A Lover's Destiny
Chapter 21- Still learning
Hikari looked at Kurama. She was quite amazed he actually did that for her and Hiei. "Thanks. Thanks a lot..."
Kurama nodded.
Hiei smiled weakly.
Hikari looked at Hiei with a frown. She could really tell he was tired and weak; she didn't want him to be. Even though she was worse then he...
Kurama handed one of the books to Hikari.
Hikari looked through it, careful of Shuurin though.
Shuurin was really interested in the book for some reason, even though he had no idea what it was about.
Hikari chuckled, watching Shuurin. She read each page but had the book so if he wanted, he could see it.
He tried to pull out a page.
"Shuurin, stop!" she sighed. She mumbled "he can't hear me..." she grabbed his hand and took the page out of it.
Shuurin wasn't sure what he did wrong but he kept flailing his arms and trying to get to the book.
Hikari put the book on the table, out of his reach, with a sigh.
Shuurin sighed and pulled his hand away. He sat in her lap boredily.
She watched him with a sigh. She took his hand in hers and moved it slightly, trying to make him 'un-bored'. She would have to teach him Signlanguage soon.
He looked up at her with big eyes.
She looked at Hiei. "I think I should start trying to teach him to sign..." she said.
Hiei nodded. "Fine...but what do we start with?"
"I guess... Mom and Dad..." she said. She looked at Shuurin, pointed to herself, and then signed the sign for 'Mom'. She then moved and took Shuurin's hand and made him point to Hiei and then signed the sign for 'Dad'.
Shurin looked at her a little confused but he tried the sign for mommy. It was a little awkward at first because he didn't exactly realize what he was saying.
Hikari smiled. She redid the sign for mom.
And then took his hand, and made him point at her.
Shuurin realized what she was saying and did the sign again with his other hand.
Hikari smiled more.
Shuurin smiled at her then looked at Hiei with wide eyes.
Hikari did the sign for 'Dad' again and made Shuurin point at Hiei.
Shuurin looked back at her and did the sign.
She smiled.
Even Hiei smiled this time.
Kurama laughed. "Now we're getting somewhere."
Hiei grabbed another of the books and looked up the sign for 'Godfather'
Hikari already knew it but didn't know he was looking for it.
He found it and tried to sign it. It was a first for him so it took him a while. He glared at Hikari and Kurama. " Don't laugh." he said through clenched teeth.
Hikari watched Hiei. "You're trying to do the sign for Godfather aren't you?" she asked. She actually thought he was quite good for trying for a first time.
Hiei glared at the book again as if trying to burn it with his eyes.
Hikari chuckled softly. "Actually... you are quite good...."
Hiei looked at Kurama. "You're the Godfather..." he said as he signed the word and looked at Shuurin making sure he was paying attention. "Of our children..."
Hiei felt like an idiot.
Hikari smiled softly.
'I can't believe I'm doing this...grrrr' Hiei thought.
Hikari took Shuurin's hand and pointed to Kurama and looked at Hiei for him to do the sign again.
He didn't want to but he did anyway.
She smiled. She was really trying not to just scream 'If you want your child to talk then freaking learn and do the signs because he won't be able to actually talk to us unless he knows how to say certain freaking things!' which was hard since she got aggravated quite easily when she was tired. She looked at Shuurin with a sigh.
Hiei glared at the book again. 'I really wish it would burn...I wish this whole world would burn.'
He wanted to teach the sign to Shuurin. He really did but he thought he was bad at it.
Hikari sighed. She was getting really aggravated. She did the sign for godfather and pointed at Kurama.
The air around her was actually quite hot since she was starting to get mad. Not mad at Hiei or Shuurin or Kurama... just mad at herself mainly...
Shuurin looked up at her confused.
He realized the room was getting hotter.
She sighed. "Since he seems to be confused right now, I am going out back" she said as she got up and gave Shuurin to Hiei and walked outside.
Hiei sighed and looked at Shuurin.
Shuurin extended his arms. He wanted his mommy back.
He started signing 'Mommy' over and over again.
Hikari had her teeth clenched. She really hated herself for giving birth to a deaf child. She thought it was all her fault. She jumped into a tree, quite far from the house and sighed.
It was really hot around her. If you touched her though, she would be as cold as ice because she was both sad and angry at the same time.
And Hiei getting mad because he thought he couldn't sign very well made her think he was just mad at her. Tears fell down her face as she leaned against a tree branch.
Shuurin started to cry.
He couldn't hear himself so he cried louder and louder.
Hikari heard him cry and that just made her even sadder and angrier at the same time. 'Why doesn't Hiei comfort him?! Geez! Am I the only one that cares about him?! And why is he crying in the first place?! '
Hiei didn't know much about children. He handed Shuurin to Kurama.
Hikari sighed and hit her head repeatedly against the tree branch that she was leaning on, hoping it would somehow take away her problems but all it did was give her a terrible headache.
Shuurin looked up at Kurama and stopped crying.
Kurama smiled.
Hiei ran out the front door to find Hikari.
Hikari felt him coming and used what energy she had left to make a small barrier around her so he couldn't come within 5 feet of her.
She was really sad.
Hiei was 5 feet away from the tree and he kept pushing but something around it wouldn't let him go anymore.
"Hi-kar-i..." he muttered trying to get closer to the tree he knew she was in.
"Leave me alone" she muttered.
The barrier was draining her energy, and fast but she did all she could to keep it up.
Hiei kept pushing against the barrier. He was going to get through if it was the last thing he did.
The barrier was slowly getting weaker and retracting.
She didn't have the energy to keep it up.
Hiei broke through and almost hit his head on the base of the tree.
Hikari looked down at him weakly. The air still burning hot around her, yet her, as cold as ice.
Hiei sighed and climbed up in the tree next to her.
She turned very weakly away from him.
"Leave. Me. Alone." she said through clenched teeth.
Hiei shook his head. "I refuse to leave you Hikari."
"I don't see why not. It would just be my fault you left me anyways." she muttered.
Hiei put his arm around her. "No it wouldn't be. You've done nothing wrong."
"Everything is my fault! The reason why Shuurin is deaf! The reason why he was crying! And you know it!" she said as tears fell down her face.
She pushed him away from her.
She didn't think she deserved him.
Hiei almost fell off but he gained his balance again. "It's half my fault he's deaf."
"No it isn't. It's all mine."
Tears ran down her face. She was cold to the touch.
Hiei took her and put her into his lap anyway. He had gotten used to the cold from her being sick before. Nothing could be as cold as that.
She looked away from him.
Hiei put his head against her. "I'm not listening to you when you say it's all your fault. You know full well it's not. When we chose to get married we took that chance. There was no way we could have known."
She was whimpering. She actually fully believed it was all her fault.
She didn't look him in the eyes. She didn't even look at him. She thought she didn't even deserve him.
Hiei held her closer to him.
She was shaking slightly.
"T-This is all my fault..." she mumbled.
Hiei rubbed her arms.
Hikari seemed to calm down but not by much.
Hiei jumped out of the tree. "I won't bother you then. Just come inside when you're done."
She looked at him. "D-Don't... leave me..." she said. She didn't want to admit it but she was really hurt inside. And she didn't even know why.
Hiei sighed and turned around. "Come down here." he said as kindly as possible for Hiei.
She walked inside slowly.
Hiei brought her back into the kitchen.
Kurama was holding Shuurin in his arms still.
She sat down in a chair, still swaying just slightly.
Kurama smiled and used his other hand to give her one of the other Signlanguage books.
Shuurin flailed his arms happily.
Hikari smiled and looked through the book. Sighing. She really hated looking through all these books when she was about to drop from fatigue...
Hiei almost fell asleep on the spot but fought to keep his head up.
Hikari looked through the book. "Kurama, can I see Shuurin for a second?" she said, putting the book down for a second.
Kurama nodded and handed him to her kindly.
She took him in her arms, and did the sign for godfather again, since he never actually did it before, and took his hand and pointed at Kurama.
Shuurin knew Kurama was someone to be trusted and did the sign after watching Hikari do it a few times.
Hikari smiled.
She then thought about some other signs for him to learn.
Naturo had woken up and ran down the stairs into the kitchen and jumped into Hiei's lap.
Hiei was surprised to say the least but he just sat there.
Hikari smiled. She had an idea. She did the sign for brother, took one of Shuurin's small hands and pointed at Naturo.
Shuurin did the sign. He was learning rather quickly.
Hikari smiled more.
"When we go upstairs, we can teach Shuurin the sign for sister" she said with smile to Hiei.
Hiei nodded.
Haya rolled over in bed and noticed Shuurin wasn't with her. She began to whimper.
Hikari didn't hear Haya mainly because she was tired.
Hiei did. He set Naturo down on the floor and went to get her.
He stood up tiredly.
Kurama stopped him and pushed him back into the seat.
He went to get Haya instead.
Hikari blinked and yawned.
Kurama picked her up out of her crib and carried her down the stairs in his arms.
Naturo was currently looking at a Signlanguage book, trying to sign brother. Just for the heck of it.
Kurama stood by the table with Haya.
Haya reached her arm out to Shuurin.
Hikari smiled. She looked at Shuurin, did the sign for sister, took his hand and made him point at Haya.
Shuurin did the sign then he extended his arms to Haya. He wanted his sister.
Hikari got up and walked over and slowly, carefully, took Haya from Kurama's arms into her arms so the two could be next to each other.
Shuurin hugged her and Haya hugged him back with the utmost look of content.
Hikari smiled softly and sat back down. Swaying just slightly.
She watched Haya and Shuurin with a smile. She watched Naturo frankly try to sign mother, now that he knew how to sign brother and sister. She chuckled.
It was funny to watch.
Shuurin let go of Haya for a second and did the sign for 'sister' then he hugged her again.
Hikari smiled.
Haya looked at Hikari confusedly. To her, his signs just looked like he was moving his arms around. "S-shuurin..." she muttered with some difficulty.
Hikari looked at Haya. "Haya... he is doing signs..." she said, noticing she probably couldn't understand what she, Hikari, was saying, Hikari looked at Haya, did the sign for brother and took Haya's hand and pointed at Shuurin.
"Oh...s-s-signs..." she said still fairly confused.
Hikari chuckled softly.
"Haya..." as if talking to an adult, Hikari said "He can't hear... he talks through hand movements... or signs as we call them..." she said. She noticed she was sounding very stupid, talking to Haya like she was an adult.
Haya surprising enough understood.
"Shuurin c-can't hear?" she asked sweetly.
Hikari nodded.
Haya didn't seem too upset. She had noticed something wrong when her crying hadn't woke him the other night.
She smiled. Happy that it didn't upset Haya like it had upset her.
~*~*~Sorry if Hiei seems a bit OOC…I mean…how do you think he would act if he had to learn sign language? Well anyway. Thank you guys SO much for being such good reviewers. It's really up to you how often I get these posted because it depends on how many reviews I get on the chapters. Well anyway, ARIGATOU!~*~*~ Miyu