Hey! This is it, the final chapter, the chapter to end all chapters! I just want to thank everybody for their reviews and hope you carry on to read some of my future fanfics, so thanks to everyone who has every reviewed whether it has been to compliment or to criticise as the criticism has helped me improve my work and bring in even more reviews! I would say individual thank yous to everyone but that's take forever, I might post up a chapter later to say final thank you's after I've had responses to this chapter. So even if you've read this and reviewed now and again, go back and review eveyry chapter!! Haha I'm joking, I can't believe I've had so many reviews and I've never even had to say "I won't continue until I've had so many reviews" 'cuz no offence to those who do that it really annoys me!
Well here's my ending, hope you like it!
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Bekks xxxx
Gordo carefully opened the envelope and pulled out a sheet of paper, he unfolded it and three $50 bills fell out onto the table. Puzzled, Gordo moved his eyes to the top of the page, he read the letter at least four times before it sunk in properly, Lizzie's voice pounding through his brain as he scanned over her neatly written words.
Dear Gordo,
Hi, it's me, Lizzie. It has taken me a week to write this letter; didn't you wonder why I kept offering to take out the trash? It was full of rough versions! I had to say this over a letter because I don't think I could bear to say it to your face.
First of all, I love you, I always have and always will, I admit it, I used Ethan to make you jealous and instead ended up being jealous myself. I can't even begin to imagine the pain I have caused you and knowing I have done so has made my life here unbearable. So I'm taking it all away from you, me and Becky are moving away, don't ask where or how, just trust me. Ha! That must sound so stupid, how could you possibly trust me after what we've been through in the last year? You have been the most loyal friend anyone could ever want and what did I do in return? Be a rubbish one back. But you still stuck behind me, through my whole pregnancy and after the birth; you gave me a house and got chucked out of your own. All for me, I didn't know how you did it Gordo, how you coped with everything. But then I saw you in your sleep, the mumbling, the groaning, I could see you were not coping, once again because of me. Worst of all I broke you and Miranda up, at first I was so pleased, I was glad that some of your life was going wrong and thought we could suffer together and relight some old flames. As soon as I thought this I felt guilty again, I was soon unable to look at you because every time I did I was filled with this lust, this passion towards you and then a horrible guilt because of these feelings. I didn't know what to do and the only thing I could think of was to chicken out, run away in the hope it will make things better, not for me but for you. I don't want you to worry about me, I've told Miranda where I'm going and what I've said in this letter, maybe if you ring her she may be think about being your girlfriend again, now that she's heard an explanation from me. I have also turned Larry in, I did it anonymously as I didn't want any more to do with it but they're looking out for him.
Before I go I just want to thank you for everything you've done. I know we made the 'we'll be there for each other no-matter-what-happens' promise, but I want to make a new one, promise me if I ever show up on your doorstep again, leave me there. I also want to thank you for convincing me to have Becky, now she is here I understand what you meant and now believe that it is possible to love someone you never thought you could.
So this is me, Lizzie McGuire, moving on!
Goodbye Gordo, I love you
Gordo sank onto the floor his eyes in a fixed gaze at the flickering television. The letter fell out of his hand and drifted down next to him. He let out a soft laugh to himself and buried his face in his hands. "Why can't anything be easy?"
The blinking answer machine caught his eye, not caring what else went wrong he smacked his hand down on the button and listened.
"Hey Gordo, it's me Miranda. I know I said I never wanted to speak to you again but that can't go on forever. Listen Lizzie told me everything and well yeah, we'll talk about that later. Anyway I just thought you'd like to know there's something on about you later, not giving too much away, just flick on to MTV at 5:00pm. So I'll see you around. I love you, bye."
Her voice crackled at the end as though on the brink of tears, Gordo checked his watch, it was 5 'o'clock. He switched the TV over and saw Miranda walking across the screen, swelling with pride Gordo watched her sit down at a centrally placed piano. She gazed down the camera with a nervous smile, as if looking directly at Gordo, who immediately felt nervous for her. She placed her hands on the keys as a small caption appeared at the bottom of the screen reading:
"Brand New Exclusive: Miranda Sanchez – Save Myself"
Gordo bit his nail anxiously as she started to sing.
Sometimes I wish that you could see
The way you look at me
If you only saw things through my eyes
Would you finally understand?
Or just like grains of sand
Would it slip right through our hands?
And time will keep moving on and on
I don't wanna lose you
But baby I might have to
It's all I really can do
To Save Myself
Is this what it's come to?
Deep inside we both knew
The day would come I'd have to
Save Myself
The love that lifts up
I've found can also way you down
If you could only hear my prayer
I've tried to fly without my wings
Why there's so many things
That were left up in the air
And time will keep moving on and on
I don't wanna lose you
But baby I might have to
It's all I really can do
To Save Myself
Is this what it's come to?
Deep inside we both knew
The day would come I'd have to
Save Myself
You reach a point in life
You have to decide
Between what you want
And what you need to survive
I don't wanna lose you
But baby I might have to
It's all I really can do
To Save Myself
Is this what it's come to?
Deep inside we both knew
The day would come I'd have to
Save Myself
Save Myself