Utterly Jaded
I'm so tired living up to my father's desires. Have nothing to believe in anything anymore; ive become atheist. He expects so much of me, to uphold the Malfoy honor. But, has he ever thought of my feelings? Always lying to everyone with this fake persona. Always saying bad things, like how that Granger girl is a Mudblood, and making fun of Potter. Yes, I loathe him sometimes, and this hatred possesses me to mock him, hurt him, and his poor best friend Weasley. Part of it is etched into soul.Ha! I have no soul, not even a heart. Even if I did, it would be black as the darkest shades of the earth. I can't be pressured to follow in my father's footsteps any longer. I'll end up hurting everyone. But how can you hurt someone close, if no one is close to you? No. I'll be hurting myself. I don't care.
I feel so helpless, cut off from the rest of the world. I want to be myself, instead of living like my father. He's smothering me, wants to control my life. But I wont let him anymore, im failing as his son. I don't know what to do, and its killing me. I cant waste anymore time, I cant take it anymore. I bet he's coming on to these feelings, he's getting frustrated as I have been all my life. I feel numb. Im being enveloped in darkness, thrown into despair. Im pale, and cold everyday; nothing to be thankful for. Im sick of this, it all ends here. Its not like anyone will miss me, because no one cares. This is my destiny: to be alone, to be unloved, to be punished with an immortal curse. It has forced me to be my father. No, Lucius. He dosent deserve to be called my father. Im no son of his.im just Draco. No more of this, no more agonizing pain, no more blood inflicted upon myself. But no one wants me here. So this is my fate. This is what I have to do. I just hope someone up there, among all the great wizards and witches, likes me. I pass into the cold, dead silence, with a smile on my face. I can finally be free, finally be happy with my true self.
[Wrote this listening to Linkin Park's Numb. Think it gives an oppressed side to Draco Malfoy? Please review! Thanks for reading.]
I'm so tired living up to my father's desires. Have nothing to believe in anything anymore; ive become atheist. He expects so much of me, to uphold the Malfoy honor. But, has he ever thought of my feelings? Always lying to everyone with this fake persona. Always saying bad things, like how that Granger girl is a Mudblood, and making fun of Potter. Yes, I loathe him sometimes, and this hatred possesses me to mock him, hurt him, and his poor best friend Weasley. Part of it is etched into soul.Ha! I have no soul, not even a heart. Even if I did, it would be black as the darkest shades of the earth. I can't be pressured to follow in my father's footsteps any longer. I'll end up hurting everyone. But how can you hurt someone close, if no one is close to you? No. I'll be hurting myself. I don't care.
I feel so helpless, cut off from the rest of the world. I want to be myself, instead of living like my father. He's smothering me, wants to control my life. But I wont let him anymore, im failing as his son. I don't know what to do, and its killing me. I cant waste anymore time, I cant take it anymore. I bet he's coming on to these feelings, he's getting frustrated as I have been all my life. I feel numb. Im being enveloped in darkness, thrown into despair. Im pale, and cold everyday; nothing to be thankful for. Im sick of this, it all ends here. Its not like anyone will miss me, because no one cares. This is my destiny: to be alone, to be unloved, to be punished with an immortal curse. It has forced me to be my father. No, Lucius. He dosent deserve to be called my father. Im no son of his.im just Draco. No more of this, no more agonizing pain, no more blood inflicted upon myself. But no one wants me here. So this is my fate. This is what I have to do. I just hope someone up there, among all the great wizards and witches, likes me. I pass into the cold, dead silence, with a smile on my face. I can finally be free, finally be happy with my true self.
[Wrote this listening to Linkin Park's Numb. Think it gives an oppressed side to Draco Malfoy? Please review! Thanks for reading.]