Yukina beamed. "Forever till the end of time. And even after that." she said and she kissed him again.

He kissed her too.

Yukina broke the kiss again and they watched the clouds move across the sky.

Hikari woke up. She put her clothes back on as did Hiei.

She felt really weird...

Hikari ran over behind a bush and... got sick.

Yukina and Kuwabara had taken a walk around the park. They had been talking about everything from love to kittens...that one was Kuwabara's subject.

Hiei walked over and picked up Hikari. "I can smell it... this time you aren't fighting....." he told her. Hikari nodded.

Hiei walked out of the woods.

Hikari stayed in his arms.

Yusuke and Keiko stayed at Kurama's and chatted for the moment.