Questioning life

why can't i tell people how i feel

i keep it from those i love,

from those i care for

i long to tell

to express myself

to tell why i am the way i am...

but i never get to it.

why can't i tell him

how i feel

i wish he knew

wish i never treated him the way i did

now things will never be right

i preteded i've moved on

but he really has

do my friends

ever think of me

do they try to include me

or am i just a 'school friend'

i wish they knew who i was

'cos i'm never the same person twice

and i don't think they know

doe's the guy

ever dream of me at night

doe's he ever call my name

or doe's he just not notice me anymore

i wonder if he knows

how i really feel now

and that i think of him all the time.....

do any of them know me?

doe's anyone really wonder about me...

or do they all feel the same?

'cos i'm not sure anymore

i feel for one,

yet i'm with another

and now i think i made the wrong choice...

but i can't change the decision i made

i can't feel guilty anymore

but i still feel stupid

i'm just hoping that everyone doesn't notice

but then, did they anyway?

oh well, i should start over from now

if i don't say anything, they won't know