Disclaimer: I don't own 7th Heaven or any of the characters, believe me if I did I wouldn't be writing this, I'd be driving a Corvette in Beverly Hills.

Prologue

Kevin and Lucy have been married for a little over a year, they now have their own house about 15 minutes from the Camden's. Mary and Carlos had a daughter named Michelle and live in Buffalo. Simon is starting his second year at USC and Ruthie is a freshman in high school and the twins are in kindergarten. Matt and Sarah are still in med school. Roxanne and Chandler are engaged and planning to get married in a few months.

Lucy sat at the kitchen table, nervously drumming her fingers against the wood. Kevin was supposed to be home an hour ago and she was getting worried about him. Finally, just as she was about to call the station, Lucy heard the familiar creek of the front door.

Now that she knew Kevin was safe, anger overtook her. Quickly she walked into the living room.

"Hello Lucy," a menacing voice rang through the small house.

Lucy stared in horror at the man that had just entered her living room, something about him seemed vaguely familiar, but she couldn't place it.

"What do you want?" Lucy asked, her voice quivering.

"You."

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"What's wrong Kinkirk?"

"I can't find my cell and I wanted to call Lucy to tell her where we are."

Roxanne nodded, reaching for her pocket, "here use mine."

Kevin gratefully took the cell phone, quickly pushing the red power button.

"I think something's wrong with it," Kevin said, pushing the button for a second time.

The blond laughed, taking the phone from his hands, "Lucy hasn't taught you how to work a phone yet?"

Kevin glared back at her, as she too tried unsuccessfully to turn on the phone.

"I think I forgot to charge the battery." Roxanne said after she too pushed the button for a second time.

Kevin groaned, leaning back in his seat, "sometimes I wish I wasn't a cop."

Roxanne stared at him in surprise, "I thought this was your dream job."

"I wasn't married then."

Roxanne's laughter echoed through the car.

Kevin turned to glare at her for the second time that night, "I'm serious, I hate doing this to Lucy. She's all alone, and she doesn't know where I am, how would you feel if Chandler did that to you?"

Roxanne immediately stopped laughing, "you're right, I'm sorry."

Before Kevin had a chance to reply, Detective Michael's voice came through the speaker.

Roxanne and Kevin immediately turned to look at each other, usually the dispatcher gave them instructions.

"Kinkirk, I need you and Roxanne to come down to the hospital, forget about the stakeout."

"Why?" Kevin asked confused.

"Lucy was raped."

At the word Lucy, Kevin had turned on the car and by the time Dt. Michaels reached the word raped, Kevin was speeding down the street with wailing sirens.

The short ride to the hospital was silent, as neither knew what to say.

Kevin parked the car in the nearest space and ran into the hospital, closely followed by Roxanne. There he was immediately greeted by Eric and Annie.

"Thank God you're here," Annie exclaimed, pulling him into a tight embrace.

"Where's Lucy? Is she okay?" Kevin asked pulling away as guilt surged through his body.

Eric pointed to a nearby room, and before he could say a word, Kevin darted across the hall.

"Lucy, I'm so sorry," Kevin whispered as he stared into his wife's tearful eyes.

"It's okay," Lucy whispered back, "it's not your fault."

Kevin gently leaned over Lucy, intending to pull her close to him. Feeling his body loom over hers, brought back a rush of memories and Lucy immediately jumped back.

Kevin stared at her, completely bewildered as to why she didn't want him to touch her.

Lucy saw the pain in his eyes, and immediately more tears poured from her eyes, "please, Kevin, I don't want to be touched right now, not yet," she whimpered.

Kevin nodded and sat down in a chair next to her bed.

"Do you know who it was?" he asked after a moment of uncomfortable silence.

Lucy shook her head 'no', "he looked familiar, but I don't know who it was," she answered, still whispering.

"I'll find him."

Lucy only nodded in response.

After a few minutes, Kevin slowly reached his hand up to the bed, gently he placed a few fingers on Lucy's hand, never had she seemed so fragile, so much like a porcelain doll, like something that is meant to be kept atop a shelf, only looked at, never touched.

Feeling his touch, Lucy immediately jerked her hand away, "Kevin, please."

Kevin quickly pulled away, all he wanted at that moment was to hold her, to tell her that everything would be okay, and also to clobber whoever had done this, "I'm sorry," however, was all he could say.

Lucy turned to look at him, "Kevin, I need to be alone right now," Lucy stated, her voice displaying no emotion.

Kevin immediately began to protest, but the look in Lucy's eyes, told him that she wasn't going to change her mind.

Slowly he stood up, and walked out of the room, fighting off the urge to swoop her into his arms.

"You too huh?" Annie asked, as Kevin exited the room.

Kevin nodded remorsefully, just as Detective Michaels and Roxanne entered the small waiting room.

"How is she?" Detective Michaels asked, sitting down across from the family.

"How do you think she is?" Kevin shot back. "Sorry," he added quickly, "It's just.this is all my fault. I shouldn't have left her home alone. I should have called her, I should have."

"Kevin stop," Detective Michaels commanded, "blaming yourself won't help Lucy, what happened, happened, and now we have to figure out what to do."

Kevin nodded, still, he couldn't shake the feeling of guilt that was sweeping his body. "Does she know who did it?" Detective Michaels asked, the emotion gone from his voice.

All three shook their heads.