Disclaimer: I own neither the song nor the characters except for Jessie. S.
E. Hinton owns the characters and New Radicals owns the lyrics.
A/N: Hey y'all. Just saw The Outsiders the movie so I'm really depressed because I saw Dally die. So, I put on one of my favourite albums, Maybe You've Been Brainwashed Too by New Radicals and this song hit me as being perfect. So, here it is.
_too/i_dont_wanna_die_anymore/
And that's where I got the lyrics from so y'all can't sue me.
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Dally was lying in bed thinking about Jessie. He didn't want to like her, not at all. He had never been too keen on liking girls, but especially after Sylvia was two-timing him . . .
//Two months of fun//
//Two years of pain//
//Add it up//
//And get a life of rain//
What Dally needed was someone to talk to. No one in the gang would understand; they'd think he was going soft, which Dally didn't believe. He didn't want to go soft. If ya were hard, ya didn't get hurt. That's what he had thought, until Johnny died. Now he could feel himself crumbling apart. If he was gonna make it through this, he needed someone to talk to. Of course, there was the question of whether he wanted to make it through or not.
//Need to scream//
//But too ashamed//
Dally turned away from the chair where Jessie had been sitting and looked out the window. He could see storm clouds gathering and smirked. 'Typical,' he thought. 'A storm to match my mood.'
//It's gonna rain it's gonna rain//
Dally's thoughts turned back to Jessie. He knew that he wanted to go out with her, that wasn't the question. To some extent, the question wasn't whether she liked him or not either. He was pretty sure that she did. To tell the truth, he didn't really know what the question was. Except he did.
He didn't want to get hurt again.
Dally also was almost positive that he liked her. The thing was, Johnny just died, so he might just be looking for someone to hold onto. Johnny was the only thing that had kept him going, and he was gone now. For all he knew, his subconscious was trying to find someone to keep him alive. A primal instinct of some sort.
//You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna//
Dally sighed. Having nothing better to do because he was banished to his bed, he drifted off to sleep, still thinking about Jessie.
//You really blew my world//
About an hour later, Dally woke up. Immediately he knew something was different. Looking around, he didn't see anything.
"Two-Bit!" Dally hollered.
"Yeah?" Two-Bit replied, coming into the room.
"Is anything wrong?" Dally asked.
Two-Bit stared. "You actually care if something's wrong or not?"
Dally glared. "Yer big mouth's gonna get ya into trouble soon. Is anything wrong?"
"No, it's fine," Two-Bit replied.
Dally settled against his pillows again. "Are ya sure?"
"Well, Jessie's kinda upset, but other than that, yeah," Two-Bit said.
"What's wrong with her?" Dally asked.
Two-Bit rolled his eyes. "I ain't gonna tell ya."
Dally snorted. "That's a first."
"Aww, shut up. Ya need to figure it out for yerself," Two-Bit said and walked out.
Dally glared after him. How could he figure it out when he couldn't get out of bed? Then it occurred to him. Why Jessie was upset, what was different. Dally smiled to himself. When Jessie could out, she wouldn't be upset anymore.
//I wanna live and there's only one way//
//I don't wanna die anymore//
//I want to live it up//
//I don't want this high anymore//
Dally's heart suddenly dropped. He couldn't just stop being himself, and that's what he was asking. If he really wanted to pull himself together, he'd have to completely rebuild himself. Everything, from his mouth to his actions to the heater he kept in his pocket. Everything.
//But I can't give it up//
He stopped. All his hardness was to block everything out. Before his life had needed to be blocked out, he wasn't like this. Sure he was a Greaser, but not a Hood. More like Darry. Not exactly like him, of course. He still had a streak of mischief and rule breaking, but he wasn't hard the way he was now. He wasn't closed off to the world.
//I won't live a lie anymore//
Thinking about who made him this way, aside from himself, he could only come up with his dad. He had stayed with Dally even after he died. What he had done to him didn't leave easily, especially since he and his dad had been close. Then there was that one night, and since then he hadn't left Dally.
//I need to give you up//
Maybe that's why Dally needed to have someone close to him, someone who cared about him as well. He needed to be proven that note everyone was like his dad. But so far that wasn't working. The only people he had ever been close to had left him in one way or another. Sylvia had cheated on him and Johnny had died.
Jessie had cared. Jessie was the exception.
//Won't you save me//
When it came down to it, even though he didn't like it, Dally needed Jessie as much as he wanted her. He would never tell her; it would only make her go farther away than she already was. Nobody wanted a boyfriend who was needy and annoying. Dally didn't need anyone.
But then he remembered what it felt like when he woke up to Jessie's cool fingers resting on his forehead. Even that little thing had helped him. Everything about her helped him. He did need her, no denying it. But maybe he wouldn't always.
//Two months of sun//
//A life of rain//
//Add it up//
//I'm on my own again//
Dally suddenly realized what he was thinking. He did NOT need Jessie. He never would. He would never need anyone. Helping people didn't get you anywhere and neither did depending. All depending did was give you heart break. All Dally needed right now was a cigarette and a place to scream.
//Need to scream//
//I'm so filled with rage//
Doing exactly what he was told not to, Dally got out of bed and went to the window. His chest ached, but he ignored it. Dally opened the window and did scream. He did need to do that. And, strangely enough, he felt better. Dally felt something hit his head and he looked up. It was raining.
//It's gonna rain it's gonna rain//
Dally pulled his head back inside the room and closed the window. He went over to the bed and sat down again. His chest was on fire and he bent over double with pain. Not wanting to scream again, he grit his teeth against the pain. Eventually it went down enough for him to be able to sit up again and he did so.
"Are you ok?" a concerned voice asked from outside.
Dally sighed knowing who it was and not wanting to deal with Jessie yet. "I'm fine!" he yelled through the door. Yelling, however, causing his chest to hurt more and he let loose a long chain of swears.
Jessie opened the door. "You don't sound like it."
"I'm fine. Go away," dally whispered that being all he could manage.
"Not until I'm sure you're ok."
//You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna//
"Jessie, God. Yer only making it worse," Dally grumbled.
"What're ya talking about?! If it weren't for me, you'd be dead!" Jessie yelled.
//You really screwed my world//
"I wanna be dead! Get that through yer head!" Dally yelled. It was a lie, but Jessie didn't need to know that. Not yet at any rate.
//I gotta live but you stand in the way//
"No you don't!" Jessie screamed back.
Dally turned away and didn't say anything. If he did, he might say the truth and that couldn't happen.
//I'm pulling out now "uhh"//
Jessie sighed. "Dally, ya don't wanna die. Not yet. Just because Johnny died doesn't mean that you need to."
Dally still didn't say anything, refusing to admit out loud that she was right.
//I don't wanna die anymore//
//I want to live it up//
//I don't want this high anymore//
"Dally . . ." Jessie trailed off. She sighed. "You know I'm right."
"Well what if I don't want to give it up?" dally snapped, turning around to face Jessie.
//But I can't give it up//
Jessie stared at him and then smiled. "You want to. Dally, yer strong. You can do it. You can do anything ya set yer mind ta."
Dally snorted. "I can't bring Johnny back." 'I can't bring my dad back,' he added silently.
//I won't live a lie anymore//
//I need to give you up//
"No, but maybe you can bring yerself back," Jessie said softly.
Dally looked Jessie in the eyes. "I don't know."
//And "oh oh baby" did you think that I was strong?//
Jessie stared at him. "Of course you can."
//Well "oh oh honey" can't ya see that you were wrong?//
Dally shook his head mutely and went back to staring out the window and watching the rain.
Jessie sighed. "Dally, look at me."
Having nothing better to do and being slightly curious about how naïve Jessie could be, he faced her.
Jessie leaned forward until their faces were only a couple on inches apart. Looking into his eyes, she said softly, "Dally, ya can do anything ya want. Yer strong. Stronger than any of us, even me."
"Hard, not strong. There's a difference," Dally corrected quietly.
"Both," Jessie insisted, her gaze still not leaving his eyes.
'If I'm so strong, then why am I about to kiss ya?' Dally thought silently as he leaned into Jessie. He felt her doing the same and closed his eyes. Their lips soon met.
//"Oh oh baby" did you think that I was strong//
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Well, there it is. And for all those people who wanted me to hurry up with Dally and Jessie getting together, here it is. But this isn't the end, don't worry. And I hope ya like the song. ^^ By the way, REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A/N: Hey y'all. Just saw The Outsiders the movie so I'm really depressed because I saw Dally die. So, I put on one of my favourite albums, Maybe You've Been Brainwashed Too by New Radicals and this song hit me as being perfect. So, here it is.
_too/i_dont_wanna_die_anymore/
And that's where I got the lyrics from so y'all can't sue me.
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Dally was lying in bed thinking about Jessie. He didn't want to like her, not at all. He had never been too keen on liking girls, but especially after Sylvia was two-timing him . . .
//Two months of fun//
//Two years of pain//
//Add it up//
//And get a life of rain//
What Dally needed was someone to talk to. No one in the gang would understand; they'd think he was going soft, which Dally didn't believe. He didn't want to go soft. If ya were hard, ya didn't get hurt. That's what he had thought, until Johnny died. Now he could feel himself crumbling apart. If he was gonna make it through this, he needed someone to talk to. Of course, there was the question of whether he wanted to make it through or not.
//Need to scream//
//But too ashamed//
Dally turned away from the chair where Jessie had been sitting and looked out the window. He could see storm clouds gathering and smirked. 'Typical,' he thought. 'A storm to match my mood.'
//It's gonna rain it's gonna rain//
Dally's thoughts turned back to Jessie. He knew that he wanted to go out with her, that wasn't the question. To some extent, the question wasn't whether she liked him or not either. He was pretty sure that she did. To tell the truth, he didn't really know what the question was. Except he did.
He didn't want to get hurt again.
Dally also was almost positive that he liked her. The thing was, Johnny just died, so he might just be looking for someone to hold onto. Johnny was the only thing that had kept him going, and he was gone now. For all he knew, his subconscious was trying to find someone to keep him alive. A primal instinct of some sort.
//You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna//
Dally sighed. Having nothing better to do because he was banished to his bed, he drifted off to sleep, still thinking about Jessie.
//You really blew my world//
About an hour later, Dally woke up. Immediately he knew something was different. Looking around, he didn't see anything.
"Two-Bit!" Dally hollered.
"Yeah?" Two-Bit replied, coming into the room.
"Is anything wrong?" Dally asked.
Two-Bit stared. "You actually care if something's wrong or not?"
Dally glared. "Yer big mouth's gonna get ya into trouble soon. Is anything wrong?"
"No, it's fine," Two-Bit replied.
Dally settled against his pillows again. "Are ya sure?"
"Well, Jessie's kinda upset, but other than that, yeah," Two-Bit said.
"What's wrong with her?" Dally asked.
Two-Bit rolled his eyes. "I ain't gonna tell ya."
Dally snorted. "That's a first."
"Aww, shut up. Ya need to figure it out for yerself," Two-Bit said and walked out.
Dally glared after him. How could he figure it out when he couldn't get out of bed? Then it occurred to him. Why Jessie was upset, what was different. Dally smiled to himself. When Jessie could out, she wouldn't be upset anymore.
//I wanna live and there's only one way//
//I don't wanna die anymore//
//I want to live it up//
//I don't want this high anymore//
Dally's heart suddenly dropped. He couldn't just stop being himself, and that's what he was asking. If he really wanted to pull himself together, he'd have to completely rebuild himself. Everything, from his mouth to his actions to the heater he kept in his pocket. Everything.
//But I can't give it up//
He stopped. All his hardness was to block everything out. Before his life had needed to be blocked out, he wasn't like this. Sure he was a Greaser, but not a Hood. More like Darry. Not exactly like him, of course. He still had a streak of mischief and rule breaking, but he wasn't hard the way he was now. He wasn't closed off to the world.
//I won't live a lie anymore//
Thinking about who made him this way, aside from himself, he could only come up with his dad. He had stayed with Dally even after he died. What he had done to him didn't leave easily, especially since he and his dad had been close. Then there was that one night, and since then he hadn't left Dally.
//I need to give you up//
Maybe that's why Dally needed to have someone close to him, someone who cared about him as well. He needed to be proven that note everyone was like his dad. But so far that wasn't working. The only people he had ever been close to had left him in one way or another. Sylvia had cheated on him and Johnny had died.
Jessie had cared. Jessie was the exception.
//Won't you save me//
When it came down to it, even though he didn't like it, Dally needed Jessie as much as he wanted her. He would never tell her; it would only make her go farther away than she already was. Nobody wanted a boyfriend who was needy and annoying. Dally didn't need anyone.
But then he remembered what it felt like when he woke up to Jessie's cool fingers resting on his forehead. Even that little thing had helped him. Everything about her helped him. He did need her, no denying it. But maybe he wouldn't always.
//Two months of sun//
//A life of rain//
//Add it up//
//I'm on my own again//
Dally suddenly realized what he was thinking. He did NOT need Jessie. He never would. He would never need anyone. Helping people didn't get you anywhere and neither did depending. All depending did was give you heart break. All Dally needed right now was a cigarette and a place to scream.
//Need to scream//
//I'm so filled with rage//
Doing exactly what he was told not to, Dally got out of bed and went to the window. His chest ached, but he ignored it. Dally opened the window and did scream. He did need to do that. And, strangely enough, he felt better. Dally felt something hit his head and he looked up. It was raining.
//It's gonna rain it's gonna rain//
Dally pulled his head back inside the room and closed the window. He went over to the bed and sat down again. His chest was on fire and he bent over double with pain. Not wanting to scream again, he grit his teeth against the pain. Eventually it went down enough for him to be able to sit up again and he did so.
"Are you ok?" a concerned voice asked from outside.
Dally sighed knowing who it was and not wanting to deal with Jessie yet. "I'm fine!" he yelled through the door. Yelling, however, causing his chest to hurt more and he let loose a long chain of swears.
Jessie opened the door. "You don't sound like it."
"I'm fine. Go away," dally whispered that being all he could manage.
"Not until I'm sure you're ok."
//You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna//
"Jessie, God. Yer only making it worse," Dally grumbled.
"What're ya talking about?! If it weren't for me, you'd be dead!" Jessie yelled.
//You really screwed my world//
"I wanna be dead! Get that through yer head!" Dally yelled. It was a lie, but Jessie didn't need to know that. Not yet at any rate.
//I gotta live but you stand in the way//
"No you don't!" Jessie screamed back.
Dally turned away and didn't say anything. If he did, he might say the truth and that couldn't happen.
//I'm pulling out now "uhh"//
Jessie sighed. "Dally, ya don't wanna die. Not yet. Just because Johnny died doesn't mean that you need to."
Dally still didn't say anything, refusing to admit out loud that she was right.
//I don't wanna die anymore//
//I want to live it up//
//I don't want this high anymore//
"Dally . . ." Jessie trailed off. She sighed. "You know I'm right."
"Well what if I don't want to give it up?" dally snapped, turning around to face Jessie.
//But I can't give it up//
Jessie stared at him and then smiled. "You want to. Dally, yer strong. You can do it. You can do anything ya set yer mind ta."
Dally snorted. "I can't bring Johnny back." 'I can't bring my dad back,' he added silently.
//I won't live a lie anymore//
//I need to give you up//
"No, but maybe you can bring yerself back," Jessie said softly.
Dally looked Jessie in the eyes. "I don't know."
//And "oh oh baby" did you think that I was strong?//
Jessie stared at him. "Of course you can."
//Well "oh oh honey" can't ya see that you were wrong?//
Dally shook his head mutely and went back to staring out the window and watching the rain.
Jessie sighed. "Dally, look at me."
Having nothing better to do and being slightly curious about how naïve Jessie could be, he faced her.
Jessie leaned forward until their faces were only a couple on inches apart. Looking into his eyes, she said softly, "Dally, ya can do anything ya want. Yer strong. Stronger than any of us, even me."
"Hard, not strong. There's a difference," Dally corrected quietly.
"Both," Jessie insisted, her gaze still not leaving his eyes.
'If I'm so strong, then why am I about to kiss ya?' Dally thought silently as he leaned into Jessie. He felt her doing the same and closed his eyes. Their lips soon met.
//"Oh oh baby" did you think that I was strong//
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Well, there it is. And for all those people who wanted me to hurry up with Dally and Jessie getting together, here it is. But this isn't the end, don't worry. And I hope ya like the song. ^^ By the way, REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!